Oh my God Jerry is Dr. Cox's father?
I stand there frozen, I really have no clue what to say to tell Perry.
Hey sorry that's your Alcoholic father sitting in that hospital bed, do you need a hug?
I sense that he left but I can't stop looking at Jerry, he's sleeping so he doesn't realize my staring but I just couldn't stop looking at him. He looked just like Perry I'm surprised I didn't catch it before.
So this is the man that made Perry the man he is today, that basterd. Wait... Wait maybe Dr. Cox was just messing with me; I'll ask Jerry when he wakes up. That can't be his father, he always said he was dead and Jerry acted way to nice to be Perry's father. It has to be a mistake.
"Hey Bambi everything okay?"
"I'm not sure Carla"
I walk away from her worried stare and go check on some other patients.
Dr. Cox POV:
When we got in the car neither of us said a word, I would have said something but I honestly for the life of me could not talk. It was like something got caught in my throat forcing me to shut up for once; I really didn't mind I didn't feel like talking much anyway. I kept thinking about him, how he smiled and how he was so relaxed with my outburst, it was all just too crazy.
I need some scotch and I need it now! God what the fuck was he doing there, I never thought I'd see him again, I thought he was dead. Whose fucking grave have I been dancing on for the last couple of years? Ugh I should have just killed him, and what's up with his name, Santos, what the fuck is that bull shit. Don't you mean Cox there dad or after you killed my mother did you have a change of heart and turn your whole life around?
As much as I tried to fight back the memories of my childhood they were starting to pour out. I was glad we finally got home to my apartment, when we got there I practically ran to the bottle of scotch and chugged it down. As soon as the drink touched my lips the memories that were starting to play in my head soon became foggy and disappeared.
"Babe are you okay?"
"Well I don't know Jordan but seeing how my long lost dad who I thought was dead by now, suddenly showed up at my hospital requesting me to be his doctor for god knows what. I'm not to sure if I'm okay at the moment."
" Look I know your in a bad place right now but just know that I'm here for you, I'm going to check on jack and tell the nana she can leave now and then I'll be back, okay?
"Sure, jordaroo"
I sat down on the couch with my bottle of scotch and my favorite glass, Just then I got a phone call from someone.
"Hello"
"Perry what the hell is wrong with you? What's going on?"
"Carla I don't have time right now, ask newbie I'm sure he'd just love to tell ya"
No longer wanting to talk I closed the phone shut and threw it across the room.
"Please don't break the house because then instead of your money going on my botox it will have to go in repairs"
"Of course, wouldn't want the devil to show her true face"
She ignored me and came to sit down next to me taking my hand in hers.
"Do you want to talk?"
"Jordan I don't know what I want right now"
"D'you know he talked to me"
"What, what did he say?"
"Nothing really he was surprised to see I was still in your life"
I ran a hand through my curly hair and pulled her close to me.
"So you admitted your feelings for me in front of the whole hospital, how does that make you feel?"
"Oh please don't remind me"
"Haha, did you mean it"
"Look you know how we hate telling each other how we feel about each other?"
"Yeah?"
"We'll I think it's time we let each other know, I mean defiantly not in public but when were hear at home, maybe we can say the L-word"
"Has the she-devil gone soft" I made a face that was a mix of mocking and shock, she punched me in the rib which hurt like hell but like the man I am did what any man would do. I grinned and bared it.
"Shut up, it was just a thought. It's just seeing your dad again, it just reminded of me of when we were first dating and how I would always cry every night because I knew he was hurting you. I was so scared that one day you would get killed and I wouldn't be able to tell you that I lov…. "
"What was that Jordan?"
"That I loved you okay, happy?"
"Now I am" I grabbed her and posited her on me more so that I could hold her more comfortably.
"You don't need to worry about that anymore, he can't hut me anymore"
"I know"
"Jordan"
"Yeah?"
"I Love You"
She smiled and kissed me, then after kissing until our lips hurt we headed over to the bedroom.
Jd POV:
"Bambi if you don't tell me what Dr. Cox told you I WILL KILL YOU"
"Okay Carla jheezsh"
"Okay then spill"
"No, before I tell you anything I need to make sure it's true"
"Wait bambi"
Before she could even finish her sentence I ran into Jerry's room, good thing he was awake because I was just about to shake him.
"Oh hello, you were the one who was with Perry, right?"
"Yes"
"Does he have any relation to you; I always thought he was a bit on the gay side myself"
"Huh what, no he's more like a mentor to me. Look can I ask you something?"
"Sure"
"Are you his father?"
"Yes, did he tell you?"
"Yeah he did, but why is your last name Santos?"
"I've recently remarried; I decided to take her last name instead of mine"
"Oh okay well I have to go, bye"
"Hey wait"
"What?"
"Where's Perry?"
"He got suspended for two days"
"So he'll be back Wednesday?"
"Yeah"
I walked out of his room and over to Carla.
"Now can I know?"
"I guess, Dr. Cox said you could right?"
"Yeah"
"Okay so I guess Jerry's his father"
"What, oh my God really?"
"Yeah I guess, hey were's Elliott?
"Oh she had a day off, I should call her"
She walked off towards her Locker and I went to go check on my patients.
Dr. Cox:
Wow sex was good, (not that it's never good) but this was something on a whole other multitude.
I looked over at Jordan and watched her sleep, she looks just as beautiful as the day I saw her. Again I feel the memories of the childhood I try so hard to suppress seeping through the cracks of the wall I've built in my head. I practically jump out of the bed and go to put on my clothes, Jordan stirs awake and looks at me confused.
"Where are you going?"
"I just need to go outside, get some fresh air"
"Oh okay hurry back"
I go over to her and kiss her on the head, "I Love you"
"Love you back" she smiles, clearly glad that we are now saying the L-word and goes back to sleep
When I'm sure she's sleeping I go into my drawer and search through my jerseys, taking out my Jericho 941 F 9mm handgun. Then I go over to my Scotch cabinet and grab a bottle, I go outside to the roof and start drinking away the memories of my childhood, gun in hand.
Jd POV:
Aah shifts finally over, I was just about to go home when I had a strange feeling to go and check up on Perry. I was just going to ignore it and go home, it was a long day at work and I could have used a nice bubble bath but the feeling was way to strong.
I guess I better go and see if he's okay or I probably won't be able to sleep tonight
After about 20 minuets of walking I found myself staring at Dr. Cox's door. After finaly getting the courage to knock I had another weird feeling to go to the roof.
Okay I have to be crazy I swear if he's not there I'm going to kill myself.
After finnaly reaching the top of the stairs and over to the door I opend it and looked around.
Looks like no ones here.. Oh wait there he is
I found Dr. Cox, he was standing on the edge of the roof with a bottle of scotch in his hand.
"Dr. Cox"
"Newbie?"
He turned around, he was waring a Detroit Red Wings jersey, his eyes were red and he had a gun to his face, it was under his chin by his neck.
"DR. COX!"
"Yeah Sabrina?"
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING, PUT THE GUN DOWN"
He must of forgotten about the gun because he looked at me with a weird expression then he finally brought the gun down and took another sip of his scotch.
"I'd like to be alone right now"
"Why so you can kill your self?"
"No. no newbie, I'm trying to think"
"Then why do you have a gun?"
"Why not?"
"Dr. Cox you're making no since"
"Not trying to"
"Look how bout we go inside, if you want we can talk or I can just leave but please give me the gun"
"No way newbie, I'll come inside but the guns staying with me"
I was going to argue with him more but he seemed to sense my hesitation and added.
" Look im not going to do anything, I've had this gun for a really long time. I just like to take it out when, well something pretaning to my family happens. I'll put it back as soon as we walk in the house"
"Okay"
"Oh and newbie, don't tell Jordan"
"Sure"
We walked down the stairs to his apartment together, I was still incredubley worried about him so I desided to stay with him for a little.
"Can I get you anything?"
"No I'm fine"
"Suite yourself"
He went into the kitchen and came back with some coffee
"Are you okay?"
"Listen here newbie, if you want to continue to sit here then I suggest you shut up about feelings, ya got it?"
"Okay"
We sat there on his couch watching some sport on the tv, after the game ended I decided to leave.
"So I'll see you Wednesday"
He gave a small grunt then nodded. I gave him a smile and walked out of his apartment, called a cab and went home.