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Chapter 6

So Cheryl, me and Brendan check into a hotel in Dublin. It's so fancy, I've never stayed anywhere like this. I can't stop staring at, well, everything.

We go to our rooms and agree to meet for breakfast tomorrow, it's only like eight at night but Cheryl says she's tired. I don't think she is, I think she just wants to get away from Brendan. He's in a right mood and I don't know why. Cheryl tried to ask him but he just grunted that he was fine.

I need to find out what's wrong cause I ain't going to the party tomorrow if he's still like this. He's lying on the bed (which is huge by the way) flicking through the tv channels. I go into the bathroom and notice there's a massive bath. So I start running it and put in loads of the complimentary bubble bath. Once its full I go out and tell Brendan to come with me, he mumbles something about having seen a bathroom before but gets up off the bed and comes over anyway. Once he's in the bathroom I close the door behind him and tell him to strip. He looks at me as if I've lost my mind but his face changes when I take off my top and start to lower my trousers. I get in the bath and tell him to get in behind me, which he does. I can see I'm already having an effect on him, I love that just looking at me makes him hard.

He wraps his arms and legs around me as I lie back against his chest.

He's still not talking so I pick up the sponge and start to wash his legs. I love the way the hair on them lies when it's wet. He nuzzles into my neck and starts talking. He's really quiet but his mouth is right next to my ear so I can hear what he's saying.

"Remember when we met in that club here, it was my leaving night too. After you left I got a taxi back to Eileen's. I just wanted to try to leave things on a better note. It took some persuading to get her to let me in the house. The good thing was she couldn't shout at me cause the boys were asleep upstairs. She was still angry with me, I mean, I can't really blame her but it had been six months since she caught me with Macca so I kinda hoped that she'd have calmed down a bit."

I'm so glad he's talking about what's bothering him so I bite my lip to stop myself from interrupting him.

"She told me that she just wished that I had been honest with her, that she felt our whole marriage had been a lie. I tried to explain that I couldn't be honest with her, cause I couldn't be honest with myself. The world I lived in just wouldn't accept me; at least I didn't think it would. Steven, you've got to understand that I was brought up believing that men who felt like I felt were weak".

He obviously can feel my body freeze at his statement and he tilts my face towards him and gives me a kiss. Just a little one, I think it's to reassure me that he doesn't feel that way anymore.

"Anyway, she relaxed a bit during our talk; I think she saw that I was trying to be honest with her now, even if it was a bit late. She promised that she would never stop me seeing our boys, and I can't tell you how relieved that made me feel. She had already outed me to what felt like the whole of Dublin but she hadn't mentioned to anyone who it was she had found me with. That's why I've been in a shit mood. It's bad enough that I have to face everyone tomorrow without having to face him in front of everyone, when I'm the bad guy and he's still in the family fold".

I pull his arms around me tighter and pepper kisses along them. He apologises and I tell him he never has to say sorry to me and that he can talk to me anytime. He kisses me again and it feels like the darkness he's been in all day has lifted a bit. I'm so glad he felt he could talk to me about it.

He begins to trail a hand down towards my groin as I deepen the kiss. He begins to stroke my dick and the lubrication of the water makes it feel amazing and all too quickly I'm cuming and I can see it floating around in the water. I can't help but laugh and he looks at me and asks why I'm laughing. I scrunch my face up and nod towards my cum and say "that's gross, look".

He stands up and climbs out of the bath then lifts me and carries me through to the room, I can't help but giggle and tell him that I'm not a girl. Then he throws me unceremoniously down onto the bed and crawls on top of me. He licks up my thigh towards my dick and says, "Thank fuck you're not a girl". He dips his head between my thighs and goes straight for my hole. Seriously the things he can do with his tongue, it's amazing. He alternates between coiling it inside me and lapping at the rim. He then adds a finger in beside his tongue and I can't help but jump up the bed slightly as he angles it to rub against my prostate. He adds another finger and I know what he's like, he could rim and finger me all day – he has far too much self-control, so I tug on his hair to pull him up towards my head. He grabs the lube from his toilet bag and smothers himself with it, then rubs a little on me too. He lifts my legs up so they are resting on his shoulders and slides himself into me. Fuck, he's so big. I don't think I'll ever get used to how full I feel when he's in me. It's the most intense pleasure I've ever felt when he begins to thrust, getting the angle just right so that he rubs against my prostate as he moves in and out. I can't help but pull my nails up and down his back as he sucks on the skin at my collar bone. I swear I am bent in two, he always told me I was flexible but Jesus Christ, I didn't know I could bend like this. It feels like my orgasm is being violently ripped from me and I can't help the screams that are coming out of my mouth. He thrusts a few most times then he releases too. He collapses onto the bed beside my saying 'fuck, that was amazing'. I lean across and grab some tissues to clean us up before cuddling into his side and quickly falling asleep.

When I wake up in the morning the bed is empty and I can hear the shower running. He obviously doesn't know I'm awake yet cause I can hear him singing a Lady GaGa song. There's a soft knock on the door so I pull on some boxers and a t-shirt and open the door. It Cheryl, she opens her mouth to speak but then she hears Brendan singing and she can't help but laugh saying, "I'm so glad he's in a better mood, I've been awake for ages trying to come up with an excuse to get out of today. Did he tell you what was wrong?"

I ask her if she knew that Eileen had never told anyone that is was Macca that he'd been caught with.

"Well yeah, is that all that was wrong with him, seriously? Macca is old news, he's got you now. And Macca's not going to turn up today, surely Eileen wouldn't allow it".

Brendan switches off the shower which just makes his singing sound louder.

Cheryl smiles and says, "Well you've obviously managed to cheer him up" she nudges her shoulder against mine and tells me she'll see me at breakfast in half an hour. Then she winks at me and tells me not to be late.

Brendan opens the door to the bathroom and jumps about 3 feet in the air, screaming like a girl. He really didn't know I was standing outside the bathroom door. I can't help but laugh, I can't breathe and my cheeks hurt, I'm laughing so much. Brendan grabs me by the waist and says, "so you think that was funny, cheeky little shit" then he kisses me and I can't breathe again.

Needless to say we were late for breakfast.

We walk into the dining room and Cheryl just rolls her eyes at us, then says she's booked a taxi to take us to Eileen's.

The taxi ride is quiet. Brendan doesn't say much and Cheryl has given up trying to make small talk with him. He just sits with his hand on my leg, his thumb stroking backwards and forwards.

I'm nervous, I mean Eileen knows I'm coming but this isn't just a let's meet the boys and my ex-wife kind of visit – which would be scary enough. This is a lets meet the boys and my ex-wife, my family and friends and her family and friends. To be honest I'm shitting myself, not to mention that Brendan looks like he's either going to flip or go running back into the safety of his closet. I don't know how he'll be with me in front of everyone. I know he's not a touchy feely kind of guy and I'm fine with that. But, well I just don't know what to expect.

The taxi pulls up in a street that is worlds apart from the type of street I grow up on, I mean my next door neighbours front window had broken so many times that they ended up just leaving a board on it with writing saying 'This window also comes in glass'.

This street is posh, but then I suppose Brendan was supplementing his income back when he bought it.

We walk up to the front door and none of us really knows what to do.

Cheryl rolls her eyes at us and chaps the door muttering 'fuck sake guys'.

The door swings open and a small boy with hair as dark as Brendan's comes hurtling towards us and throws himself at Brendan. Turns out this is Paddy. Brendan picks him up and squeezes him into a tight hug.

We walk into the hall and a woman appears at the end of the hallway. Brendan puts Paddy back down and nods towards the woman saying, "Eileen", she gives him a tight smile and says hi to Cheryl. She then looks at me and says, "So you must be Steven". I say hi to her and tell her to call me Ste. It's kinda awkward, but then Paddy reappears with another boy a bit older with fairer hair, this must be Declan.

We walk into the living room and Brendan sits between his boys on the couch. He introduces me as his friend Steven and I laugh and tell them both to call me Ste. It's easy with Declan and Paddy, I mean I can play computer games and talk about football with them. I can sense that Eileen keeps wandering through to watch us. Cheryl disappears into the kitchen to talk to her. But as people start arriving Cheryl comes back through to sit with me, it's like she can tell how strange this all is for me. She keeps giving me reassuring smiles.

The living room is packed with people and I'm still sitting with Cheryl. Brendan and Declan have disappeared. I ask Cheryl if it would be ok if I went to get another drink and she says, "course love, everything's in the kitchen". Everyone else seems to be drinking but I'm on the cola cause I don't want to make a full of myself and embarrass Brendan do I.

I walk into the kitchen and I'm pouring myself another cola when I feel someone behind me. I turn my head and see Eileen standing in the door way.

"This is kind of awkward isn't it, but honestly it doesn't have to be" she says.

"I didn't think you'd want me in your house, I mean knowing that I'm with Brendan"

"Well I wasn't sure at first, but the more I thought about it, I realised that it wasn't you who broke up my marriage so why should I hate you. I mean it's clear that Brendan loves you…."

I can't help but butt in at that point and say we are not there yet. She laughs and says,

"He's not exactly the grand declaration kind of bloke, but he brought you here, knowing that everyone would be here, he's introduced you to my sons, so that should tell you how he feels"

I can't help the smile that takes over my face. She just smiles back at me.

"I don't know if I'll ever be able to properly forgive him for what he did, but that has nothing to do with you"

At that point Cheryl walks in and says "Erm Eileen, Macca's just turned up with his ma"

Eileen's face drops and I can tell mine has done the same.

I stay in the kitchen for another ten minutes or so but I decide that I'm being stupid, I mean after everything Eileen has just said to me why am I the one hiding? I walk back out into the hall and almost straight into Macca. He smiles at me, seriously I hate this guy. He leans towards me and whispers, "his dick really is amazing isn't it"

I feel this rage running through me and I can't help but snear at him. "Why don't you get it Macca, he moved countries and didn't even tell you he was going, if that doesn't tell you he's not interested nothing I can say will"

I move to walk past him but he blocks my way and says, "and the things he can do with his tongue, oh god"

It's like someone else has taken over my body and the next thing I know he's lying on the floor. I must have punched him. I look up and see Brendan standing at the top of the stairs looking down at us. He looks pissed off and I can't stay here any longer. I walk straight out the front door and just keep walking.

The taxi ride to Eileen's only took five minutes, we could have walked but Cheryl didn't want to mess up her hair. So I know I'm not that far from the hotel. After quite a few wrong turns I find myself in the city centre. I see a bridge that's all lit up and I walk over and stare at the water. The tears are practically dripping off of my chin. The anger I felt when I was walking has passed and all I feel now is awful. I'm devastated as the reality of what I've just done hits me. I just punched my boyfriends ex at his son's birthday party, I've ruined everything.

I feel someone behind me and then I hear him. His low voice as smooth as velvet and I can't help but sob cause I know he going to tell me we're over.

"What happened Steven?"

He tries to turn me so that I'm looking at him and although my body turns I can't lift my head to look at him.

He puts his fingers under my chin to make me look at him and just says 'Steven'

I can't stop then. I just keep saying sorry over and over again but I'm crying so much that I don't even know if he'll be able to make out what I'm saying.

He pulls me into him and rests his chin on the top of my head. I just breathe him in cause this might be the last chance I get.

I start to calm down a bit as he's holding me; he just has that affect on me, being near him just calms me down. As my breathing begins to go back to normal he asks what happened again. I suppose I'm going to have to tell him, he's not going to let this go. So I do, I tell him that Eileen was being really nice to me, then Macca showed up and just started saying things to wind me up, I tried to brush it off but he just kept talking and the next thing I know he's lying on the floor and my hand hurts like hell. He lifts my hand to his mouth and kisses my knuckles. I can't believe he's being so gentle after what I've done. He starts to laugh and my brain can't catch up. I can't let myself believe everything is going to be ok. I look at him and ask him what's so funny cause from where I'm standing my world has just fallen apart. He stops laughing and smiles and says, "Who knew you could punch like that, I better watch my back" then he leans down and kisses me. I honestly feel like my heart is going to melt, I can't believe he's still standing here with me, let alone kissing me.

I pull away from him and ask what we should do now, how the hell am I going to fix this. He tells me that first of all he needs to phone Cheryl cause she's out looking for me too. Then we are going to go back to the hotel and talk about how we can fix this.

We decide to go back to Eileen's tonight after everyone else has gone so that Brendan can see his boys. I offer to stay at the hotel but he tells me that I'm going, while giving me one of those looks that tells me I don't have a choice. I promise not to screw up again and he just shakes his head at me and gives me a kiss.

When we get to Eileen's it's Cheryl who opens the door and she pulls me into a hug squeezing me so tight I can barely breathe. I follow her into the living room and see Eileen sitting on a chair. I can't help but look down at my feet but Cheryl pushes me towards the couch and tells me to sit down. Eileen looks at Brendan and tells him that the boys are upstairs. He squeezes me shoulder and leaves the room.

"Well, are you going to tell me what happened?"

I feel like I'm back at school getting told off by the head. I just say I'm sorry and that Macca was winding me up. I don't go into detail; Eileen doesn't want to hear all that. I think she's going to shout at me cause when I look up her face is contorted with anger.

But when she finally speaks all she says is, "Jesus, Mary and Joseph, that son of a bitch, it's not enough that he ruins my marriage, he has to ruin Declan's birthday too. Just wait till I get my hands on him, I swear to God". She stands up and starts pacing the floor and all I can do is apologise again.

A little while later Brendan comes back down the stairs and the three of us head back to the hotel. We stop off at an off licence to pick up a bottle of Jamison's for Brendan, wine for Chez and beer for me then we walk back to the hotel.

We all sit in Cheryl's room but I'm knackered and after I drink one of the bottles of beer I just want to go to sleep. So I head back to our room and leave Brendan and Cheryl to it. We've still got a full day tomorrow in Dublin before we go back home. Let's hope it goes better than today.

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