Hi everyone! Just want to apologize for the lack in updating. A friend of mine passed away a few weeks ago, needless to say his death has rendered me muse less. I am only finally starting to begin to write again. It's been a long and tiring process so I am very sorry.

But anyway I'm getting back on my feet.

R.I.P Bryan A. Delia.

Warning this chapter is LONG! So if you need a break please do so

Disclaimer : I do not own Scrubs.

I don't know what it was. Instinct? adrenalin? First I see my long lost step brother pull out a gun, then in a blink of an eye I'm in front of J.D taking the bullet. Feeling the white hot pain of the metal ripping though my flesh and muscle. I land on the floor with a thud as a dull blur takes over my senses but I'm able to realize the bullet hit my left shoulder.

J.D falls to my side helping me pull myself up against the nurses wall. John has the gun pointed at J.D again. " Holy fuck, Fuck!" I hear John yelling. He is pacing back in forth gun pointing in all directions. Suddenly John has the gun pointed at J.D again. His finger grazes the trigger as he looks around widely at the small group before him. He takes aim and I'm hit with another jolt of energy.

"NO…..no wait" I yell my other hand clutching my wound as the blood poured out. John turns his attention to me, a small smirk displayed upon his lips.

"You just don't know when to quit do you?" I close my eyes for a moment taking deep calm breaths.

"It's not J.D's fault …..It's…its mine" "What are you talking about? Dr. Dorian was my fathers doctor!" John yelled once again pointing the gun at my protégé.

"Wait!" I yelled pulling myself up one handed so that I could stand. Leaning heavily on the counter I continued. "You don't remember me do you? I came to your house one day, with that very same gun you have in your hand"

I hear the crowd gasp. I know the cops are on there way by now. All I need to do is stall John so that they can come and get him before he hurts anyone else, or more importantly J.D.

" What are you talking about?" John asks now glancing at the gun then back at me. " I showed up to your house a few years ago, you see I found out my dad, Our dad. Was cheating on my mom. He left her, she had not job and he just fucking left her."

I take a brake to catch my breath. " So I showed up with a gun, determined to make him at least help my mom pay for the house. When I walked in you were sitting on the floor watching T.V you had to be about 9 or 10 at the time. Your mother, she was on the couch. He, your, our father " I spat. " He was sitting on a chair, you know I watched you guys a few times before I showed up at your house that night. I saw the way he played with you guys, how he never hit you are your bother. I was jealous, how could he leave my family for a new one?"

I slowly stood up now standing straight, right arm still clutching my left shoulder. My hand drenched with the never ending spill of blood coming form the wound. " I pulled out the gun, the very one you got in your hand. I'd recognize it anywhere. I'm not sure if you knew this when you most likely took it from my house but did you know that is the very same gun that killed your older brother?" John gasped his hand shaking eyes scanning the gun.

Oh God Jordan, I hope she's okay. The bastard had better not hurt her!

"What did you do to my wife?" I ask angrily "She's fine…. I didn't do anything to her, I just punched her" John said softly still staring at the gun in his hand.

I felt a deep heat rise in my chest, it took all I had not to jump on him right then and there and beat him senseless but unfortunately the gun was still loaded and pointed at me.

"You…you killed my brother?" John asked looking at me with a new hatred in his eyes.

"Yes.. I was angry, so angry that he left my mom. I had to make him help her. I had to. Then as I had the gun pointed at him, as I was about to shoot your brother ran between us. The bullet hit him in the head. He died instantly, there's not a day that goes by where I don't regret what happened. I'm sorry"

John stayed silent. Then without warning he pointed the gun at me and shot. " NO!" I hear J.D yell, he sounds like he's been crying.

The force of the bullet made me fall back against the counter, white hot heat filled my stomach as pain raked though my body. A small yell escapes my lips as my hand goes down to put pressure on the new wound.

"And now for you!" John yells pointed the gun at J.D again.

Once again I find myself coming to J.D's aid. Even now with two bullet wounds, blood running down my left shoulder and right side. My vision is very blurry and I feel myself becoming weaker, yet. I continue fighting.

" He didn't kill your dad, I did" The guns pointed at me now. I know I'm not going to live, I know I'm going to die with these next few shots.

I'm sorry Jack, I'm sorry Jordan.

Suddenly someone screams and runs towards the crowd pushing herself though towards the front. I realize it's Jordan her hair disheveled and hey right eye with a black and blue mark around it. She tries to run towards me but The Janitor of all people is holding her back.

John turns back over towards me "Tell me what you did" he screeched.

" Dr. Cox NO!" J.D cried I also noticed his boyfriend was holding him back, tears were running down his face as he looked at me with despair.

"Shut it newbie, it is my fault." I turned to John "I… I refused to treat him, then I scream at him, causing him stress which his heart couldn't handle because of its weak state. He had a heart attack shortly after. It was all my fault, no one else" I stated firmly. I noticed I slid down towards the floor a little more.

John said nothing for a moment " You monster, now its time for you to die!" he yelled. Then Bang, Bang, Bang. Three shots to the chest, more pain; more darkness clouding my vision. I fell to the floor, all the strength in my legs gone.

I started gasping for air as I lost more blood I also began to get cold.

Well, this is it then. I muse. My head leaning against the wall, my chest moving in hard irregular breaths. Bang Bang. Another shot to the stomach, the other hit my thigh. More pain more darkness. I hear people screaming. " Oh no oh God no!" I hear someone scream. It's Jordan I think. I'm not sure though I can't concentrate. I just want to sleep.

No, no Perry you can't sleep. You sleep you don't wake up, you sleep you die.

More irregular breathing. My body is wet, covered in blood.

I faintly hear a crash and another bang then Jordans at my side holding my head In her lap.

" Oh God Perry, Perry are you there? Stay with me baby Please. I need you. Please don't go. I need you, I can't live without you"

I listen to the beautiful voice of my wife telling me that she needs me, telling me how much she loves me. She sounds so scared I wish I could take her pain away. She grabs my blood soaked hand. I squeeze her hand with all my strength which admittedly isn't much.

" That's right Perry, stay with me. Don't leave. Think of Jack, think of me"

She sounds like she's crying now. I want so desperately to take her in my arms and tell her its going to be okay but the darkness is coming nearer. My bodies growing weaker and suddenly the lids of my eyes are the hardest things in the world to keep up.

Come on! Keep it together. Keep it together for her and Jack.

More pain, more darkness….I can't do this. I'm going to die.

Tell her, let her know you love her before you go.

Forcing my eyes to open I slowly reach my arm up and caress her face, whipping away her tears with my thumbs in the process. " I…I…I…Lov-love you" I gasp. She smiles a sad smile holding my hand closer to her face, her tears now mixing with my blood. "I know, I love you too" she adds. Glad that I made her feel a little better I smile as she gives me a soft kiss on my lips before slipping into a peaceful nothingness.

Ooh cliffy sort of haha.

Wow this was very hard to write I'm not going to lie. It came out okay I suppose, there are some parts I absolutely love ( Like the ending) and parts I hate ( The whole talking instead of shooting part) but things needed to be said so that the story could truly be explained. Yes, I know it's long but honestly I just could not stop haha

Anyway please review and tell me what you think. This whole shooting scene is what really sparked this fanfictiocn to me so of course this chapter means allot to me ( Even if I'm not happy with the entire thing)