Callie and I were home alone- Mom was working her usual shift.
It was a Friday, and tomorrow, we were wedding dress shopping for Callie.
I was pretty excited. I would get to meet her friends- I knew Mom had met some of them, but I hadn't. I thought it would be interesting to meet some of the people she hangs out with.
Currently, Callie was watching TV. I was sitting at the island.
I had something I wanted to ask her.
Asking it might blow my cover, though. I had already asked Mom the same question, and it was inevitable that they would talk about it.
But, Mom and Callie were the only two people I could ask these questions to, and I needed to take full advantage. I was confused.
"Callie?" I started, forcing myself to say it.
She turned around. "Hm?"
"How did you know you were bi?" I just fully blurted it out. Probably not the best thing to do.
Callie was totally taken back by the question. She turned off the TV, getting up and coming over to me.
She sat down next to me.
For a split second, I thought she knew. Maybe she did. She didn't say it though.
"That's a loaded question," She laughed. "Hm. I could tell you the crazy long version, or sum it up."
"Whatever you want to tell me." I wanted to know as much as I could. I was trying to see my own feelings in either Mom or Callie. Then, maybe I would know what my feelings meant.
"Okay. Well, I came out as bi when I was 22. So... a while ago now," She smiled. "I grew up super religious, I'm sure you can tell from being around my family."
I nodded. I had picked up on that easily.
"So, for the first parts of my life, I didn't really know what gay was," She laughed, shaking her head. "Then I got out into the real world. And.. I mean, you see a lot of different people. Instead of meeting guys all the time, I started to meet girls, too." She paused. "I actually think I might have to stop here, or your Mom might kill me."
"What why?" I tilted my head.
She put her head in her hands, laughing.
I just waited, a little bit confused.
"Okay..." She collected herself after some time, looking back up at me. "I seriously don't think I can tell you this."
"What? You had sex with a girl and then knew you were bi?" I blurted, only joking.
Callie's eyes widened.
"Oh. Yeah no I don't need any more details. That's..."
Her cheeks turned pink as she shook her head.
I bit my lip.
"Sorry. I'm... sorry. But, eventually it did start to click, and it took me a while to come out to my family. But, eventually I did. Things were tough. Religiousness and all. Aria accepted me from the second I told her. My parents took a little longer, now that I'm with your Mom, though, they're happy. They love you guys."
I giggled, "What, did you have a bad girlfriend before?"
She nodded quickly, "I did, actually. Not bad like mean but bad as in crazy. My parents hated her and I think that fed into them taking longer to come around." She laughed. "And the rest of my family, well... you know."
I nodded. "It sucks that people care so much about it."
"It does," Callie sighed. "But, I don't really let it bother me. I'm not living my life for them, I'm living it for me." She looked at me.
"That's a good mindset." I commented.
She smiled, "I guess so, yeah." She waited a moment, then, "You know, you've got very accepting people around you, Liv."
I broke the eye contact. Did she and Mom know?
"I think your mom helped me a lot too. As weird as it sounds, I came out before I even knew her, but... she helped me."
Oh. She was still talking about herself. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. That scared me.
"It's nice to meet someone who is so crazy accepting and just... a breath of fresh air. Plus, Teddy and April were so cool about it. It's nice. I've been introduced to some pretty homophobic friends in the past." She laughed a little. "Your Mom has some good friends."
"She does. Teddy and April are the best." I agreed, trying to keep my voice from shaking. I was still crazy nervous.
Callie nodded, "They are, yeah."
"Hey!" Mom opened the front door. She then appeared by the kitchen, smiling and tilting her head. "What are you two talking about?"
I shrugged. I knew Callie would probably tell Mom about this conversation, but I didn't want that to happen right now.
"Hey babe, come here." Callie stood up and I watched as they hugged. "I was just telling Liv about how you're the best person I've ever dated."
"What a flirt. Wait- were you really?" Mom laughed as she hugged her back.
"Kind of. I guess." I stood up, going over and flopping on the couch.
They kissed.
"Cal you're cute." Mom then came over to me. She smiled and leaned down to kiss my head. "What have you guys been up to?"
"Nothing much." I answered.
"We've just been hanging out."
"How was work?" I asked Mom.
"It was good. Pretty slow, actually. No crazy patients or anything."
I giggled, "That's good."
"Yup." Mom nodded her head, going back over to Callie.
I bit my cheek. I was worried about what would happen when Callie told Mom.
Would they talk about me? Like... gossip? That idea worried me.
I know Mom already was suspicious of me.
It probably wasn't the best idea to ask Callie such a question. But, I wanted to know. I needed to wrap my head around whatever it is that I'm feeling. Hopefully Mom wouldn't ask me about it.
