Okay here's what happened between Rachel and Quinn for those of you that asked for it, I am really sorry for how late this is but I was going through so much pain of my own and writing just wasn't one of my priorities but I am back and for those of you that didn't know I have already posted an other version of the sequel to vow of silence it is called second chances and the girls are tighter hope you enjoy it. Read and review and let me know what you think of this chapter. Enjoy.

Flash back

It was Rachel's second year at Julliard and she yet to be cast in one show, she would always get rejected for any role and that led to her take her anger out on her girlfriend, she would yell and shout at Quinn continuously until she felt contempt, just like today she had just been rejected and as she got home to find Quinn in the kitchen making dinner for the two.

"Hey baby, how was your day." Quinn said as she walked up to the diva to give her afternoon kiss.

"Absolutely shit." Rachel said as she just turned away from Quinn refusing to kiss her like she did most days, it hurt Quinn in so many ways but the blonde never showed it and moments like this she wished the Rachel that she had fallen in love with in high school would show up and smile away her troubles and not start what she was about to.

"What's for dinner?" Rachel asked.

"Vegetable stir fry." Quinn answered and instantly knew that it was wrong answer because she saw Rachel evolving into angry.

"What the hell Quinn we had stir fry last week, why can't we just have something nice for once." Rachel said angrily.

"Rachel we haven't had stir fry in over a month." Quinn said timidly knowing that she was awaking her sleeping wrath.

"Are you calling me a liar?" Rachel half yelled.

"No but... we didn't have it though." Quinn said timidly looking down.

"You are either calling me a liar because there is no way that both things you just said are true." Rachel yelled at the blonde who was still looking at the floor.

"I didn't mean it like that." Quinn answered again hoping that the diva would calm down and not to anger her any more.

"How did you mean it then?" she questioned stalking up to the blonde and looking up at her daring her to speak again. Quinn didn't say a word and Rachel just screamed in frustration and just stormed out of the room and walked straight upstairs to get dressed when she got down Quinn was waiting at the bottom of the stairs waiting for her.

At days like these (which were becoming more or less every day even though the blonde would never admit) Rachel would just go out and drink twice her body weight in alcohol and come home and wake Quinn and pretty much force her to have sex before puking the contents of her stomach out and then collapsing in be, whilst Quinn changed Rachel's clothes and cleaned the bathroom before getting into bed herself.

The morning Quinn would be the first to wake up she would shower and get ready for her classes before waking the diva and then going down to cook some breakfast for the two of them and once breakfast was consumed and Quinn had cleared the dishes she would head out to her classes for the day and come home a bout an hour before Rachel and start on dinner having it ready and on the table just as Rachel got home.

At times the blonde would wonder of what had her life become because it seemed to revolve around the diva and her diva tantrums at times she would think of leaving the diva as times Rachel's words would become so vicious that when Quinn was on her own she would spend the whole time crying, but she could never leave Rachel because her baby girl died so that Quinn could have Rachel's love so if she was to ever leave the diva her daughter would have died in vain and that was something that Quinn couldn't live with because at this moment in time Quinn only had Rachel and her sister and Santana and Brittney and Rachel's fathers and if she walked out on Rachel she would also be walking away from the two men that were the father figure that Quinn had craved for her whole life so she stuck around for them.

Quinn still had her sister in her life as her elder sibling called almost every day if not every other day but Quinn once again lost her mother thanks to Russell as the man showed up at the Fabray home on the second day of summer of her senior year, he claimed he had changed and was willing to prove it at first he seemed too have changed but towards the end of summer he once again had Judy under his thumb and had demanded that Quinn change her sinful ways and choice to live in his house with him and Judy or keep Rachel as her girlfriend and get disowned once again, there was no choice for Quinn Rachel was her everything so the blonde once again packed her things and left the Fabray mansion to go live with Rachel and her fathers, Justine had also walked out of the Fabray home in her support of her little sister but Judy just stayed silent and watched as his husband drove away both her children.

It was Valentines Day and for Quinn it was the most amazing day ever as Rachel was beyond amazing as she took Quinn out all day spending each and ever moment with her, she treated her like a queen and showing her with so much love and adorned her with small gifts such as the personalized coffee mug.

Two weeks after the most amazing Valentines Day, things had gotten better between the two of them Rachel's angry side had become non existent, Quinn was once again happy and so was Rachel as she had gotten her big break and was cast as the lead in an off Broadway show, Quinn showered Rachel with so much love, so that evening when Quinn returned early from class knowing that Rachel would be home and the two could spend some time together but as she opened the door to her and Rachel's home she heard load moaning coming from upstairs that belonged to Rachel only to her another moan but that didn't sound like her divas so she walked upstairs and opened the door to reveal her girlfriend naked in their bed with her best friend also their with her fingers buried inside her girl friend.

Rachel had seen Quinn in the door way and jumped out of bed to run after her but stopped mid way down the stairs as she heard the front door slam shut, she fell on the stairs as her tears started to flow from her eyes, the person that was in her bed came down the stairs fully dressed and sat besides her and held the naked sobbing woman.

Two days and still no sign of where Quinn was, she hadn't been to any of her classes and no one had heard from her, Santana had gone home the night Quinn had caught her and Rachel sleeping together, she called Brittany who was on tour with a dance group, she told her how she had cheated on her because she was lonely and missed her and how sorry she was, and even though Brittney was pissed at the Latina she agreed to stay with her as long as Santana made it up to her by marrying and staying faithful.

Five days and still no sign of where Quinn had gone, Rachel was worried sick so that night as she was sitting in the kitchen when she heard the front door of her and Quinn's home so she ran up to the front door to find the woman she had been dying to see for the five days.

She instantly wrapped her in her arms but her request of a hug was refused ass Quinn just dodged her and moved away from Rachel, Quinn's eyes were beetroot red and swollen from the obvious crying she had been doing through and also the lack of sleep, Quinn looked like a soulless heartbroken zombie.

"We need to talk." Quinn said coldly and walked into the living room with Rachel behind her she took a seat in the single sofa and Rachel sat down on the sofa in front of Quinn.

""How long?" Quinn asked Rachel.

"The night before valentine's day." She answered honestly and saw the pain intensify on Quinn's face.

"That's why you changed your whole attitude towards me, because you felt guilty." Quinn said to Rachel but mostly to herself, that was all she needed to hear because it was bad enough to know that Rachel had cheated on once but the diva had been having a full out affair with her best friend.

"I'm sorry Quinn it was a mistake, I was just so pissed at everything, not getting casted and how I used to take my angry out on you but you always stuck besides me and I hated myself for hating you and how I was pushing you away from me even though I need you in my life." Rachel said in a plea to get Quinn back and they could work on their relationship.

"All I did was love you with all my heart and you hurt me, I left my mom and dads home for you for you and you cheat on me, you fixed me after Sam's death only to break me years later." It was a statement but it was one that seemed to hit Rachel and her once forgotten anger had once again returned.

"What the hell Quinn my dream was failing right in front of my eyes and I just wanted to be alone yet all you did was being that needy girl from high school, love me, hold me, and tell me you love me, and shower me with attention that would do anything to have me in her life, you just kept taking all my shit just so that I wouldn't leave you when you should have just walked away." Rachel said immediately regretting the word that had left her mouth.

"You what your right I should have walked away but I didn't so I will know." Quinn said getting up and walking straight out of the front door from another place that once felt like a home but was just a house, she felt like Sam's died in vain and how could she lose her mom for Rachel who clearly stopped loving her so she walked out never looking back because if she did it would hurt to much.

Rachel felt the sobs run through her body as she felt her heart shattering into a million pieces. Quinn was gone and this time there was no chance of her returning and Rachel felt like complete and utter shit so she drank as she cried herself to sleep just like she did ever night after that night, it was now a ritual for her, getting drunk and crying herself to sleep for the loss of the love of her life and how she had driven her away to never return but the worst part was that Quinn never contacted any one from lima or new York again sop there was no way in knowing how the blonde was and if she was happy or if she moved on, oh how she hoped that Quinn had spiralled into a depression and hurt herself like she did with Sam's death.