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Beck POV

What now? I thought to myself as I lay beside Jade. I don't know how long we laid like this, all I knew was that it was morning. Jade had fallen asleep, but I couldn't. I kept my arms rapped tightly around her waist. Why? I just didn't get it. When I saw her I saw the most beautiful thing in the world. The best thing that's ever happened to me. But she didn't. I thought she was amazing, smart, gorgeous, talented, and just...perfect. How could she not see that? And her parents, her idiot parents! Why would they do that! I just wanted t kill them for causing all this, causing her pain and all this torture. Everything was a mess because of them! I hoped they died! And me, how could I be so clueless? How could I not notice the pain? Why wasn't I talking to the police right now? Everything just made hate everyone. I love her and think she's wonderful, she deserves better.

And, Tori. To make matters worse, Tori, the one person Jade hates knows. Tori could ruin her life. I mean, Jade's so screwed up right now that this is the last thing she needs. She's gonna tell everyone, I just know it. And how do I handle this? If I take away all her sharp things she'll feel the need to rebel. She'll think I'm taking away her freedom. This is so hard. I was so stressed. I looked down at her, she looked so innocent the way she slept. She was far from that. I guess the only thing I can do, is take it easy. I need to trust her. Maybe just being with her, loving her, and helping her come back to reality would make this go away. I know its gonna be hard. Once you start these things you can't stop. I heard people become addicted to this.I hoped she wouldn't or hadn't.

I leaned down and kissed the side of her head. She moaned lightly, still half asleep. I tightened my grip on her and brought her closer to me. She looked up at me and put her arm's around my neck.

"Hey." I whispered.

"Hi." She smiled. I leaned down and kissed her which grew until we were making out. We would have continued but we were interrupted by my phone ringing. Jade groaned as I pulled away. I put my hand on her shoulder and picked up my phone. She leaned against me and rested her head on my shoulder. I slid my free arm so that it was around her waste.

"Hello." I said.

"Hey, Beck." Came Tori's overly happy voice. Jade shot me a look that said hang up the phone now!

"Yes." I said slightly irritated.

"I was wondering if you still wanted to go over lines?" She asked all innocently.

"Uhhhh...I don't think I can today." I said looking at Jade.

"Oh, you and Jade need to work out her 'issues'?"

"Uhhhh?"

"Don't worry, I totally get it."

"What? Tori no!"

"I should probably let you go! Bye!" And with that she hung up.

Jade had pushed away from me. She was staring at the ground and had this really depressed look on her face. I was so angry at Tori. She had no right to say that. I rapped my arms around Jade.

"My life is over." Jade mumbled.

"Why?"

"She's going to tell everyone."

"No, she's not."

"Why not?"

"Because if she does I'll never speak to her again and I'll kill her." I joked.

"Call her back."

"Why?"

"You're going to run lines with her."

"Why?"

"Because I'm not going to let her win again and be stronger than me. I can handle myself. I'm not going to give her the enjoyment of seeing me fail and lose like usual."

Jade POV

Beck had been at Tori's for like an hour. Now, I was just laying in his RV. I didn't want Tori to win but as soon as he left I felt horrible. I felt like he chose her over me which doesn't make sense because I just told him to go to her. He would've stayed with me. I still hated myself.

My phone bleeped, I had gotten a text from Tori and my dad.

Oh dear, I debated which one to read first. I knew I'd hate both. I opened the one from Tori.

From: Vega, The Girl Who Tried To Steal Beck: Hey, just chilling with your smoking hot BF. Gonna run the kissing scene next. How's your cutting problem? Burst any veins yet?

I was ready to kill her. I stood up and screamed. I threw my phone at the ground. And nocked over Beck's fish tank (that had no fish in it) and watched it shatter. I thought about forwarding the text to Beck but he wouldn't believe me. It would just cause problems. Besides, Beck loved me. Right?

I picked up my phone and read the text from my dad.

From: Dad: Where are u, u worthless little slut? When u get home ur dead...

I lost it. No one loved me. I couldn't take it. I didn't even believe Beck anymore. I broke down crying and looked for my razor. When I found it I ran to Beck's bathroom.

One cut for losing Beck.

One cut for losing to Tori.

One cut for having no one.

One cut for thinking I was loved.

One cut for even trying out for the lead.

And the list went on and on.

As soon as I was done I regretted it but I couldn't take it back. I laid on Beck's bed and cried my eyes out.

When Beck came home he ran over to me.

"Jade, what's going on?" He asked all concerned and nervous. I just sobbed into the pillow. "Jade, you're scaring me! Jade!" I lifted my arms up so he could see my cuts.

"I'm sorry." I choked out. "I can't stop. I let you down. I hate myself."

He hugged me and I cried into his chest for another hour.

He took away all my sharp things.

Except for one pair of scissors I managed to save.