Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

I spend the next three days as near to a bathroom as possible unsure if it was nerves or morning sickness that refused to allow anything to remain in my stomach. He was leaving this afternoon to go to Port Angeles for his "time away".

"I am leaving straight from work for Garret's and I won't be back till sometime late Tuesday." He said as he shoved clothes in his suitcase. "I think you should have your things packed before I get home, it'll just be easier on everyone."

Easier on you maybe, I thought. How could someone so loving and protective over my every move suddenly want rid of me in the passage of less than a week. I know things had been rough the last little while but I was trying to change. He expected me to give up everything though. I wasn't even to visit the little family I had because I apparently spent more time with them than I did with him. I tried to be with him when he was home but it became almost impossible. He spent most of his time working at the hospital and was on the computer the second he walked in the door.

We slept in separate rooms; his parents decision not ours, funny the concept. Edward Sr. did terrible things to his own daughter yet his son wasn't allowed to sleep in the same room with a girl. It wasn't even just a random girl I was his fiancée.

He kissed me like usual before he left for work only this time he kissed my forehead and walked away with no "I love you", not even "goodbye" or "see you later". I had an uneasy feeling as he set out for work but again dismissed it as stress till later that day. I suddenly felt rebellious and strangely had a feeling deep inside he had lied to me. I just had to decide what to do about it.

I chose to get out of my mid afternoon slump by heading to my Nettie's house, she always had the answers. Nettie was Renee's mother and had acted much like a second mother to me even though she was my gram. She still maintained a 70's style hair-do with the large curled under bangs followed by a another large curl that fell back over her head and then her shoulder length auburn hair ended with small but very tight bob curls. My Nettie smoked like a chimney and drank more coffee than a truck driver but I relished her unique smell which was brought together by the subtle mist of Love's Baby Soft she would sprits on in the morning.

Instead of Nettie sitting at the kitchen table I found Renee's sister, Gianna, sipping coffee.

"Good morning Bella. How is everything, I haven't seen you in days?" she asked knowingly.

They all knew about the problems we were having lately and hoped things would work themselves out eventually. I was never one to keep up my game face when I was upset, so mostly I would keep to myself. Of course they all knew I was hiding and would confront me when I decided to return to civilization.

I decided not to fight the inevitable and just tell Gianna what was going on. I didn't have to strength to hide this anymore or my concern of what he was really doing tonight. I did not however tell her about my biggest concern, the possibility that a baby would be involved in this mess.

"Maybe we should see where he's going. We could see whether he heads for the interstate or not." She spoke excitedly.

Gianna should have been a private investigator instead of a stay-at-home mom. She loved a good chase, but this was part of the reason she was alone. She trusted no man and when she did it wasn't for very long.

"I don't know I don't think I really want to know where he's going." I sighed starring into my now cold coffee. I didn't want the coffee anyway, but old habits die hard.

The rest of the day flew by as we chatted about other things and soon it was after 9 P.M. My curiosity finally work its way to getting the better of me.

"So Gianna, do you think Nettie would watch over Alec tonight?" I asked know she
would want to go on the hunt with me but couldn't leave her son unattended. ^

"Already got it covered, I talked to her hours ago."

Gianna then disappeared into her bedroom for what felt like hours but turned out to be only 30 minutes. She emerged dressing in black from head to toe including a hooded sweatshirt for further concealment and in her hand was a pair of high powered binoculars.

"Ready when you are."

«

Yikes, I thought. Remind me never to piss her off.

I fidgeted the entire 40 minute trip to the hospital where Edward works. I bit my lip and worked over my nails like an Ethiopian who was having his last mean while we waited for his shift to end.

Soon enough I saw him emerge from the exit with another person close on his heels. As his vehicle pulled out of the lot again hers was close behind. I put the car in drive and hurried to catch up while not be noticed at the same time. At first I thought I was wrong, this was still the way to Garrett's house, which is until he moved to follow her vehicle and take the same exit she used. All I could see was red as I hurried to hit the next exit because I had missed the exit they took. I knew they couldn't have gotten far most of the places in this area were either home to millionaires or students, neither of which described her. We were just about to give up when I spotted headlights turning up ahead and I couldn't believe my eyes when I realized it was them.

Cautiously we followed into the road in which they had turned and when I noticed they were preparing to pull into a driveway I quickly turned into a vacant spot in front of an uninhabited apartment.

He exited his truck first and pulled out an overnight bag slinging it over his shoulder and proceeded to her driver side door. When she stepped out they embraced, nearly causing me to lose it right there, but what sent me over the edge was the kiss they shared before entering her house.

I swung my door open and immediately vomited on the pavement. Gianna looked at me when I pulled myself back into the car silently asking if I was ok, but my only reply was to put the car in reverse and head for home. I relentlessly tried calling his cell phone only to find it must have been off because I got his voicemail instantly.

I tried to sleep on the couch at Nettie's that night because I was to emotionally drained to go back to his parents place, but sleep evaded me. When I finally found sleep it was near dawn and I was quickly awakened when Quil, Gianna's son came bounding out to the living room at 7:30.

I decided to see if Edwards aunt was awake yet, she was always up before the sun. Charlotte had become like another mother to me over the last few years and was always there when I needed something. I vomited once more before I got into my car and made my way the 6 houses down the street to her and Peter's house.

Charlotte was awake as I expected and as I recounted all the events of the last few weeks up to tonight I could see the rage beginning to boil over inside her. Before I knew what was happening she was on the phone to Elizabeth, demanding she get over here immediately.

Within minutes Elizabeth appeared at the door and let herself in, taking in my appearance and looking seemingly unfazed by it. She knew, bitch.

After Charlotte calmed her ranting, Elizabeth admitted she had spoken to Edward before he left the house yesterday and knew of his plans.

"Bella dear, if he wants space from this relationship and wishes to see other people then he should."

"Yea but don't you think maybe he should have told me about it? If I hadn't followed him last night I might have never known. I love how you're taking this so coolly, we aren't allowed to share a room together, but its fine for him to go screw someone else!"

She simply stared at me stunned for a moment before replying.

"I don't know what to tell you, I don't want in the middle of this. This is about Edward and I think you need to stay out of his business."

"Are you fucking serious Liz? His business! I'm pretty sure him sleeping with someone else while were together is MY business!"

Charlotte finally stepped in, "Liz I think you should leave now, as you are no longer welcome in my home."

Elizabeth stood with a huffed, but left as quietly as she came.

"Can you believe that shit, she knew the whole time, the whole damn time. No wonder she can turn a blind eye to this, she turned one to her husband when he was hurting their daughter." I fumed. I always wondered what kind of person it took to overlook things like that and now I knew Edward's mother was the exact mold.

I laid down on Charlotte's leather couch and tried to calm myself. I dozed off for the better part of 2 hours only to wake and find she had left me a cup of tea that was now cold. I got up to look for her and found a note on the kitchen table saying she had to run a few errands, but I was welcome to stay as long as I needed whenever I needed. Their oldest son had left for college and his room was often empty, Charlotte offered more times than I could count to turn it into a room for me. I always declined though, thinking once Edward and I found a house I wouldn't have to worry about a place to stay.

We had just purchased 4 acres of land to begin building on a month earlier. I'm having a hard time figuring out why he let that happened when he must have had some idea he was going to ruin everything by making these latest choices.

I gathered up the few things I had brought in with me this morning and decided to head next door to my "used to be" home so that I could begin packing. I don't think I'd be able to forgive him anytime soon let alone live with him till I did.

I know he wanted a break so I should have seen this coming. I knew he needed time to himself but I didn't think it meant spending that time in the arms of someone else.