12.05

I might go for Luna.

September 11th

9.00

All thoughts of Luna aside, I had bigger fish to fry today. The fish being this problem I have of thinking about other guys (not in a slutty way, in a caring way) when I'm supposed to be focusing on Blaize or is it Malfoy. Right, Ginny, sort yourself out. What do you want, I cant believe that it's only the second week of the year, and I have got myself into a stupid and all together silly situation that should have taken any normal person months to create, well done you!

When I was going out with Dean, I found I could talk to him about anything, he really was one of the nicest guys. Oh don't worry, Dean isn't being added to the screwed up equation of ginny's stupid heart. It's just that I think he could really help me out in this situtation. Seriously, I don't think it would be awkward, cause he likes Parvati now, it wiill be all good. So I guess I gotta go and find him- It's DeanQuest (Harry doesn't have all the fun adventures).

So DeanQuest has started, where to go, where to look, who to trust etc. Oh he's just over there...

(I swear Harry makes a much bigger deal of these quests/missions he keeps going on, turns out they're really easy hahaha...no, I'm not bitter...At all.)

'Hey Dean, can we talk?' It's funny how when you actually say you want to talk to guys they get quite scared, despite at the time of saying can we talk, you are, in fact already talking.

Yeah, course Gin, What's going on?' Dean smiled at me, and patted the seat next to him, so I sat down, sighed...and then it all came out. Seriously, the way I was blathering, and not making any sense, I was starting to sound like Hermione.

'Right, Basically, Harry dumped me, cheated on me, and I hate him, however now it has become clear to me that I actually still have major feelings for him. But then, Malfoy joined us over the summer, and I felt like I got to know him more, and well maybe, probably like him now. But then Blaize, who is super good looking, asked me out and he is really nice too, but whenever I spend time with him, I think about Malfoy and Harry, and I suppose it's really screwing me up. But it's only the beginning of the year, I'm in a huge mess and I can't talk to Hermione, because she is all about Ron at the moment, though I swear she also fancies Blaize, but is best friends with Harry, who has been a complete shit to me, won't talk to me, but I don't know if I want to talk to him. But I really like Malfoy, and then Blaize popped up. Dean, help.'

He looked quite taken aback.

'Well...Gin...I guess...Well I suppose you've got to...Ah Gin, sweetie, I have no idea'

Not really the answer I was going for Dean. Thanks.

'Okay...Right' I got up, and turned towards the entrance hall.

'Wait, Gin. I have no idea, but I really want to help you. I've got charms in a minute, but I think I've got a free later, probably about two, if you meet me in the courtyard. I probably won't have any ides, but we can talk it out, Okay?'

'Dean, that's brilliant. Your a girls best friend, you know that right' I said, causing sniggers from Seamus and Neville an a whole bunch of sixth year girls.

'Thanks, I guess. But, seeing as you said that quite loud just now, can you tell all your girly mates that I am, actually, incredibly macho and manly, please'

I giggled, nodded, and watched Dean run off to charms.

I walked out of the great hall, feeling a little better, and right into Malfoy and Blaize.

'Hi' Malfoy and I mumbled to each other. However, Blaize went to extremecity. He put his arms around me, kissed me, and said see you later, a bit too audibly.

After trying to say see you later to Blaize in an incredibly casual manner, I turned to Malfoy, who just shrugged at me and walked off. What the hell was that all about?! Blaize took it as Malfoy's permission to continue to ravish me in the corridor, and kissed me again. It was really nice, but utterly confusing. Afterwards (I was left stunned in the corridor) I looked up to see Harry, just staring at me, I didn't want to say anything to him at all, so I ran off, looked back and saw Blaize give the biggest wink to Harry. SERIOUSLY BLAIZE, REALLY?

2.00

Got through the rest of the day, and met Dean in the courtyard.

'Hey stranger' He said looking up ' You sure you want to be seen with another boy today?'

'Shut up. It's not my fault about Blaize.'

'Yeah I know. Funny how all three of your messes were in the same place, watching what's going on. With the exception of Blaize, he was right there'

'You saw?'

'Oh yeah.'

'Why did he have to do that. I mean in a totally normal situation it would have been the most romantic thing in the world. But then to give the hugest wink to Harry afterwards, he know's our history'

'Maybe it's sorted out the Blaize problem. Good excuse to end it with him'

'Well nothings really started. And I don't want to'

'Ginny, I'm afraid you cannot just simply have everything. I know Harry screwed you over, but I think Blaize and Malfoy genuinely like you. And, yeah I think Harry does to, though he's started speaking to Cho again.'

'Cho, since when?'

'Since the wink'

'She can have him. I may have feelings for him, a bit, still. But I'm gonna put those to the side. No, not to the side, out of my mind. Okay thats one down. Hopefully'

'Two to go, who's gonna it be?'

'For now, Blaize. Malfoy hasn't done anything to show he wants me,'

'For now?'

'Shut up. Dean, I miss our talks. I was thinking the other day, what if Luna is a lesbian?'

'Ginny, come on, you've just taken Harry out of the running, why put another in?' Dean grinned, and mumbled something like 'Be fun to watch'

I ignored him.

One down, two to go. For now.