Letters To My Ex- Jerk
Chapter 5- Midnight Snacks
A/N: Hey guys! I'm so sorry that this is soo late, but I had exams and then some major problems with the internet and everything :( but now everything's okay… Anyway, I wanted to thank all of you who supported me and reviewed and liked it and everything…
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Bonnie's P.O.V
I woke up at about 12 AM, looking for a snack to eat because I was hungry for some reason. I got out of bed, wrapping myself in my soft light blue robe and slipping on my fluffy blue slippers. I trudged out into the living area; it was all dark so Elena (and Damon if he was still here and I hoped to god he wasn't) were probably asleep already. I hurried for the kitchen and headed over to the fridge and almost screamed at what I saw.
Damon Salvatore was standing there in a pair of heart decorated boxers alone, and his hair was all messy as he held up our milk carton and tipped it into his mouth. I brought my hand to my mouth as I headed towards him, disgusted.
"Oh my god, I think I'm scarred for life!" I exclaimed, shielding my eyes and shooting him a dismayed look.
Damon just grinned, throwing the milk carton back into the fridge. I pulled it back out and dumped it into the bin. "Well, it's your fault, and don't pretend you didn't enjoy it," He winked at me, causing my anger to flare up.
"Shut up, stupid. And besides, how is it my fault? It's my house!"I reminded him, angrily as I folded my arms across my chest and glared at him. Whoa, his chest was so toned. SHUT UP! Why am I thinking things like that? I instantly scolded myself.
Damon raised an eyebrow, "You aren't very good at being gracious to guests, let me tell you," He informed me, ignoring my last comment.
"You're one to talk. What the hell did you say to Tyler last night?" I exclaimed, irritably. I narrowed my eyes at him and he just laughed his head off.
"Oh, he told you I told you something?" He raised his eyebrow and I wanted nothing more than to tear it off and cut it into shreds. When did I become so violent?
"Hell yeah he did. You just ruined my date for no reason!" I shouted, and then covered my mouth as I heard shuffling inside Elena's room. No footsteps came out of the room though; she must be really sleepy.
"Oh, I had reason little one," Damon said, seriously.
"Oh and what was that? And I'm not little," I stubbornly stuck out my chin and shot him a death-glare.
Damon just laughed again, "Think again," He murmured, almost too quiet for me to hear.
"You are unbelievable. You know I could kick you out if I wanted to. This is my home," I reminded him, an icy undertone to my voice.
Damon rolled his eyes, "Elena won't let you," He explained to me, smiling smugly.
"Oh, I'll make her," I said, angrily shooting him one last look of contempt before hurrying towards Elena's room. I opened the door, forgetting to knock. She was half asleep in bed, and she opened her eyes as I came in.
"Hey Elena," I murmured.
"Hi Bonnie," She replied sleepily, "What brings you here at…. 12:15?" She asked, looking at her watch.
"Damon. When is he leaving?" I pleaded, sitting down on the end of the bed.
Elena sighed, running a hand through her long straight brown hair. "He can stay however long he wants to," She muttered.
"But-,"
"I'm so happy he's showing some commitment. I'm just ecstatic that he's so in love with me. I think he's the one, Bonnie. The one I want to spend the rest of my life with," She smiled and I knew then that I couldn't tell her to force him to leave; it would tear away her happiness and she'd been lonely for so long since her last break up with someone called Matt or Mike or something…
"I'm happy for you," I forced out the words, feeling tears come to my eyes for some reason.
"Thank you, Bonnie. Your support means the world to me. Damon and I are having a party in a couple of days BTW," She grinned at me.
"Really? Great. Well, good night Elena," I struggled to get any kind words out of my mouth. I got up as she replied with an equal good night, and I hurried back into my room, slamming the door.
I got into bed, and pulled out a pad of paper and a pen, as I always did when I was upset or needed to let out my feelings.
I put the pen to paper and started to write in my neatest handwriting:
Ex- Jerk,
You have butted into my house, besotted my friend and I'm truly afraid you will break her heart. You already broke mine a year ago or so, and everyday when I see you with her it breaks a little more because I know I still have feelings for you. I still want to be with you even though it's irrational to want something that could cause me so much pain in the future. But I can't help it; I'm still in love with you no matter how much of a jerk you are. I can't stop thinking about you, but I don't think I'll ever be able to come clean to anyone about it.
It pains me when she talks about you being the one for her and the one she's going to marry. I don't know what I'd do if she did marry you. Would I let her have her happiness, and spend my whole life knowing I'll probably never get a chance to be with you, or would I take away her happiness and tell you how I feel, hoping you might still feel the same way I do, though it's probably impossible? My life is full of endless questions, and I'm not sure if I'd survive seeing you both as man and wife. It might just break my heart into a million pieces and I might just die then.
Even while I was on my date with Tyler, it felt so wrong and I was kind of glad when you messed it up for me. Every time Tyler did something I compared him with you, and with how you did things and you came up as better every single time. I couldn't stop thinking about our endless times together and all the fun we had, and no matter how stupid this sounds, when I kissed Tyler, it felt like I was betraying you. It's incredibly stupid because you kiss Elena all the time and do god knows what with her, and yet you don't feel an ounce of guilt, but I felt guilty because my heart still belongs to you.
I think my heart will always belong to you, no matter whom I meet… and that is one of the reasons why I hate you so much…
Bonnie x
Then I stuffed it in the box with all the other letters I'd written to you; they were about a hundred by now. I then switched the light off, and snuggled up into the covers, pulling it up to my chin and sinking into the warmth that was in the bed. I closed my eyes, ignoring the sounds from Elena's room. I could hear them talking and kissing and whatever else they were doing, so I covered my head with a pillow to try to block out the sounds and maybe get some sleep.
A/N: Well, I hope you guys liked that. I'm sorry it was short but I couldn't think of anything else to write. Hopefully the next will be longer!
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Smilesx10: You always say that…
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Smilesx10: Hah, me either!
Lily: *glares* Hey, don't mock Edward!
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