Disclaimer- I don't own these Character's they belong to Kurt Sutter

After a couple hours of double checking everything and determining it wasn't a heart attack, I walked into the waiting room, filled with SAMCRO. Everyone swarmed me, when I walked in,

"She didn't have a heart attack; which is good news. She did have a very bad arrhythmia which was caused by stress and helped by the fact that she wasn't on her meds. We will be keeping her here for a few days, putting her back on her meds to straighten her out. Once she has stabilized for a couple days she can go." I took a deep breath before continuing "However, people know she is here and Stahl already contacted security to watch the room. She will be here within the hour to secure her and when she does, Gemma will be moved to the prison ward. I'm sorry, guys, there is nothing I can do."

"Dr. Knowles, we have that blood work you needed." Becky, looking incredibly scared for interrupting, told me.

I walked to her and reviewed it; everything looked good, thank God. Just then I realized what day it was.

"Becky, is Deputy Hale's funeral still today?"

"Yes, Tara. Are you going?"

"Yes, I am. If you could try to remind me, about an hour before please."

"No problem, Tara."

I walked to the wall and leaned on it. Today is just another beautiful day in my life I guess. I saw Jax coming and I wasn't sure I could handle another awkward conversation. As he approached me, I tried to calm my stomach which was starting to roll. Not now baby, I'm not ready to reveal you yet; I thought silently.

"Hey, Jax."

"Hey."

"Look, Jax, I'm sorry."

"Sorry for what? You haven't done anything wrong."

"I feel like everything I do is wrong and that you blame me for everything."

Before he could answer me, my pager went off.

"Sorry, Jax, I am only on your mother's case, so I have to take this."

He followed me to the nurses' station.

"Hey, Becky, what's going on?"

"Charming P.D. is taking Gemma into custody for Stahl and moving her to the prison ward. I thought you would like to know."

"Yes, thank you, Becky."

After settling Gemma in, I had to make a run for a bathroom, damn morning sickness. I had just cleaned up when my pager went off letting me know Gemma was awake. I went and got Jax, once we were in the room she demanded answers, I tried to sneak out but of course, that didn't happen.

I was able to sneak away from Jax and the rest of SAMCRO for about a half hour before I was paged back to Gemma's room. I knew she would criticize me but everything she was saying stung because I knew they were the same things Jax was thinking but not saying. When she finally said if it was my flesh and blood, I would have stopped it; I lost it. These damn hormone would be the death of me. When Gemma guessed I was pregnant, I knew that it was only a matter of time before all of SAMCRO found out. Lucky for me, Margret came in. I really didn't want to do this surgery but I couldn't let a child die either.

Once I finished the surgery, I felt 100 times lighter. When Margret told me she was protecting the hospital, I couldn't believe it; I thought she hated me. As soon as I walked out of surgery I ran into Jax.

"Tara, you are in scrubs."

"Yeah, Margret asked me to assist on a surgery on a 20 minute old boy. I think he will make it."

"With your help, I'm sure he will." Wow, that was the nicest thing he had said to me since Abel was taken. Just then Becky came to get me for Hale's funeral.

"You are leaving my mother?" I couldn't believe Jax was upset about this.

"Yes, I'm going, Jax; I figured someone should be there, after all he was killed at our drive by, oh wait your drive by." With that, I spun on my heel and left.

I was getting very sick of this trip. I hate funerals anyway but having so many in such a short amount of time was driving me nuts. As I got out of the car I felt everyone staring at me, yeah SAMCRO is definitely not everyone's favorite group right now. As I sat by my old friend's grave crying, I knew everything was changing and not necessarily in a good way.

I drove back to the hospital still upset but not just about David but also Jax, the club, the baby and my missing son. I walked in the doors of St. Thomas; I ran into Piney.

"Hey, sweetheart, are you ok?"

"Yeah, I just got back from Hale's funeral."

"Oh, I bet that was rough. Didn't you and the deputy hang out a lot in high school?"

"Yes, we were pretty close until I got with Jax. " Before I knew it, I was sobbing into Piney's chest. He led me over to the chairs and sat me down letting me get it all out. Just then Opie came around the corner.

"Tara, what's the matter?"

"Nothing, Opie, I just was releasing some frustration, I guess. Thank you, Piney."

I was walking thru the E.R. when I saw Juice sitting in the waiting room, beat to hell.

"Juice, what happened?"

"Oh hey, Doc, uh nothing. Do you have a minute? I have been waiting all day on these people to patch me up."

"Yeah, come with me."

I worked in silence, glad to have something to distract me. About the time I finished, I went looking for Jax, to no avail. Since I had rode in the ambulance, I had no ride home. I was too exhausted to care so I curled up on a couch to wait for Jax to get back from his errand.

I don't know how long I was asleep before I felt a strong pair of arms pick me up and carry me outside. I barely registered that it wasn't Jax carrying me, but Opie. I felt myself get put in a car and heard Opie speaking.

"Remember this is the V.P.'s old lady so don't let anything happen or you will never get your rockers. I will meet you at the house, in case Jax isn't there."

I fell right back asleep until we stopped again. I felt Opie get me back out of the car.

"Opie, what's going on, is she ok?" I was pleased to hear the worry in his voice.

"Yeah Jax, I found her asleep on a couch at the hospital. The cutlass was at the clubhouse, she didn't have a ride so I got the prospects to bring it, but I came because I didn't think you would be here or you would have been looking for her."

"Shit man, I never thought about it. I just figured she was working late."

I felt myself get sat down on the couch.

"Jax, I love you man but I love Tara too. She is hurt, too, I caught her crying with dad earlier. I just don't want you to end up going through the same shit Donna and I did. Talk to her, brother."

I could feel Jax staring at me, but I didn't want to break the peace we had going so I just laid there. After a few minutes I felt him carry me to bed but then he walked out and went to the nursery and went to sleep there. So like I have done since Abel had been taken, I cried myself to sleep, alone.