Getting It Back Together

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"Here, Beck. Have some soup. You really need to eat," said Robbie.

"Thanks...but I'm not hungry," I replied.

It had been a week since I had been kicked out of my house. I needed a place to stay until I figured things out so I ran over to Robbie's house. I figured I couldn't run to Tori's or Jade's places because of the incidents I had with them. Andre would ask questions about Jade and Cat was...well...Cat. Luckily, Robbie was a nice guy and his family was very understanding of my situation. They said I could stay as long as I needed. I hoped that I wouldn't need to stay that long but my situation looked bleak. Robbie's family had tried to contact my own to tell them where I was but they replied that they didn't care, they were ashamed of me and that I deserved a slow painful death (I only knew this because I eavesdropped on the conversation).

Having found a place to stay, I also tried to go back to school like I normally would. But it just felt strange. Robbie had already told the others what had happened to me and they were very sympathetic. Andre had even spent a couple nights over with me and Robbie to try and make me feel better. Then just like any normal news, it spread like wildfire throughout the school. Lots of people told me they were sorry for what had happened. A few even gave me gifts or food as if I were homeless. The pity stung and it only made me feel more sorry for myself. What made things worse was that Jade was the only one who didn't seem to care. She still hung out with us but she acted particularly cold to me. She was still upset about what I had said. I guess I couldn't blame her; I had misspoken and it convinced her that I didn't care about her. If only I could tell her that the truth was the exact opposite. Although even if I had worked up the courage to say so now, she would never believe me. She would think that I was just trying to make me feel good about myself.

"Hey Beck! Hello? Are you there man?"

"Wha?" I snapped out of my train of thought as Robbie lightly slapped me on the cheek.

"You've been really out of it for the past few days. Tell me what's wrong."

"I really don't want to talk about it."

"Come on, I'm your friend. I want to help you. Now what is it? Is it about Jade?"

"So what if it is?"

"Is it about what you said the other day in class about regretting her?"

I nodded quietly.

"So why won't you talk to me? It's not like no one else knows you love her. We know you didn't mean it when you said you regretted her."

"It's more complicated than that..."

"Look, man. I don't know what for sure what's going on between you and Jade or you and Tori or Jade and Andre but can I just say that nothing is going to get better for you if you keep sitting around feeling sorry for yourself?"

"It's not like I can do anything about it now. Jade hates me."

"She doesn't hate you. You know that's not true. She still cares about you."

"Well...what do I do now?"

"Just talk to her. The reason Jade is mad at you is because she thinks you don't care about her. Just let her know that you still do."

"I don't know..."

"Do you still care about her?"

"You know I do, man."

"Then what's stopping you? Or are you going to let your friendship with her die?"

Robbie had a point. I was perfectly happy being Jade's friend before my feelings messed everything up and made things so complicated. There were just so many issues what with her dating Andre and her possibly being pregnant and me running over Tori that I got absorbed in myself and I just stopped thinking. But if we moved past all of that and I showed Jade that I still appreciated as a friend, then at least things could go back to normal. Jade not being pregnant would be a nice bonus. But for now, the least I could do was try to remedy the emotional wounds I inflicted upon her.

"OK, I'll try to talk to her."

"Good. You should probably talk to her at her house. We know she won't talk to you at school."

"Yeah...wait. I just remembered. Jade has never let any of us inside of her house."

"So? As long as you know where it is, that's all that matters."

"You're right."

"You can go talk to her tomorrow. But for now, eat your soup before it gets cold."

"All right, 'dad'."

I drank my chicken soup, got ready for bed and laid down on the Shapiro family couch. I had no idea what I was going to say to Jade now. I ran several case scenarios in my head and tried to anticipate her reactions. Guess all I could do was wing it and hope for the best. But anything I said to her couldn't be worse than moping around about my problems, right? It was time to make things right.

I've probably tortured Beck enough. It's time to turn things around, right?

ScissorLuvCallie - Looks like you won't have to wait much longer...so long as Beck doesn't screw up again.

Jeremy Shane - Thank you, come again. =)

Just Say'n - Round and round I make Beck go, where he'll stop, only I know. =P

666LuvJayC - I'm glad you like it, here's your more.

imafanpire - Can't say for sure but at least Beck's going to try to make something good happen.

SQTGirl - Happens more than you think. Last year, my classmate's mother beat her half to death in their car and then pushed her out and drove off. She had to be picked up off the side of the road by our history teacher. True story; I still have no idea why. =(

TobiasFangor92 - Thanks, I'm glad you like them! =D And yeah, some parents are like that in real life, some are even worse. This is why we have teenage delinquents. =(