Letters to My Ex-Jerk
Chapter 24- Coma
Damon's P.O.V
I stared at the door as Bonnie left looking incredibly sad, but I wasn't in the mood to talk to her. I didn't even know why I'd allowed her to come in and speak to me, as if nothing had happened between us, as if she hadn't rejected me. I shouldn't have let her in; I'd only just set myself up for disappointment. I had thought she'd come to apologize for pushing me away or something but I was wrong.
I looked down at the box of letters which Bonnie had placed in my hands and was flooded with confusion. I opened it, and pulled out the earliest dated letter and started to read…
A few hours later, I was sitting there having finished reading the last letter, my jaw dropping down t o the floor. I couldn't believe what I'd just read. The confession filled my heart with an emotion I'd never felt before; love. There was no doubt in my mind that Bonnie had written these; they were exactly the way she spoke.
I got out of bed, and looked at my cell phone but it was 4 AM so I didn't expect Bonnie to be still awake. I climbed back into bed, placing the box of letters on my bedside table and then switched the light off. I was about to try to go to sleep when my cell phone rang loudly.
I groaned and sat up, wondering who was calling at such an early time in the morning. I checked the caller ID and saw it was 'Caroline Forbes'. I picked up, out of shock more than anything. I wasn't Caroline's particularly favorite brother so I wondered why she was calling me and at 4 in the morning, no less.
"Hi Carol-," I started and she interrupted me.
"Damon, get Stefan and get your butt's to the hospital," Her voice was frantic, and I'd never heard her sounding more panicked.
"Why?"
"Bonnie's had a terrible accident. She's in a coma, they put her in one so that she could heal easier. Get here now," She hissed, before hanging up.
I jumped out of bed, my heart pounding with panic. When had she had this 'accident'? After she left our house? I felt so afraid that something serious had happened to her, I dressed quickly in some blue tracksuit bottoms and a gray shirt. I didn't even bother to do anything to my hair, I just slipped my sneakers on and then ran out of the room.
The living room was empty so I assumed that Stefan was asleep. I knocked on his door a couple of times, and he came to the door, sleep in his eyes.
"Bonnie's in the hospital, get dressed and come on," I said, urgently, and panic appeared in Stefan's eyes. Bonnie was special to the both of us.
I grabbed a cup of water to wait while Stefan got dressed, as a way to calm me down. I was freaking out; I felt I was going to have a heart attack, I was so afraid. I was worried about Bonnie and that was no lie. I couldn't lose her; not now… not after I discovered she had the same feelings towards me as I harbored towards her.
Stefan was ready in a couple of minutes, and I would have made fun of his messy hair if I wasn't so freaked out about Bonnie and what was happening to her.
"Let's go," He said, firmly, and I put down my water and followed him out of the front door.
"Bonnie Bennett," I said to the woman at the receptionist table in the intensive care unit of the nearest hospital.
She nodded, then looked at me. "Who are you?" She asked, looking at both me and Stefan.
"Damon and Stefan Salvatore, close friends of her," Stefan put in, and the woman picked up her phone and relayed that information to whoever was on the other side. She nodded again and then put the phone down.
"Room 213," The woman said, pushing her blonde hair out of her eyes and scribbling something down.
"Thank you," Stefan said but I was already speeding down the hallway towards the room she'd pointed out to us.
I opened the door quickly and my heart fell as I saw the image inside. Bonnie was lying down on the bed, a thousand scars on her face and what I could see of her legs and arms, hooked up to tons of IV machines with all those liquids coming in and out of her. She looked dead, and my heart broke a million times. Caroline was her only visitor, seated on a chair with a fashion magazine and very red looking eyes. She sniffed as we came in.
"It's about time," She said, and her voice was croaky. Stefan took a seat beside her, a pained look on his face as his eyes flitted over to his ex-girlfriend who didn't look to be in the best condition.
I sped to Bonnie's side, taking her hand gently in mine and stroking it. She didn't move, but what I could see from the machine monitoring her heart, her heart rate was constant and that was good. I looked at her perfect caramel skin that colored her heart shaped face and body and I longed to see her breathtaking muddy green orbs and the pinkness of life on her cheeks. It killed me to see her like this.
I didn't realize I'd been crying until I saw one of my wet tears float down onto her face, I was so close to her. I wiped it off gently and sniffed, rubbing my own eyes to remove the moisture. I, Damon Salvatore, did not cry. If I did, Stefan would hold it against me forever. I decided I didn't care.
I gently lowered myself even more and pressed my lips softly to her forehead then to her cheeks. "I love you too, Bonnie. It's always been you," I whispered, in a low voice but I was telling the truth. I'd never love a girl the way I'd loved Bonnie Bennett.
Then I stepped back, cupping her cheek slightly and I vowed to myself that I wouldn't leave until she woke up. I wouldn't leave her side. I walked over to Caroline and Stefan who were talking in hushed tones.
"Caroline, how about you take a break if you want? Go get something to eat from the hospital café or some water to cool down," I suggested, wanting to be alone with Bonnie.
"But Bonnie-," She started, and I cut her off before she could finish speaking.
"I'll never leave her side. You go too Stefan. Take care of Caroline," I told him, and Caroline hesitated.
"I could use some water…" She trailed off, rubbing her eyes.
"Then go. I'll wait here with Bonnie," I said her name with such tenderness and love that Stefan and Caroline shared a meaningful look.
"Fine," Caroline said, hopping up. "Come on, Stef. We both know what Damon wants," She winked at me and hooked arms with Stefan who looked a little bit upset.
"You head on, Caroline. I just want to tell Stefan something," I put in, needing to get this over with. We needed to have the Bonnie talk. I knew he still cared greatly about her and maybe even loved her, so we needed to talk this over so there wouldn't be any bad blood between us.
Caroline nodded, and exited the hospital room leaving me with a very confused looking Stefan.
"What do you want, Damon?" Stefan asked me, looking slightly suspicious. I couldn't blame him; the only time I wanted to talk to him was when I wanted to take something from him, which was most of the time.
"I know you still care about Bonnie, but I love her. I'm in love with her and I always will. Every time I date a girl, I can't stop thinking about her. She's my one. I think it'll always be her. I can't stop thinking about her honey suckled colored skin, her amazing emerald green eyes that always light up when she's happy or amused about something, her easy smile and her soft brown hair that I loved to run my hand through…She's the… she's the one I want to marry and if she wakes up from this coma, I will, because I need to know that I'll be the only one for her like she'll always be the only one for me," I concluded my speech with more passion than I'd ever spoken about before. I guess it was all the pent up emotions about Bonnie and I realized the trueness of my words the second they left my mouth.
Stefan just stared at me, then his mouth cracked into a smile. "I care about Bonnie, it's true, but I can't keep you from her. I'm happy that you've finally found the girl for you," He said, and he surprisingly slipped his hand on my shoulder patted my back, before hugging me quickly. I was so shocked I didn't hug him back.
"So you're okay with me and Bonnie?" I asked, stepping back and actually feeling slightly uncomfortable and actually sort of guilty that he'd agreed so quickly.
"Yes, bro. You know, it never would have worked out with Bonnie and me…She's smitten over you. I should've seen it from the beginning. But hey, if you break her heart… you know the deal," Stefan smiled then, and I realized it was the first time he'd smiled at me in ages.
"I won't break her heart," I promised my brother. "Now, go to Caroline,"
"I should. I hope she hasn't passed out. She looks like she didn't sleep at all," Stefan murmured, before he excused himself and exited the room.
I was left with the sleeping angel. I sat down in Caroline's seat, the one that was closest to the bed, and sat there, waiting for Bonnie to wake up. I would wait forever if I had to. And when she woke up, I would do exactly what I'd told Stefan I would; if…when Bonnie woke up, I'd ask her to marry me.
A few hours later, Elena and a blonde guy sauntered into Bonnie's hospital room to find Caroline and Stefan sleeping on the couch on the side of the room, me sitting there with wide red eyes because I'd promised myself I wouldn't fall asleep. I had 10 coffee cups beside me to prove my effort.
"I came as soon as I heard," Elena exclaimed, rushing to Bonnie's side. "My poor Bon Bon,"
She looked like she was going to cry as she looked over to her comatose friend. "What happened?" She asked, whirling around to look at me with wide eyes.
"She got hit by a car," I explained, because that was what Caroline had told me had happened, before she and Stefan had dozed off, that is.
Elena put a hand on her heart, and touched Bonnie's cheek calmly. She bit her lip and then sat down on the seat beside mine. "Oh, you guys don't know eachother?" She gestured to the blonde guy who was now looking at Bonnie with some sort of concern.
"This is my boyfriend, Klaus. Klaus, this is my…friend, Damon," Elena made the quick introductions.
"Hello there," Klaus said, and he reached out to shake my hand. He had a British accent so he was from England probably. I decided I didn't care; Elena was in my past; she'd only been an unsuccessful ruse to get over Bonnie.
"Hi," I responded, and I shook his hand firmly before he took his seat next to his girlfriend, looking at her with admiration.
"How long as she been unconscious?" He gestured to Bonnie.
I looked at my watch, "6 hours now… the doctor came an hour ago and said she should be out of it soon. They're putting her in this coma so she can heal easier," I explained to them.
"Smart idea," Elena murmured, sounding worried. She ran a hand through her straight hair and sat back, leaning her head on 'Klaus's shoulder. He touched her cheek and she kissed him on the hand.
I scoffed but inside I knew I was jealous because of what they had. Because of the fact that Elena was not in a coma. It was selfish, but I'd rather it have been Elena than Bonnie. I couldn't live without Bonnie if she didn't come to her senses again. I didn't know what I'd do if that happened.
I leaned towards Bonnie and just waited. Bonnie was out of our reach and there was nothing we could do about it. It drove me crazy but I knew that there was nothing we could do but pray and hope and wait.
A couple of hours later, it was 9 in the morning and Klaus had to leave because he had some sort of class in their university. I had classes too, my first day, but I wouldn't go to them if it was for Bonnie. Caroline and Stefan shared the same opinion and Elena's classes didn't start until after noon, so she was cool with staying too.
She picked up some donuts and coffee for us from Dunkin Donuts but I was too worried to eat. Bonnie should have woken up by now. The doctor had come and assured us that she was okay and that her condition was stable but if she was okay, why the heck wasn't she waking up? I took a bite of a donut, feeling incredibly sick but I knew I had to eat to keep my strength up. I had to be strong for Bonnie. I stuffed the rest of it into my mouth before gulping down some coffee. It burned my throat slightly but I just ignored the pain.
Caroline's cell phone rang, and it was Matt so she picked up. "Hey Mattie….still hasn't woken up… no….she should be…that's cool… Lex said she'd make some sort of…yeah…uhmmm…okay, see you then," She hung up.
"Matt is sorry he couldn't come. He has some stupid test that he has to take and that the teacher won't let him postpone. He said he'll be here as soon as he's taken it. Lexie and David wanted to come too but they both have work and their bosses don't allow leave," She explained.
"Bonnie will be happy they tried," Stefan put in, and Elena smiled at him. They had been getting along pretty well since they'd been sitting there. Elena had taken Caroline's place on the couch and Caroline was sitting by me instead, the same tense expression on her face. I personally thought that Elena and Stefan made a great couple, better than that Klaus guy. There was something fishy about him.
My eyes burned from lack of sleep and every so often they'd flicker closed but I couldn't sleep. Not until Bonnie woke up and I was sure she was safe. I would never forgive myself if she woke up when I was asleep. It would mean failure and weakness.
"Look, she's stirring," Caroline exclaimed, her voice colored with excitement.
I jumped up and zipped to Bonnie's side, standing right beside her. Caroline was right; she was moving her fingers. I touched her hand gently as she wiggled her fingers slightly. Then her beautiful muddy green eyes opened and I felt like I wanted to kiss her. I did.
She looked shocked but she regained her composure. "Help me sit up," She said, in a croaky voice.
Caroline shook her head, but she was crying tears of joy. "The doctor said you have to stay in a flat position," She responded, and Elena and Stefan immediately stood by Bonnie's other side. We framed the bed and she looked surprised.
"My back is killing me… help me sit up," She repeated, so I did. I gently helped her sit up right even though Caroline shot me a warning look.
"What happened?" Bonnie asked, once she was sitting okay. Elena handed her a glass of water and ordered her to take a sip. She did and then waited for our answer.
"You got hit by a car, Bon. They put you into a coma, but you're okay now," Caroline replied, sounding sort of hysterical from happiness. A few tears made their way out of her blue eyes.
"Care, you're crying?" Bonnie said, sounding tired, but there was surprise in her voice.
"I'm happy that you're well. Are you hurting somewhere?" Caroline asked, leaning in to hug her. They hugged for a while, but then Bonnie pulled away stiffly, wincing a little.
"Ouch. Parts of my body are still super sore," She explained, as if to tell us why she had winced.
"My poor Bon Bon," Elena murmured and Bonnie smiled at her:
"Elena, I'm thankful you're here," She said.
Elena smiled at her. "Of course I'm here, Bon. You're still my best friend," She told her, touching her cheek.
"Are you feeling better now?" Stefan asked, trying to get a word in.
Bonnie nodded. "Yup, but I'm a little sore," She muttered.
"Klaus was here but he had to leave," Elena explained, "He was worried about you,"
Bonnie looked like she was going to cry. "You guys are such amazing friends," She spoke out, fervently.
"Don't forget about Damon. He didn't sleep last night; he stayed up all night waiting for you to wake up. He wouldn't leave your side," Caroline put in, and I was amused at the fact that she was actually acting nicely towards me.
Bonnie seemed to only just notice me, her green eyes going wide. "Is that true?" She asked, looking over to me.
"Yes, Bon. I love you and I want to be with you forever," I told her. Then I gulped and she smiled at me, "Will you marry me?" I added, on a whim.
Bonnie's mouth formed an 'o' and the rest of them looked shocked too, their jaws dropping. Stefan was the only one who smiled as the rest of them looked at me gobsmacked. "What?" Bonnie asked, looking unable to comprehend what I'd said.
"I said, will you marry me? I love you and I want you to be my wife," I repeated and both Caroline and Elena 'awww'ed.
Bonnie gulped but then nodded, as if making a decision.
"Yes?" I asked.
Bonnie nodded again, tears coming to her eyes. "Yes, Damon," She responded, and I leaned in and kissed her once again, right in front of all our friends. She looked shocked when I pulled back, then her lips formed a mischievous smile. Our friends cheered, especially Caroline and Elena.
"Did you read my letters?" She asked, teasingly.
"Yes," I replied, "And I feel exactly the way you feel," I told her, and I realized that the trio of our friends had stepped back to give us some privacy.
Bonnie touched her hand to my cheek, wincing a little as she lifted her arm. I put her arm down and touched her cheek instead, "Don't hurt yourself," I whispered.
Bonnie smiled a little. "I won't," She muttered. "As long as you promise to love me forever,"
"That's a hard promise," I joked, and Bonnie looked mock insulted.
"Hey!"
"I promise to love you forever if you promise to love me forever too," I stated, and Bonnie smirked and nodded.
"Sure,"
"Well, go on and get better so we can go pick out your wedding ring," I murmured.
Bonnie nodded, smiling widely and then she sank back into her pillow. "I'll try," She teased and I knew then that I loved her more than anything I would ever love.
A/N: and that's the end of the main conflict of the story.. I think there'll be one more chapter before there's an epilogue or something but I'll see (:
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