JENNIE

"GD..." I laughed as Jiyong pulled out a small pack of peanuts and popcorn from his suit pocket. They were small packs but I couldn't help but laugh. We were walking into the theater, heading towards the double doors, both of us dressed. Jiyong and on a black suit with a white shirt with four buttons undone and his red hair cascading down his neck to rest on his shoulder. Me on the other hand, I wore my chanel Black Tweed Dress with black heels.

"Just Incase we get hungry." Jiyong laughed, moving closer so he could wrap his hand around my waist.

"They're going to make loud crunching sounds."

"That's our business." Jiyong pressed a kiss to my temple. I shook my head at him and tried to move out of his hold but Jiyong tugs me back in, until my hands were resting on his chest and he was looking right into my eyes. People were bypassing us, to head right into the hall but Jiyong doesn't let go.

"We should really head in."

"Let me stare at your gorgeous face." Jiyong said and I look away, my cheeks heating. While looking over Jiyong's shoulder I sees someone familiar in the crowd but the face was blocked by a couple people in front of us.

It took one, two, three seconds for my eyes to lock with Lisa who was standing there dressed immaculately in a dark red suit with a white shirt, her hair is back to blonde.

I almost wants to face palm. I had forgotten Lisa had said she had tickets to see this show to and now here I was wrapped up in Jiyong's arms and staring at Lisa, my friend and ex wife.

"Darling, lets go in before I take you to a corner and do things that would make you reach an insane high note." Jiyong murmured in my ear, nipping on the shell. It was like a shock went through my body, I finally looks away from Lisa who gives me a small wave and smile that looked like it hurt.

"Fine but I call first dibs on the peanuts."

Jiyong laughs as he rests his hand on the small of my back and led me into the theater, both of us making our way down to the first rows. Phantom of the Opera had been my favorite thing when I was in high school. I liked the musical scores, the idea of the mask, the entire thing.

I tried to focus on the show but I just couldn't, Lisa's smile kept replaying in my head and halfway through, I couldn't sit still anymore.

"Hey. I'm going to use the bathroom"

"Okay, babe." Jiyong whispered, he pressed a kiss to my cheek.

I quickly walked a bit to the side where one of the exit doors were and made my way to the bathroom. I stops when I pushed the door open and finds Lisa splashing water on her face.

"Hey." I said as I walked in, the door swinging close behind me.

Lisa jerks up and stared at me, water dripping down her face to her shirt. I reaches for one of the paper towels and walked closer to her, I reached out and gently dabbed Lisa's skin with it, letting it soak up all the water. This close I could see just how blue my wife's eyes were.

Ex wife.

LISA

I didn't move, I holds my breath, afraid that if I let go Jennie was going to disappear. Jennie places the used paper towel on the ground and took several steps backwards. Shifting her gaze from me to the white tiles.

"A-are you enjoying the show?" I asked and she nods.

"Me too but I'm going to leave now. I just remembered I had a couple of things to do so i can't stay for the entire show." I said, my face neutral and voice strong. But Jennie knew. We've been together for twenty two years, of course She knew what to look for to know if I was lying or not.

JENNIE

"Sure. I have to get back in, Jiyong will get worried if I stayed out too long." I said as I rubbed my palm against my palm.

"Jiyong... yeah. Have fun." Lisa smiles and I nods. I turned away and pushed my way out of the bathroom, I went back to the double doors leading to the show but I couldn't find it in myself to go back in. What was wrong with me? Why was I still feeling this way?

I was so lost in thought, I didn't notice Lisa walking towards the doors until it made a clanging sound, almost like her watch hit the metal handles. I turned to see what had caused the noise but I only see Lisa's retreating back.

I shook my head. No. I wasn't going to do this. I was going to go back in there and have fun with Jiyong. I squared my shoulder and pushed in.

LISA

"She found someone better." I told Vanessa. For the first time since we started, I was laying down on the pull out sofa, staring right at the ceiling.

"How is this person better?"

"It's Jiyong Kwon. Everyone in the business world knows who he is. You didn't see them yesterday, he was holding Jennie like she was precious, they were both laughing and smiling and they look good together. Jennie looked happy."

"How does that make you feel?"

"I'm glad that she found Jiyong. I'm glad that she's happy but at the same time I feel like a big dumb idiot who let someone precious getaway and I did." I ran my hand through my hair and I mess my bangs leaves it there.

"Okay, Lisa I'm going to say a few thing here and correct me if I'm wrong." Vanessa says and I nods.

"You are truly happy Jennie has found someone." I nods. "You are happy that you two are friends again, talking and texting." I nods again. "You think there is now no chance of you two ever getting back together."

I sits up at that and stared at Vanessa with wide eyes but she doesn't stop.

"There was a part of you deep down that thought that it starts slow until you prove to Jennie that you are what she wants, who she loves and you two can start something new."

I still didn't say anything. I just stared at Vanessa.

"It's normal to feel this way, Lisa but I have to ask you and you're going to have to really think about it, consider all options." Vanessa said, her pen resting on her notepad. "Do you want to get back together with Jennie?"

"Yes."

"Do you love her?"

"Yes."

"Do you think your kids would want the same thing?"

And wasn't that just it. Would the kids want the same thing. They barely talk to me as it is and there was one time I overhead Kuma calling me, Lisa instead of dada when he was talking to his friends.

"To be honest, Lisa you are part of the ten percent who want to get back together with their partner after a divorce. Most people don't, most people cover any left off pain with resentment, disappointment, regret and anger. For what you want to work, only you can't feel the same way, everyone, Jennie and your kids have to feel the same way to. Do you understand what I mean?"

I nods, her word stuck in my throat.

"Are you saying I should just stick to being friends with Jennie?"

"No. I am saying not to set expectations, be content with what you have and try to improve your relationship with your kids." Vanessa said. "It's your turn with them this week, right?"

"Yeah. I pick them up on Friday."

"I'm going to give you an assignment. You're going to talk to them about anything. Let them understand you and also tell them about your friendship with their Mom. Don't leave them out of the loop."

I always finishes my session before Kuma. I has too much energy bursting within me so I could only sit at the waiting room for him. So I walks out of the clinic and down the road, to where the flowershop was. I stared at the basket of roses outside the shop and scrunched my nose up.

Jennie didn't like roses. Has never been a fan of it.

"Hi. How may I help you?"

"I'm just... can I look around?" I asked and the girl nods. I moves from one basket of flowers to the other until I got to a tall basket of white flowers.

"It's a calla Lilly."

I nods. I has read a book once about a prince who fell in love with a baker and had kept giving him calla lilies. Now that I staring at the flower, the white petals and long stem I sees the appeal. It looked like an angelic flower and it just screamed Jennie.

"Can I get two bouquets delivered?"

"Yeah."

I follows her to the till and she pulls out two delivery cards. I shakes my head and hands one back to her. "It's the same address."

I writes down Jennie's name and was so close to writing Manoban as her last name before I catches myself. I quickly fills the card and hands over my card. A swipe and a receipt later and I was done.

"No cards?"

"No. Just keep the sender anonymous."

Walking back to the clinic was slower, I trying to kill time before I goes back. I finds Kuma walking out of his therapist's office and gives him a wave.

Kuma pulls up his hoodie and walked towards me.

"How was it?"

"How did people feel when the titanic was sinking?" Kuma asked as he walks past me.

"That bad huh?"

"She wants to talk about my child hood." Kuma said as he walked away. I frowns and follows him all the way to the car park. I remembers Kuma's childhood, I was present for everything and it had been great. So why was it that bad?

"Why don't you want to talk about your childhood?"

"It was a scam."

I was thankful I wasn't driving or I would have hit the brakes so hard. I turn to Kuma. "Your childhood wasn't a scam."

"It had to have been because if you had loved us, loved Mom you wouldn't have cheated, you wouldn't have treated us like we didn't matter, like we were disposable."

"I love you and your siblings. You are my life and my children, an extension of myself. I'm sorry for all the pain I've put you and your siblings through. Cheating on your Mom was the worst thing that I had done, there's no day that I don't regret what I did. Your Mom was and still is the love of my life and I am going to spend forever trying to fix it. None of you are disposable, you are all priceless and worthy of so much more, even more than me."

"Dada--"

"I let insecurities cloud my judgement and now I'm paying for it. I've lost you all. Your love and your mom's Iove."

Kuma was blinking back tears and was staring out the window. He didn't want to see me but he was listening, his brain calculating.

"I'm sorry, Kuma," I adds. "You were a wonderful baby. Quiet and mischievous, you always tried to go up the stairs despite us baby proofing everything. You gave your mom a few scares. Always putting stuff into your mouth and biting."

He laughs, a few tears escaping.

"There was one time you tried to suck your mom's toe. You're mom was so shocked she almost tripped on you." I laughed.

"Thank you." He said after a few minutes of silence.

"Anything for you." I said. "A beautiful baby and an amazing son."

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