Me: Long time no see!

Ali: Cassie's been slacking!

Me: It's been more than that, I've been super busy!

Ali: Yeah, if you guys are really interested in what she's been doing this past month and a half or so she'll explain at the bottom message.

Me: Yeah, I'm really sorry about being gone so long.

Ali: She's so lazy that on all of the other stories that she's updating she's using the same disclaimer.

Me: What can I say? I'm kinda lazy.

Ali: Kinda?

Me: Okay, really lazy.

Ali: But she isn't super lazy, she is a cross country runner!

Me: As of like 2 weeks ago.

Ali: That's when practice started.

Me: Enough about my personal life. Unless you do want to know about it, then read the bottom message.

Ali: And she can't update any of this until her power comes back on.

Me: BOTTOME MESSAGE!

Ali: She's not sure when it will be back on, it is currently Monday at about 7 pm and it's been off all day.

Me: Al, just do your stupid disclaiming thing.

Ali: Cassie only owns the plot, the O/C's and the aimless bantering.

Evangeline's POV

I slammed the door of my apartment closed and locked it. I leaned against it and slowly slid down. I can't believe I let him find out.

Through the door I heard him yelling. "Angie please! Open up! I just want to talk!"

I stood up and walked into my room. I turned on my stereo, maybe he'll go away when I don't answer. I picked up my laptop and turned it on. I took the flash drive from around my neck and plugged it in. I flipped through the pictures. Most of them from the first month him and I were dating. He's so different from Kendall, as in looks. But they seem a lot alike with their personalities. I thought he was sweet and kind, gentle and respectful. Not that being respectful is really a necessity, it just means they know people's limits.

Ashley's POV

I laid on the couch in the dark. I guess I'll be sleeping here for a while. It hurts to move, to think. Logan says I have a concussion. Woo hoo! Not really. Mama Knight had changed me into some fleece sweatpants and one of Logan's shirts so that it wasn't too tight. Somehow she doesn't know yet that Carlos and I are kind of dating, even though he looked like he was going to have a mental breakdown when he had to leave my side. Are we dating? I mean, we've only kissed a couple times and we held hands. He cried for me…but does that really mean anything? I don't know. Why is it that houses feel less like homes at night? Is it because there's no one to help you if something happens? I heard a click. My brown eyes darted to the door. It slowly opened and I let out the highest pitched girl scream I could manage.

Five people came sprinting out to the living room. Three attacked the person in the door way. The light flicked on and my eyes focused on James, Logan and Carlos pinning down Kendall.

"Uhm, sorry."

They all looked at me and Mama Knight brought Katie back to her room who was talking about how I need to go to a mental institution. The guys let Kendall up.

Kendall dusted himself off and wiped at his red eyes. "Angie wouldn't let me in."

James patted him on the back. "Dude, is that where you've been the past 2 hours?"

Kendall nodded. "I'm going to bed."

He walked to the hallway and James went to his room. I wonder what James does in there. Leaving Logan, Carlos and I.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have freaked out."

Logan smiled. "It's okay. Just get some sleep, you need it."

Logan followed Kendall and Carlos walked towards me. "Do you mind if I sleep out here with you?"

I shrugged. "It's not like I was going to get any sleep anyways."

He laid on the other couch so that his head was close to mine. "I'll keep you company."

I shifted the bright pink cast, not that you could see the color in the dark. "Carlos, he knew I told you."

"What?"

"He's been watching me. He knew I told you."

"Told me what?"

I stared into the dark. Could he even be in the apartment? Watching me from here? "Nevermind."

"Ashley, told me what?"

"Nothing."

"Ash-"

"I'm going to sleep."

He didn't speak again. I heard his breathing slow and deepen. Will I ever be able to go anywhere without the fear of him being there?

2 Weeks Later

I knocked on the door with my un-injured hand. "Angie it's me!"

I glanced beside me at Kendall. I hope this works.

The door opened and I saw Evangeline in sweatpants and an old t-shirt that I think said 'Myrtle Beach'.

She saw Kendall and swung the door. He caught it with his hand. "Evangeline stop. You've avoided me for 2 weeks. That's two too many."

I slipped away. I really don't want to be a part of this. I travel the halls. Left, right, right, left. Where am I? I open a door and am attacked by hot air. I look and see skyscrapers and lights lighting up the dark. Wow. I'm on the roof? I walk out and admire the scene. I lean against the ledge and look down at the street, the people looking like ants in the shadows of the buildings. I looked up and sighed at the sight of the stars. How long has it been since I just relaxed? I turned off my phone and laid on the rooftop. The stars twinkled and winked as if telling me a story.

Flashback

8 year old Logan and 7 year old me laid in the grass staring up into the night sky. We had snuck out through the roof to see the stars. Logan had a new bruise on his cheek that he said was from playing baseball with some of his friends. He never let me meet them, he said it was better if they didn't know me. I never quite understood, but Logan always knows what is right.

Logan pointed to a star brighter than the others. "That one is the north star. If you ever get lost just look for that star and follow it, it will lead you wherever you need to go."

"But how would it know where I needed to go?"

He laughed softly. "Because it magic, at least that's what Kendall's mom says."

"Logan, why do you always get bruises?"

"I'm just klutzy."

"What's klutzy?"

"It means that I get hurt a lot."

"Oh."

He glanced back at the house nervously.

"Logan?"

"Yes Ashley?"

"Why do we have to grow up?"

"Because if we never grow up, we'll be kids forever."

"Would that be a bad thing?"

"Yes."

"I don't think so."

"Why not?"

"Because if we never grew up, we'd always be the same. No one would change, people would be nice, we could just be happy."

"Nobody is happy forever."

"I don't believe you."

"You should."

"Logan, what do you want to be when you grow up?"

"I think I want to be a doctor. What do you want to be?"

"I want to be just like you."

He turned to me. "How so?"

I smiled at him. "I want to be brave, and funny, and smart. I want to be perfect."

End of Flashback

I sighed. "I'm none of those."

"None of what?"

I sat up and looked behind me. Logan was standing there. "Nothing."

He motioned to the sky. "May I join you?"

I nodded and laid back down.

He laid beside me. "So what are you doing up here?"

"I'm not sure, my feet led me here."

"I see."

I looked over at him. His brown eyes staring intently at the stars, his raven colored hair carefully spiked and his ironed sweater vest making him look especially nerdy.

He placed his hands between the back of his head and the concrete rooftop. "Do you remember when you were 7 and I was 8 and we snuck out to look at the stars?"

I smiled. "Yeah."

"I still think the stars are magic sometimes."

"Maybe they are."

He chuckled softly. "Maybe."

"Hey Logie?"

"Yes?"

"Why do we have to grow up?"

"Because if we didn't there would be small children running the world. That'd be like you and Carlos being rulers of the universe."

I smiled at the thought of Carlos and I sitting in golden chairs wearing expensive robes eating corndogs and demanding nap time. "That would be bad."

"Ash, what do you want to be when you grow up?"

"Just like you, Logan."

I heard him snort. "You'd be a terrible doctor."

I smiled and gazed at the north star. "I don't want to be a doctor. I want to be like you. As in the bravest and smartest person I know."

So at this point you probably want to know what's been going on in my life, or you just have nothing else to do. Well as a lot of you know, I live in northern New York, which was just hit by a hurricane. Not northern New York particularly but New York and a couple other states. We got super bad rain and wind where I live and TONS of trees were blown down and there's a lot of bad damage. The electricity and cable wires were taken down by trees in multiple places causing a power outage. But that's just why I haven't updated today. A couple weeks ago I was with my grandparent's house in Kentucky for 3 weeks where they don't have wireless internet. They DID have internet (thank god) and I could have used a flash drive and blah blah blah but like Ali pointed out, I'm lazy. Then after that I've been busy with funerals(one of my cousins died at 35 of a heart attack, I didn't know him but it's still sad), friends(who would have thought? I'm popular!), family(they may not like me much but I'm like a leech I'm just kind of stuck to them and suck out their important stuff), doctors appointments(on September 26 I'm getting surgery so that I can hear better, I have really bad hearing, I'm almost deaf in my right ear), cross country(a.k.a running and I have practice everyday from 5pm to 6 or 7pm except Sundays) and trying to keep my life from going into complete and utter chaos. Did I mention I've started talking to myself? Yeah, kinda weird. I'll admit it. Anyways, this was more of a diary entry than a bottom message as Ali and I call it. But if any of you want to hear more just PM me, I have plenty more to complain about. Please review!