Chapter 35 How to make a problem worse

Randy's POV

I know I said it was over but we all knew I just couldn't let her go. I wanted to keep fighting for her because I had never had something this worth while to fight for. She had avoided me for many weeks and by the time I got to talking to her we were on the weekend and I was made to go to her house. It was quite tiny but the backyard was quite impressive, I went back around to the front in hopes that this time she would answer the door. I kept knocking and knocking until at long last she got sick of it and opened the door.

"What do you want?" She snapped coldly leaning against the door frame.

"We need to talk"

"I've said all I had to say"

"Well there's some things I need to say so please hear me out"

Relenting a little she let me in "Fine"

"Raven what happened between me and Sam was nothing. She kissed me not the other way around"

"Uh-huh" Raven said nonchalantly, clearly she wasn't about to believe me. "Is that all?"

"No thats not all, why won't you believe me? I'm not Chase"

"Well your acting just like him!" Raven suddenly shouted at me.

"How can you say that? I've done nothing to make you not trust me!"

"Except making out with your ex wife!"

"That wasn't my fault and you know that!"

"Yeah whatever Randy, your just like the rest of them now if you don't mind I have work to do"

"We're not done Raven" I snapped at her "Why won't you believe me?"

"Because your acting skills aren't very good" Raven snapped "You said to Izzy it was over so leave, its over"

All the anger I was feeling just spiralled outta me and before I could stop I grabbed her by the throat and pinned her against the wall. Her silver orbs peered up at me in nothing but pure terror. "It is not over, not until I say so"

She didn't say anything, she just kept looking at me in terror and finally I came to my senses and let her go.

"I am so sorry" I stepped back from her hoping that she would at least fight back. She just flopped to the ground, shaking. I didn't mean to grab her like that, she just got me so angry. It was the first time I had ever put my hands on a woman.

"Raven?" I said softly reaching out to touch her

She backed away still shaking "Please Randy, please don't hurt me" Fear was the only emotion in her voice, tears spilling out of her beautiful eyes.

I did the only thing I could do, I left. I stood on the other side of the door for a moment and just listened to her cry. Every inch of me felt like shit, in a very short space of time I had made her afraid of the one person she was meant to be able to trust more than life itself.

After Randy had left and Raven had cried her eyes out she pulled herself up and headed out to her room, everything was locked up and now it was just her and Demon. She couldn't believe that Randy had grabbed her like that, she could still feel his hands around her throat, the memory was enough to make her cry again. He had promised not to hurt her and now he had. Raven was more confused at herself, her sister had had an abusive partner and she wound up hating him for what he had done but Raven found that she couldn't hate Randy, she should hate him for the way he grabbed her but she just couldn't, her love for him outweighed any hatred she should of been feeling. Confused she rung Iziah, maybe she could help her.

"Hey sister, how you be?" Iziah asked cheerfully

"It's over with Randy" Raven said sadly

"I'm sure whatever it is you two can sort it out, especially because you love each other so much"

"He grabbed me by the throat and pinned me against the wall"

"Oh that is so over" Iziah said "Do you want me to bash him?"

"No please don't do that"

"What? I could take him"

"I don't want you to hurt him" Raven sighed "Because I still love him"

"Raven thats a big mistake and you know it"

Raven sighed "I know but I can't help it. I saw it in his eyes, he was genuinely sorry that he grabbed me like that. I think he was as shocked as I was at his actions"

"So your gonna give him another chance?"

Raven sighed again "I don't know. I just keep thinking that he's the only one to heal me and now he doesn't want to help me"

"Raven I know you love him but you know the pattern as well as I do, if he does it once he'll do it again and I don't want you going through what I did"

"I know" Raven started to cry again "I don't think I'll ever stop loving him"

"Babe I know its hard but you gotta move on from him because he'll do nothing but hurt you"

Raven didn't quite believe her sister, she believed that deep down Randy did love her and wouldn't hurt her again. Or would he?