She finally decided that she couldn't keep trying to get sleep, it eluded her, the nightmares came back with vengeance. She had been weeks without them, for some unknown reason being around Loki as she slept prevented them. She had gotten so use to not having them, so when she woke from the first one she was shaking, clammy and terrified. Now she was alone in her bed, it made it worse as tear fell from her face remembering why she was not tangled up with Loki's body in there usual sleeping duet.

She just got up and changed back into her uniform. She tried reading to calm her nerves however she ended up reading the same paragraph over and over. Her head and heart was a mess, all she thought she knew about him seemed now to be a complete lie. Then again Loki was the God of mischief and lies, she was stupid in forgetting that and trusting him. She felt herself begin to break down as she pulled her knees up to her chest hugging them, she hated herself for becoming so weak and fragile over a man. However she knew then that she had felt more than she ever thought she could have for him, she loved him.

She sat at the desk hunched up, looking at the glorious sun rise out of the window before she got up and headed to the library. She walked into the vast room filled with books, she put back books which she had borrowed back before heading back to her room. She wasn't in the mood to be reminded of her and Loki. So many memories haunted her here in Asgard, she just paced her room trying to control her mixed emotions, working out what she could do. She was trying to keep busy to control her mind from wandering back to her and Loki.

She sat down and tried to continue writing her report, it seemed a little easier now she didn't seem to feel like she was betraying a person she cared about, however her mind was else where. She started to re-read her older reports correcting what she had too. She heard knocking at the door, she looked up panic rising that it was Loki. She didn't want to see him at all, her heart and head were saying different things right now. The door opened to see a tired looking Thor standing there.

"Leah." He mumbled looking at her smiling.

"Were the celebrations that good?" Leah smiled weakly turning around to face her friend. "What can I do for you Thor?"

"I was wondering if you were going to join us for the fourth night?" Thor beamed looking pleased at the idea of the fourth night.

"How many nights are there?" Leah looked a little shocked, she had been to a few of the celebrations but this would now be the fourth celebrations now. It was definitely the longest feasts by far that she had seen and no one had indicated when it would finish.

"Several." Thor smirked chuckling at her shock "Maybe more."

"I don't think that I am up to any more celebrating." Leah sighed looking down knowing that she did not want to see Loki or his wife. It was more than likely happen if she was to attend another function. She didn't want to be put in that situation or have a scene started because of her.

"Are you okay?" Thor frowned moving closer to her looking concerned.

"I am missing my home." Leah shrugged trying to think of something that would cover the loss of control in her emotions. "It is a time for family there at the moment I believe but I may have lost track in time. Its been nearly a year without seeing any of them. I miss my brother and well the others."

"I understand, you have been her for a long time without seeing any of your own family." Thor suggested looking a little concerned , she tried to avoid his eye contact in case she started to well up again. "Perhaps I could take you home?"

"Home." Leah finally looked up at Thor, she had never really thought about going home but perhaps it made sense. She actually craved to be with her brother right now, to see him and be with her own family. She looked at Thor thinking for a moment before continuing. "Really, you would take me home?"

"For as long as you need?" Thor nodded smiling at her reassuringly. "I will help in any way possible to make you happy here Leah, You are a friend. So if you wish to go home, I will take you."

"Please." Leah smiled at him knowing it was what she needed to get away. "I would like to go home." She looked at him almost begging for him to take her home.

Thor just smiled at her nodding, she quickly packed a small bag with her most prized possessions and a few of her notes and books. She slung it over her shoulder and followed Thor out of her room. She knew that this was perhaps not the best way in going about this, but she needed time to clear her head. She walked with him in complete silence as she thought when she heard footsteps.

"Mother, Brother." Thor boomed smiling at his family making Leah curse, she hoped to have just slip away without any one noticing till she was gone. "I saw very little of you at the celebration last night."

Leah looked up seeing the Queen and Loki approaching them. They had seemed in deep conversation till Thor's interruption. Her heart stop and her mouth opened but nothing calm out. Loki looked pale and his expression was colder than she had seen it for a long while. She looked away not really know what to do or say. She glanced to Thor who seemed unaware of the awkwardness, the Queen however seemed to be staring at her with a very concerned expression on her face.

"What are you two doing?" Loki looked at the pair of them noticing the bag on the back of Leah's back. His eyes suddenly widened with shock knowing exactly what was happening before any one could reply.

"Leah has explained that she has a need to go home, she has been here a year without seeing her own family who she misses." Thor explained calmly, it did after all seem a plausible reason to go home if you didn't know what had actually happened in the pass day. "I offered to take her home."

"It's around time of year at home which we spend with family." Leah continued looking at the queen trying to avoid Loki's eyes. "I didn't realize how much I missed them till Thor offered to take me home. It will be good for me to see them while I miss them so much, so not to take them for granted."

"How long?" Loki asked she could hear the concern and worry in his own voice. His eyes were completely locked on hers, she could tell that he wanted to say a lot more to her but for some reason something was holding him back. She knew it was more than likely his annoying male pride getting in the way.

"Thor has offered me to go home for as long as I need." She finally met his eyes, looking at them coldly but only see hurt in Loki's eyes. A large part of her didn't want to leave him, she could feel her heart breaking further by doing this. But she wasn't ready for any further lies he may throw at her.

"I hope your time there treats you well and you will return to us Leah." The Queen sighed looking a little upset by the idea but seeming supportive in Leah's decision. "You will be missed." The queen added. "By all."

"Thank you." Leah looked back down to the floor.

"She is only going for a short while." Thor laughed still not sensing the situation in front of him. "You both look like she will not return. Come on Leah lets see if I can find where your brother is."

They continued to walk, Leah felt sick already, she knew what the Queen meant by her words and look on Loki's face. She knew she needed to go and needed time to herself. However she was glad Loki didn't make a scene or fight her decision to go home, it was what she needed.

She followed Thor who spoke to the Gate keeper, smiling he took hold of her hand before she was taken back to earth to shield. They arrived outside the remote base, she looked around. It seemed too long since she was home. It was completely different to Asgard, the fact they were in a barren desert probably helped her to think this. She already missed the beauty which surrounded her back in Asgard, she knew then this was going to be harder than she thought. Glancing up at Thor she smiled.

"Thank you."

"It was no problem Leah." Thor replied smiling down at her, he took her hand kissing it making her laugh at his ways. "When you wish to come back I will come and get you."

"Thanks for everything Thor." Leah looked up at him not knowing if she was going to return. "You are a good friend."

Thor just nodded at her smiling before he disappeared off to Asgard again. Leah thought for a moment, she wasn't really sure if she ever wanted to go back now but just smiled knowing she had plenty of time to think about it before making a decision. Before she headed back into what seemed like home to her.