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Chapter 4

A month, that's how long it's been. I wasn't sure at first how I felt about sneaking around and seeing Brendan behind everyone's back, but as I'm lying here with my head on his chest and his arm wrapped around me, I know that it's been totally worth it.

We have to grab whatever time we can get together, in the deli store cupboard, the club office, his flat, my flat, basically anywhere that's empty. Don't get me wrong it's not just about sex – although that is amazing. I mean I've never felt so wanted and Brendan has taught me so much about myself. But we've also spent time just getting to know each other. I thought to begin with that him wanting to keep us a secret was less about Cheryl and more about him not feeling comfortable with his sexuality but I was so wrong. We escape the village whenever we can and go somewhere; anywhere that no-one knows us. I've seen more of the country in the last month that I have in my whole life. It sounds stupid but even going for a coffee together just puts a smile on my face.

He's opened up to me which is something that feels strange to him, he's more the type of man who explains things through actions, but with me he uses words too. He's told me about his marriage and how he thought that if he acted as if he was straight he would wake up one morning and he wouldn't have to act anymore, it would become reality. He misses his boys – it kills him being away from them and he would do anything for Cheryl. I feel like I get to see a side to him that no-one else gets to.

The one problem I have is that JP just won't take the hint. He keeps flirting with Brendan and Brendan encourages it, I'm sure he does. He likes JP stroking his ego. It takes everything in me not to tell him to back the fuck off, I've told Brendan that one day I might just snap but he just laughed and pulled me into an amazing kiss that had me forgetting my own name never mind why I was angry.

Anyway, tonight we are all off to the club. They're hosting some sort of charity night and there's going to be loads of footballers and soap stars there so obviously Mitzeee has to attend. We are on the VIP list again, that's just the way it is now, our names are permanently there just in case we turn up one night.

We are all dancing away and I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket, all the message says is

Office NOW! BB

I excuse myself to the toilet but sneak into the office instead as soon as the door closes Brendan is on me. He kisses the air out of my lungs when he's like this, I love it.

'Two days Steven, it's been two days and you turn up looking like that, how the fuck am I meant to concentrate and get any work done when your jeans are practically skin tight'

He cups my bum cheeks in his hands and kisses me again. I can't help but roll my hips forward, searching for some friction. He pulls away and says 'down boy, I gotta get back out there, but later yeah, stay behind when we close up'. All I can do is nod and he gives me a quick kiss before heading back out into the club. I leave it a couple of minutes and go back out too.

As I am trying to find Amy or Mitzeee (I'm not too fussed about finding JP) I feel someone grab my bum, I turn around expecting to see Brendan but he's not there. It's some guy, a bit taller than me but he has quite a similar build with brown hair. He leans close to me asks if I fancy getting out of here. I tell him that I'm taken and apologise as I walk away. Mitzeee is standing in front of me and she looks like the cat that got the cream. She asks who I'm seeing and I try to tell her that I'm not seeing anyone I just wanted to get away from that guy. She smiles and nods then walks away from me.

I go up to the bar and see Brendan standing there ignoring the people waiting to be served. He looks pissed off but kinda like he's trying to hide it. I stand in front of him and give him a smile that he says is his and he smiles back at me but it's tight and not what I usually get from him. He leans over and says "you having fun out there Steven" I suddenly realise that he saw me talking to that guy and that's what's wrong with him. I flash him a cheeky grin and tell him that it's not my fault I'm irresistible. He looks me up and down, like he's trying to memorise me and tells me that he might just have to tie me up in his office and leave me there if anyone else tries it on again. I know we are walking a fine line cause we are surrounded by people but if I'm honest I quite like seeing him all jealous. He pours me a drink and tells me he'll be watching me and if that guy comes near me again. But I walk away from him before he can finish that sentence. When I turn round Mitzeee is standing behind me smiling. I smile at her and walk past her. I sit at our table, pull my phone out and start texting Brendan.

'I think I like you jealous'

'I'm not jealous, I don't do jealous, have you seen my face BB'

'Yeah you are, you hated it when that guy had his hand on my arse'

I don't get a reply and when I look over him at the bar I see him laughing with JP, fucking JP. I can't help but text Brendan again

'JP are you fucking kidding me?'

'You're not jealous are you Steven? BB'

I don't even know why he's being so pissy I mean it's not like I encouraged that guy. Well two can play at that game. I scan the dance floor to see if I can see the guy from earlier and he's dancing beside Amy and Mitzeee so I get up to dance with them. As I'm dancing I can feel the guy behind me. He's not touching me but he's close enough. I look up to catch Brendan's eye and he looks like he's going to explode, there's a vein on the side of his head that is in serious danger of popping. So I just smile at him. He moves round the bar and stands beside JP who looks like all his Christmas' have come at once. It pisses me off.

I start gyrating my hips and I can feel the guy behind me move closer but he's still not touching me. Then I changes. It happens so quickly my head is spinning. First the guy slips his arms around my waist and starts grinding against my arse. I'm about to tell the guy where to go when suddenly he's not touching me anymore. I turn around and I can see the guy is being propelled backwards by Brendan. I've never seen him look so angry and intimidating. He practically growls at the guy to leave me the fuck alone and who the fuck does he think he is. The guy gets practically thrown down the stairs and told to get the fuck out of Brendan's club. Brendan storms back up the stairs and disappears into the office, slamming the door behind him.

I now feel really guilty, I was just playing with him, I wanted him to know how I feel when he flirts with JP, but I think I may have gone too far. Amy and Mitzeee are just standing staring at me and I have no idea what to say or do.

I turn and walk towards the office and as I open the door I can see the contents of his desk all over the floor and he's sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. I walk over and sit beside him but I still don't know what to say. He breaks the silence asking if I'm happy with myself. I try to explain that I'm sorry and I just wanted him to see what him encouraging JP does to me but I don't get to explain any further when he turns round and pushes me back onto the couch. He wastes no time in pulling off my trousers and boxers, quickly preparing me and then he pushes himself into me. I don't think I'll ever get used to how he makes me feel. He just feels so right inside me. He trusts into me so hard that the couch is banging against the wall and I can't help but scream his name. He just keeps repeating 'mine' over and over and just when I'm about to cum he stops moving and tells me to tell him that I'm his. He starts thrusting again and I just scream that I'm his and I explode in-between our bodies. He rides me through my aftershocks and as my muscles contract around him he cums telling me that no-one but him gets to touch me anymore. If I wasn't so blissed out I might feel weird about him being so possessive but then again that's exactly how I feel when I see him with JP, so maybe we just think alike.

He grabs some tissues to clean us up then settles himself back down beside me on the couch and I tuck my head in under his chin, it's like it's where I'm meant to be.

He strokes his fingers lightly up and down my back and says maybe it's time for us to tell people about us. I can't help the smile that appears on my face and just as I'm about to reply the office door swings open and Mitzeee and Amy are standing there grinning. Amy just looks at me with a big grin on her face and Mitzeee says "I knew it, but as much as I love a good show, and believe me I'm sure people would pay to see the two of you, I think we should leave you to finish whatever it is you were doing" and with a wink she turns and leaves dragging a bemused looking Amy away with her.

I can't help but laugh. We were just about to tell everyone but now we don't have to. Brendan kisses me on the temple and says "Well that happened, least it wasn't my wife and you're not her nephew". I laugh again and he pulls me closer. But then he sits bolt upright and starts doing up his trousers saying "Fuck…. Fuck, fuck, fuck" I ask him what's wrong and he says he's gotta go find Cheryl before Mitzeee or Amy tell her. He gives me a quick kiss the runs out the office.

I take my time getting dressed and fixing my hair, cause he always manages to look amazing even after we have sex where as I look like I've been dragged through a bush backwards.

I make my way back through the crowds of people of the dance floor and slide into the only unoccupied chair at our table, which happens to be in between Amy and Mitzeee, I swear it's like they've planned it. They both look at me with cheek splitting smiles and I can't help but smiling back.

They've got a million questions. Amy wants to know how long it's been going on so I try to give her the quick version, saying that we hooked up in Dublin but didn't know each other, but we've been seeing each other for about a month. It suddenly dawns on Mitzeee that that's where I disappeared to that night and why I was standing in an alleyway. She laughs and tells me I'm a dirty stop out, then her face turns all serious and she says "but what we're all dying to know is – how big is his cock?" I can feel my face turn red and I try to hide behind my arms.

Mitzeee and Amy are laughing at me when JP walks over and says "oh are we taking the piss out of Ste, I love seeing him squirm, what's he done this time?" I can see Amy's face get angrier and angrier cause she hates it when people have a go at me and she spits out "Brendan, he's been doing Brendan". She knows that JP likes him. His face falls and he says something about him obviously having shit taste in men, then he stands up and storms away.

About half an hour later I see Brendan and Cheryl come out of the office and walk over to the bar. Brendan pours both of them a large whiskey which they both down in one. Cheryl doesn't look pissed off and I know everything is ok when she puts her glass back down on the bar and pulls Brendan into a hug. I can't help but smile.

Cheryl comes over to the table and sits next to me in JP's chair. She puts her arm around my shoulders and pulls me into a hug pressing my face against her chest. Mitzeee nudges her and says 'quit trying to turn him her not interested in your bad boys' Cheryl just holds me tighter and tells Mitzeee that she's not the Brady I'm interested in. Cheryl asks where JP is just as Brendan comes over and Amy says he's gone home. I can tell she's feeling bad about snapping at him. Cheryl laughs and I take my opportunity to sit up, pulling my face out of her cleavage, "so he found out about you and my brother then" and I just nod. Brendan stands behind me and Cheryl's seats saying 'Jesus Christ Cheryl, shut up' but as he says it I can feel his hand brush against the back of my neck, his thumb rubbing the shaved ends of my hair and I know he doesn't really mind that everyone knows about us now.

As the club closes Brendan comes over to me and brushes his hand over my face asking if I wanna go back to his flat once he's closed up. I ask if Cheryl is going to be there and he says it doesn't matter cause she knows about us now. So I nod my head and give him a quick kiss. Only it's never a quick kiss with us and as he starts to deepen it I remember where we are and I pull away. He looks confused and I tell him we'll continue later but I need to go and tell Amy that I'm not going home.

Later that night as we are lying in bed after another round of mind blowing sex he tells me what Cheryl's reaction was. He said she was fine with it cause she liked me so it wouldn't be awkward. I'm so happy lying here but I know what I'm like and I have a big mouth that can't keep my thoughts in my head. Just as he's falling asleep I ask him what's happening with us. He turns his head to look at me and says, "I thought we established that you're mine and if anyone else tries to touch you I'm gonna rip their balls off" I can't help but laugh and tell him that it works both ways. He just hums in response and as I'm drifting off to sleep I feel him kiss the top of my head and say, "Goodnight Steven" and I can't help but smile.

I wake up in the morning to the smell of bacon wafting into the room. I turn over to see Brendan but the bed's empty. I take the dressing gown off the back off the door and make my way through to the kitchen. Brendan is sitting at the table reading a paper and Cheryl is at the cooker. She looks at me and says 'morning love' and hand me a plate with a bacon sandwich. I walk over to the table and Brendan smiles at me, then leans up and gives me a kiss.

I could get used to this.

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