Disclaimer- I don't own these Character's they belong to Kurt Sutter

I woke up when I felt someone staring at me; I was pleased to see Jax's blue eyes watching me.

"Morning."

"Good morning."

It was heavenly to be back in his arms and to know Abel was safe and sound across the hall. When I felt his hands go to my belly, I wanted to cry again; typical Teller always thinking it will be a boy.

"You don't know that."

"I have a feeling."

I had a feeling too and something big was going on today. I hoped he believed me when I told him that no matter what I was here for him. When he began kissing me, all thoughts about the day left my head. I couldn't think of anything but his hands rubbing up and down my body and the feelings he was evoking in me. When we had finished, I curled up to him and laid my head on his chest right over Abel's name.

"Jax?"

"Yeah?"

"Um, I know we have talked and worked stuff out but…"

"What's bothering you?"

"It's just, everything has been running a hundred miles an hour and we never fully worked through all our problems. I want us to; I mean you and Abel are the most important people in my life but I am afraid that if I don't vent all my feelings they will boil over at some point."

"You're right; usually we just put it off until the worst time possible. So, let's work this out we have a couple hours before breakfast."

I can't believe he is willing to work on all this; I reach out to hug him.

"Thank you!"

"Tara, did you really think I wouldn't? I promised myself once I got Abel back that I would do whatever it took to get you to come back to us. And when I found those bodies; all I could see was two heads of dark hair and my heart stopped. I didn't even want to check because as long as I didn't know it was you there was hope. I felt bad but when I saw that they weren't you all I wanted was to jump up and cheer. I never want to have the fear that you won't be a part of my life again."

"You slept with Ima to get me out of your life; didn't you think about me not being with you then?"

"Yeah, but I knew you would still be around and I would still get to see you. When I thought you were dead, my world stopped."

I rubbed my hand over his chest. "I know how that feels, Jax. I live with that same fear almost every time you go out. When you went to meet Weston, when you went after Zobelle, and all these runs; I know there is a chance you won't come back and I have to deal with that to get the time I do have. You know the only reason I made it through all that stuff is because I could trust you to tell me everything. Now I have to wonder how much you do tell me and how much I can trust you."

He pulled my head up so I was looking at him. "I promise you I tell you everything I can. I may not tell you right away but I will always tell you the truth."

"Can I trust you not to sleep with someone else again?" I had to ask the biggest question in my head.

He pulled me up to him, grabbing my face in his hands. "I swear to you on Abel's and my unborn child's life; I will NEVER sleep with anyone else. I was only trying to push you away for your safety, which didn't work out well either. I want to be with you and only you, please Tara, you have to believe me."

"I do, Jax. It's just hard to get past… you know." I went for a kiss but at that time our unborn child made his presence known and I had to rush to the bathroom.

I felt Jax grab my hair and hold it back while I emptied my stomach contents. While I was brushing my teeth, I saw him staring at me.

"What, Jax?"

"How bad has it been?" at my blank stare, he went on "The pregnancy and hiding the pregnancy? And why didn't you use it to keep me? You had to know I wouldn't leave you if you were pregnant."

I finished before turning to answer him. "I didn't tell you because you had enough to deal with and didn't need me to add to it. I would never use a baby as a way to keep you. As for how hard…it's been rough. The morning sickness sucks and I'm always tired but without telling people, no one could understand why. So I have been dealing with a lot of stress when it comes to hiding things." I stop him before he comes closer "There is something you need to know, Jax. The night I was taken; I was on my way to a clinic to have an abortion." I finished in a whisper.

"You were what?"

"You heard me, I had taken…a friend the night before and after she went in, I set an appointment. I know I wouldn't have actually done it because the whole day I kept coming up with reasons not to and then when Louisa hit us, everything clicked. I didn't care if we became us again or not. I wanted this baby, I wanted OUR baby. Fighting for our child's life was what kept me going and I can't love this child more than I do. I hope you can forgive me."

I saw him take a breath before talking "I almost gave up Abel. He had been adopted out to a nice couple and I let him go. That is how I found out you were pregnant because when I told ma all this she slapped me and told me about you. Once all that sank in I knew I had to get our boy and get this family back together." He waited until I looked at him coming up to me and hugging me.

"No one's perfect, Tara. I know I never gave you a reason to want my child but what is important is that you and I are in this together now." He gave me a kiss and then turned on the shower.

"We better get ready to go to breakfast; I think we both need a shower. Come on babe, wash my back for me."

I smiled as I stepped into the shower, I haven't felt so happy and relieved as I did right now.

Sorry it's so short but I think they needed a talk and so next chapter will have the last episode. I'm not sure if I will add anything from their time locked up or when they get out or not…what does everyone think?