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Chapter Seventeen- Slow Dancing in a Burning Room
[Blair's P.O.V]
I can't believe I'm honestly sitting here, I mean I'm actually sitting here with someone whom I used to love that has jumped to scum of the earth in a matter of days. I keep checking my phone hoping that Serena would want to talk but I'm not getting anything yet, she hasn't gone to Humphrey about it so I don't know whether to be worried about what Chuck has in store or what she has in store for me, but overall this situation sucks. Humphrey doesn't suspect anything and I keep wrestling with the idea of telling him but even that I'm not sure about until I know exactly what Chuck has planned. Taking a sip of my water as I look on at the menu, Chuck tortures me with his silence as he stressed over what he will eat and in the back of my mind I have half the mind to grab the fork and jab it in his neck just to release tension or a desire, whichever comes first will do.
"Can we speed this up? I have work, and Epperly doesn't take kindly to me being late for your brain thoughts" I replied not amused by his tactics
"I thought we'd spend some time together, I mean you use to always say that we never spent enough time together" Chuck replied "I think you'll like the grilled salmon" he said
"I think I'd like to leave" I quickly replied
"There's that dramatic spark I so desperately love" Chuck said with a smirk weighing heavily on his face
"And there's that cocky smile that I so desperately want to cut off your face" I said before the waiter escorted a blonde haired girl over to our table "Uh, excuse me…we're having a private conversation here" I told the waiter before Chuck got up to help the girl sit down before he thanked the waiter
"Blair, I'd like you to me Rachel" Chuck introduced as he took his seat again while she extended her hand out to me but I had to intention of caring to make a good impression
"What the hell are you doing Bass? I have work and I don't have time for this" I replied angrily
"Rachel here looks lovely doesn't she?" Chuck asked as he looked on adoringly at the girl
"Do I look like I care? I mean it, will you get on with it…what's the point of all of this?" I asked him
"I think you two would make great friends" Chuck smiled
"Check please!" I called out to the nearest waiter before Chuck waved them off
"She's pretty enough to seduce even a Brooklynite like Humphrey" Chuck said before I finally understood what he's up to
"You son of a bitch!" I said angrily as I nearly had to refrain from really jabbing the fork in his throat as the thought really became appealing at this point
"She's game for anything and that is in the sexual manner…Rachel is perfect for what you have planned" Chuck smiled as she just sat there smiling
"Go!" I turned to tell her as she looked to Chuck for confirmation
"I'll come get you once we're finished" Chuck told her in French before she happily obliged and left us alone
"How sick can you be? I mean really, hiring some French whore to do what? Seduce Humphrey" I said completely and utterly disgusted
"Your lagging on your plans, so I stepped in. Rachel is my gift to you to end your mistake" Chuck told me
"I'm not as disturbed as that" I replied
"Oh, but you use to be. You use to be a lot of things, loyal was one of them" Chuck said as he sipped on his wine
"And I still am, you just tested the loyalty too much. Now I have been there for you, even through your sick and twisted bullshit that you put me through. This is low, even for you" I said
"Do you even care what you've done. The balance of power that you've completely screwed up due to your hormones. Humphrey isn't or will never be like us…" Chuck said before I cut him off
"We're over" I replied
"I mean like us from the Upper Eastside. Yes, he associates with us and his father got lucky enough to marry into money, but he will never be like the four of us. It will always be the four of us, that's all we've got…but you've messed that up due to some whimsical feeling that is fleeting at best" Chuck told me
"Your opinion. We've screwed each other so many times that its hard to keep count anymore" I replied
"But yet we always work it out because if there is anyone four people better suited for the mess this world we live in creates, its us" Chuck said
"And we'll get through this" I said as he shook his head
"Not this, we won't get past this…not if you don't end this" Chuck told me "I can arrange for everything to go down the night of the magazine release party, and this will be all over and maybe, maybe you'll be able to repair the damage you've done" he said
"And if I don't?" I replied sadly
"Then Humphrey loses" Chuck replied "I own a percentage of the Writer, which allows me to have a bit of say in the company" he said as I nearly froze
"You wouldn't?…how can you?" I asked
"I have an associate on the inside, that's how I found out about you and Humphrey. He has the next highest percentage and all it takes is one meeting then its over for him" Chuck said "Do you really want to take things that far?" he asked before I simply just got up and left
[Dan's P.O.V]
I thought about this a million times, I went back and forth but I'm doing the honorable thing and I'm willing to extend a bridge of friendship. I had called my dad to meet up down at the pub to shoot a few games of pool, you know to do something that could get us talking and maybe figuring out where everything got so screwed up. He had learned of my new job and was happy that I had finally achieved the goal of a suit and tie, but I can say that I felt a little happy that he approved. Maybe this is the reason why I'm extending an olive branch out to him, maybe because I do miss him. The whole taxi ride over I had been distracted so much by Perry's constant texts he was sending me that I didn't even have time to be nervous, which in some part I was happy about.
"Yes, I got your e-mails. I've been doing nothing but getting your e-mails" I told Perry as I got out of the taxi and began to walk
"I'm not hearing enthusiasm in your voice Humphrey" Perry said
"Tablecloths really aren't my thing, you know this" I told him
"Okay, I'll oblige that fact simply because I'm starting to care less and less about this party as I'm becoming nothing short of nervous wreck about it. I got a note from my secretary that you've written another story, care to share the details?" Perry asked "Is the infamous Uptown Girl, I've read snippets of?" he asked
"Possibly. I like my original but I'm finding myself more drawn into Uptown Girl" I told him
"That's because your living the real thing, I like it. I mean you write what you know, that's the rule" Perry said
"But is it insane to change so late in the game, I mean has it gone to the printers yet?" I asked
"We have enough time to swap out, but if your passion is this new story then go through with it. I want a good final product because this magazine needs to be successful" Perry said
"And it will. Eliot's latest update is a masterpiece" I said as I headed into the pub to see my dad gathering our sticks "Okay, well I have to go, but I'll be in early to look over the final product" I told him
"And the manuscript for Uptown Girl, when will it be in my hands or should I say on its way to the printer?" Perry asked
"It'll be on the way" I smiled before we eventually ended the call
"Work?" My dad asked me
"Yeah, we're preparing for the release party" I replied "Your coming, right?" I asked him
"I wouldn't miss it" My dad replied
"How are you doing with Lilly being gone? I know she was taken into custody recently" I asked him
"The lawyers are hopeful that they can get her time reduced, then Chuck is pulling strings…" My dad said before I focused in on what I just heard
"Wait, Chuck is back?" I asked
"Yes, he's been back for about two weeks now" My dad said "Why? Were you two suppose to hang out and tell each other about your summer plans?" he then teased
"No, I'm just surprised he's back so soon without being splashed on some society page with his newlywed status and all" I laughed as I began to rack up the balls on the table
"Newlywed? Chuck has been with a different girl everyday of the night practically" My dad laughed as we both got up
"That'd be normal, Chuck and faithful don't go along together" I said
"The person I feel sorry for is Blair, I mean she seems to have been doing well for herself these past couple of months and if he comes back then they'll fall back into the same pattern" My dad said
"That's a little surprising you know the patterns now" I laughed "But I think this time will be different for them or for her. I don't think, no I know that she doesn't want him back" I smiled
"And how do you know this?" My dad asked
"Because she's happy and in love" I said trying not to burst with happiness at the thought of the fact that I was the one making her happy
"Again, I ask. How do you know this?" My dad asked
"Because I'm…I'm dating Blair Waldorf. We've been together for quite some time" I revealed to him as he nearly choked on his water
"What?" My dad asked in disbelief
"I know its shocking because she's Blair and I'm, me. But its actually pretty great between us, she's what I've been looking for and we're good together" I rambled as my dad just looked at me with all the confusion in the world
"How did this happen?" My dad asked
"I don't care to get into the full details in fear of things becoming completely awkward between us" I told him "We just started to see each other in a different light" I then said
"A dating light" My dad concluded "A light that involves…wait, is she your girlfriend?" he asked
"Yes, she is. I even gave her a ring" I told him as his eyes nearly bulged out
"I think I need to sit for this" My dad said as he walked over to the stool to take a seat "This is Blair Waldorf we're talking about" he said
"That'd be the girl" I agreed
"Are you sure about this?" My dad asked
"Yeah, I'm sure. Why what do you mean?" I then asked
"This is Blair Waldorf, and not to mention Chuck is back" My dad said
"So? We're together so that the puts a wrench in the reunion Chuck was hoping for…or mistress he was hoping for" I said
"Yes, but then you'd only be the added person in the drama that is Chuck and Blair" My dad said as I just looked at him "Look, I'm happy that your happy but have you honestly thought about this" he said
"What's there to think about, I'm in love with her" I said
"And you were just recently in love with Serena. Do you think that maybe the fact that you two were lonely that things escalated to a point where maybe if you weren't heartbroken wouldn't have gone to" My dad told me
"So you think that this is just some fling or something?" I asked in disbelief that he was really saying this
"I wouldn't go as far as to call it that but yeah, I think its just loneliness catching up to you" My dad said
"So we just discredit everything I feel and how I make her happy to get to the conclusion that its just loneliness" I replied
"Look, sometimes we get moments in our lives where things are perfect and they just seem to fit but sometimes that's all they are…moments" My dad said
"This coming from the guy that had to wait through Lilly's numerous marriages just to register to her" I replied not caring if I was being polite or not
"That's different" My dad replied becoming a little agitated that I took it there
"How?" I quickly asked "Because the way I see it, you mistook your loneliness for a sign that Lilly was the one for you" I then stated
"We have history, you and Blair have…" My dad said before I interrupted
"I heard you the first time, we have moments" I said before I walked over to put my stick up
"Where are you going?" My dad then asked "We're just talking. I'm trying to give you advice" he said
"No, your trying to dictate to me. I tell you something that I'm clearly proud about and you shoot it to hell all because its not something you like. Well I'm tired of doing what is right in your mind because the way I see it as is that I will never be right" I told him "And don't bother showing up to the party, I wouldn't want us to share that…moment" I said before I stormed out of the pub
[Blair's P.O.V]
To say I was disgusted was an understatement, but it did seem to make sense that Chuck would do something like that. I don't quite know his motivation for this, but having the truth exposed…this is not how I expected it to be. Nate had text me earlier to see if we could talk but I just couldn't deal with any of this right now, my head was spinning and I didn't know what to do at all. I was happy, what I felt wasn't a fling but I just never thought that my actions would cause this much drama all the way around. Hiring French hookers and listening to Chuck scold me was beginning to weigh on me and I just didn't know what my answer would be because the only thing from both perspectives that made me go through and not go through with it would be Humphrey and S. The four, we've been screwed up for a long time I kept thinking to myself but was I different, was I the one messing things up. I can't take this, I just wish this would all go away. Stepping off the elevator, I made my way into the penthouse to see the remaining items of Serena's stuff in the walkway. Looking on with confusion, I was surprised to look up and see S there and by her reaction from when she came down the staircase, I could tell she wasn't expecting me either.
"What are you doing here?" I asked
"I came by to get the rest of my stuff" Serena told me in the coldest of tones as she put away a few of her items in her smaller bags "I thought you'd be at work, I didn't want to run into you" she said
"That sounds about right, you know, with the whole stay the hell away from you stance last time we spoke" I replied
"This isn't funny. It's far from funny" Serena scolded me
"I'm not, I'm sorry if it came off as funny. I was just mentioning the last time" I stumbled for words trying to show that I didn't take this as a joke before a moment of silence came between us and that's all she needed to begin grabbing her things "Well, have a nice life" she said as she began to roll her bag over towards the door before I quickly grabbed on to her arm
"Can we at least talk about this?" I asked
"What's there to talk about? You've been sleeping with Dan" Serena said as she turned to look at me "And you've lied to my face numerous times about it" she said "I bet you got some sick thrill out of it" she then pointed out
"No, it wasn't like that at all. Look, we were both hurting over losing you and Chuck…so we just comforted each other…" I said before she cut me off
"By sleeping together" Serena said
"Like you haven't made a mistake" I quickly fired back
"Yes, I have made mistakes. But I didn't continually keep doing them to you" Serena said
"It was never about hurting you" I told her
"Then what? What was it about?….you know what, ….how many times?" Serena asked
"What?" I asked in disbelief unsure as to what she was asking
"How many times did you sleep with Dan?" Serena asked
"I can't answer that" I replied sadly
"Answer!" Serena yelled
"I don't know! Numerous times, too many to count" I replied as tears streamed down my face "It just happened" I then tried to explain
"Sleeping with him once just happens, but when you make a habit out of it…that's you risking it" Serena said "When I slept with Nate, it was a one time thing…it was a mistake. But you….this was intentional" she said with tears welled up in her eyes
"No, it wasn't" I replied
"I loved him. He was the only guy I truly loved and you went and slept with him!" Serena yelled
"You were with Ben!" I yelled back
"Wow! Your just…your really something. Now your justifying your betrayal, you knew how I felt about Dan" Serena said
"Which is why I never meant to hurt you. Dan and I, we just had this thing and it was hard to control…" I said with tears coming down my face
"Are you? Are you in love with him?" Serena then asked as she looked at me closely "Are you love with Dan?" she then asked again
"I don't know" I replied not wanting to expose my feelings in fear that it would drive us further apart
"Either you know or you don't!" Serena yelled "So tell me which is it?" she then said
"I think I may but then…I don't know" I told her
"Oh, please. Don't deny your feelings on my account because regardless we're over, so you might as well be honest right now" Serena said
"Don't say that. We've gone through worse and we've managed to make it through. You can't just throw away years of friendship…" I said trying to make her understand that our relationship meant more than something we toss away because it was last season
"You did. You threw us away the moment you got in bed with him" Serena replied
"I love you. You're my sister, we…" I said trying to convince her before she stopped me
"Your none of those things to me anymore" Serena stated
"Please, just tell me what I can do to make this right…I want to make us right" I cried
"At this point, I really can't say because I'm so disgusted with you that the only thing would be wishing something I would regret later on. You were my constant, you were the one person in my life I could always count on to be honest with me, but you go and do this….how do we go back to what we were after this?" Serena said as she was slowly breaking down in front of me and I had to admit that my heart was breaking with each tear. I motioned to say something in hopes that I could say something to make her realize but the vibration of my phone ringing stopped me from doing some. Pulling my phone out I checked to see that it was Humphrey calling…this was perfect time, right when I'm losing my best friend "Is that Dan?" she asked
"I'm not answering. This is important to me, fixing our relationship is more important to me" I told her as I just tried to ignore the vibration
"Answer it" Serena said "See what he wants? He may want to make you dinner and share a glass of wine…you know since that's what we used to do, and you always wanted to be me…so there, answer the call" she told me before I just hit the ignore button on the phone
"No, I'm trying…if I could make you see" I said before she just laughed to herself as she headed over to the elevator
"There is nothing left, and that's your fault. I'm sure Chuck has come up with some perverse way for you to get him back, but I'm not him…I want nothing to do with you and I mean that. So delete me from your phone, your invite list…anything with you being there, I want no part in" Serena told me as she pushed the button for the elevator "You've made your mess, now you deal with it" she said before she stepped on the elevator. Watching her leave was amongst the hardest things I've ever had to endure because this time it felt real, it felt like the end had truly come and it was my fault. I had traded in years of our friendship and now…I don't think there was anyway for me to get her back. Tears fell like rain and for the most part I couldn't stop it. Pulling my phone out, I began to dial a familiar number as I hated the thought but this was the only way to clean up what I had destroyed.
"To what do I owe this pleasure" Chuck answered his phone
"I'm in, but we do it my way" I told him as I could hear his smirk beginning to form
"You always did like to be on top" Chuck replied
[Dan's P.O.V]
Class was a drag today. I don't think I even paid attention to one thing that the teacher said because I had spent half the night up worrying about Waldorf. Things have been weird lately, I mean we usually talk late into the night but last night she hadn't called me back. I can't say that hearing Chuck was back was pleasing at all but I didn't have time to worry about that. My suit needed to be picked up, then I had to drop off my manuscript to Perry, then I had to write a speech for the party tonight…I had too much to worry about to worry about Chuck Bass. Though I was a little happy that he was helping Lilly out, not for my dad's sake but for Serena's. I didn't love her like I used to but I still care about her to not want anything bad to happen to her. Making my way out of the class, I quickly walked over towards Waldorf class to wait for her. Note to self, ignore all things party planning from Perry because once again he's texting me about the tablecloths, hell note to self…never give input again on a party. As I begin to make more mental notes to myself Waldorf comes out looking as if she had a rough night.
"Hey" I said cutting her off but more so I surprised her by my sudden appearance
"Dan" Blair replied
"Uh, hey. I just wanted to see if you wanted to grab lunch…since when do you call me Dan?" I then asked realizing the name change
"I was just…you caught me off guard. I don't think I did good on my test, and I was just thinking about it" Blair told me
"Oh, well I'm sorry about that" I replied knowing that failing was something she hated the most out of anything "Well how about we make lunch my treat then" I then proposed
"Sure, we could do lunch but it has to be quick because I've got to go to the office" Blair said as we began to walk out towards the quad
"So what did you do last night?" I asked
"I just slept. I was so tired from work that I went home and crashed" Blair replied as she pulled her phone out
"Oh, well you know you could have come over to the loft and crashed…we could've done the whole waffles thing" I smiled
"I know but I was closer to the penthouse" Blair said
"Fair enough. So I made the mistake of hanging out with my dad yesterday, and he told me something interesting" I told her as we went over to the hot dog cart and order our foods
"The Humphrey is back together? That's good to hear, flannel shirts will be back in business again" Blair said as I just laughed
"Ha, ha, ha. No, he told me that Chuck was back. He said that he was back for quite some time" I told her as she didn't seem phased by it
"Well he does live here Humphrey, what do you expect?" Blair replied as she put ketchup on her hot dog
"Yeah, I know that…you don't seem surprised by it, has he tried to contact you?" I asked
"Chuck has made attempts but nothing out of the ordinary. I've been to busy to even really get involved the drama that is Chuck" Blair said
"But you do know that he apparently didn't get married, right? I mean he might be married but is entertaining the hell out of infidelity" I said
"I feel like your trying to tell me something without really telling me" Blair turned to tell me "If you have something to ask Humphrey just say it, spit it out?" she asked me
"No, I was just mentioning the fact that Chuck is back in hopes of gaging where your at with all of this. I know how you were hurt when he left with the goal of marrying Raina" I said feeling like I had to defend myself
"So what? Chuck is back and I just lose all self control and self pride, glad to know you think highly of me" Blair replied as I couldn't get her attitude at the moment
"I was just curious, I mean you were curious when Serena said she was interested in getting back together…so I was interested in if Chuck being back effected you" I said
"And I thought we discussed that, Serena was us projecting our fears that we got passed and apparently we're still in the past" Blair said
"Okay, now I feel like we're arguing without really arguing, what's going on?" I asked her "It's okay to be…I don't know nervous" I said
"I'm not arguing, I'm simply stating that I'm not all broken over Chuck being back like you might think" Blair replied
"I never said you were broken" I said finding it a bit odd the choice words she was saying "Okay, why don't we…just stop talking about Chuck all together" I then proposed
"Good idea" Blair replied in a sarcastic tone
"Is everything okay, I mean not referring to anything Chuck…but with your mom or Serena, just anything that's bugging you?" I asked her
"Nothing is bugging me, I just thought we wouldn't be playing twenty questions with each other. I thought you could do blunt honesty" Blair said once again with the choice of words I thought
"I'm honest, I just don't think honesty would suit the moment right now with us" I said holding back what I really wanted to say
"Look, clearly your getting annoyed with me and I'm just all over the place…so why don't we just call this lunch and see each other tonight" Blair proposed as she threw her hot dog in the trash
"I'm not annoyed I just don't get why your acting like…I hate to say this, but a bitch" I said hoping that I would get slapped after saying that "Are you on your period?" I then asked hoping that could be the reason
"And this conversation has reached its end" Blair said as she forced a smile and tried to turn away but I quickly grabbed onto her hand
"Don't…look I'm sorry. I was being an ass, and I guess it's the fact that I'm not seeing you as much as I used to, so I just want to know what your thinking because I was privy to that on a daily basis when you were at the loft. But I do want to be with you right now, and if you want to belittle me than that's fine because then that'll mean we're still together" I told her as she just sighed "And clearly your tired, how about we just go back to the loft and you can sleep until you have to go in or we could go to the library and sleep, and I'll just wake up when its time" I suggested to her as she couldn't help smile "I really wish I could kiss you right now" I said staring on at her lips while getting the occasional looks to see if anyone was looking but we were hidden away under the bridge of the underpass of the quad
"Just kiss me Humphrey" Blair playfully shrugged as I leaned in to kiss her
"I love you" I whispered as I held her close "I'm sorry" I then said before I placed a kiss on both her eyelids as she just rested her forehead up against my lips as if she needed some strength to be infused in her
"I hate to leave like this, but I really do have to get to work" Blair sighed in frustration as she reluctantly moved away from my embrace "But I will be looking forward to seeing you tonight. Your actually a part of an accomplishment with your writing and all" she smiled
"Yeah, I actually have a surprise for you on that one" I said giving her another quick kiss
"Like what?" Blair asked
"You'll just have to wait, its something that was inspired by you" I said before she slowly began to back away
"Okay, well I look forward to seeing it" Blair said before she eventually turned to catch a cab. Watching her from a far I couldn't help but smile and know in my heart of hearts that my dad was wrong, he was wrong about everything and I couldn't wait to prove him wrong. Just as I was singing my rebel cry I felt a vibration come from my cell phone. Pulling it out I quickly saw that it was another Gossip Girl blast. Opening it up I was nearly caught off guard to see the picture of Blair and Chuck out at dinner together.
"Looks like the flame is still there. XOXO, Gossip Girl" I read to myself as confusion was all that was on my face on how we were arguing about Chuck a couple of minutes ago and how she wouldn't be effected by his return to get to a pic of them together
[Blair's P.O.V]
I hated this. I hated everything about what was going on. I mean I was picking pointless fights with Humphrey, which he could clearly see was me being bitchy, which was the point. I just never thought I'd be in this position, I thought that returning to old form would have made me a little more ruthless but this hurt too much. It took every ounce of me to keep myself from crying and wanting to tell him the whole truth about what was going on, but I couldn't…I didn't even know if I was okay with what was supposed to be going on tonight. When I arrived at the party, Humphrey came up and mentioned that we needed to talk so that let me know that he got the Gossip Girl blast. Luckily Perry had him on a short chain that way it made it nearly impossible for him to even step away for a moment without pulling him away to speak with someone else. At this point I was glad that we weren't alone because I don't think I could hold up in front of him, especially since Humphrey was starting to read me well. A part of me was hoping that I would see Serena here but I knew that would be highly unlikely after our last conversation, but not seeing her hear just helped me realize all that I lost and why I had to do this. Going by the bar, I grabbed a glass of champagne to ease the pain as I looked on to see that Rachel was going in for the kill and I could hear that cunning laughter come up to me.
"Vodka, on the rocks" Chuck requested as he leaned up against the bar
"Your slithering around, I thought you wanted to remain a silent partner?" I asked with disgust in my voice
"And miss the show, I wouldn't dare" Chuck laughed "You look a little glib, I thought you'd be happy that your making an attempt to rebuild with Serena" he said
"Only you'd smile during this situation. Nothing about this is good, it's sickening" I told him "I'm only doing this in an effort to make things right" I said
"You are, it may not feel like it now but it will get better" Chuck said
"I'm glad to have those crappy words of non wisdom" I replied as I took a sip of my cosmopolitan to turn to see that Rachel was walking over towards us
"I ready for drink" Rachel said with her heavy French accent
"Drink? What is she talking about?" I asked as Chuck grabbed a wine glass and poured a white substance into it "Whoa! What the hell do you think your doing?" I asked him in disbelief
"I'm taking care of it" Chuck said "There is no way a sober Humphrey will ever go through with it" he told me
"Yes, but that stuff your giving him is a drug, a drug that has messed people up…and I'm not trying to hurt him" I told him
"You have any better suggestions?" Chuck asked sarcastically "I thought you were in?" he then asked as I turned to look over at Humphrey who was truly in his element as he was talking with different people
"I said no drugs involved, I made that specifically clear" I told him
"And I made it specifically clear that if you don't follow through with this, I will follow through with my plan" Chuck said
"Are you that hell bent on destroying him because I slept with him? Your issue isn't with him, its with me…it's the fact that I found someone else other than you and that drives you insane. So instead of being a man and admitting that you screwed us up, you have to destroy someone who has no relevance to you" I told him
"Please, don't flatter yourself. Humphrey walks around with his morals while he looks down at the rest of us, it'd be nice to see where those morals will be when I toss his as into poverty" Chuck said
"If you want something than deal with me, but leave him out of it" I said
"You mean as much to me as a five dollar bill, I prefer more" Chuck said
"Then fine, but this…this is off, I won't do this" I said grabbing the glass and pouring it out onto the floor "I'm out" I told him before I went over to grab my coat and stormed out with little protest from Chuck. Ignoring the request for a driver by the concierge, my main focus was to just leave and get out there. With tears streaming down my face as I'm walking down the fairly dim streets of New York, I can hear footsteps running from behind me calling out my name in what appears to be a familiar voice. I want to turn around but I can't, this seems to be the motto of my life now…no time to look back but muster forward.
"Waldorf! Waldorf!" Dan said to me as he got close behind me before he literally had to turn me around "You were just going to leave without saying anything?" he asked me as I just cried
"Because I have to go. I have to leave" I cried
"Is this because of Chuck?" Dan asked as I just got quiet for a few seconds trying to control my tears "Tell me! Is this about Chuck?" he asked
"Yes, this is about Chuck. This is about Serena, this is about Chuck…this is about everyone" I replied in between tears
"What are you talking about?" Dan asked in confusion
"They know. They know about us" I told him as he just looked shocked
"How?" Dan asked
"Chuck had someone following me and they figured it out" I told him as he just tried to get it to register in his head "Serena came in and heard us, and now…she's gone" I cried as he tried to pull me into a hug but I just pushed away "Don't. Don't. I don't want to be held" I said
"Look, things will be hard but this is what we wanted. We didn't want to sneak around anymore, we wanted to be open to be us" Dan said
"I know, but I just didn't think it would hurt this badly" I cried as he just looked on at me
"It'll hurt but we've got each other. I promised you I will be there, and I just…just let me there for you" Dan said
"We can't…we can't be together anymore" I cried
"Waldorf" Dan said in disbelief by what I said "Blair, c'mon…this is, this is just a knee jerk reaction" he tried to reason "I mean this, this is what we wanted. I love you and you love me, we were planning on telling people" he said just trying to make it make sense to me
"I know, but I can't for reasons I can't explain to you" I said before he quickly grabbed my shoulders
"Please explain. Explain to me how you can just…end us, like this doesn't mean anything?" Dan asked as I could see his eyes become watery
"You know that song by John Mayer that you have on your ipod. The song about the burning room?" I asked him as he just shook his head
"Slow dancing in a burning room" Dan replied
"That's us. As much as we can say that we could work, this will never work and its inevitable" I cried
"We're not some damn song. We're Waldorf and Humphrey" Dan replied unable to control his emotions as the tears were becoming more visible by the minute
"We're that song, and we just…we were stupid to think it could be more" I said in between tears
"No" Dan replied as he turned his back towards me "No" he repeated "No!" he then yelled
"Congratulations on your accomplishment, I'm proud of you. Your going to be a great writer" I said before I leaned in to kiss the back of his head before I took a moment and sobbed silently at the tragic ending of it all before I turned and before I could take a step he pulled his hand back to grab onto my hand
"Don't" Dan whispered softly before I gripped on tight to his hand knowing this would be the last
"I have to" I said before I broke free of his embrace and continued to walk away.
[Chuck's P.O.V.]
Looking out at the city, I begin to realize more and more that I want it all. I use to think it was a bad thing, but its ambition and my father always use to say that a man without ambition is a man doing nothing with his life. Blair was right, the thought of Humphrey having her made me sick to my stomach but I've made my mistakes and this…this slip up was just her mistake. She's forgiven mine, and now…I have to forgive hers. We will fix things and will go back to us, it has to. Taking me away from my silence, I hear him enter and in the darkness of the night I know that this is one game I have to push aside in order to focus on the main task. Blair.
"Humphrey was brilliant tonight. Makes me question why you wanted me to get all the information on him" Ross said
"He has that knack, and I've always hated that…but I have to push that aside. So that is why I have decided to honor our agreement" I said before I pulled an envelope out my desk to hand to him "Your shares to Bass Industries" I told him
"I appreciate this" Ross smiled "Your father would be proud to see the determination you have in bringing the company back to its status. Almost makes me understand why you want Waldorf on your arm" he then stated
"Just keep an eye on Humphrey and there will be more where that's coming from" I told him "Waldorf, I will take care of that" I then said