am i the only 1 who disliked iparty with victorious bcuz other than tori the victorious cast barely interacted with the icarly cast?

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Jade POV

I woke up early the next morning with Beck's arm still draped around me, he was still asleep. I felt this sudden urge run through me to cut. It was weird, like I needed to do it or I'd die. I quickly got up and ran to Beck's bathroom and rummaged through my bag looking for my razor. When I found it I felt relieved. I picked it up and placed it on my wrist. I ran the razor across my wrist, once, twice, three times. On the fourth time I pressed a little to hard and went a little to deep. Instantly blood started pouring out of my wrist. Shit, shit, shit.

I quickly grabbed a towel and tried to stop the bleeding and at the same time I was trying to clean the bathroom. Then I heard a knock at the door.

"Jade." I heard Beck's voice say. "Jade, are you OK?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." I said quickly.

"Are you sure? You sound like you're in pain." Beck continued.

"Yes, I'm just putting make up on!" I snapped.

"Jade-"

"Stop asking so many questions!"

He stopped talking and when I finally got the bleeding to stop and the bathroom cleaned I quickly applied eyeliner.

"It took you that long to put on eyeliner." Beck laughed when I came out.

"It's a complicated process!" I shot back.

"Someone's irritable today."

"Beck..." I warned. He put his hands up in defense and headed to the bathroom to get dressed. I threw on a long sleeve shirt so nobody would notice my wrists, especially Beck. It would just cause problems. I was looking at my wrists when Beck came up behind me.

"Watcha looking at?" He asked all relaxed and nonchalantly. I turned around quickly and yanked my sleeves down.

"Nothing." I said quickly.

"Whats up with you today?"

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"You're all jumpy and nervous and kinda paranoid."

"No, I'm not."

"Whatever you say."

"Come on lets go."

"Changing the subject I see."

"Shut up..."

We got into Beck's car and drove to the school. I was excited because the cast list for a play really wanted to be in was going up today. I had tried out for the lead along with none other than Vega. I was determined to beat her this time. I had tried extra hard for this.

When we got to the school I sprinted out of Beck's car to see the list. There was a big crowd around the list.

"MOVE!" I screamed. Everyone moved out of the way for me. I ran up and...didn't get the part. Vega did again, and sure enough Beck was the male lead. Joy! I groaned and stormed off to the bathroom.

When I got there I looked in the mirror and kicked the sink. Why did I think I was going to get the part? I was worthless and untalented. I don't even know why I got my hopes up. Vega was prettier, smarter, and all around better. I was nothing. I reached into my bag and pulled out my razor and yanked it across my wrist like 12 times. I put my head in my hands and cried.

Then I heard the bathroom door slam.

Oh god no.

Someone had seen.

I stormed out of the bathroom and ran into Beck.

"Where were you?" He asked.

"The cast list." I mumbled.

"I know. It's OK, I personally thought you were better but-" He said

"You're just saying that because you're my boyfriend. She's prettier and better than me!" I cried.

"What? No, Jade I'm not just saying that and she's not prettier or better than you!" He said trying to make me feel better.

I just walked away, I didn't believe him. He caught up to me and put his arm around me. I felt horrible about myself and to make matters worse, someone knew about my cutting...problem.

The rest of the day Tori kept talking about how she was so perfect and couldn't wait work with Beck and she was going to do so good. She was like trying to steal him right from me. I couldn't take it! I was going to explode!

"I can't believe I got the role I mean its such an honor because you had to be like the best in the school to get the part!" She exclaimed at lunch. I was clenching my fist so tightly that it was turning white. Beck had to pretty much hold me down. "Hey, Beck do you want to go over lines after school. I'm gonna need help memorizing them because theres soooo many lines and its such a big part and we're in like sooooo many scenes together that-"

"Shut up!" I screamed. "No one cares about your stupid play!"

"Jade, I think you care considering you tried out for it, and went to go c-" She started. Then it clicked she was the one who knew. I cut her off before she could finish so no one would know.

"Shut up!" I yelled. She smirked at me. Beck gave me this look and I just got up and left. Everything seemed to be crashing down around me.

Beck POV

I went to go follow Jade. She was extremely angry. I got up and ran after her but Tori caught up to me.

"Hey, Beck!" She yelled.

"What?" I yelled angrily. "Don't you think that was kind of mean?"

"I just thought I should tell you that you might want to pay attention to your girlfriend more." She smirked.

"What?" I asked confused.

"You're girlfriend's gotten into a bad, dangerous habit lately."

"What do you mean?"

"You'll see."

Now I was confused. What could Jade be doing? Did Tori know about her dad? No, she couldn't. I found Jade in the janitor's closet. I was about to go in when I noticed her sitting there. She had something in her hands.

Oh no.

I couldn't just barge in and yell at her I had to do this right. I waited for the end of the day, I met up with her by my car and drove her back to my house.

"Jade, you know I love you right and I think you're the most talented and amazing person ever. You're the best thing that's ever happened." I told her.

"Sure." She said with no emotion.

"Jade, its just one play its OK."

"I know."

"You're an amazing singer and actress."

"Then why haven't I gotten a lead since Vega arrived?"

"Because-"

"Because she's pretty and skinny and better than me. She's not a creep like me and-"

"Jade you're right. You're not pretty, you're gorgeous. And she's not skinny, she's anorexic, and you're perfect. You're not a creep, you're different and special and amazing." She looked at me and I pulled her closer to me and kissed her. We pulled away and got out of the car and went into my RV and then continued where we left off. I pushed her against the wall and I moved my hands up her waist and kept going up until I got to her shoulders. Then I went down her arms and stopped at her wrists. I felt the scars and cuts. It made me scared. I stopped moving my hands and pulled away. Jade looked at me. There was shock and nervousness on her face.

"Jade, is there something you want to tell me?" I asked.