Disclaimer- I don't own these Character's they belong to Kurt Sutter

An hour later, my favorite nurse came in with Dr. Nimead carrying Thomas.

"Well, Tara, This is one perfect little boy." Dr. Nimead smiled "We ran every test twice and we got a clean echo. He has no signs of any defect, heart or otherwise. Congratulations!"

When they handed Thomas back to me, I was truly able to breathe deeply and enjoy my son. I took the next half hour to feed him before letting anyone else in the room. By the time I had finished feeding him, I had the nurse coming in saying my waiting fans were getting impatient.

"Go ahead and let them in, Megan."

Lyla and Gemma led the way with Abel and a camera. Chibs, Opie, Kozik and Piney followed with flowers and balloons. After everyone had gotten a chance to hold him and a ton of pictures were taken, I kicked everyone out and picked up the phone to call Jax.

I had to wait for him to call me back, since he had to call on the payphones. When my phone rang I smiled, I couldn't wait to tell him.

"HI, baby"

"Tara, are you ok? They said it was urgent."

"Well, I am in the hospital but I am fine." Of course, before I could finish, he interrupted.

"WHAT? What happened?"

"Well, Thomas decided he couldn't wait to join the Teller family. I just had our son, Jax." There was a pause and I could hear the emotion in his voice.

"Are you both ok? No problems?"

"No, it went fine and according to all the tests he doesn't have any defects. He is beautiful."

"Guys, Tara had Thomas."

I heard the guys cheering and slapping him. I wondered why everyone was there, but let it go when he came back on the line.

"So when did you have him?"

"About 2 hours ago. 7lbs 8oz. 18 ½ inches, head full of blonde hair with blue eyes."

"Wow, thank you babe. You are amazing. When will I get to see you guys?"

"I should be released in a couple of days, so we should make this week's visitation, unless you need to see the guys more?"

"Hell no, bring my boys and you as soon as you can."

"I will. I promise. I love you, Jax."

"I love you too, Tara. My time is up; I got to go. I'm sorry babe. I am so happy- you have no idea. I can't wait to see you."

I started to cry, hearing his voice made me miss him all the more. I missed having him here for this and I missed having him there to hold me. I still had a long wait for him though, so I began to focus on my boys.

I had been out of the hospital 2 days and Gemma was taking Thomas and I to see Jax. I was glad to see our early start paid off and not a lot of people were there yet. I carried Thomas to the table and sat him on the floor and was rocking him while talking to Gemma when I knew he walked in. I stood at the same time as Gemma but she beat me to him. He quickly hugged and kissed her cheek and made his way to me. When he kissed me I felt at home for the first time in months. I felt him flinch away when I ran my hands over his side but he brushed it off and quickly went to look at Thomas.

"He's perfect."

I felt my heart swell when I saw the look Jax gave us both. I reached in to pick him up and give him to Jax.

"Say hi to Daddy."

As I put Thomas in Jax's arms, my smile was huge. It felt amazing to let Jax meet our son.

"Abel has a bit of a cold; I didn't want to risk it. I will bring him next week."

"Ok." We sat side by side with Thomas between us when I heard Gemma speak up.

"I'm going to give you a minute."

"I'm sorry I wasn't there." Jax broke back into my thoughts.

""I know. Your mother was in the room."

"I'm sorry for that too." I had to keep rubbing his face and arms I just wanted to be close to him while I could.

"I want you to know that I will never miss anything like this again."

He kissed my finger before looking back down to Thomas.

"He's beautiful." He smiled "You were right, he is perfect. I am one lucky man."

"I am the lucky one. Abel and Thomas are both perfect and I feel so lucky every day. Once you get home then everything will be perfect."

"I can't wait for that either, babe. That is all I think about…I just want to be with you and our boys."

I reached out to hug him. "I know Jax, and you will be soon, you just have to stay out of trouble for a bit longer. Is everything ok for you in here?"

"Don't worry about me, Tara. How are things out there, any tails?"

"No, and Phil is staying with me and at the moment I am at your mom's. She insisted when Thomas came home."

"That's a good idea, as much as I'm sure you hate it."

I just shrugged, I didn't want to tell him about all the letters and trouble I felt about them all. Just then Thomas started stretching and our attention went back to him.

"Tara, I can't say enough to thank you. I owe both of my son's lives to you. You sticking with me, I know it's not easy but it means everything that you are sticking with me through it all."

"Jax, I meant what I said. I am in this for the long hall, the good, the bad and the horrible. Don't get me wrong, this is awful and stressful but I'm surviving and counting down the days. Things have changed in Charming, which doesn't help my fears. I am so afraid of getting you back and then you going away again."

"Hey, don't. I am going to do any and everything I have to do to stay with my family. Just focus on what we will do when I get out."

I felt a tear slip down my cheek and he took his thumb and wiped it away.

"I'm sorry; I am still very hormonal and emotional."

He put his forehead to mine. "I wish I was going home with you to help you and now that I have you both here I don't want to let you go."

The guard called out to us "Two minutes, Teller."

We instantly locked eyes and I put my hand in his head and pulled him to me for a kiss. "Go ahead and focus on Thomas."

He smiled at me and began talking to our son. "Hey, Thomas. I need you to be good for your mom. She deserves it. You are perfect and I love you." He gave him a kiss when the guard called out again. I had to take Thomas from Jax and we both stood up and he hugged and kissed us one more time before walking away. I was able to keep the tears in until he went through the door and then I fell apart. I saw Gemma come back in and took the baby and wrapped me in a hug.

"I know, sweetheart. I know, but let's get to the car. We can't show weakness here."

We stood up and walked to the car.

A week later, I loaded both boys in Gemma's SUV and again headed for Stockton. Everyone was going this time so all the SAMCRO guys would get to visit at once. Both boys fell asleep on the way there so I put my head back and I followed their lead. When Gemma woke me, I had to sit there and calm down and not bite her head off. Sleep deprivation for new mothers sucks, I learned that quickly. I took a quick look in the mirror and tried to recover the dark circles under my eyes before I got the kids out. Opie carried a still semi asleep Abel in while Chibs carried Thomas's car seat.

We got into the visiting room and we sat down and I picked Thomas up; but that is when Abel realized I wasn't within eye sight so he cried out and ran into my arms. So like so many times this past week I sat there with Thomas in one arm and Abel curled up in my other. Just then we saw the guys come into the room. I saw Jax stop just inside the door and stare at us smiling.

"Abel, look who just came in." I pointed at Jax.

"Daddy." He quickly got out and ran as fast as his little toddler legs would let him to him. Jax bent down and picked him up and quickly the rest of the guys patted his head before they all walked over towards us. I watched as Gemma, Opie, Chibs and Kozik all embraced Jax who continued to make his way towards me. Unlike last time I didn't even stand up, I just plain didn't have the energy. Finally Jax and Abel made it to us and he sat down immediately and kissed me and Thomas.

"Hi Baby."

"Hi yourself. Are you ok?"

"I'm just worn out, Jax. It has been a long week. How are you?"

Before he could answer SAMCRO came over to meet Thomas.

"You did well; I have two handsome grandsons." Clay spoke up.

Tig gave me a hug "Good job, doc."

"Tara, he's cute. Who's the father?" Juice chimed in.

"Oh ha ha. Go sit down, you clowns." I smiled; I forgot how much I had missed all this. I looked at Jax staring at Thomas.

"Hey Abel. Come sit with Mommy and let Daddy see Thomas." Abel climbed into my lap without a fuss which surprised me, and then Jax took Thomas.

"He has already changed."

I gave a half smile. "Yeah, he has."

"How are you holding up?"

"Jax, I told you don't worry about us. Focus on staying safe."

"Tara, we are being careful, but I will never quit worrying about you and our boys. Are you getting enough rest?"

I couldn't help but laugh. "Jax, Thomas is up every couple hours and Abel only naps for a couple hours a day. I don't get rest; I just resort to remembering how I survived med school and internship. I will be fine, I've done worse."

"Why don't you have Mom take Abel and let you sleep?"

"Because we are back at home. We couldn't stay there and I wanted to start getting a routine going. Don't say anything. Gemma comes over and so does Lyla."

"What about Neeta?"

"She is on vacation; I made her take it now while I was on leave from St. Thomas. I figured she would be pulling double time until you got out and would need a break."

"You're probably right." Abel went over to Jax and tapped him whining. "What is it, little man?"

"He wants you to hold him too. He is still a little jealous and wants to be held anytime Thomas is."

So Jax adjusted Thomas so he could hold Abel too. He kissed them both on the forehead and looked at me.

"I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you on the outside taking care of my boys and family. Having you waiting is a curse and a blessing."

"A curse?" I couldn't believe he just said that.

"Well it just makes it 100% harder knowing that I have you waiting for me and I can't get to you and help you out."

I just nodded I didn't know what to say, I was relieved that he meant it that way; but there wasn't anything I could say to make anything better. I started rubbing his cheek and he rested his head against my hand. The rest of the visit we just talked about little things and kept it light. When the guards called the boys to leave, I gave Jax a kiss and took the boys back. I had just strapped Thomas in and the guys got to the door when the fight broke out. I spun and saw two prisoners going at it so I scooped up Abel and grabbed the car seat trying to put space between the fight and my kids. I felt a strong tug pull me quicker and I looked to see Opie pull me behind him. Abel began wailing because he got scared which made Thomas cry.

"It's ok baby, you're fine. Shhh." Rocking the car seat with my foot, I started rubbing Abel's back. I looked up and saw the anger, frustration and pain in Jax's face at not being with us.

"Abel, look at Daddy and blow him a kiss." When he did, both Abel and Jax smiled.

Gemma made it to us then and I gave Abel to her and got Thomas back out rocking him and calming him quickly. I threw Jax a wink as we all walked out the door.

A few days later I loaded the boys in Gemma's SUV and we headed to see Nate.

"Tara, Thank you for thinking of this. I can't wait to have Dad meet the boys."

"You're welcome, Gemma."

We walked into Nate's care facility and went to his room. Luckily he was having a good day and actually remembered Gemma.

"Hey, Dad. I brought some people for you to meet." She motioned for me to come in. "Dad, do you remember, Tara?"

"Yes, she is in charge of my care and with Jackson."

"Yes, she is and I wanted you to meet Jackson's sons. This is Abel and this little one is Thomas."

I started to tear up when Nate started to cry. "These are my grandson's? They look like Jackson."

I pulled out my camera and started taking pictures of Nate with the boys and Nate with Gemma.

"Hey Gemma, I am going to go talk with the doctor. Are you ok with the boys?"

"Yeah, we are good."

I finally tracked down the doctor.

"Hi Dr. Scott, I'm Dr. Knowles and I am Nate's guardian. How is he doing?"

"Hello, Dr. Knowles. He is as good as can be. We are trying everything in our power to keep him comfortable. His disease is progressing quickly. I am sorry to say that within the next year or two, he will probably not remember anything of his life. His scans are showing less than a year but I am hoping with the new cocktail we have him on we can prolong the inevitable; but as a doctor you know I can't promise anything,"

"I understand, thank you for taking the time to talk to me."

I went back to the room and watched Gemma and Nate play with the boys.

It had been a few weeks and I hadn't made it back to see Jax and I was excited to be doing that today. I left the boys with Gemma and hoped that Jax wouldn't be too upset with me for not bringing the boys. I walked through the security with Opie and Chibs at my sides. We walked in the visiting room and they stayed there until Jax came through the doors. I met him halfway there and wrapped him in a hug and we kissed. He led me back to the table where we sat next to each other.

"Where are the boys?"

"At home with Gemma. They are fine, I just needed a break and to be honest the last visit scared me a little."

"You and me both baby. I am glad you came, letters don't do you justice." I smirked.

"Yeah, I know. I thought an alone visit may be nice too; we haven't done that for a long time. I brought pictures for you to look at."

"You all went to visit Nate?"

"Yeah, I took Gemma up. She had been stalling so I told her he should meet the boys. She jumped on the chance to show them off."

"Of course she did. Thank you for all you do out there."

We spent the rest of the visit holding hands, talking about the boys, and things going on in Charming. We kissed a lot and just took advantage of no barriers for a little while.

I was running around the house picking up and cleaning from top to bottom; I am such a bag of nerves. I can't believe that Jax was finally coming home. I was trying to make everything perfect for his return home, not to mention I just had to be doing something. Even the 10 years I spent away from Charming didn't feel as long as the past 14 months had. I heard the roar of bikes and went to the door. I was just in time to see the guys taking all the bikes up to pick up Jax and the other guys. I waved and smiled…My man was coming home!

Authors note- I am pretty sure this story is done, but I think I will end up writing another story like this one just through season 4.