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Sitting in our LA home, I sighed as I leaned back so I was now looking up at the ceiling.
Nate sat down next to me and cleared his throat. "Uh you alright man?"
I shrugged. "I don't know. I just…already miss Mitchie…a lot!" I sighed sadly.
"Yeah, we all do. Things seem so different already. But you know she needs this. She needs the help, she needs to get better. If she doesn't do this, then she could only get worse, you know?" Nate said softly
"I know. I just…I wish none of this ever happened. If I hadn't got into an accident, Mitchie would be perfectly fine! But she's far from it. I'm healed, I'm back to normal, yet she is still…still not okay. I just…I don't get it." I ran my hands over my face.
"I understand Shane. But we are leaving tomorrow morning to do some more touring, and we will keep you very busy. A month will go by quickly! And then you will be able to start visiting her, and soon she will be out." Nate said
"I know but I can only visit like once a week. It's just really crazy not having her around." I sighed
"Yeah. You two have gotten so close, and I think sometimes…she depends on you too much. Maybe this will also be good for her to become more…independent." Nate said quietly
"but I like having her depend on me, I like knowing that she needs me around, that I mean that much to her." I said softly.
"I know, but you know she loves you with all her heart." Nate said
"yeah but…its just how she shows it in a way." I shrugged.
"Well…we will just have to see what the future has in store for us all." With that Nate stood up and walked out the room.
"BLAH!" I groaned and fell face first onto the couch.
….
"Shane where is Mitchie?"
"Did you and Mitchie break up?"
"Is it true Mitchie is in rehab?"
"Is it true Mitchie needs help?"
"Is Mitchie getting help?"
"Are you two on talking terms?"
All those questions where getting thrown at me as I walked to the tour bus. I just wanted to curse them all out. But that's not the kind of person I am. So I ignored them and rushed to the bus.
I got on the bus and saw Nate and Jason sitting there playing 360. "already? Geesh so obsessed!" I chuckled and plopped onto the booth with some grapes.
"We had to do something to keep us from going insane from being so bored!" Jason stuck his tongue out.
"losers!" I rolled my eyes. "So did yall have questions thrown at you while coming here?"
"always do shane." Nate chuckled
"No I mean about Mitchie?" I asked as I ran a hand through my hair.
"Oh…yeah…A LOT!" Nate answered with Jason nodding.
I sighed and placed my head on the table.
"Everythings gonna die down soon shane." Nate said
"yeah whatever." I got up and walked to my bedroom in the back of the bus, ready to just sleep and not have so much to think about.
…..
Mitchie pov
I sat down slowly in an empty chair that was apart of the circle of chairs, were girls were already sitting. I looked around nervously and saw a lot of them looking at me, and some whispering. I looked down at my hands, and played with the ring that my mom had got me a few years ago.
"So today we are going to discuss why you are all here. We have been taking baby steps towards this, and now its time to get that off your shoulders. Alright ladies?" The woman in charge Lisa said.
Everyone agreed verbally while I nodded in agreement.
"alright Sarah please stand up and explain to us why you are here." Lisa said.
Sarah smiled softly and stood up. "I am here because I have an eating disorder."
"Why is that?" Lisa asked
"Well..." Sarah took a huge breathe. "I had relationship problems."
"Please put detail into that." Sarah said but in a kind way.
"Well my first boyfriend…he seemed to be the most…greatest, sweetest guy, and he always took me on dates, gave me surprises, and he was just the dream boyfriend." Her eyes suddenly became teary. "But then things changed. It was like he only acted like that so that I would believe I was in a great relationship. He started to drink and take drugs, and he would hit me." Tears slid down her face. "he called me ugly, and he said I was really fat, and no one would ever love me because of it. I knew I wasn't skinny, but I didn't think I was that fat. But he basically convinced me that I was really ugly and too fat, and that I couldn't be loved, no matter what kind of love it was. Family love, friend love, relationship love." She cried. "and he said he wanted me to be skinny, and I had to do whatever it took to do so. I wanted to break up with him, I tried, and the results…they were horrible, they were terrifying. He beat me worse than ever before. He threatened me, so I couldn't break up with him. So I started to ignore food, and I made myself throw up. maximum of 7 times a day! It got so bad that blood came out. I was so scared but he wouldn't let me stop." She sobbed.
Everyone was quiet and in shock.
"Honey…" she wanted to comfort the girl but she needed to ask more questions…it was all how to help her. "How..how did you get here?"
"I told him that I had a family emergency, he said things will be bad when I get back. So I left and I came here. He doesn't know im here and I hope he never does. I want him to get arrested and I need to get help for myself before I can even bring myself to do that." She cried.
I wanted to cry for her. I felt so bad for her. I couldn't believe that someone who looked so sweet and friendly could have gone through such…horrible things.
"Mitchie Torres?" Lisa said causing me to jump out of my trance. "would you like to share?"
Why not? I nodded and stood up as Sarah took a seat.
"so youre new here, introduce yourself and say why youre here." Lisa smiled encouragingly.
"Im Mitchie Torres, and I am here because I also have an eating disorder." I said shyly.
"why do you have an eating disorder?" She asked
"'well my boyfriend…shane gray. He got into a car accident, and was in critical condition…I uh I started to fall apart as he slipped into a coma. I cant live without him, and I depend so much on him. And I know that that's not always a good thing. But he said he didn't mind, he said he loved to know the fact that I needed him and wanted him there. So I let myself depend on him. When the doctor said there was a big possibility that he wouldn't wake up…I just…I couldn't believe it. I started to become depressed. Nate, Shane's brother, he was there for me the entire time. At first I would eat, because he wanted me to. He made sure I ate, drank, showered and basically lived my life. But then I just..i couldn't handle it anymore. I couldn't eat and be healthy while shane was not doing good. I was in shanes hospital room talking to him for most of the day. Then id go home and I was with nate. I felt so bad because I was keeping nate away from his girlfriend and one of my best friends, Caitlyn. But nates my number one best friend, he is who I call my twin. We have a strong bond and so I needed him. So he was there for me. But I stopped eating, and I stopped caring." I got really teary eyed. "It was tearing nate apart. Nate was already dealing with Shane being in the hospital and feeling guilty because he sent shane to get them starbucks. Then he was dealing with Caitlyn who wanted to be there for him. Then there was his parents who were a wreck, then there was Jason who was trying to hold the house together, ,but it was crashing in on him. I couldn't handle things anymore. But soon shane woke up and I was there. He noticed how pale I was, how unhealthy I looked, and when he grabbed my wrist he noticed how skinny I was." Tears streamed down my face. "he looked shocked…hurt…confused. He asked me why. I couldn't tell him. So I got up told him id get the doctor and call everyone.."I shrugged. "I soon told him it was cause of him being hurt and not waking up. he felt so bad but I said it wasn't his fault. It wasn't. so I tried to get healthy since he was awake and healing. But I couldn't…I couldn't eat…and we all knew I needed help..so here I am." I sniffed.
"thank you so much mitchie." Sarah said.
I knew I had rambled…but I had to get that all off my chest, to the person who could help me. Or at least that was her job. But could she really help me, when shane couldn't? I shook my head to clear my head and sunk down in my chair listening to everyone else's story. I didn't know still…If I really wanted to be here.
…
Shane pov
"YOOOOOOO!" Nate laughed as he cheered about winning the round of Call Of Duty.
"Birdie Birds man" Jason pouted.
"Loser!" Nate laughed and went to the fridge. I sat there rolling my eyes with an amused look.
"How you doing Shane?" Nate asked as he sat down across from me.
"Alright. Can't get Mitchie off my mind. Wondering how she is doing…" I sighed
"I know man. I've been wondering that too." Nate sighed.
…..
"Let's go! Places now!" the stage manager called as we were running to the stage. Time to perform. My mind was all focused on the concert as adrenaline pumped through me.
After a few upbeat songs, it was time to slow things down. Critical by Nate! Haha!
Nate was singing and playing piano and I and Jason played other instruments.
No one pov.
There's a storm coming up
and I gotta prepare myself.
'Cause this feeling's
getting stronger everyday
Mitchie was in here room feeling like she was going to hyperventilate. They were bringing food to her room, and she didn't want it. But they were going to sit there with her until she finished it all OH aaaaaand for the rest of the night to make sure she doesn't throw up even if she cant go to the bathroom to do it. She needed Shane, she wanted shane, she was going to go insane without him here. He was the one who could always calm her down and help her feel comfortable and safe. But he wasn't here, and she was about to cry.
Something's creeping inside
everything is about to change.
Gotta face the fact
that I can't walk away.
She saw the lady walk in with the food, she couldnt not do this. She had to, even if she didn't want to. Sitting down tears spilled from her eyes.
This is critical,
I am feeling helpless.
So hysterical, this can't be healthy.
I can't eat or sleep
when you're not with me.
Baby, you're the air I breath.
This is critical, yeah.
So stuck on you
Mitchie tried to refuse the food. She was sobbing.
Shane was so into the song as he stood on stage playing it. His mind filling with mitchie. How she was his life. And how she always told him he was hers.
Used to have everything figured out
but its different now.
When you came, you saw
you conquered my heart.
Shane thought of how guilty he felt as he thought of the fact that mitchie wasn't here..wasnt in the crowd, wasn't back stage, wasn't on the bus…was hours away.
As the lady told mitchie to take her time she thought of how shane was her rock, her life, the reason she was still alive. How she loved him with all her heart.
It's your laugh and your smile;
wanna stay for a little while.
I don't wanna go,
I just want you in my arms.
She never thought she'd have to be away from shane for so long. Being here for only a week, she felt like she was going to go crazy.
Shane thought of how he wished he could be the one to help mitchie. Wishing he could be there to hold her, to comfort her, to encourage her.
This is critical,
I'm feeling helpless.
So hysterical, this can't be healthy.
I can't eat or sleep
when you're not with me.
Baby, you're the air I breathe.
This is critical, yeah.
So stuck on you.
Mitchie sobbed into her hands. "Shane" she whispered. She looked up at the food that was sitting on the table in front of her. She had to do this for shane. No matter how much she didn't want to do it…for herself. She would do it for shane. She had to. She knew it.
Used to run and hide
Used to back out of love
But I cant escape this time oh nooo
Shane and Jason switched side of the stage they were on as Nate continued on the Piano. All completely lost in the music.
This is critical
I am feeling helpless
So hysterical
And this cant be healthy
I cant eat or sleep when you're not with me
You're the air I breathe
This is critical yeah
Baby its so critical
So critical
Yeah
I like it
Its so critical
So critical
Yeah
So stuck on you
Mitchie took a bite of the ham and cheese sandwich.
…
Shane yawned as he walked out the bathroom in his Pj's and was drying off his hair with a towel. He sat down on his tour bus bed, picking up his phone in the process. He looked at the screen and smiled at the picture of him and mitchie that nate had taken of them when they weren't paying attention.
His phone started to ring and he looked at the name
Taylor S.
He chuckled and answered his phone.
"Hey Swifty." He joked
"shut it Gray!" Taylor laughed.
"Whats up?"
"well I heard you were touring and I am going to be in the area. So I was wondering if we can hang out." Taylor asked
"Yeah course! When?" Shane asked
"mmm tomorrow?" taylor asked
"Alright see ya then swifty." Shane chuckled
Taylor laughed. "see ya shane."
They hung up.
Shane plugged his phone in before laying down ready to just sleep.
…
Shane and Taylor walked into a café as they were hanging out for lunch.
"I want a cheese burger!" Taylor grinned like a little kid.
Shane laughed and shoved her playfully as she started to laugh.
"This is really fun!" Taylor said as she finished her burger and fries.
"Yeah we haven't hung out in awhile." Shane smiled
"True. So how are things going for you?" Taylor asked
"Pretty good." Shane smiled
"Where's … Mitchie…that's her name right? Your girlfriend?" Taylor asked
"Yeah that's her name. She's uh in a treatment center for a few months." Shane frowned
"Oh..i am so sorry." Taylor apologized
"Yeah…" Shane felt guilty as he thought of why Mitchie was in there. "but uh how are you?"
"I am doing great!" Taylor got all excited again.
Shane laughed "tell me about your life then"
And that's what they did. They chatted and laughed and just had fun.
With Nate
Nate sighed as he sat on the couch. "damn it."
"Whats wrong?" Caitlyn asked as she sat down next to him. She had joined them earlier that day for the tour.
"Shane is running late, and we have sound check, like really soon!" Nate leaned back.
Caitlyn rubbed his knee. "he'll be here"
"I hope." Nate sighed
"Where did he go?" Caitlyn asked
"hang out with Taylor." Nate rolled his eyes.
"Swift or Lautner?" Caitlyn asked
"Swift." Nate said
"oh…" She thought it was crazy but she was hoping she could trust him hanging with other girls while mitch wasn't around.
…..
Shane ran into sound check 5 minutes late.
"STAGE NOW SHANE!" his manager yelled.
Shane ran onto stage to see his brothers setting things up. "Hey guys!"
"Where the heck where you man? Youre late!"Nate whisper yelled
"dude its only 5 minutes!" Shane laughed like it was funny.
"Its still late! We have a lot to do before the show tonight! You know how our manager gets!" Nate was clearly mad. "Youre so stupid!" He walked back over to the guitar.
Shane shrugged and picked up the microphone.
….
About a Month later.
"Can I use your phone then?" Mitchie asked as she followed her therapist lady down the hall.
"sweetie we will call him for you." She said
"But I want to talk to him!" Mitchie whined.
"Honey you will see him soon." She turned into a room with mitchie still following.
"UGH! Fine but it really better be soon" She mumbled as they sat down.
…
Mitchie sat in her room waiting for her therapist Julie to come get her. She was waiting for Shane to arrive. She was so excited to see him! Its been so long and she misses him so much!
Julie walked in. "Hey Mitch, visitors here" she didn't really smile…hmm mitchie thought.
"thanks!" mitchie grinned and followed Julie to the meeting room. (yeah I don't know how treatment centers are sooo just like my made up stuff, this is fiction after all!:P )
Mitchie walked in and was suddenly really confused. Why was Nate here and not Shane? She was excited to see Nate though!
"Nate!" she grinned and he stood up with a grin and opened his arms as she ran to him and they hugged each other tightly. "I missed you twin!"
"I missed you tooo!" Nate chuckled and kissed Mitchie's head. They pulled apart and sat down. "How have you been?"
"Pretty good. It was really hard at first, but I've been eating, like 2 meals a day! They are working me up to 3, then snacks along with it, and etc." Mitchie smiled softly.
"That's great mitchie! I can't wait till you are all better, and back home with us." Nate grinned
Mitchie giggled and pushed him playfully. "Thank you. And uh not to seem rude, but uh where's Shane?"
Nate sighed. "Him…yeah…" Nate scratched the back of his neck.
"What's going on?" Mitchie became worried.
"He's uh…he like uh…forgot he was suppose to meet with you today, and he was out, and would have been really late, so I said id come." Nate smiled apologetically.
That hurt….that Shane forgot…he forgot to come meet me…how? I haven't seen him in a month! Mitchie thought and tried to fight back tears. "Oh…Well I'm really happy to see you Nate!"
Nate stood up and pulled Mitchie into a hug. "I am sorry."
"It's not your fault Nate. You're my best friend, and I was excited to see you! I'm really glad you're here." Mitchie buried her face into his chest.
….
"So how are Caitlyn and Jason?" Mitchie asked
"pretty good! Jason is enjoying his time like usual, caught up with the birds. Caitlyn misses you…A LOT! Only girl on tour with us now." Nate laughed
Mitchie started to laugh. "Poor Caitlyn!"
Nate nodded as he laughed. "yeah, but she'll live."
Mitchie giggled. "you sooo care" she said sarcastically.
Nate grinned "I do!"
Mitchie giggled. "better ! she is your girlfriend!"
Julie walked in. "alright visiting hours over. Sorry."
Nate nodded and they stood up. Mitchie hugged Nate and he hugged her tightly. "Ill see you soon Mitch." He kissed her head.
"See you soon. Ill miss you!" She said as she pulled away wiping her tears.
Nate wiped her tears as more came down. "Don't cry." He frowned.
"sorry" Mitchie whispered
Nate kissed her forehead. "Stay Strong, I'll see you really soon."
"See ya." Mitchie nodded. She watched as Nate followed Julie. "Love you Nate!" She called after him.
He turned and smiled. "Love you too Mitchie" He chuckled before leaving. Mitchie already missed him. Her best friend and her twin the one who chose to come while Shane had bailed on her. She walked to her room and so she could lay on her bed to cry. She couldn't believe that Shane didn't come.
"You okay Mitchie? Are you ready for dinner?" Julie asked as she walked in.
"No." Mitchie cried.
"Honey what's wrong?" Julie asked as she sat on the bed.
"Shane didn't come! Shane forgot! How could Shane forget about me?" Mitchie cried.
"Oh honey…well you and Nate seemed close." Julie said
"He's my best friend, we call each other twin. And we are close, but I wouldn't date him! I love Shane! He loves Caitlyn! I love Shane with all my heart, and he's the one I want to be with…but why did he forget about me?" Mitchie sobbed.
…..
Nate arrived back at the bus and saw Shane and Jason laughing as they played Mario cart on wii, and Caitlyn sitting at the booth reading a book. She heard Nate come in and looked up. "Hey babe!"
"hey !" Nate smiled and walked over to Caitlyn and they kissed before Nate sat down across from her.
"how's Mitchie?" Caitlyn asked.
Nate thought that would be the first thing Shane would ask her when he walked in. but nooope. "She's doing good."
Jason had paused the game, and him and Shane joined the two at the booth.
"she eating again?" Caitlyn asked
"She's eating two meals a day, they are working her to three, then they are going work her to adding snacks at some point. She said they are really helping. She said it was really hard at first, but she adapted to it." Nate smiled.
"Did she look like she gained weight?" Jason asked.
"Yeah! She looks so much healthier!" Nate smiled.
"Yay!" Caitlyn grinned with a small squeal.
They laughed lightly. "She says she misses us a lot. She said they watch her eat, sleep everything! She has to earn their trust. She can't even go to the bathroom by herself. She has to earn it. But she is getting used to it, and says she will earn their trust. She is so ready to just go back to being to healthy and come back home."
"Well we all miss her of course!" Caitlyn giggled.
"Definitely!" Jason grinned
They all looked to Shane but he looked to be in really deep thought.
"You okay man?" Nate asked.
Shane snapped out of his trance. "huh? Oh! Yeah I am fine. I just…I feel really guilty and really bad for forgetting and not going! I was so excited to see her too. I miss her like crazy!"
"You can always go next week" Nate smiled softly. "she really wants to see you. She was really upset you didn't show up…I felt bad having to tell her!"
"I am so sorry!" Shane put his head on the table.
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