Chapter 11 Inner demons

Raven got home just after eight that night, she had decided to stay and do Randy's dishes. He told her to leave them until the morning but she just couldn't. She noticed that he kept staring at her, trying to figure out the mystery that she had made herself. She felt bad for snapping at him but she just couldn't handle being touched, not after that night. Putting her key in the lock she pushed the door to her tiny house open. She was greeted by her husky dog, Demon. It was the only thing that got her love these days, the only one that hadn't hurt her. The dog barked happily, licking her face. Raven enjoyed the embrace and for a moment she was normal.

"I missed you Demon, yes I did" Raven cooed lovingly happy to be home. "Go, go outside, mummy wants something to eat"

Demon scampered off happily so Raven could put on her dinner and get away from the stress of the day. Just as she had finished cooking her steak and cheese pie, her cellphone rung. Sighing Raven looked at the caller ID, it was her uncle Triple H.

"Hello?"

"Hey sweet, how are you?"

"I'm good Hunter and yourself?"

"I heard you had a run in with the moron twins. I wanted to make sure you were ok"

Raven sighed "I'm fine I'm not going to let those two cum-guzzling whores get to me"

Hunter laughed "As long as your alright Raven"

"I'm fine really, I just want some food and a shower Uncle"

"Alright I'll let you go but if you ever wanna talk you know my number"

"I know and thanks Uncle"

"Anytime babe"

Hanging up Raven went back to her microwave pie. In the last four years since those pain filled nights she felt closer to her uncle more than she did her father, possibly because he was there while her father worked, it was only Triple H and her sister Iziah that knew of the pain she went through and how it affected her. After she was done with her pie she headed to the bathroom in need of a very hot shower. Anything to stop those images that flooded her head. She set the water to the right temp and started to strip her clothing. Taking a deep breath she finally faced her reflection in the mirror, all over her body were horrible scars, they were embedded in her colourfull flesh forever. Every where was scarred, her tummy, her chest, legs, arms, even her hands and feet scarred. It was her back that was the worst, deep scars that ran through her tattoo and popped out of her body. Trying not to cry she ignored the ugly reflection and got into the shower. In an instant the stress and bad day went away. The hot water was her only friend right now, it did more for her than anyone had ever done in her entire life. As she washed herself down her mind skipped to Randy and his soft hand. His thirty second touch felt so good against her skin, she wanted to let him touch her she really did but she just couldn't let herself do that again. No one could touch her, ever. Everytime she was touched it was just more pain as it bought her back to that night. Sighing sadly she got out of the shower, she hadn't felt someone touch her since that night and Raven found herself missing that touch. Pulling on her pjs, her phone went off again. She wasn't about to answer it but she knew she had too, it could be important.

"Hello?"

"Hey sugar how you be?"

"Hello Randy, I take it theres a reason you called me?" She found herself smiling at his voice.

"Yes I was wondering if you could do me a favour?"

"I'm listening"

"I had a chat to the doctor and he said I could start training again so I wanted to get back into my usual routine which means I was hoping you could be here at six instead of seven?"

Raven shrugged even though he couldn't see it "Sure that won't be a problem"

"Thanks oh and one more thing; what colour panties you wearing?"

Raven hung up on him after hearing that, there wasn't much else she could do. After she finished getting dressed she closed the bathroom door and headed to the couch, she knew she would end up there anyway, she hardly slept anymore. Raven just sat in the silence thinking about nothing, well she tried to think about nothing but it was hard. All she kept thinking was that night, that horrible night. She remembered it like it was yesterday. The dark room, the sadistic voices and the pain. The pain wouldn't stop no matter what she did. The memories swirled around her brain as she looked at the scars on her wrists, the leather they used to restrain her had cut into her flesh. Sniffing she trailed her finger over the marks, again she was trying not to cry. For the third time that night her cellphone went off, she was glad for its interruption.

"Randy I'm not answering that question"

"Hello sunshine"

That voice made Raven grip the phone tight, her blood running cold. "What do you want?"

"Well I thought it was so good seeing you today I thought I would give you a phonecall"

Raven tried to breathe normally but it was hard, the edge to his voice was the same as that night. "What do you want?"

"I wanted to know if you have killed yourself yet"

"Fuck off and die" Raven snapped, nothing but pure venom in her voice. She had let him take too much from her, well not anymore she couldn't let him win again.

"You first sunshine" He laughed evily into the phone before hanging up.

Raven threw the phone down, her hands shaking. Four years after that night he was still haunting her and making her life hell. Maybe he was right, maybe there was only one way to stop it. Getting up she went to the kitchen and started digging through the knife drawer. Finally she found the small vege knife that she simply adored.

"Hello old friend" She put the blade to her left wrist, just holding it there. With tears sliding down her face she began to cut. Cut until her arm was nothing more than blood and ink. Looking at the mess she had created she cried harder. She wished she could be better, she wanted it to stop hurting, she wanted to heal. Raven just wanted to feel whole again. She knew she would never feel that way again, they had broken her beyond repair.