Disclaimer I do not own Harry Potter.
I should have stopped Cygnus from filling Bellatrix's head with nonsense , but I didn't and what she became is just as much my fault as it is Cygnus and the Dark Lords.
My husband lived under the delusion that by introducing our daughter to the Dark Lord that she would be saved from herself.
Bellatrix liked to destroy and Cygnus greatest fear was that eventually once she got bored with destroying other things she'd turn on herself and with no one to control her, there'd be no one and nothing to stop her.
Letting her destroy herself would have been better than what she has become.
I know admitting out loud that I would rather my child destroy herself sounds harsh, but it is no harsher than pretending that my other daughter does not exist because she married mud blood.
Maybe my harshness is why my daughter is so cruel or maybe she was just born that way.
There are times when I wish I had been softer on all three of my daughters, but wishing is a pointless.
As it pointless to try to change the past; all I can do now is work out why I stood on the side lines as my husband created a dangerous obsession.
Bellatrix had always been difficult and from the moment she could talk and walk had refused to listen to me.
Cygnus had some control up until she reached eight or nine and our darling daughter realised that the way she behaved public in reflected Cygnus and I.
Let her stay up past her bedtime or be humiliated in front of friends; punish her for beheading an owl have her show you up front of clients your husband has tried to impress for six months.
Bellatrix had us over a barrel and she knew it and once some one knows your weakness you are at their mercy; unfortunately pride and reputation meant more to my husband and I then trying to actually fix our daughter.
Instead of fixing her we made her worse; Cygnus by filling her head with stories of power and how the Dark Lord would make her powerful and myself by not stopping it.
I did nothing because it was easier, I did nothing because as she had her head pumped with ideas it made her behave in public and I got to keep face.
I cannot decided who is worst; myself who cared more about public appearance .
My husband who became obsessed with saving Bellatrix from herself no matter what the cost.
I help hand my daughter to monster when I could have saved by just putting her first, but I didn't .
Author Note: Merry Christmas.