CHAPTER 11

Don't go to deep into the flood

Don't stare too long you'll poison my love

Don't shut me out don't hold it all in

Don't let my venom get under your skin

Cause every word and every turn and

Every sign points to your hurt

With every hour you're drifting further away

My dearest Calliope,

Life is funny. It can be rough on you when you least expect it to be. It can be a hard struggle to stay on the path that you know is the right one. I've always seen myself as a loner did you know that? I mean I've had friends and all but never what I would've consider real ones. Don't get me wrong here cause I have been okay with that fact. Maybe it's because I always put such high demands on people before I let them in to my life. I know that I am hard to understand sometimes but believe me there are times when I have a hard time with that myself.

Anyway, relationships in my past have always been about just being with someone because that's what you suppose to be. Am I not right? I mean, as long as you are with someone you're not lonely. I have thought about this a lot throughout the years and I especially remember one time, while I was in college. I had a girlfriend, her name was Sophia, and we were the couple with many friends. I mean they were always surrounding us and anyone, who was watching from a distance, could tell that we were very popular. And maybe we were. Maybe I was. Although other always have been seeing me as the popular girl with a lot of friends I want to tell them they've been wrong about it. I recall one special evening when we (me and Sophia) were at this party with our friends. There were so many people there and I think I pretty much had been talking to every one of them when the night was over. But you know what? That night I felt more alone than ever before. It was then it hit me. That relationships weren't just about being with someone. It is about being with THE one. That special someone.

Do I need to tell you that I broke up with Sophia the next day? Sure, she was devastated because I'm a hot piece of ass and have women lining up for me. (Yes, I'm trying to make a joke here).

But what I'm really trying to say here is that I think that I found that special someone now. I've just been afraid cause I didn't think I was going to. I tend to freak out from time to time and when I do I always make the wrong choices. I misjudge situations and instead of dealing with things I run. Like a coward. Like a stupid coward. Really, stupid coward. Oh, and did I mention that I am a really, REALLY stupid coward that recently ran away from the best thing that ever happened to me? But, I'm done with running away…just wanted you to know that.

All my Love,

A

And yet again the blonde had managed to leave Callie speechless with her writing. Although she was sick of crying she couldn't help her self. Arizona had been right. They didn't know stuff about each other because they'd never had talked about their pasts properly. They had been together for almost a year and they didn't share the small things and the secrets with one another. You should do that when you were with someone. With THAT special someone. Callie had thought that after the whole 'I want to have a baby but you're not thing' they had been communicated better but now she realized that they still had skipped a bunch of important steps in their relationship.

Callie was seconds away to take her phone out and call the blonde, telling her to come over but she knew that that was a bad idea. She was still not sure about what she was feeling to all of this. They still had a long way to go.

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"I would like to start with a warm welcome back to our very own Dr Robbins", Chief Webber said solemnly. "You have been missed."

Arizona smiled and nodded politely back at the Chief but was avoiding looking around the large table in the conference room. Callie sat behind her next to Mark and Derek and she, her self sat safely next to Teddy and Dr Bailey. Dr Miranda Bailey had come back from her facility when Arizona still was in Africa and she had greeted the pediatric surgeon back with a hug, Derek Shepherd had been thrilled to see her again and Owen Hunt had nodded and gave her a small smile when they'd met this morning. Not one of them had put the question with the obvious answer to why she was back but she was very thankful for that. She felt embarrassed as it was already.

"Thank you" she therefore replied quite carefully to Chief Webber's announcement of her being back. "It's good to be back and I've missed this place and all of you guys."

Her attending colleagues smiled at her and nodded in appreciation to her words.

"With that being said, let's get to more important things", Chief Webber continued. "We have Cristina Yang back on service today. Finally. I expect all of you to take extra special care of her in the beginning. Dr Altman, are you ready to take her back?"

"I sure am", Teddy replied. "I've been talking with her already and we've got things going for us as we speak. Dr Avery and Dr Yang are preparing to scrub in with me this afternoon."

"That's good." Chief Webber said. "That's good. And what about Alex Karev? Dr Robbins, care to fill us in since he was assisting you yesterday?"

Arizona cleared her throat.

"Yes, I'm very happy with having Dr Karev on my service. He is very dedicated and like I've said before I think he's going to be an excellent pediatric surgeon. He did an appendectomy on an eleven – year - old yesterday afternoon which I was supervising and it went very well."

"Moving on to Dr Shepherd. You have Dr Grey and Dr Kepner at you service?"

"Yes", Derek answered correctly. "They are both doing good and I'm about to let Dr Grey scrub in with me and do a craniotomy later this week. Dr Kepner is helping me dealing with a brain tumor at the time being. I'm pretty sure I have Little Grey in on that as well in fact."

Chief Webber nodded understandingly.

"And Dr Torres, Dr Sloan and Dr Bailey. I believe that you three are dealing with something all together at this moment?"

"Yes, Mark said. "We have a burn victim that during a fire fell out of a building breaking practically every single bone in his body and crushed his spleen. I handle the burn injuries, Torres his broken bones and Bailey is about to operate on the guys spleen this afternoon."

"And finally, Dr Hunt. You're on the ER today from what I've heard?

"Correct", Owen Hunt answered. "And I've got the rest of the residents with me. I have nothing more to say at this point because I haven't been working with them yet so I rest my case at the moment."

"Great then we have every thing under control" Chief Webber informed. "Go out there and be the best you can be. I will be in budget meetings all day today so page me only for real emergencies people. I trust you."

And then the meeting was over. Arizona quickly rose and headed to the door before anyone could catch her. She wouldn't want to take the risk to be asked questions right now. Although she felt lighter today, Callie had even give her a small smile when she had stepped in to the conference room and seated her self next to Teddy. She took comfort in that smile. It had to mean something. Still she was making sure of keeping her distance leaving Callie alone to just let the brunette see that she was back and that she was going to stay this time.

While heading to the PED's wing she felt her phone buzz in her pocket and got a real surprise when she saw who the sender was. Callie.

'I read you letters. I just wanted you to know that. But I've decided to take things slow so I've limited myself to read just one per day. Cause I want to take things slow this time.'

Arizona couldn't help to grin sheepishly when she read the text. Maybe this day wasn't going to be as bad after all?

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"Hey, are you busy?"

Teddy lifted her head from the charts she was about to dip in to.

"Why you look happy. What's going on with you?" she asked.

"I'm having a really good day", Arizona said and smiled secretively. "That's all. Do you want to grab a cup of coffee or something?"

"Umm…yeah! Let me just give these charts to Avery and Yang. I'll be back in a second."

Arizona stood still where Teddy had left her leaning over the counter and hummed happily to her self while waiting for the cardio surgeon to get back. She didn't notice a certain brunette coming up and stood next to her putting some charts on the counter for the nurse to document in the computer.

"Hi", Callie said very carefully and met the blonde's gaze.

Oh those baby blue eyes that could make her melt in an instant. And that smile the PED surgeon fired off, showing off her perfect little dimples when she saw Callie, was a killer.

"Hi!" Arizona said with her regular perkiness shining through. "Are you having a good day? Because I'm having an awesome day and I've come to think that the reason for that was a simple text I received earlier."

Callie managed to press out a small smile.

"I'm glad to help. Anyway, I have to go. That guy with burn injuries and a crushed spleen, I can tell you that his broken bones will not be a walk in the park."

Arizona let out a giggle.

"I see. Well, then it's a good thing that he is going to be taking cared of by Seattle Grace Mercy West's rockstar in ortho then."

Callie couldn't help but laugh at the blonde's words.

"I guess it is. I'll be seeing you around."

Arizona's smile grew wider and she couldn't help but to look at the brunette while she walked away and took the stairs in small jumps up to the third floor.

"Yes", she thought to her self. "This was going to be an excellent day."