Jade is alive! yay! anyways how many of u caught the whole 143 thing?

Disclaimer: If I did there would be so many more Bade episodes and Tori would be hit by a bus and yeah.

I can't decide which POV to start with so I'm gonna do both slanted is Jade underlined is Beck.

I looked down at all the tubes connected to my wrist. I screwed up big time. Beck is gonna be so mad at me. I lied to him. He trusted me and I just threw it away!

I walked down nervously to her room. I was feeling so many emotions. Love, sorrow, anger, betrayal, joy, fear, relief, and the list goes on and on. I was so happy that Jade was OK, but how could she lie to me like that? I came up to her room. I walked in nervously.

He came in and I didn't know what to do. His face had so many emotions on it love, sorrow, anger, betrayal, joy, fear, relief, and the list goes on and on. I didn't know what to do. I loved him, I waited for him to start yelling at me.

She had so many wires and tubes hooked up to her wrist. She looked so sad and scared. She probably knew I'd be hurt by what she did.

This was so awkward. (Ha Ha its both!)

"Hi." I whispered trying to get some response out of him.

"Hey." I said coldly. I loved her but that's why I was acting like this, she scared me so much and I've been panicking for the past hours terrified I'd never see her again.

"I'm sorry." I said, I really was. These past hours have probably been hell for him. He gets worried about me really easily and he probably lost it.

"Yeah." I said. Sorry? That was it. This was all my fault and probably the worst and most stressful day for me and that's all she can see.

"Look, I know what you're thinking-" I started. I mean I lied to him and hurt him. But, he cut me off before I could finish.

"No, you don't! I've been freaking out! I thought I lost you! Do you know what its like to come home and see the person you love covered in blood half dead?" I yelled. She didn't get it. I had been dying inside and she was just acting like it wasn't her fault.

"I'm sorry! I couldn't take it!" I yelled back. He knew I felt bad, why was he making me feel worse?

"You went behind my back! How could you do that? I can't trust you anymore!" I yelled back. I just felt so betrayed and lied to and stupid.

"I was going through a lot! You didn't exactly help by kissing Vega! Care to explain that by the way?" I screamed back. I was so tired and scared and he was not helping. And what about the fact that I saw him making out with Vega! How does he plan to defend himself about that!

"She kissed me! I would never do that to you! I love you too much!" I yelled back, would she ever trust me?

"You love me? If you loved me you wouldn't be making this even harder on me!" I screamed, now crying. "I'm sorry, but I'm just so scared and right now I just need you to hug me and tell me it's gonna be OK and instead you're yelling at me! I know I screwed up and I'm sorry!" Why couldn't he just understand me?

Now I felt bad. I sat down next to her and rapped my arms around her. I thought by blaming this on Jade I would feel less guilty but instead it was just making me feel worse. "Shhhhh, I'm sorry. It's gonna be OK. I'm just taking my anger out on you. This is my fault. I was way to strict on you and it made you feel like you needed to rebel. I just thought I could do this and I can't."

"It's not your fault. You tried being easy on me and I couldn't handle the responsibility. Plus, you were taking care of me great and Tori recked it." I told him. We both needed to be reassured.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

"I thought I lost you."

"I'm not going anywhere, except with you."

I leaned in and kissed her but we were interrupted by a knock at the door.

"Jadelyn West," Came a voice "You're mother is here to see you."