Letters To My Ex-Jerk
Chapter 10- Moving in
A/N: First of all a GIANT thank you to all who reviewed. I know Elena was a right .ITCH in the last chapter, but she's going to redeem herself, because Elena's too kind not to do that. This is the chapter that Damon and Bonnie talk but I'm not promising anything.
Enjoy this!
Lily (:
I watched as Damon headed into Elena's room and started loading his stuff into a few plastic bags I'd given him. I felt like I needed to watch over him while he was around for some reason, though I should have been revising for tomorrow's class. My grades were going to slip if I didn't care.
"So are you and Elena over for good?" I asked, quietly. I couldn't help myself- the words slipped out before I could bite my tongue and stop the words from coming out.
Damon nodded, meeting my eyes as he stuffed the stuff into the bag, and walked towards me, "Yes, I even saw her out with a guy tonight- I think it was that Tyler you went out with," He informed me, looking a little irritated.
"Wait what?" I put my hands on my hips, "She went out on a date tonight?"
Damon shrugged, "Yeah, I was coming to apologize or talk to her because I felt bad for leaving and storming out, and then I saw her in the bistro under your house as I was walking here. He was kissing her cheek and she was stroking him," He held the bag in his hands and refused to meet my eyes.
"I'm sorry?" I offered.
Damon shook his head, "No, it's okay. It wasn't going anywhere, anyway," He explained to me, staring down at the bag.
There was a little bit of an uneasy silence as I shifted my legs and ran a hand through my hair.
"Bonnie, can we talk? There are a few things I've been meaning to tell you," He asked, and his voice was so sincere, I sighed and nodded, though I didn't really want to hear what he had to say. I'd dreaded this talk forever but the truth was that I didn't want him to leave. He looked so lonely and sad, and I felt sad too, so maybe we could be sad together. It was stupid but it was the truth.
He followed me out of Elena's room and towards the living room area. I headed into the kitchen and put the kettle on. "Do you want something to drink?" I asked.
"Sure," He nodded, "I'll have whatever you're having,"
I nodded, and made two lattes, knowing that Damon liked them. He was acting so unlike himself today; I'd gotten so used to him being a jerk that I could not imagine him any other way, though when we were dating he was the farthest from that- he was a sweetheart- and when he was sad, which was because of a fight with his brother whom I couldn't remember his name because I hadn't actually met him before except briefly, or because of bad grades, he was the most depressed person in the world, and that made me upset.
I walked towards him, and sat down, placing our drinks on the coffee table. He took his and a big sip of it, and turned to me. I sat in the armchair beside the sofa he was sitting on and waited for him to start speaking.
"Well, let me just start off by saying that Elena wasn't who I thought she was," He said, quietly, placing the mug onto a coaster that I'd laid out.
I nodded, and waited for him to go on.
"I never expected her to move on so fast, though I should have expected it seeing as I was her rebound guy," He explained.
"Her what?" I demanded, not knowing if I'd heard correctly.
"Yes, she never told you about her ex-boyfriend? The one who she was engaged too but then broke it off when he had to move away with his work and she didn't want to move with him?" Damon asked, raising a black eyebrow.
I shook my head, shocked at the fact that she'd kept something like this from me yet she'd tell it to Damon. She'd never told me was her rebound guy; she just said that she'd never had a serious relationship before Damon. What a liar.
"Well, his name was Duke and he was a couple of years older," Damon supplied, "She really didn't tell you?"
I sighed, "I guess our relationship wasn't all what I thought it to be," I noted, feeling hurt at that revelation. Funny how I kept on discovering unpleasant things about Elena; it made the moving out thing all the better.
Damon shook his head, "Don't be mad at her. She went through shit with Duke," He defended her automatically.
"That isn't why I'm mad at her. I'm moving out," I informed him, not knowing why I'd brought that up.
"Really?" Damon asked.
"Yes, with a new friend, but that isn't important, what did you want to talk about? I need to go study," I told him, hurriedly, feeling that my soul was being exposed. I wanted to get back into my room as soon as possible.
Damon nodded, "I understand. I have a presentation due myself," He ran a hand through his gorgeous hair and then smiled a little, "Okay, so what I've been trying to tell you. You know that night, the one…" He trailed off.
I nodded, gulping and hoping I wouldn't burst into tears. "Yes, with her,"
"Well, what you don't understand is we were both totally drunk and Rose forced herself on me," He explained.
I stood up, holding my hand in front of me. "No, Damon, stop lying," I pleaded, feeling my eyes pooling over.
"I'm not lying, I swear. It's the truth. We were playing spin the bottle, and then she landed on me and she had to kiss me, please believe me," Damon stood up and his eyes were pleading. He wiped a tear that I hadn't realized had fallen from my eye.
I pushed his hand away, "How do I know you're telling the truth? How do I know you're not lying?" I asked.
"You have no way to know, you just have to trust me," Damon said, quietly. He took my hand and I let him squeeze it, sighing a little as I sat back down.
"I don't know, Damon. I want so much to trust you, but that night tore me apart. You don't know what I went through," The tears were falling harder now; he squeezed my hand, looking into my eyes as if he was seeing my soul.
"I do, because I went through the same thing," He informed me, "Bonnie, all I want is you to be my friend. I'm sick of us acting like enemies,"
I sighed, taking my latte and gulping it to try and stop the butterflies flying around in my stomach. I shook my hand out of Damon's and looked up at him through wet lashes. "Friends?"
Damon nodded, "That's all I want, for now," He whispered, as he tucked a stray strand of hair behind my ears.
I pushed the strand back, "I'm not sure," I said, softly, feeling I'd lose control of my emotions for some reason if my voice was louder.
"Please," Damon's eyes were pleading and a gorgeous shade of blue.
I nodded, "Friends is good," I whispered, and I stood up.
"Now, I have to go study," I said, offering him a small smile.
Damon looked happier than he had when he'd first come in. He came over to me and gave me a one handed hug as I started to lead him towards the door. I opened it for him, and he paused as he was about to leave, plastic bag in hand.
"Bonnie, I still care for you. Do you still care for me?" He asked in a whisper.
"Don't do this. We're friends," I closed my eyes as if that would make him go away. I don't know why but I felt an aversion to admitting my feelings to him.
I suddenly felt his lips on mine, softly, for a couple of seconds. I kept my eyes closed, feeling the tears stream down my face quickly. Damon pulled away and I opened my eyes.
He looked shocked at the fact that I was crying, "What's wrong, Bon?"
"I don't know if I still care about you," I lied, "I don't know,"
"But it was clear when you tried to seduce me that you do," Damon winked at me, and I fought a smile that was trying to form on my lips.
I sighed, "That was only a façade," I lied, "I don't know if I still…l-love you,"
Damon waited for me to stop crying, wiping some tears gently off with his fingers.
"Damon, I don't want to be your rebound girl," I told him, firmly, before I reached up and kissed him on the forehead.
Damon watched me speechlessly for a couple of seconds, before he nodded, "I understand; I'm sorry for wasting your time," He whispered, causing me to feel a flutter of guilt wash over me. He waved at me quickly before hurrying down the stairs.
I closed the door behind him, fighting the tears as I ran into my room and collapsed onto the bed, sobbing my heart out at what was, what happened and what could have been.
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Dear Ex-Jerk,
You care about me. You still do. And I sure as hell care about you, but I'm scared to admit it because I don't want to be hurt again, especially by you. I couldn't live through another Damon break up- there's so much a girl can take! I don't know if you just want me because Elena's gone or you want me for me, but I don't want to give you a chance to tell me because I fear the answer.
Even though I still love you, I don't want to be the rebound girl- that much is true. I'd never be able to love you knowing that I'm Elena's rebound for you. I just can't and I wont, no matter how much it hurts you and hurts me at the same time. I don't know if I can deal with being your friend but I'll try because I need a friend and I know you do too.
Elena's turned out to be someone I didn't know at all. She never told me about Duke and how they were engaged-I guess she wasn't a good best friend, but to put things fairly, I was never a good best friend to her either- we had too many hidden secrets, too many skeletons in the closet we needed to clean away. Our friendship wouldn't have worked in the long run, though at times I felt she was the sister I never had.
Bonnie x
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The next day at University, I felt like hell and I'm sure I looked like it too. I dressed simply in a navy blue sweater, some jeans and some sneakers, pulling my hair back with a barrette. I didn't bother much with make up- just some black kohl and pink lip-gloss so that I didn't totally look like the living dead.
I trudged through my classes, dodging Elena and Aimee, who whenever I saw her she was hanging around. Aimee gave me death glares but Elena just avoided looking at me at all. I spotted Jules and Masen, some of Elena's friends by the burger stall in my free period and tried to avoid them but Jules smiled at me and waved me over.
I walked to them reluctantly. They were dressed in their usual Gothic way, and they were joined at the hip-naturally for they were JulesandMasen the couple that people said their names as one because they were together all the time. There was even rumors that they'd moved in together, but I wasn't sure and I didn't want to ask.
Because they were smiling, I pasted a smile on my face as I hurried forward to them. "Hey Bon," Jules sang, pushing her long honey colored hair out of her eyes, and smiling at me-she had the most beautiful color of eyes, something between blue and green. Masen had his arm wrapped around her waist and he nodded in acknowledgement.
"Hey Jules, Masen," I fell into pace with them as they walked towards an empty table. I sat down opposite them and watched as they ate their burgers. I hadn't bought lunch yet; I didn't exactly feel hungry enough to do so.
"So what's up? How's your schedule?" Jules said nicely, I wondered if Elena had told them about our fight; Aimee had certainly gotten the memo.
"It's fine, tiring," I trailed off, "What about you?"
Jules laughed, "Well, I have Gothic Art after this then the Renaissance Art class; very artsy," She joked, and Masen offered her an amused smile.
"Do you know what's wrong with Elena, Bonnie?" Masen put in.
I sighed, "Did she say anything to you?" I asked, not wanting to spread around the news.
Jules shook her head, her waves bobbing up and down, "Nah, she just seemed kind of annoyed in Culinary today," She murmured, quirking her eyebrows in a 'what gives' fashion.
"Well, she and I had a fight," I picked my words carefully, not wanting to start a rumor about it.
Jules nodded, and didn't press me any further for details.
My cell phone rang then; checking the caller ID, I realized it was Caroline.
"Well, if you'll excuse me," I stood up and walked away, listening to their chorus of 'bye' and 'see you around'.
I pressed the phone to my ear and picked up, "Hey Caroline,"
"Oh hi Bonnie," She sounded excited as usual, "Are you coming today?"
"Yes, just give me a couple of hours," I told her.
"Well, look, I'm going to be out with my boyfriend Matt when you come, but my sister, Lexie, who lives in the apartment by mine, I mean ours now, with her boyfriend David, (A/N: I took the name from Key but I don't really know his name lol!) will come and help you move your things in and make you feel at home," She sang.
"She doesn't have to," I told her, not wanting to cause any trouble for them.
"Nah, she offered. She's so happy I'm getting another roommate," Caroline said, and then she hung up on me, before I could protest further.
I sighed, at her erratic behavior, then slipped the phone into my purse. I decided to grab a corn dog so that I wouldn't pass out from lack of nourishment and ate it while I revised for the next class I had. Only 4 more hours before I could go home, grab my stuff and then leave the key for Elena in the apartment.
"That's everything," I muttered to myself as I closed the last box up. I didn't have much stuff; just 5 boxes of stuff that were ultimately mine. Some things that were both mine and Elena's I left, not wanting to get into a fight over them. I left Elena the key on the kitchen table with a note with Caroline's address and her phone number in case she needed something.
I slung my bag over my shoulder, and started downstairs, not knowing how I was going to carry all the boxes by myself to the taxi I was taking. I hurried downstairs, carrying one box, and leaving the rest in front of the apartment. I winced at how heavy the box was and almost ran smack into Damon Salvatore.
"Hey," He replied at the same time I said," Hi,"
He took the box from me, "You need some help, right?" He offered me a cheeky smile and before I could protest, hurried back upstairs and grabbed another so he was carrying two. I grabbed one and we walked together downstairs.
I hailed a cab, and then started placing the boxes in the boot. Damon helped me, and after another trip upstairs to get the remaining boxes, the boot was loaded and I was done.
"Thank you," I told Damon, offering him a sincere smile.
Damon shrugged, "It's what friends do," He replied, returning my smile.
"So what are you doing here?"
"Other than visiting my new friend?" He teased, in a playful tone.
I nodded.
"Well, I was going to get my toothbrush and some shampoo I forgot," Damon informed me.
"Can you wait one second?" I told the cab driver, who looked impatient but nodded. I started up the stairs with Damon, and fished for the extra key under the doormat- it wasn't original but we didn't have any other hiding places for it.
"Okay, so lock up when you're done," I told him.
Damon nodded, "Okay, see you around?" He asked, the tips of his lips curving up into a smile.
"Sure," I replied, before turning on my heel and walking down to the cab which was thankfully waiting and hadn't took off with my stuff like they do sometimes in the movies.
"I'm going to charge you extra for all this waiting, Miss," The driver told me, sternly as I got in and slammed the door.
I rolled my eyes but nodded, and rattled off Caroline's address. I arrived in 5 minutes, the cab pulling up in front of the building I'd visited the day before. I got out and pushed all the boxes out of the trunk and onto the road. I paid, leaving a tip for the driver and the cab took off. I started carrying one box up until suddenly a guy with dark hair and kind eyes came down.
"Hello, I'm David, Lexie's sister Caroline's boyfriend," He informed me.
I nodded, "I'm Bonnie Bennett, Caroline's new roommate," I replied with a smile.
"Caroline's been telling everyone about you," He teased, and took the box from me.
"I hope good things," I said in the same comic tone, as I picked up a box.
David was strong; he took all four of the other boxes upstairs, and helped me place them in my new room. A girl with blonde hair and brown eyes who resembled Caroline very much but looked older was in the kitchen, making a salad. She smiled brightly at me as I came in.
"I'm Lexie," She cried, reaching out her hand. I shook it and told her my name too, though she already knew it.
"Well, I'd love to stay but I have work," David exclaimed, coming over to kiss Lexie on the cheek and then wink at me. I smiled back at him as he walked out of the door.
"Well, I made lunch. Go freshen up and stuff and then we can eat and get to know one another," Lexie piped up once the door was closed.
I nodded, "Sure thing," I smiled to myself as I headed into my new room. I knew that this was going to be the start of something totally nice and beautiful. I was making way more new friends, despite the fact that I'd lost my best friend Elena, and even Damon and I were on good terms now. I washed my face and hurried over to the boxes to pick something clean to wear, so that I could go and eat with Lexie.
A/N: Hey guys! So Bonnie's at a great time in her life right now. Things can either get better or worse. Do you guys want Elena back as Bonnie's friend or not? And what do you want to happen with Stefan? He's in the next chapter!
REVIEW please with what you think!
Damon: Didn't I kill Lexie? How is she back again?
Vie: This is a new world Lily created.
Lily: Yes, so shut up, and besides I like Lexie.
Vie: And so do I!
Damon: But she's sooooo annoying…
Lily: Kind of like you then?
Vie: *high fives Lily* good one!
Damon: *narrows eyes* You both think you're so funny. Will you still think you're funny when I kill you?
Vie: *flutters eyelashes* you wouldn't do that….
Lily: I know, and besides, even if you did then that would be lame, you killing us I mean…
Vie: And if you kill Lily, no one will know what happens to Bonnie and Damon in the next chapter…
Damon: But I hate Lexie!
Lily: She's not really going to be a main character, but Bonnie is gaining allies.
Vie: Yeah
Damon: But I hate Lexie!
Vie: Shut up Damon and wave at the nice people!
Damon: You can't order me…
Lily: Er, yeah, she's my friend so she can.. WAVE!
Damon: *rolls eyes but obeys*
Lily-Vie-Damon: *wave and smile* See you guys next time!