Okay sorry I haven't updated in a while, I sort of had writers block but now its all good.

Disclaimer: Don't own Scrubs JD POV

I Tried to talk to Dr. Cox all day but whenever I brought up what happened with the roof he either walked away, told me to shut up, or just ranted and ranted about how I'm a girl.

I saw Dr. Cox walking out of a paintients room. Hey Dr. Cox I yelled. Go away newbie he yelled back.

I wonder what he's gonna tell Jordan?

Me being the idiot that I am decided to ask him that question. " Hey Dr. Cox, what should we tell Jordan?"

He stooped mid walk and turned his attention to me, he was a few feet away from me but was quickly gaining. I suddenly had the feeling I should run away and I was about to before he grabbed me by my scrubs Collier and yanked me into a closet.

" Now you listen to me, no one is going to say a word of this to Jordan do you hear me If you mention any of this to her I will kill you and I won't even think twice about it."

" oh.. okay I mumbled"

He realeased his hold on me and I fell to the floor as he turned and walked away. I sat on the floor for a long time before Carla came looking for me.

" What's wrong Bambi?"

" Dr. Cox"

" Did he do this to you?"

" Carla just leave it alone, I'm okay I swear"

" No, I'm going to go talk to him, I have to tell him about Jerry anyway"

She gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked away while I sat on the floor.

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Dr. Cox POV:

God I cant believe Newbie is such an idiot, what should I tell Jordan, what does he mean what should we tell Jordan? Why would I tell her what happen? I'm not even sure what happened myself and he wanted to tell Jordan! Ugh I need a drink.

I was standing by the nurses station doing out paper work when I felt a weird chill go down my back, after shaking it off I went back to work. That's when it happened, The evil beast that is Carla came strutting down the hall casting an evil glair at me.

"WHATDIDYOUDOTOJD!"

" Um, what?"

" What. Did. You. Do. To. JD?"

"Nothing, why?"

" He is laying on the floor staring into space because you hurt him"

What a little girl

"Look I didn't do anything to him, clearly the girl can't take a little roughing up, I didn't even hit him so I don't know why he's running off to his mommy"

Oh shit, I sware sometimes I really need to keep my mouth shut

" Okay I'm going to pretend you didn't just say that and make you go apologize to JD right now"

" No, I'm not going anywhere Carla, I'm going to finish my shift, get my things and go home"

" Oh no you are not your going to apologize to JD then your going to go talk to your father"

I froze, my muscles flexed automatically as if waiting for an attack . I felt bile starting to spew into my mouth and it took all I had not to hit something.

" Don't you ever call that.. thing, my father" My words were hard and cold, distant. An old part of me began rising to the surface, the part of me i tried to hide away from everyone. The murder inside me, it thirsted for his blood, to finally end this raging battle and claim victory.

Carla must have sensed something was wrong because she took a few steps back then asked if I was okay. I stared at her with distant eyes, not really seeing or paying attention to what she was saying. I was fighting internally with the monster I've hid for years, and it was winning.

After a few more minuets of me being frozen in a battle like state, i finally was able to regain myself and unflex my muscles, a minuet or two after I was my old self again. I blinked a few times then put on a fake smile on and said "why sure Carla, just don't say that ever again."

" you sure?"

" Yeah Carla, I'm sorry but what were you saying?"

She gave me a dumbfounded expression and said " We were talking about JD and how you should apologise to him... then I said you should go talk to... someone else"

Shes acting very cautious, I like it.

" Oh yeah right, well I'm not apologising to anybody so your just going to have to deal with it. and As for that other person, he can go die for all I care"

Then I turned and walked away.

I avoided Carla and the whole scooby doo gang for the rest of my shift, it wasn't easy but I made it happen. As I was going home I heard Jerry calling for me.

"Pery, Perry is that you?, please come here I really want to talk to you"

I closed my eyes took three deep breaths and walked out of the building.

When I got home Jordan was waiting on the couch, I gave a short smile at her and ran towards the Scotch cabinet.

" rough day?"

" haha more like rough life"

I came to sit next to her, drink and bottle in hand.

" Carla called"

I raised my eyebrows but said nothing as I swollowed the amazing liquid.

" She said she thought you were going to kill her earlier"

" Really?"

" Yea, are you okay?"

I sighed and drank another glass full, then I set the glass and bottle on the Coffee table leaned back into the couch and rubbed my head in my hands.

"I feel like I'm losing it"

" How so?"

" That... feeling I used to get after the... incident. It came back to day, when Carla mentioned him, but she said he was my... my" I brought my hands down on the table causing the glass to shake. Jordan took my hands in hers.

" Shhh, babe it's okay"

" Jordan what am I going to do, I already killed someone because of him, what if I do it again, I mean I almost Killed Carla, I was thinking of a million different ways to slit her throat or brake her neck"

" You're going to get throught this, your stronger then you were before, we both are. I'm going to help you through this even more now, baby I love you"

I kissed her deep and passionate.

I wish I new she was right.

Okay I know this is sort of short but I'll have a new chap out soon so just deal for now lol. These past few chaps have been fillers to get to the better stuff and since I don't plan anything my outline is all in my head. So in my head this story will really start to kick off in the chapter after the next one. But keep in mind that my head changes things allot haha.