Disclaimer- I don't own these Character's they belong to Kurt Sutter

I had just loaded Abel when I heard the bikes. Jax and the guys had been locked up for 4 months now and I hadn't been able to go visit him in the past month. Between Abel and his first birthday party, the hospital, running errands for Gemma, helping out at Teller-Morrow and patching up the members, I had just been too busy to even breathe, let alone drive to Stockton. When Opie, Chibs, Kozik and the prospects all pulled in, I was confused.

"Don't tell me there is a medical emergency, guys. I haven't seen Jax in a month."

Opie spoke up first "No, We are all going up to visit so we are going to escort you and Abel."

"Escort me? Should I be worried here?"

"It's more precaution than anything. We have enemies and we are weakened and they know it."

"Should I leave Abel with Gemma or is he safe?"

When no one answered me, I stepped up to Opie.

"Opie, What would you do if it were you and your kids?"

"That's hard to answer, Tara. If I were in Jax's shoes, I would want you both. As the one on the outside, I think I would leave Abel at home for this visit."

I walked back to the car and looked in and put my other hand on my ever expanding baby bump. Abel looked at me with such trusting eyes.

"I am going to drop him at Gemma's. Are you guys following me or do you want me to meet you somewhere?"

"We will follow you."

Luckily the drive to Stockton was uneventful. I waited in line to get into the visiting area along with the guys but at right as I got through the baby kicked hard and I had to go to the bathroom.

"Hey, guys I will be right back. Before you ask, I am just going to the bathroom the one place you guys can't follow. Just have your meeting so I have him to myself when I get back."

I had to go back through so it took me a little while to get back, I really hoped their meeting would be done, but as I came through I realized they were still talking so I slowed down. I put my hand on my belly and immediately got a kick. Jax must have noticed me because his smile seemed to light up the depressing visiting room. He tapped the table and nodded to me, and flagged me over.

Clay spoke first "Wow, Doc. You certainly have popped since we saw you last. Go ahead Jax, we don't need to vote on anything; enjoy your visit."

I could only smile as Jax came over to me and gave me a hug. His hands found my hair and cheek and brought our faces together kissing me with a passion, that I hadn't realized I needed, and it took all my self-control not to try and lift his shirt and run my hands over his skin.

He took a step back and looked down at my stomach.

"Look at you…You are beautiful."

"You are just starved for a female evidently; I am getting very big quickly. All of this has been in the past month."

He smiled "I'm not just saying that, you are one hot pregnant woman. Let's sit down over here."

He led me to a table next to the rest of the SAMCRO guys where we sat next to each other. I could tell the seating wasn't a coincidence, they were all on high alert.

"Tara, everything alright at home?"

"Yes, I will have a letter in the mail soon with pictures from Abel's party. Your mother and I may have gone a bit over board but other than you guys being gone it was a good day."

"Good, I'm sorry I missed it but glad it was good. What I meant was; you don't look like normal. Are you taking care of yourself?"

I knew this full disclosure would come back and bite me. "I'm doing the best I can. I am trying to put in extra shifts before I take my maternity leave. No Gemma means that TM needs help. Lord knows I do my fair share of patching up, since you guys have more enemies than the hospital has nurses. And Abel is cutting teeth so I just am getting a little worn out. WE are all fine over all. Jax, don't worry about us; you concentrate on watching your back."

Before he could reply I flinched at a kick to my side and Jax immediately went into panic mode.

"What is it? Are you ok? The baby?"

"Jax, take a deep breath. The baby just kicked, some are pretty strong. Here, feel right here." I took his hand and guided it to where the baby had just kicked.

Sure enough he was rewarded with a strong kick right to his hand. He saw me flinch so he lowered his head to my belly.

"Hey son, it's Dad. I like you kicking for me, but you got to take it easy on your mom. She is dealing with enough." He followed that by a kiss and I knew I was about to cry. True to my hormonal fashion of late a tear fell and Jax looked up.

"Hey, don't cry." He rubbed his thumb over my cheek to wipe off the tear.

"I'm sorry, it's just the hormones. I cry over everything."

He gave me a quick kiss just as the guards called the club back. They only had a minute left.

"I love you, Tara. Take care of my family."

"I will, take care of yourself. This family needs you." After one final kiss, I left the room.

A week later I left my ultrasound appointment, picked up Abel and drove to Stockton. On the way there I started thinking…When Jax first went in, I tried to write a letter every couple days but now if I got one every couple weeks I was happy. I just didn't have enough energy to do it at the end of the day. I know he is afraid that means I am giving up but if I fully explained everything I do, he might understand the letter situation but he would kill me for it. I was so excited to tell him the sex of the baby I never even thought of calling any of the guys, but when I saw a vehicle following me I realized my mistake. I quickly pulled out my cell and called the garage.

"Teller-Morrow."

"Chucky, it's Tara. Are any of the guys handy?"

"Yeah, let me get Chibs."

I watched as this vehicle followed my every lane change. Just then Chibs got on the line.

"What can I do for you love?"

"I have a problem. I am heading to Stockton and I know I forgot to call someone but I have someone following me."

"Shit, where are you?"

"I am on 315 about to make the turn onto 195."

"Ok, I am on my way, whatever you do don't stop."

Yeah, like that would happen. I looked back at Abel who was peacefully playing with his motorcycle toy. As I neared Stockton, I saw a bike coming up fast. When it caught up to the car following me, the car took off. I saw Chibs start to follow and I quickly pulled into the prison parking lot. I was earlier than normal, so I was able to park close to the front and I quickly got Abel and I inside. I stayed by the door, knowing Chibs would be there shortly. Sure enough within 5 minutes, he came walking into the building.

"I lost um, Doc. Sorry."

"No, you're fine. Thank you for getting here so quickly."

"Aye, let's go see the guys."

Chibs and I sat at a table talking while we waited. After a few minute a very happy looking Jax and Clay came walking in.

"Hey baby, it's good to see you." Jax half ran to us. "Abel, how's my little man? Huh?"

"Abel, tell Daddy you new word."

"Dada" There were tears in Jax's eyes.

"Yeah, that's me little man. Thank you, Tara." I just nodded.

"I have something else to let you see." I pulled out the ultrasound pictures and put them facedown. "How much is it worth?"

He looked anxious and confused "How much is what?"

"Don't play dumb. You all bet over everything, how much is the baby pool worth?"

He smiled "Since most of the guys are saying it's a girl, the girls get about $20 bucks. Clay, Tig and I get about $40.00 when he comes."

"Since I'm carrying him I expect half." I couldn't help but smile at the way his smile hit the second I said "him" and I had to laugh as he snatched the pictures and flipped them over. The very top one was all the proof he needed. He leaned over Abel to kiss me.

"See this Abel; you are going to have a little brother." He kissed my belly "Hi son. I can't wait to meet you."

Clay spoke up "Another grandson, Gemma must be as thrilled as I am. Congrats, you two."

"Thanks Clay, but actually Gemma doesn't know. I left straight from the doctor."

After a few minutes, Chibs spoke up. "I hate to ruin everyone's good mood but I have some bad news."

"What is it, Chibs?" he had both Jax and Clay's full attention.

"Well Tara had a tail on her way here and when I got close, they took off before I could see who it was."

"What do you mean when you got close to her? Why weren't you following her?" Jax practically screamed.

"Jax, calm down, you will upset Abel. I told you I left from the doctor and I forgot to call someone. It was my fault; don't take it out on him."

Clay jumped in before anyone else flipped out. "Tara, you can't go out alone right now. Keep a prospect on her at all times. Tara, until we have everything settled you have a houseguest."

I sighed. I knew there was no fighting this so I just nodded. After all, I had to think about both boys' safety.

It had been a long couple months with someone around all the time, but finally Gemma was coming off house arrest and could take back over at TM and watching over the club. I was sitting at the house watching Abel play when I remembered Lyla needed a bridal shower. I began making calls and setting up everything. Two weeks later I was finishing up the decorations with Gemma and trying to be ready for Lyla in 15 minutes. I looked around laughing at the array of people. There were a lot of old ladies and porn stars and a few other women from around town. I stood outside and waited on Lyla to show up and when Opie dropped her off I blindfolded her and took her to the room I had rented.

"Surprise!"

"Tara, you did all this? Thank you, it is wonderful!"

She gave me a hug and began saying hi to everyone. An hour into the party and everything was still on track, surprisingly enough. Lyla was opening her gifts and I decided to sit and relax, my mistake. The second I sat, I saw a face I never wanted to see again. Ima stepped through the door in a skin tight dress that left nothing to the imagination. I stood up and walked as calmly as I could to the whore.

"Ima, what in the hell are you doing here?"

"Oh well I heard about this little party and I figured my invite just got lost, so I came to celebrate with Lyla."

"Well your invite wasn't lost, so why don't you just leave? Don't ruin this day for Lyla."

"Look at you, it's not like you can do anything."

She went to step around me and bumped me and unfortunately my temper being what it is, I reached over and pulled her back. I instantly knew I screwed up because I felt a pull and a pain in my abdomen. I instantly bent over grabbing my stomach.

"Tara!" Lyla called to me but I was trying to move to the wall to have some support. "Gemma, something is wrong with Tara."

Within a few seconds I had Lyla and Gemma at my side, where Gemma took over.

"Lyla call the boys and get them over here."

I tried to breathe "No, Lyla go back to the party and enjoy your day. I am fine, really."

"Tara, you are not fine. I have had plenty of time here, Gemma's right we have to get you to the hospital."

"Fine, I will go as soon as the guys get here if you promise to finish the party."

"Oh my…fine, I will finish the party and then join you at the hospital. You are the most stubborn woman I have ever met."

The guys ran into the hallway, guns drawn.

"What happened?" Opie was first to realize the threat wasn't what they thought.

"You need to get Tara to the hospital."

"But I thought the Doc. isn't due until next month?" Poor Kozik didn't get it.

"Well, this guy has other plans. Can we go?"

I got into my room pretty quickly and instantly became nervous. Kozik was right, I was early, so I didn't know what all could be wrong with my son. My mind began to fill with thoughts of Abel and I panicked more. Gemma, like always, seemed to figure out my problems.

"Tara, this little guy is not going to have the same problems as Abel." I could only nod.

I couldn't wait to start pushing, 15 hours of contractions and I was tired of it. Gemma kept telling me how good I was doing and the guys kept checking on me, along with Lyla. Even with everyone here, I missed Jax terribly. The next time the guys came in, 16hrs into the labor, I snapped at Opie.

"You go to Stockton right now. Tell that asshole I won't be coming for a while because I hate him. He gets all the benefits and he isn't even here to help me through this…I never want to talk to him again."

"Now Tara, you know he would love to be here."

"DON'T YOU DARE! Don't stick up for him." Just then another contraction hit and I had to breathe through it. "Tell the prick he will never touch me again while you're visiting."

"I will tell ol' Jackie Boy everything, love."

A half hour later, I was finally ready to push. With Gemma holding my left hand and Lyla holding my right, I pushed Thomas David Teller into this world at 6:30am. The second I heard his cry, I began sobbing along with him. Gemma and Lyla hugged me and then Dr. Smith handed him to me and I couldn't believe how lucky I was. I only got to hold him for a minute before they took him for tests. We weren't sure if he would have the family flaw. The next 30 minutes would be the longest of my life.