The hot sensation of smooth lips gliding over my neck summoned my attention from my light sleep. Along with the feeling of teeth and tongue manipulating my sensitive skin. I was practically melting at the sweet sensation. That was until I opened my eyes, letting them adjust to the darkness, and I realized where I was, whose arm was wrapped leisurely underneath my modest bust. Feeling suddenly overwhelmed I shot up into a sitting position. Almost immediately I was acutely aware of the small sheen of sweat covering my skin, and the most in ignorable throbbing right between my-
"Dreaming of me love?" the words murmured over the naked skin of my shoulder.
"…" anxiousness spread through me as I swiftly scrambled over to the far end of the bed, which was backed up against the wall. My breathing was steadily slowing down, and as I patted down my mused hair I composed myself; as best I could. "No." I said with a very forced scoff.
"Then why did you moan my name?" he asked sitting up some to rest on his elbow.
"I did no such thing!" I hissed smacking his hand away as his fingertips reached out to graze my knee.
"Oh yes, you did," Sirius said, finally coming to sit up straight and there, even in the darkness, his eyes seemed to be able to capture mine. Dutifully I looked away.
"I did not. You're such a liar Sirius Black." I fumed. But in the silence that followed I couldn't shake the memories of the dream that had shaken me so much.
His lips trailed an inferno across my neck and over my collar bone. Down, down, and further still till I could feel his calloused hands sliding up my uniform skirt. His moist breath further soaking my already wet-
"Don't bother denying it love. I can smell your-" he smirked discretely letting his hair fall over his eyes somewhat, "arousal."
I gasped. I couldn't help it, that or the blush that immediately stained my skin. Quickly I grabbed the nearest pillow and sent it hurling towards the veela's head.
"You're mad!" I screeched as I started to scramble out of the large bed. He was on me in a moment. In a tangle of sheets and limbs he had me pinned down to the bed.
"Allow me to let you in on a little known fact about my kind dear. I can see better, run faster, take on ten wizards without so much as bruise marring me, and if I so wished, I could spot you out in a crowd of ten thousand with my eyes closed. So do believe me when I tell you that I can smell your desire, taste it in the air. And you taste like a warm aphrodisiac, tantalizing every sense I possess." He paused a moment a low growl admitting from his parted lips, "I could literally devour you." His eyes darkened throughout his passionate proclamation and I wondered what happened to the confused and beaten man in the bathroom only hours ago.
"Get off of me," I said quietly. But the feral grin that slowly curled his lips frightened me and I couldn't help but shiver in response. Another gasp fell from my lips as he bent his head down and dived down towards my lips. It was obvious he mistook my reaction and I instantly stiffened in response to his attack. Once more a low and deep rumble shook his hard chest, vibrating against my own softer one, and from his lips to mine.
"Don't tell me this isn't what you wanted," he said in a taunting voice, his teeth taking hold of my lower lip. He nibbled mercilessly at it for a moments time before releasing the swollen lip and moving a hand down my side with determination.
"Please," I choked out, fighting against my erratic nerves that pulsed with satisfaction at his touch. "stop." His strong hand held at where it was, and his body above mine stilled as well.
"You're telling me to stop, but your body-" his grip on my lower hip suddenly tightened and a knee thrust in between my own to legs so he could grind his…arousal against mine. I moaned despite myself, my head falling towards the side as I silently cursed my traitorous body. I swore in that moment if it had my body been a person I never would have spoken to them again. "your body tells me never stop." I could feel frustrated tears well up in my eyes.
"I said stop!" I shouted, suddenly finding strength and pushing him off me. "Don't you ever touch me like that again!" my enraged voice filled the room as I squeezed my eyes tightly shut. "I said to stop and you-you just…what gives you the right to do that, huh? I said stop. What was unclear about that?" my eyes shot open as I glared at him full heartedly. Sirius looked away from me guilt etched across his face.
"I'm sorry, these feelings and the senses I have. Everything is so enhanced." He cast a truly apologetic glance at me before bowing his head. "It won't happen again." He told me thickly, "not without your permission."
A tense silence followed his promise but I held onto the hurt and anger with clenched fists that wrinkled the sheets in my hands. "Get out," his eyes flashed a deeply painful expression before moving off the bed.
"I can't leave you for so long,"
"Too bad," I said to him harshly.
"No, Raleigh, I literally can't be away from you for that many hours. Because we haven't fully completed-"
"Then just get out of my site, sleep in the bathroom, in the bathtub! I don't give a damn just leave me be," and without another word he took a pillow, and a blanket off the couch, on his way to the bathroom. Moving back up to the top of the bed, I slipped under the covers silently before small sobs shook my aching body. It had been too real, the dream, and then the actual feel of his lips. The fact that my body had reacted to his touch in such a way made me sick and absolutely terrified.
I had liked it.
I couldn't let something like this happen again. I couldn't let the chemistry of our bodies together cloud me again. This was business. I saved his life he would save mine. It was a win-win. That didn't mean any other non-sense such as love or lust needed to interfere with the transaction. And yet the actual transaction would be a physical act of pleasure. Something that would most probably be filled with lust…
My sobbing quieted and stilled as exhaustion swept over my entire being. Maybe the lust was unavoidable. But loving? I could keep that hidden behind steel walls. He could have my body, just not my heart. I would make damn sure of that.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or anything like that mmmk? Got it?
A/N: I hope everyone had a great Holiday!!! && I wish you all a great New Year!!! I had a pretty good year this year but I'm hoping something big will in 2010.
p.s. does anyone else feel supremely old that a decade has gone by. I'm 20! I feel so old!!