Sooo chapter 2 I like to write this story it's fun at least to me I hope you have fun reading it too :D

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Chapter 2:

„Phew thank God I always thought that was kinda fruity"

I was really relieved I mean, if I have to be a vampire then I can at least be a real vampire, like black clothes, leatherjackets and motorcycles and stuff and not be half fairy. But one thing bothered me.

"Wait vampires burn in the sun? So if I am one, what I do NOT believe of course, I'll have to stay in all day? That sucks! I'll get pale and unhealthy and ew." I shuddered at the thought, I loved the sun and was so not ready to stay in darkness all the time. "I'm going to get you a ring like mine and Stefan's, it will protect you so you will be able to go in the sun, at least when I got you the ring so it will take some time." Damon clarified, relieving me once again, that would have really sucked.

"But you won't get pale anyway, because you're body's going to stay frozen the way it is now, with tan and everything, your hair grows we don't know why but it does, at least the hair on your head." At the last part he added a wink. Ugh he's annoying, but I was happy nevertheless, that I had shaved yesterday before going to that bar, just imagine being hairy for eternity!

Stefan continued their explanation of being a vampire: "You'll never get sick and every illness you had before, will vanish…" He wanted to continue but I had to clarify that. "So let's say if I have like a million allergies, that make me not able to eat everything yummy this will just be gone? Yiey!" I almost started to do a happy dance (on the bed, where I went back to when they told me that I can't leave, hey why not make yourself comfortable if you have to stay anyway?) "Technically yes but the thing is that human food won't taste good to you anymore, the only thing that's 'yummy' is blood, mainly human blood, but some pussies like my baby brother only feed on little innocent rabbits and other cute baby animals…" Mr. Handsome shattered all my hopes with a careless told sentence, never paying any attention to my horrified face, only bathing in the hatred he received from Mr. and Mrs. Broody, sick guy… who enjoys being hated?

"So you tell me that now I'm healed from all the illnesses I had from the beginning of my life but I can't enjoy it because I have to feed on blood?" I asked again, my voice sounding a little hysteric. "You made me this right?" I asked Damon again, although I already knew that he was responsible after he confirmed it I said in a low, menacing voice: "YOU my boy better sleep with one eye open… wait when I think about this, do we even sleep?"

"Yes we do, we don't have to sleep often or long but we can." Stefan told me after my small freak-out. "At least man, if I had lost food AND sleep I would have gone into a killing frenzy or something. But we can feed on human without killing them right? I mean I don't want to starve or kill Bambi but I don't want to be a serial killer too."

"Yes we can, or you wouldn't be sitting here remember? Your lovely boyfriend stopped before he killed you, because you needed to have blood in your system for the transformation." Damon answered now too, seemingly forgetting that I threatened his life only a few seconds earlier… cocky much? "He wanted to transform me? He only knew me for a few weeks why would he do that? And he was NOT my boyfriend" I couldn't wrap my mind around that statement, I really barely knew him we had some friends together but this was like the first evening we spent together alone… but when I think about that's about the best opportunity to turn some naïve girl into a vampire… without witnesses and everything.

"Well he wouldn't have done all the preparations to turn you into one, if he wouldn't want you to be a vampire." Damon answered with a roll of his eyes.

"Alright… what's to know then… what about all the myths? Mirrors, stepping into a house, garlic?" They told me that we could see ourselves in mirrors (good I think I really have to look into one soon, because judging by the looks of the brothers I think maybe vampires are always hot… that would be nice.) but had to be invited in, garlic wouldn't affect us at all (it just stinks) but some plant called vervaine, which was deadly and really painful. (Mental note: stay away from this plantything).

"So now the cool things! You can do this thing called compelling, that means you can make people do everything you want them to do, and forget about it right after. You can most likely turn into some kind of animal, I'm a crow, you have to figure it out somehow, you're superfast and super strong, almost nothing can kill you, except sunlight, stakes through the heart, vervaine and fire." Damon listed on, now looking a little more interested in the conversation, now it came to the good things, he clearly enjoyed being a vampire.

"But to compel people is not right, you shouldn't take their freedom of will away!" The girl (who I still didn't know the name of) told me with a very motherly look. "Eh yeah whatever, I'm dead, that means my not-live sucks and I'm a vampire so I'm allowed to be badass and do things you shouldn't do" I told her, finally growing a little accustomed to the thought of living forever and being a vampire. Stefan and his girlfriend seemed to be shocked about my careless attitude but Damon seemed to come to the conclusion that maybe he found a partner in crime, instead of some annoying and whining young girl, he had to take care of.

"OK now it get's embarrassing, what if I have my period… would I want to eat myself or something?" I asked the thing that burned on my tongue from the beginning. I bet Mr. Broody would have blushed if he could, but since he couldn't he looked just weird… "Well we told you before that your body is frozen so you won't HAVE your period to start with." I think that was the worst moment in my life. And that's not over dramatic or anything. I never really knew what to do with my future, but the main thing was, that I've always seen myself with at least 3 children. This was the one thing I wanted to gain in my life, have children and be a good mother and later a nice grandmother, who knits socks and pullovers for her grandchildren.

Something happened to my face, first I didn't understand what it was, it felt weird like everything would tighten and my eyes hurt. After a few seconds I realized that I was crying… without tears, as I couldn't produce them anymore with my new body. (AN: I don't know if it works like that in VD too but I like this idea, from Twilight so I added it to my story) When I took my hands away from my face I noticed that they were looking at me, wearing a guilty expression, even Damon I think although he hid it as soon as my eyes fell on him. "So I won't ever have children?" I asked choking on the unshed tears. They just nodded awkwardly, Elena wanting to come to comfort me, but Stefan held her back, he didn't want her to be hurt if I snapped.

When my face stopped contracting and relaxed a little bit I asked: "Can't we change this transformationthing back?" But in deep I knew that this wouldn't work. I was stuck like that and suddenly I realized that this was it, I was going to be stuck as a vampire, I would never have a real family and what also weighed me down when I finally thought clearly about my endless life, I would see everyone around me die, I would be forever 18 years old, but my parents would die and my little brother would die before me, all my friends would become mature and have families and finally grow old and die in their families circle. I would never have something like that, I was an outcast now, how could I have fun and talk with my friends if I knew that I was so completely different from them.

"I… I think I'll just go home." I finally told them, and was already on my way out, trying to figure out a way to come home (completely forgetting that I was still only wearing Damon's shirt), when Stefan ran after me and grabbed my arm. I spun around looking him in the eyes and showing my pain, making him wince a little and look away. "You can't go home, you're not in control and would probably hurt your family, and you're not protected from sunlight, you would burn if you'd go outside right now."

"Maybe that'd be best" I mumbled under my breath. Whereupon Stefan shot me a concerned look but was interrupted in his next speech about how precious life was or whatever, when the girl "What's your name anyway?" "Elena" Elena and Damon came down the stairs. "Ehm Stefan I have to go home now, can you drive me?" She asked looking guilty, as to take Stefan away from me, but I have to say that I was relieved to don't have to listen to his good boy talking anymore. I just wanted to sulk and drown in my pain. "It's alright I'll just… sit here or something." I assured them, at which they exited the house.

"Soooo I can't handle sad girls so I suggest we'll first let you look at your reflection and this will hopefully cheer you up that you're mega hot and then we can get so wasted that you forget about all your problems alright? Alright!" Damon asked in an attempt to get away from comforting me. I just shrugged with my shoulders and was suddenly standing in front of a mirror, I didn't even notice I moved but apparently Damon had carried me there.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I had changed, but not as much as I thought I would, my hair was still a weird shade of blond (someone had called it vanilla-blond once…) my eyes still were dark green and the slight tan I had from lying in my garden all summer was still there. But there we're little things that made me look different, like my skin, which was clear and soft more than ever, my normally always red cheeks were paler, my whole body seemed firmer I still had a normal, more soft physique but it seemed to have become more shaped and outlined. I was relieved that not everything that made me unique was gone, I still was short like hell and had the smallest hands you could imagine, they always looked slightly disproportionate. My nose still was a little too big for my liking and had a little hump on it and my lips were still a little too slender.

I was still me in some twisted way so I was ready to move on to step two and just drown my worries in alcohol. I turned around to look at Damon who was now watching me expecting some kind of reaction and I offered him a small, shy smile (I noticed that I was standing in front of this totally hot guy in only my underwear and his t-shirt which was a little too short to cover me enough for my liking)

"Let's get this party starting"

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Hours later (I experienced how hard it is for a vampire to get hammered) we finally reached the goal and were sitting on the couch in the middle of the living room or salon or whatever. I had my head lying in his lap and he was absentmindedly stroking my hair. "You know Jessy when I sit here like that with you, I think I could have done worse… " I smiled weakly, yeah he was totally perfect in saying nice things… NOT! At least not when he means it. "Thanks Mr. Handsome that's so reassuring." Now he chuckled lightly too. For a while we just lay there thinking about different things, and it really calmed me down to one be so alcoholised that everything seemed softer and less harsh and sad and on the other side have someone who's life is fucked up, at least just as much as mine is.

That's it for now… I hope you liked it

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