A/N: So I chose the song I did for this one because this chapter is where I want Dib to start to realize that Zim loves him, for many reasons and has a deeper meaning behind everything he's doing and has and will be doing for a while. If that made sense. Anyway, enjoy!
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Dib's eyes widened in shock as the revelation came to him. He was being kissed, and not kissed by just anyone, he was being kissed by his ex-enemy, and the object of all his confusion. It made his head spin and swim, twirl and curl, searching for a rationalization for such an act. Dib had always thought Zim would never even come more than two feet away from him, not to mention kiss him!! But what shocked him even more, he hadn't pulled away. Could he really love him? Zim sensed Dib's apprehension and fear and pulled away, not wanting to frighten him.
"I'm sorry, Dib," he started, his head hung low, "I wanted to, at least express to you, that, I really like you. I always have. I understand it's," he paused for thought, "not an emotion you're used to. Nor is it a comforting sensation. I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to put up this charade. I want you to be happy. Because I love you," Zim finished, holding his breath as he waited for Dib's response. The human was still frozen, eyes unblinking.
'He loves me?! Oh, good lord...Zim....,' Dib, in his thinking, didn't notice the Irken move to sit next to him on the couch. Stinging in his head, Dib felt the stinging on his cheeks as he let the liquid pour from his eyes. Zim, not used to human tears, became frantic.
"Dib? Are you okay? Did Zim do something wrong?" It hurt Zim to see his love cry, though he did not know that that was what he was doing. Dib's hands came up to his eyes and rubbed at them, trying to make the tears stop. When they didn't, he succumbed to the urge and broke down.
"Zim...It's..hard for me..," Dib sobbed, his hands covering his eyes in his slumped over position. Zim was at a loss of what to do. The logical thing for him was to make him stop. In anyway he possibly could. "I've been so confused. I don't know what to think."
"Think of what? Dib, tell Zim what's been bothering you..," he couldn't help the pleading tone in his voice. His antennas drooped to his head, and his eyes grew softer. This emotion; it was strange. He made a mental note to ask computer later.
Dib wiped at his eyes again, trying to calm himself down, not liking that he was opening himself to the Irken so easily. "I've been thinking and I think I like you too." He paused to breathe. "My mind has been so scattered and a part of me, doesn't want to believe it's true. That I could be," he paused to hold back a sob and wipe away more tears. "that I could be a homosexual, and that you might feel this way towards me." Dib concentrated on taking deep breaths and soon was able to speak without the quiver in his voice. "Right now, my mind is just jumbled, and it's hard for me to think clearly."
"Is that what love does to you humans?"
"Sometimes. Love is a very peculiar. Sometimes it's this wonderful, soft, numbing feeling. It warms our entire bodies, and makes us smile a lot. Sometimes it hurts, and makes us feel unimaginable pain and suffering; makes us feel like our heart is breaking, or we can't breathe. It confuses humans more than anything else. It's one of our many puzzles in life. Mysterious; and ancient. Love has been the demise of many in our history, and has been the creator of many great things we come to know today. Some say love is a cruel and evil thing, while others embrace and protect it, try to make more of it. It all depends on the person, and how they view the concept, and how they project their love. It's...complicated." Dib concluded, a small smile on his face. Zim blinked; that was some speech. Love really sounded like something to be feared to a human.
"And what do you think of 'love', Dib?" Zim inquired.
Dib froze in his thought process. No one, had ever uttered those words to him. No one had ever cared enough to ask his opinion before. Not a single one of his kind had ever given a pig's sneeze about him or his theories. Dib blushed, and this simple question had further endeared Zim to Dib. "Love is something neither timid nor tame. You can't control it; it controls you. Love drives people to do things; wonderful, and horrible things. To think things and to feel different emotions. I'm not sure of anything about love, Zim. I'm always questioning, and always careful about my research. But I've never cared for love before. It never mattered. But now that I am faced with it, this mystery, I want to know more, discover more....," His blush intensified and he cleared his throat. "You know, when I think about you, my feet; they always bring me to you."
Zim smiled at Dib's words and felt the urge to kiss him again. "I'm glad you feel that way. I want to know more about this emotion and more...about you. More about everything about you Dib. Not just as a human, but, just as you; as Dib." Zim smiled and looked him in the eyes. "You know, every night, when I play that music? I've been watching, and I've seen you, Dib. I know," Zim smirked his vicious smirk, sending chills up Dib's spine. He blushed and Zim laughed shortly. Zim got up and went over to the wall near the kitchen and pressed in a code, and came and sat back down next to Dib. Within seconds, the song started.
"When I see your smile,
Tears roll down my face.
I can't replace.
And now that I'm stronger, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.
I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.
It's okay,
It's okay,
It's okay!"
Dib's eyes widened and he looked over to Zim, who smiled at him slightly, truth glimmering in his eyes. Dib felt heat rush to his cheeks and knew he was blushing again. Zim smiled more and put an arm around Dib. Dib sighed and tried to smile through his shock and continued listening.
Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.
'Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y,
My true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
'Cause I'm here... for you!
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay... here!
Whoa-oh!
Stay!
Whoa-oh!
Use me as you will!
Pull my strings just for a thrill!
And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning gray! (gray! gray! )
I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!
I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!"
When the song reached it's end, Zim got up and turned it off with another series of beeps. Turning to the now very silent human, Zim took a deep breath before speaking ."Zim just wanted to let you know how much I feel about you," Zim said sincerely in improper grammar. He paused to make sure the human was still breathing. "You may go home if you want now. Or, you can stay the night. Whichever you prefer, Dib...," Zim heard Dib rise to his feet and sunk a bit. He was hoping he would stay.
"Thank you, Zim. For letting me know. I'll think about it, and let you know by Friday." Dib bit his lip in debate with himself. As one side won, Dib made his way over to him, stopping just in front of him, gazing into his cherry red eyes.
"Two days? I'll know in two days?" Zim inquired, his eyes flaring as he realized how close Dib was to him. Dib nodded with a smile. The first true smile he'd smiled at his enemy; ever.
"Night Zim..," Dib whispered and pecked him on the lips before turning on his heel and leaving the Irken stunned.
When Zim finally realized what happened, he shook his head, very dizzy. He sighed and smiled to himself. Things were going exactly as he wanted them to. Soon, very soon, Dib and Zim would be able to start a new, and everything would be wonderful.
So, how did I do? I hate my failure as a writer. I'm sorry. Please review, they make me feel better. Review if you want more! Song: Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
