It was a week later, everyone had been going frantic at school nikki hadn't contact them neither had the hospital, Gemma had stayed in care with holly spending all the days at the hospital with a social worker. Nikki had woken up two days ago, and she was sitting up eating and drinking.
Gemma was there yet again with Holly.
"How you feeling?"
"better…im so sorry"
"its alright…it was a cry for help"
"I know I feel so bad for struggling and for not making it up to you"
"mom its fine, can we go home"
"yeah…come on" nikki smiled
They got home again and nikki cleaned up everything.
"gem can you get those three bottles of wine I got for Christmas and dust them down please"
"mom you should be relaxing"
"I cant when I have senior management coming round"
"mom, the hall, kitchen, bathroom and lounge are fine its everywhere else, mainly the bedrooms"
"it just looks horrible"
"I know…but we will put some throws on the sofas and give the place a clean, Hollys asleep and I'll stay out the way if I can"
"can you deal with holly if you need help disturb me if not keep quiet no one knows"
"I know mum"
The door bell rang
"right ill speak to you later go on" nikki said as gemma went into her room
Nikki went and answered the door "hi" she said
"hi nikki…tonight is still on yeah?" Lorraine asked
"yeah…I'll explain when everyones here" nikki said showing Lorraine to the living room
Eventually everyone had arrived
"help yourself to wine" Nikki smiled
"where have you been all week" Michael asked
"I meant to phone you…but I only woke on Friday"
"you've been asleep?" tom asked
"no…ive been unconscious" nikki admitted
"you've been in hospital?" Lorraine asked
"yeah…I commited suicide…well I was unsuccessful" nikki said not looking at micheal, tom and Lorraine pulling her sleeves down
"what?" tom asked
"I slit my wrists broke into an artery" nikki said
Holly had started crying
"wheres the baby noise?" Michael asked
"Oh the neighbours" nikki covered up quickly
Gemma had gone into the kitchen getting hollys milk
"im sorry its not all fun or anything I only came out an hour ago"
"Nikki its fine"
The cries got louder. Gemma burst into the room in a state. "Mom" she said in tears can you just deal with her "she wont have the milk off me"
Nikki stood up "its alright gem, don't worry ill come and sort it" she said avoiding the other three staff members
She picked up holly and brought her back with gemma into the front room.
"I'll keep her in here with me you go do you work hun" nikki smiled kissing her cheek as she sat down with holly with a blanket around her bottle feeding her rocking her slowly.
"you have kids?" Lorraine asked
"gemma's your daughter" tom asked
"I have three kids…my husband…ex-husband has legged it with my 6 year old son, and holly was born 11 months ago, his never coming back" nikki whispered as holly coughed nikki put the bottle down on the table and rocked holly "sorry this is not really exciting im sorry" nikki said
"nikki are you seeing a councillor?"
Nikki nodded "and im on anti-depressants, anything else you don't know about my private life?"
"sorry"
"this is why I don't host these drink things…I don't have time"
Holly had fallen asleep in her arms.
"I'll be back in a minute" nikki said putting holly to bed and going to Gemmas room "come and join us hun you can have a bit of wine" she smiled
Gemma smiled and came to sit in.
"this is Gemma Worthington, I was Nikki Worthington, I got divorced and im in stages to change there names too"
All three of them nodded
"shes a fantastic mum, I found her the morning after" Gemma said as nikki held her hand