Days had passed since Loki had released himself from the cell, she had not seen him or been able to find him in fact. She knew it was pointless in even looking, with everything Loki could do, if he really didn't want to be found there wasn't a chance he would allow it to happen. The Queen or Thor would hardly speak about him to her which only made her more concern that his hatred and anger towards her was still brewing. She spent a lot of time trying to take her mind off of him by reading and studying about the possibilities for her child with the gene pool it had. However no books actually had any of the answers that she really wanted.

Night soon fallen, Leah could not face sleep again, with the two choices she seemed to have was nightmares or a restless night while her mind continued to race. She knew that none of this was good for the child but at the moment she didn't seem to have a choice. Then again the stress and every change in emotion she had wasn't much better for it. The night passed without much sleep but she woke with her head in a book, she stretched her body and looked around. Her vision blurred, she rubbed her eyes before getting up. Leah changed into a clean set of clothing. Her jeans seeming very tight to put on over the baby bump and a loose flowing long top which hid what was coming. She headed out, not feeling up to running but a walk and fresh air would at least start to clear her mind. She walked into the gardens, her mind was not clearing as she would normally hope. It just came back to the look that Loki had given her when he left the dungeons. She could tell how much he disliked she could even suggest hatred for her all exposed in that look. The little light of hope she had for them seemed to get dimmer as each day passed. It didn't help that Loki seemed determined for them not to see each other or even speak.

She knew he was not going to come to her or change his opinion quickly. While he was in this humor it was better not to even attempt to speak to him. Leah worried that with her body seeming to change daily now and her bump growing ever prominent, people will soon know she was pregnant. She desperately wanted to tell him or even have a chance too. She pulled out the photo of the child within her. A thought came to her head, she knew that Loki would not listen to her but a photo spoke a thousand words. Perhaps it wasn't the right time to tell him about his child but it would better than him finding out from some one else.

She just smiled as this one clear thought help focus her mind, knowing what she had to do and headed to his room. Her heart hammered in her chest with anticipation of what he may or may not do. She only hoped he didn't reject the child, she could handle his rage but their child was innocent of the crimes of its parents. She stopped at Loki's door taking a deep calming breath in before raising her hand to knock. She heard noises which her pause and her heart stop. There was a woman giggling within his chambers. She just stood there frozen listening to a moan and further giggling as tears formed in her eyes. She knew those noises after years of doing spy work, it made her stomach sink. After pausing for a moment, she looked at the photo one last time before sliding it under his door, knowing that it needed to be done and the ball was on his side of the court.

She then hurried away tears flowing freely down her cheeks, she bumped into the Queen who immediately wrapped her arms around her. Leah sobbed into the queens arms, the queen guided her back to her chambers before pouring her a sweet juice like substance forcing it into Leah's hands.

"What has cause this?" The queen began kneeling down at Leah's side rubbing Leah's back comfortingly as Leah continued to sob.

"I heard him with a woman." Leah bit her lip to stop herself from crying harder, it didn't work though, the tears just seemed to fall on there own accord. "In is room alone. They were, it sounded pretty obviously what they were doing."

"Oh." The queen sighed closing her eyes a look of despair on her face. "I hoped that he would have come to you now, especially now he has stopped staying in his old cell. He is very confused at the moment."

"I never thought." Leah began looking at the Queen "I knew he had been with other women I am not that naïve considering his two wives but." She ran her hand over her rounding stomach. "I just thought."

"If he loved you he would not be doing this." Leah just nodded to the Queens comment, making the Queen smile "He can be hurtful but I never thought he would do this or go this far to cause you pain." The queen shook her head. "I will speak to him."

"No." Leah shook her head knowing the more people involved in their argument the more Loki would push her away. "Don't. I put the picture of his child under his door before I left. I want him to come to me himself." Leah stood up and turned to the Queen her hands running over her stomach. "I can only hope this will do that, for his child. Thank you for your support." She turned and left the queen alone not really wanting to be in anyone's company.

Leah hated how she currently felt, her hand was running over her swelling abdomen as she walked the grounds. Part of her wanted to keep being on the move as she knew that if she stayed in one place she was more likely to meet him and get rejected further. It was getting late and she hadn't stopped, her body was exhausted. She was resting in one of the gardens watching the night sky as her eyes drifted shut, they were just to heavy to keep open any longer.

Leah woke feeling warm and rested, she opened her eyes to see that she was back in the healing room. She slowly sat up looking around the room. She placed a hand on her swelling abdomen feeling that the bump was there making her relax. She lay back down thinking about how she got here. One of the healers came around checking on her before leaving without saying a word to her. She didn't fight where she was, she instead managed to sleep some more after what she had missed the pass few days. It was late in the day from what she could tell out of the window in her room when the Queen entered smiling at her.

"How are you feeling young one?"

"Better." Leah sat up a little looking at the Queen smiling weakly, she hoped the Queen had some answers for her considering no one else had wanted to tell her anything. "Just confused about how I got here?"

"Forgive me child." The Queen sat at her bedside looking guilty. "I was concerned about your current state of mind when you left my room. I went to find Loki, he was alone at the time in his room looking at the picture you gave him. I told him the truth about your child and I explained what you had heard earlier, he helped me look for you. When we found you, you were frozen and we couldn't wake you."

"Loki brought me here?" Leah looked at the Queen a little shocked. She never expected him to come and find her and help her.

"Yes." The Queen nodded smiling. "He was concerned for you."

"But he didn't stay." Leah looked down feeling a little rejected.

The Queen sat there in silence before shaking her head, Leah just sat there feeling a little confused. She hoped he would have stayed for answers about his child at least, perhaps this was the rejection that was to come. She pulled her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around them.

"Give him time, he thought he had lost you and now your back but with child. It's a lot for him to think about."

Leah just rested her head on the top of her knees. She didn't say anything else, the Queen soon left her. Leah felt so confused about what to do. He obviously didn't want to talk to her, or else he would have stayed. Perhaps she was wrong to return to Asgard, she should have stuck to her original plan at least then she would only have to look after herself and the baby.

It was late into the night, she lay on her side unable to sleep as her mind raced with all the different possibilities, when she heard footsteps. She lifted her head from her pillow to see Loki standing at the door way. He looked better than he had done when she last saw him. He looked as she remembered, tall, dark, slick and handsome. His eyes seemed to be completely fixed on her as his face remained stern. She just stared at him not really knowing what to do or say. She felt a fear build up inside of her not sure why he was here.

"May I enter?" He asked sounding very quiet and reserved.

Leah just nodded, she rolled over and pulled herself into a sitting position. She watched him enter her room, he seemed to keep his distance from her. She just watched him, as he paced the far end of her room. His facial features were conflicted with emotions.

She could tell then that he was struggling with all the information which had been given to him. To be fair she had a lot more time to think about it. She just placed a hand on her rounding stomach, she could see his eyes glance towards her and pause on her obvious state.

"So you carry my child?" He finally said still looking at her bump.

"Yes." Leah nodded she could hear the shaking in her voice, she never knew she would feel so nervous around him considering their previous relationship.

"Are you sure it's mine?" He continued

"Yes." Leah sounded pissed this time that he would even start on that. "I haven't slept with anyone else apart from you, shame you can't say the same. Not even that I was the last woman."

"You speak of things you do not know." Loki snapped glaring at her pausing mid stride before continuing again. She just watched him go back and forth, her heart racing in her chest as he continued. "I have been unable to have a simple sexual relationships with other woman since you."

"What a shame." Leah drawled scowling at him not really interested in what he was telling her, she didn't want to hear about him wanting relationships with other women. "Why the hell are you here Loki?"

"You do not listen." He told her as he turned to face her and approached the end of her bed. She just stayed where she was not moving a muscle. She could see that his emotions were like hers all over the place. Her silver eyes connecting with his which made her feeling like she was shrinking under his gaze.

"I heard plenty outside your room yesterday." Leah whispered staring at him.

"Your imagination has run wild." Loki shook his head finally coming a little closer to her. "Yes there was a woman in my room, yes I had intentions to have a sexual relationship with her however I couldn't. Because of you." He sounded a little calmer during his explanation. "I can't be with any one else because I don't want to be."

"Oh." Leah gasped looking at him wide-eyed this was not how she expected this conversation to go. She stared into his green eyes not really sure what to say or do now.

"Do you understand?" He frowned

"I." Leah just nodded weakly. "I think I do." Though her mind raced, she wasn't really 100% sure what to make of that comment whether to be insulted or complimented.

"Think." Loki laughed at her sounding a little amused by her words. "I love you Leah, after what I did and what I showed you about myself.I expected you to leave again. Too run as far away as possible. However you stayed, you fought for me."

"I couldn't go anywhere while I knew you were in pain." Leah shook her head looking down knowing that it was the truth. "I only left before because I hurt so much, I couldn't face the possibility of seeing you with another woman, your wife." Leah stared at him. "That was the only reason I left. Why didn't you tell me about your marriages and children? You said you had no relationships? That's what hurt is the fact you lied to me." Leah paused staring at Loki who stood at the edge of her bed now. "I told you about my parents, about how their affairs ripped my family apart making my brother and I no more than Orphans. I wasn't going to destroy a marriage that I didn't know was over and cause suffering I went though. It is against everything that I believe."

"It was the reason I didn't tell you, I didn't think you would understand." Loki shook his head

"So what do we do now?" Leah stared at Loki, her eyes full of questions, she was unsure what his intentions were and hell she didn't really know what he was doing. Only hours ago he was hiding from her and still brewing over her pass decisions and now he was telling her that he loved her.

She only saw a look of confusion and hurt in Loki's eyes before he left the room. She sat there stunned not really sure what the hell had happened or why he had gone without saying anything. She felt herself begin to cry as she lay back down and hugged the pillow. She didn't understand why he had suddenly gone, she had only spoken the truth to him. She just closed her eyes and tried to push all her unwanted thoughts away.

The morning came and Thor collected her from the healing room. Leah walked silently with Thor back to her room, she wasn't in the mood for company or to be pitied. Thor stopped outside her room before turning to her and saying.

"It will be fine Leah, we will look after you and your child." He sounded sincere in his words

"Whats that suppose to mean?" Leah looked up at him sounding a little more defensive than she meant it too but she didn't need charity. She had been fine on her own before.

"If my brother." Thor pauses "Does not."

"I will be fine," Leah shook her head before opening her door. "Thanks."

She entered her room shutting the door behind her. She let out a sigh as she rested her head back against the door. She finally looked up to see herself in the mirror. The dress she wore showed all, the now obvious curve on her abdomen which seemed to have grown in days. She pressed her hand to her stomach staring at it, she could hardly believe how her body shape had changed.

She was curvier than she had ever been, her abdomen bowed out she definitely looked pregnant. Leah just smiled as she rubbed her hand back and forth going to sit down. She sat at the window looking out across Asgard, she thought about home, she actually preferred it here over all. She heard a faint knock at the door, she didn't say anything not wanting to really have any company.

The door opened and closed, Leah just turned to see Loki standing there with food and drink. She turned and stared at him a little shocked that he had turned up. Leah just stood up and waited for him to say something. She had not expected to see him at all, especially after what happened that night.

"They said you hadn't eaten." Loki explained putting the food down on the table. "You need to eat for you and the baby's health."

"Why are you here?" Leah wrapped her arms around herself staring at him. A little unsure what the hell was going on between them now after last night. She didn't know what to say or do, he was acting like nothing had happened.

"As I said." Loki began sounding calmer than there previous conversation.

"Really." Leah interrupted her emotions taking over. "I don't know what is going on at the moment. I have all these new feelings flooding my body and mind. I feel so confused at the moment Loki." She opened up knowing that he needed to understand. "I feel lost."

"I love you." Loki sighed staring at her his green eyes wide waiting for her reply. "I always have done."

"I know that." Leah laughed at him smiling broadly at him. "All those changes you made. I could guess it wasn't all just about lust. I love you too but now we have" Leah's hand rubbed her stomach. "This to deal with."

"I will do everything within my powers to protect you and our baby." Loki stared at her not moving from his spot in the centre of her room.

"No magic." Leah shook her head remembering what the Queen had told her about his other off spring. "I know about your other children."

"They were created by magic." Loki finally came closer to her sitting down beside her. "Not like." His hand went to touch her stomach but paused. Leah just took hold of his hand placing it on top of her bump enjoying the happy feeling spreading across her body and repairing her heart.

"Oh." Leah gasped as she felt a strong movement within her. "That's a first." As the movement continued. She glanced at Loki who just was staring at his hand obviously feeling the movement. "First kick, must know its father is here." She saw a smile appear on Loki's face as they sat there feeling this new sensation. Leah just savored the moment that they were having.

"Why did you come back Leah?" Loki finally asked she could hear the need for answers in his voice.

"Your brother asked me too." Leah sighed thinking about it, knowing it was better to be truthful. "I wasn't planning to come back at all. In fact I was about to leave SHIELD permanently to protect our child. I was going to run. Thor came and said about how you were acting. He explained about your two wives and children, it made things better in a way. I knew that I still wanted you, I always did." She paused feeling her eyes become watery with tears. "I was out of my depth and had no choice but to return, I needed you to help me with this baby. To see you, forgive you and tell you about our child. I missed you too, every day that went by the pain got no better and you still invaded my mind. You were all I could think about."

"I am sorry." Loki actually looked a little guilty "I never thought, I never planned for this to happen between us."

"Then when I visited you in your cell and saw you in your true form, I was scared not by you but for our child. What is it going to be Loki?" She felt tears begin to fall from her eyes. "I am only scared about its health and life it will have."

Loki just pulled her up against him as she cried. She never expected such a reaction from him at this moment in time but she welcomed it at the moment. It was what she needed as she buried her face against his chest and hung onto him. He pulled her onto his lap and cradled her against him.

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