Someone To Finally Tell Chapter 2: Two: The Note, a glee fanfic

A/N: Hello wonderful readers! And welcome back to Someone To Finally Tell! Thank you all for reading. I would love it if I could get more reviews. Also, I am planning on doing another glee story on Iridessa and a Harry Potter one too. Excited to do that. :D I am so sick of rain here in Colorado. It is getting annoying. So lets got to the story shall we?

Oh and P.S.: If you guys have any songs that talk about pain in the past/abuse/cutting/self hate stuff like that send it to me please!

Title: Someone To Finally Tell

Rating: T(very good chance it will go up, since there are mentions of rape and abuse)

Disclaimer: I do not own glee, I do own Irridessa though.

Summary: What happens when you were born poor, beaten, raped, beaten again, starved and things worse? Meet Irridessa Walters. Shes been through it all. Doesn't know who her father is, is adopted. Shes had to adjust to all kinds of things. So how will she adjust to William McKinley High School? Friends, enemies, or someone to finally tell them what happened?

Two:The Note

Kurt was suddenly my best friend. We got stares from the other glee kids and when they asked what happened we simply answered we just had a bonding moment Whenever I would walk by one of jocks I took a step towards them making them flinch and then smirked at them. When glee rolled around that day Kurt and Blaine dragged me along. They didn't even know if I could sing but they took me any way.

I was introduced to Mr. Schue, I didn't have him since I took French, and was asked if I wanted to audition. I said I wasn't sure but Blaine was like a puppy on speed and said 'do it do it do it do it' over and over incredibly fast. Kurt then began chanting behind him and then the whole glee club joined in. I smacked my self on the forehead and finally muttered 'OK'. Blaine was all over me then. I got my iPod out and scrolled through songs. I had several songs from my therapist, most I ignoed, I had lots banned on my iPod but they were there any way. I finally found one that was hidden away in the thousand of songs. It was the one my adoptive brother sung to me when I started cutting for the third time. That was what got me to stop. Then.

"YO! have a song!." I called over the ruckus.

I stood up and asked if Brad knew it and he did. The glee kids all took their seats eyes trained on me. I gave a shaky breath as Blaine and Kurt gave me a thumbs up. Brad his the first note and I sang.

It must' a been a place so dark, couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

It had been horribly dark. I felt so unloved. I mean everything that had happened... HE tried to reach me when through the haze. Even after getting out of there I still felt unloved. Even when Micheal said he loved me I never felt it. They helped me before we moved. It wasn't how I wanted to draw a crowd.

Oh why that's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking the troubled soul, God only knows
What went wrong and why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song
Mmmmmmm

He kept asking what happened. I wouldn't tell. He wanted to do something, anything and I still won't let him in. He didn't know just how troubled I was. I don't really belive in god but he would have been the only one to know. He wanted to know what went wrong, and there were times when I just had get up and leave because of a flashback or an urge.

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun

He always said I was beautiful, he always said I'd win and be what ever I wanted o be. He said I always had this passion in my eyes no matter what. He said when I was center stage I was the sun. I was brighter then the sun.

He kept asking and asking if he could have done. He didn't know, couldn't have known, what I was. What went wrong and why I would leave. He couldn't leave.

I looked out at the audience and Kurt and Blaine were holding hands and Kurt was close to tears. I noticed I was too. They probably just thought it was the emotion, not the back story.

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

We were in a park when he sang to me. It was right before I went into ninth grade. The birds stopped singing to listen to his voice. It was an amazing place.

Oh why there's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
And now you're gone
And we cried

Said he didn't need to know what exactly to happen to know it was bad. He did know that I had been lied to about how horrible I was and how wonderful I was. He wanted to know who exactly told me I wasn't worth it, to live. They lied, I almost was gone and we cried.

Cause It's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song

Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song

The music ended and I received cheers and applause and I wiped away the tear that fell over. Kurt and Blaine glomped themselves onto me Kurt murmuring praise in my ear. I smiled genuinely for the first time in well...for ever really.

Schuster clamped a hand on my back which I winced at and congratulated me and told me I was in. I rolled my shoulders back to try and ease the ache. I knew it was all in my head but it really felt like all the bruising was still there.

Xxxxxxxx

I happily arrived home after glee club and lots of praise. I was a bit sad about the song and I was fighting off the urge at the moment but I had done it before. I had stayed clean for longer than I had before and I'm not letting that go. I pulled my converse off and padded over to the kitchen. I pulled an apple from the fridge and saw two notes on the fridge. The first read:

'Hey Dessa, just left this for you. I love you. Hope you had a wonderful day at school. ~Mike'

When I read the second the apple dropped out of my hand and his the floor. My blood ran cold and the anxiety was coming on no matter what meds were in my system at the moment. My breathing quickened and I pressed my finger nails into palm creating little half moons. The note was scrawled sloppily on the back of an old shopping list. This read:

'Hello darling. Mommy's been looking for you. You were very bad to run away and get another family to love you. Only I love you. And I will get you back. Don't worry. I'll get you out of that retched place. I will get you back with me and Theo. Hes missed you so much. Don't worry darling. I'll get you by the end of your school year. ~Mommy'

I ripped the note of the fridge and sprinted to my room apple gone. My breathing was even heavier. I shoved the note in a desk drawer and then sprinted around the house locking everything. It didn't matter any way. Theo would just pick the lock...They would get me...he'd take me again...

I collapsed on my bed finally curled into a ball and began sobbing.

A/N: Jeez...sorry its taken so long. I went camping and then I got sidetracked with other so I apologize. I think i'm going to amp it up ti 'M' the way this is going. You have been forewarned!

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