A/N: There she blows! Another chapter and now for another disclaimer. Harry Potter, it doesn't belong to me.

"Ah Sirius, it's nice to see you still alive," claimed Dumbledore's overly cheery voice. "It is also quite good to know that we won't be losing two students today." His heavy gaze feel on me but my eyes stayed focused on a point far away from where Dumbledore stood.

"It's good to be alive sir," affirmed Black as his fingertips traced lazy circles on my back. An awkward silence enveloped us until finally their gazes combined drove me to speak.

"Is that all?" another tense silence.

"Yes, but before you go I do believe some of your friends would like to see you. And I'm sure that once Madame Pomfrey declares you fit to leave then you may do as you wish Sirius." with his parting words I began to attempt sitting up.

"Let go," I growled out.

"You'll leave," he stated as we watched his group of friends come trotting in with Lily in tow.

"Now Black," I struggled in his iron lock but he barely paused to acknowledge my antics besides an eye roll; preferring instead to grin widely at his friends.

"You're looking pretty good— for a mangy mutt that is." Lupin said, his voice laced with relief.

"Sorry I can't say the same for you mate," Sirius responded with a wink, "You'd think something has been weighing heavy on your mind or some rubbish like that." The group allowed a small somber silence to embrace them while I continued my struggles.

"Yeah well if someone wasn't off dying on us I suppose I wouldn't look that way 'ay?" Lupin returned finally. Black's grin returned full force and swung a hand out at the boys allowing me to free a hand. Quickly, in their mirth, I reached into my robes and grabbed my wand. Pulling it out swiftly I jabbed it into Black's side. With a grimace he stared down at me hard.

"Problem love?" he asked through gritted teeth. The others watched us in silence as we stared at each other in a small battle.

"A number of things in fact, but no worries love, I plan on solving one right now. Let. Me. Go." His other arm retracted slowly from me but I moved away from him as quickly as I could. Stumbling onto the ground I straightened myself mindlessly while keeping my wand trained on Black.

"You really think that's a good idea Crosse?" Potter asked tightly. Then, for the first time I noticed both Potter and Lupin gripping their wands tightly, and aimed directly at me.

"Haven't you done enough harm already?" I asked tersely as I eyed them up. Were we really going to do this again? I made a disgusted noise in the back of my throat and moved to step away but they both took a step forward. "Back off!"

"I don't really think you should leave. What about you Moony?"

"Oh I agree Prongs, most definitely."

"Good thing I don't care what you think of me then," I retorted.

"Maybe not us, but what about the whole school 'ay?" I stiffened.

"I heard those stories and they're absolute bollocks," venom laced my voice as I glared at Potter who wore an ugly sneer on his lips.

"What?" the question was quiet but held a steady note to it. "James?" Lily turned to her boyfriend and stared at him with hard eyes. "You said…did you lie to me?" Lupin with confused eyes turned also to look at his friend. All the while, amongst the stares and questions Potter's face took on a violent shade of red as his mouth opened and closed like a fish on dry land.

"I might-" he said with a hard voice as he turned to face Lily and lowered his wand, "might have- missed a few facts here and there."

"What about the fact that I saved your bloody worthless life!" I shouted.

"I was handling it!"

"Like hell you were! The only thing you were doing was helping to build the gigantic mess we're in now! You helped Black make the potion, you played a key role in mucking it all up, and then what? You conveniently put all the blame on me? Say I'm the one who was secretly obsessed with Black and decided the only way we could be together was this potion? None of this mess is my fault and you know it! You know what happened and you made me the bad guy when it was you two." Flustered and out of breath I stopped from going off any more. Instead I merely shook my head and finally left in a whirl of swirling black robes.

I had somehow made it through the throng of people to the quidditch pitch where I was greeted with absolutely nothing. A pleasant change from what I was surrounded with only minutes before. Blessed Morgana what has made you so angry at me? Why was life like this, hard and tedious. Unrelenting. It really was some kind of nasty bitch. Or maybe I just had terrible luck. Really terrible luck; but somehow I was going to have to make it through. Not that I had any inclination as to how I was suppose too, but I would. Thinking on it now I suppose the library would be a good start. I could find out all about veela's, their habits, their nature.

Thoughts swirled in my head as I wandered mindlessly across the pitch towards a tucked away supply shed. The door opened with a sharp tug of its rusted knob and I was greeted by an old set of brooms. Grabbing one at random I quickly mounted and rode into the sky. Up and up and up I traveled letting the cool air run across my face and whip through my hair. This was… everything I needed it to be in this moment. Peaceful, and yet I was filled completely with adrenaline pulsing through my veins. No more thoughts clouded my head as I dived down towards the earth only to sharply veer off to the left and pull up.

"Going somewhere?" a voice asked near my ear. I screamed loudly and jerked to my right as I peered over my shoulder at the intruder.

"Jeremy you asshole!" I yelled as my heart beat calmed down at the sight of him, "You are such a jerk you know that." I told him with a laugh and flew towards him.

"You might have told me once before." He said with a small smile before he looked me over with concern, "What are you doing out here?"

"I'm not really welcome in there am I?"

"Well I think we both could name someone who wants you by his side," his voice had a steely edge towards the end of his statement and I felt my stomach drop.

"You don't believe what they're saying do you?" His eyes looked alarmed as he gazed at me for a moment before shaking his head violently.

" 'Course not, I know better than to believe anything that comes from one of their mouths." He told me, "But it'd be nice to know what did happen…" and so I told him of their plan and what happened. How Dumbledore had been too late, my rejection, and of course my finale defeat; the worst blow of them all.

"So you can't be my girlfriend anymore then." It was the fact that neither of us wanted to accept, but out in the open- him saying it- brought tears to my eyes. Silently I nodded in agreement.

"I'm sorry, this isn't what I wanted. All I wanted was to be with you." Jeremy reached his hand out to cradle my face and I gratefully leaned into his warm hand.

"I'll always love you, ya know?" he told me choking up a bit as our brooms moved closer together, until I could feel his warm breath on my cheek. "And if he's the one who's got to make you happy now then I'll live with that." His fingers gently moved across my face at his admission. I closed my eyes to savor the feeling of his delicate touch. He always treated me like I was some sort of porcelain doll. But such caring handling was doing him no good at the moment, nor I. My heart ached and I knew that it was surely breaking, yet there was nothing that we could do to stop it.

"It's just not fair," I whimpered opening my eyes to meet his.

"No, s'not." Faintly I could feel his lips moving against mine as he replied to me. I trembled but our privacy was disturbed as a distant rumble in the air broke us apart. I turned my face up towards the sky.

Wait…

Confusion embraced me as I stared at the cloudless blue sky. "What the-"

I turned my head to look at Jeremy and saw him staring down at the ground. My gaze ran over the ground until I spotted the source of the noise. Broom mounted and heading straight towards us was Black. And did I mention he was coming at an alarming speed?

"Go," I whispered fearfully, but Jeremy was frozen in the air. "Go!" I screamed and pushed him away from me. He flew off without a word leaving me to face the wrath of Black alone, but he wasn't headed towards me anymore… "No," suddenly terrified I chased after the two boys.

Jeremy weaved and dived in the air, trying as hard as he could to get away from Black but he stayed on his tail like the expert predator he was. Merlin this couldn't be happening! Leaning forward on the old broom I urged it to move forward faster. Inch by inch I gained on the boys by going straight after them, no big divers or wide too wide curves.

"Black! Stop it Black!" I yelled as I reached the end of his broom. A loud growl answered my command and in a moment of great stupidity I grabbed onto one of Blacks boots that was within reach. Automatically he kicked back to lose the grip I had on him. But due to my awkward position I lost my balance. I tumbled forward and a silent scream rushed from my mouth in a gasping breath as my fingers lost their grip on my own broom.

And suddenly the air was whipping around me in a new way as I plummeted towards the forest we had been zooming above. I gasped for breath realizing I only had seconds before I would crash into the hard branches of the trees below me. Closer and closer I came until finally a scream tore through my body as I crashed into the first branch. The air rushed out of me in one big whosh but I was quickly dropping again. My back suffered next, then my right side. As my head was painfully knocked back I found myself unable to pinpoint the direct source of my pain anymore.

Fuck. I reached out blindly to grab onto anything that would stop me. How was I to know that this would dislocate my arm from my shoulder? The sound that tore from my throat was inhuman but the tears that tracked down my face certainly were. But then nothing mattered anymore, I had finally stopped falling.

The shrubbery I had landed in was devoid of life, but the sharp leafless branches, tickled and scratched at my skin relentlessly. Unconsciously I rolled my head to the side to relieve the aching throb that racked my skull. It didn't surprise me when I found myself quickly losing consciousness but I fought it off for a few more minutes to find the source of stinging pain in my abdomen. Attempting to lift my head was a waste of time so instead I moved my good arm towards the pain. Something hot and wet covered my shirt. Blood. Moving closer I felt a rough long object protruding from my stomach. Breathing heavily I gripped the object tightly and attempted to remove it.

"Ahhh! Ergh!" I could feel the blood crawl its way up my throat, choking me as I coughed it up. A single drop made its way painlessly out the side of the mouth before I found the darkness the kept me from my broken body

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