After a short stumpy sleep of waking up every hour…Nikki gave up and woke fully it had just gone 6:30am. She picked up the knife again looking at it. She looked at the state of her room and remembered the state of the flat from the evening before.

Cupboard doors hung off, damp patches all over walls, doors squeaking, the smell…the damp damp smell, the remaining smell from last nights pizza was in the air. She let tears slide down her cheeks as she sliced the knife through her right wrist through an artery, she bled out as the room around her started to become darker eventhough the sun was rising and shining through the windows.

It was 9am when Gemma had woken up, after screaming an obscenity she rushed and got changed for school running to holly getting her sorted.

"MOM! MOM CAN YOU HELP WEVE OVERSLEPT" Gemma screamed

But there was no response, she calmed holly down after changing her and balanced her on her hip walking to nikkis room.

"mom! Weve oversl…OH MY GOD! MOM" She said putting holly on a chair "don't move" she said running over checking her pulse "Mom" She said crying and shaking her "don't do this!" she cried

Gemma grabbed her phone and rang 999, asking for an ambulance. She got a t-shirt and got pressure on the wound. "why mum why?" Gemma cried in histerics.

The ambulance came into the flat, gemma directed them through.

"give me some details?"

"Nicola Boston, 32, erm…no known medication…im her daughter and this is her other daughter"

"attempted suicide, did you know about this?" The ambulance crew asked passing a note.

Gemma read it:

Gem…Im sorry darling…I couldn't do it anymore, take care of my baby girl…take care of yourselves, your both my baby girls…I love you. Mum xx

Gemma had tears in her eyes "she will survive"

"the doctors will tell you more when you get to the hospital"

Gemma picked up Holly and went in the ambulance. At the hospital, Gemma was lead to a relatives room She sat down with Holly on her lap.

A doctor came in "Hi, I have some good news your Nikki's relatives?"

Gemma nodded "Me and Holly are…Were her daughters" she said picking up Holly

"Okay do you want to come through" the doctor smiled leading them through

"is she okay?" Gemma asked

"Shes stable…shes having a lot of blood transferred into her and shes on oxygen and heart monitors but shes doing alright"

Gemma walked in and saw her "can she hear me?"

"she might be able too"

"You daft sod…why did you do that mum, I love you to bits and all but why?"