"Yeah, I haven't told that many people yet", Arizona explained to Teddy.
"A Carter Madison-Grant?" Teddy said questioningly. "Nobody wins those! I mean nobody normal except those brainless scientist types from Germany or Sweden. Oh my God you won? Are you kidding?"
"Oh no she is NOT kidding" Callie cut in.
Arizona froze at Callie's words. She could hear the obvious irony mixed with some sort of angst and sarcasm in the brunette's voice. She quickly glanced at her girlfriend and then turned to Teddy and smiled vaguely who practically jumped up and down on her feet after hearing the news.
"Come here!" the cardio surgeon blurted out and hugged her blonde friend tightly.
Arizona let out a stagey laugh, hoping that Teddy wouldn't catch the weird and intense spirit between Callie and her, while she hugged her friend back.
Last night had changed it all and although Arizona knew it would she had at least expected her girlfriend to say that she was proud of her for what she'd achieved. But no, Callie had remained silent and from their positions in bed they had let each other go and somehow managed to fall asleep without a further conversation regarding the subject. Callie had been gone before Arizona woke up cause she had the early mornings rounds. The blonde wasn't sure how to continue this but she knew that they had to talk about it so when she got to the hospital later on she had went straight to find Callie. But before she even could say hi to her girlfriend colleagues who all wanted to say their congratulations because they already had heard the big news had surrounded her. What had she expected? Their workplace was the worst gossiping place ever and of course this wasn't an exception. And then when she had gotten to Callie, Teddy had showed up and said that she wanted them to grab a cup of coffee with her.
Teddy let Arizona go and smiled widely.
"I'm so proud of you. You deserve this, you know."
"Thank you", Arizona said softly still unsure of how much of her feelings she could let Teddy see.
Callie had turned her head away and had obviously found something VERY interesting to look at across the street. It was then Teddy noticed the tension between the couple and looked closely at Arizona who just shook her head at Teddy and pleaded her with a look not to say anything else.
"Well, I should go", Teddy said trying to sound as normal as she could after Arizona's revealed look that the news of her winning the Carter Madison-Grant was not as popular with Callie as with Teddy. "I have things to do. I will see you later."
And with that the cardio surgeon walked away in back through the hospitals main entrance. Arizona tried to soothe her own feelings and then she took a step towards Callie and placed her hand on to the brunette's shoulder.
"Don't."
Arizona jumped at the tone in Callie's voice.
"Can you at least look at me?" she pleaded. "Please?"
Callie shrugged her shoulder and turned around with a small sigh.
"What do you want me to say?"
The brunette looked despondent and Arizona's heart dropped at the sight.
"Can we go someplace else and talk?" she asked with hesitation in her voice.
"Okay", Callie finally said.
They walked in silence back in to the hospital and soon found an empty room in the residents lounge. Arizona settled for a chair to the table's left side and Callie sat down so they could face each other.
"Can you please tell me what you're thinking?" Arizona said and broke the silence.
"I could ask you the same thing", Callie said looking the blond straight in the eyes.
Arizona wasn't use to see Callie's big, brown eyes so cold and…empty. The brunette's eyes were usually a source full of happiness, joy and love but now…they almost looked black in color and had a really harsh expression in them.
"I'm thinking that I love you", the blonde said in a small voice. "I'm thinking I should tell you that you were the first person I wanted to share this news with. I'm thinking that this is my biggest achievement in my entire carrier and that I have dreamt about something like this since I decided to become a surgeon."
"And I'm thinking that you already had decided about this and now it doesn't matter what I'm saying", Callie replied.
"Calliope", Arizona said.
"No, no! Don't Calliope me" the brunette blurted and got up from the table. "I thought we were happy!"
Arizona then felt something burst inside of her and suddenly she felt irritated.
"We are happy! But could you at least be happy FOR me?"
The door sudden flew open and Alex Karev entered before Arizona's last words of that sentence had come to an end.
Both women became quiet and Alex was feeling awkward to the obvious interruption he just had made.
"Ehm…should I come back?" he asked.
"No, no, we're done here anyway", Callie established and started to leave the room.
Arizona sighed and looked at Alex with sadness in her eyes.
"You have Lily's results?"
Alex just handed the paper over to his superior in silence and let her look at them in piece. He could see that the blonde attending struggled to keep a straight face so he decided to leave her alone for a moment.
"Uuum…I'm just going to check on the newborn in the ICU. So, just get back to me when you have an idea on what we should do with that" he said and backed out of the room.
When the door shut behind him Arizona couldn't hold the tears back any longer. She let everything out in that moment. Tears were falling and she hid her face in her hands and cried hard. What was happening? She couldn't even tell herself what was going on. Not once had the thought about turning the Carter Madison-Grant down and not once had the thought of her girlfriend being so cold about it crossed her mind either. But whom was she kidding here? It was Africa for fuck's sake and it was three years. Thoughts were flying around Arizona's head like crazy when she suddenly understood what was wrong. She got up quickly wiped the tears from her face and headed towards the door. How could she have been so stupid? She cursed herself before she opened the door. Now she had to see Callie and beg for her forgiveness about being such a crappy girlfriend.
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Callie's head hurt. It pounded like crazy. Arguing with Arizona did that to her and she sighed heavily.
"Are you okay?" Mark asked.
He could see that his friend was hurting badly and he so wanted to help her. He also had heard of the Carter Madison-Grant and now he understood why the blonde pediatric surgeon had behaved like that yesterday when he had found her outside Chief Webber's office right before the meeting in the conference room.
"No, I'm not", the brunette answered with a small smile. "But I can't talk about it right now. I don't want to talk about it. Besides we have an arm transplantation to plan here Mr."
Mark frowned and Callie could see his concerned expression.
"I'll be fine Mark. I promise and when I want to talk you, you are there to listen, I know", she said and did an attempt to wink playfully to him.
"She loves you, you know", he said simply.
Callie sighed but instead of commenting Mark's statement she said:
"Come on, we have work to do."
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'I'm so sorry baby. I'm an idiot. I know you have surgery all afternoon and most of the evening but please, come and see me right after? I have something I want to ask you'
Callie stared at the text message that just had been delivered. She felt her heart melt a little when she read the written words from her girlfriend. Maybe Arizona had changed her mind about accepting the grant? This whole thing scared her and although she wanted to stay mad at the blonde she couldn't. Somehow Callie wasn't the angry type, it didn't matter how much she tried to be angry instead of vulnerable and madly in love with Arizona Robbins. The angry-thing didn't work anyway. But right now she had to scrub in with Mark together with the transplantation team in the OR. She quickly replied to Arizona's message.
'I'll be there'
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Eleven hours later Callie scrubbed out from the OR. Her job was done. Mark and Derek had a few hours left in there though. She glanced at the clock on the wall. It was almost 22 pm. Arizona would be in the middle of her evening rounds at this point. Callie decided to go and grab coffee for them both before she went to see her girlfriend.
Callie found Arizona at the computer in front of the surgery board. She walked up to the blonde uncertain of what to say but the PED surgeons face lit up in a wide smile when she saw her.
"Hi", Callie said softly.
"Hi", the blonde said sounding very relieved over the fact that Callie seemed less angry than earlier. "Did your transplantation go well?"
"Yeah, I think so. Mark and Derek are finishing it right now. I left earlier. I've been standing on my feet in that OR for eleven hours straight without a break."
An awkward silence settle between the couple and neither one of them was sure of what do say.
"I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry."
They laughed. Their words had come out of their mouths at the exact same time.
"I brought you coffee", Callie said and gave the cup to the blonde.
"Thank you" Arizona said gently and took a sip of the hot drink. "Come with me."
Callie looked questioningly at the blonde but instead of answer Arizona took her hand and dragged her towards the on-call room further down the hall. Inside the room, the blonde locked the door and placed both of their coffee cups on the table. Callie looked expectantly at Arizona.
"I hate it when we fight" the blonde admitted. "I didn't think…"
"Shhh", Callie interrupted.
They both leaned in for a kiss and it didn't take much before they were engaged in a heavy make out –session, gasping for air while removing scrubs tops in a hurry leaving them in just their bras and scrub pants.
"Oooh", Arizona let out when her back hit the wall behind her and Callie pressed her body against her at she couldn't help but grind her hips in to the brunette.
Suddenly everything felt lighter and Arizona sighed out of relish. Their tongues dueled in pure passion and every feeling they had for each other were poured in to their kisses. Standing against the wall tightly pressed together they touched each other's bodies, devoured each other's lips and whimpered at the sensation of being so close again after their unpleasant fighting. Callie sucked Arizona's neck and was being awarded with a loud moan when her tongue came in close contact with the most sensitive spot on the blonde's neck just below her ear. Callie bit down carefully and nipped at her girlfriend's earlobe. Arizona let her hand wander down the brunette's body. Oh God, that warm skin, that soft stomach and then, when her hand reached it's destination Callie gasped and breathed out in an attempt to regain control. As in trance Callie's hand travelled south on Arizona's body. Up from the valley between the smaller woman's breast, past that flat and familiar stomach just to reach down between the blonde's thighs. Callie felt the wetness on her fingers from her girlfriend's sex when she entered Arizona with one simple trust and circled her clit in one quick motion.
Arizona cried out and threw her head against the wall with a small thump. Her mouth was slightly open and her eyes were closed.
"Yes! Oh God, yes! she moaned when Callie quickened her pace.
At the same time her own fingers found their way in to Callie and the brunette tried to silence her sounds of pleasure and buried her face in the crook of Arizona's neck. Their hips acted like they had a mind of their own, thrusting in each other's hands, making them feel everything they wanted so say in that moment but couldn't. Clenching around each other's finger they both released in a series of groaning and moaning from both parts. Breathing heavily while leaning against each other's foreheads, close enough so they both could feel the warmth of their breaths, they tried to get control over their bodies. They lifted their eyes and locked in a gaze that was so full of love and tenderness.
"Come with me", Arizona breathed out. "Come with me to Africa."