So ummmm IDK what to say, i took my last final 2day so yay!

Disclaimer: I have disclaimed Victorious and the characters from my possession.

Jade POV

Stupid, stupid, stupid! How could I be so stupid? He didn't love me, why would I think he did? I'm just a worthless, ugly, emo, weak person that he was to kind to leave. I hated myself! I'm so stupid and everything about me is just BAD! I don't blame Beck I mean I'm surprised he stayed with me this long.

Tears poured down my face as I ran through the hallways. Everything was blurry and moved in slow motion. I could either sprint home or beg Cat for a ride. If I asked Cat there would be questions but if I tried running home, Beck would catch up with me. I put my acting skills to the test wiped my tears away and ran up to Cat.

"Hey, Cat can I have a ride home?" I asked desperately.

"Jade, what's wrong?" Cat asked concerned.

"Nothing, I just got paint in my eyes. Can I have a ride home?" I begged.

"KK!" Cat cried happily.

The whole ride Cat talked about stuff but I tuned her out. I could only focus on one thing. Beck. Why? Why was I so stupid? Why did Beck even bother to pretend? Why was there never anything happy in my life? Why couldn't anyone love me?

I hated everything. Beck, Tori, my parents, life, but most of all myself.

When I got to my house I threw my backpack down onto the ground and dug through it until I found the one pair of scissors I managed to keep. I yanked it out, craving pain.

Not thinking, I quickly and forcefully dragged it across my wrist.

Oh shit.

Too deep.

Way too deep.

Blood gushed out of my now sliced open vein. I ran to my kitchen and put a towel to it but it was no use.

I became weak, cold, and thirsty. I fell down seeing spots. I heard someone screaming my name...

Beck POV

Oh my god, oh my god!

"Tori, what was that?" I screamed.

"B-Beck..." She stuttered. Oh no, this was not good. I kicked the chair.

"Do you have any idea what you just did?" I screamed even louder.

"It'll be fine you just need to talk to her." Tori said, but it sounded more like a question then a statement.

"You know about her issue, what do you think she's going to go do?" I yelled trying to not wring her neck.

"Oh, I did not think this through." Tori said biting her lip.

"Uh yeah, no chiz." I said rolling my eyes.

"Well, we have to go stop her!" Tori cried. We ran through the hallways but couldn't find Jade.

"She's probably walking to my RV! I took all her sharp things and put them in a box there!" I said impatiently.

"Good idea, let's go!" Tori responded. We ran to my truck got in and started driving looking for Jade. My heart was racing. Just when she's starting to get better this had to happen. I gripped the steering wheel so hard my knuckles turned white. Tori was staring out the window looking for Jade on the road. When we got to my RV I sprinted in.

"Jade, Jade!" I cried. She wasn't here. "She's not here, she's not here!" I panicked. I ran over to the box with the razors, knives, and scissors.

"Well?" Tori asked nervously.

"They're all here." I stammered.

"You don't think..." Tori trailed off.

"No." I said getting the same idea. Jade wouldn't. She wouldn't go behind my back and keep something sharp. Right? Who am I kidding, this is Jade we're talking about. I ran back outside with Tori right behind me. We got into my truck and drove to Jade's house. I was getting more nervous with every second. We got to Jade's house and sprinted inside.

"Jade, Jade!" I screamed. I ran into her kitchen.

There she was.

Surrounded in blood.

Oh god, please no.

Tori let out a horrified scream. I ran over to Jade and picked her up. She was gushing blood from her wrist and only half awake.

"Beck..." She mumbled.

"Come on, Tori! We have to get to the hospital!" I screamed panicking.

"I'll drive!" Tori called trying to not throw up. Tori climbed into the drivers seat and I got into the back with Jade on my lap. A million thoughts raced through my mind. This was all my fault...and Tori's. I shouldn't have been so strict with her, I should've known she was going to rebel. She's going to die! Oh my god, Tori and I killed her!

"Beck..." Jade mumbled. I looked down at her. She looked so pail and was covered in blood.

"It's going to be OK, just stay with me, Jade." I choked out nervously.

"I'm thirsty and cold..." She groaned.

"Don't worry. You'll be warm soon." I urged holding her closer to me.

"Are you mad at me?" She whispered, almost unconscious.

"No, no sweetie. You never did anything wrong. I'm not mad at you." I said trying to not burst out crying.

"I lied to you..." She said even quieter.

"It's not your fault. You're going to be OK." I pleaded.

"Beck, there's something I need to tell you." She said so quietly I could barely hear her.

"What is it? Tell me, babe." I encouraged her.

"Beck, I..." She mumbled but then she blacked out. I felt her go limp in my arms.

"Tori drive faster! We're losing her!" I screamed, I was now all out flipping out.

Jade POV

The voice calling my name was Beck's. He saw me and looked scared. What if he doesn't help me? He came up to me and picked me up. Vega was here too, oh joy. Beck held me close to him as we got into his car. I was lying on his lap. I was so thirsty and cold and tired. I saw spots everywhere. I couldn't really hear Beck and I didn't know what was going on. Oh right, I was bleeding. Oh yeah, I went behind Beck's back by keeping the scissor. I tried talking to him. He told me I was going to be fine. Yay! Beck doesn't lie. I laughed a little. Everything seemed funny to me. I don't know why. I need to tell Beck something. I should apologize and tell him I love him. I try opening my mouth but then I loose everything. I feel the world slip away and I see nothing but black.