Chapter 36 Picking up a bat

Randy's POV

I gave her a few days to breathe, luckily we were still away on the weekend. Again she wasn't answering the front door so I went around to the back. She was out there hitting baseballs across the vast backyard. I just watched her for a moment, she was pretty good. Smoothly she threw a ball up and just as smoothly she swung back and smacked it across the grass. She had quite a swing on her. Instantly I felt sorry for Kelly for being on the recieving end.

"Your playing again" I said softly making her jump.

"Not really, just smacking some balls" She tossed another one up and smacked it "So what can I do for you?"

"I was hoping we could talk about what happened?"

She shook her head "I don't think so Randy, what you did was unforgivable"

"So thats it?" I asked sadly, I didn't want to lose her but I wasn't about to make the same mistake again. The last thing I wanted was to hurt her again.

Raven sighed and took a seat on the porch, she patted beside her inviting me to join her. I took a seat beside her that metal bat resting on her lap.

"You know what I'm afraid of?"

"What?"

"You" She looked at me "You scare me so much now and thats not something a relationship should be based on"

"Raven the last thing I want is for you to be afraid of me, I never meant to hurt you"

"You say that now and what happens when you get mad again? You repeat your actions and your words and as always I'm the one left in a pool of blood wondering where it all went wrong"

I took her hand in mine gently, tilting her chin I made her look at me "Raven one more chance is all I'm asking, I promise to never hurt you again if you give me another chance"

She slid her hand out from mine, "I don't think I can Randy, its just too much of a risk and I'm done taking chances"

I made her look at me again "Tell me you don't love me, tell me that suddenly your love has gone and I'll leave you to it"

"I can't do that Randy"

"Then why won't you give me a chance?"

"I'm already afraid of Ted, Cody and Chase. I don't want to be afraid of you too"

"I give you my word that you will never have to be afraid of me ever again because I would rather die a painful horrible death than to hurt you again"

A small smile crept onto her lips "So dramatic Randy"

"Its how I feel Raven" I took her hand and kissed it gently "Please forgive me and let us move on from this because quite honestly I can't picture life without you and I don't want to have to experince it"

She closed her eyes for the longest time, slowly she opened them and lent against me "Promise me that you will never put your hands on me again and if you do I'm allowed to shove this bat so far up your ass it comes out your mouth"

I had to laugh "Ok deal, if I make the same mistake again I'll voluntarily bend over and let you shove that thing up my ass"

Raven sighed against my chest "Please don't make me regret this Randy"

"I won't"