Just Talk To Me

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Victorious nor do I have any affiliation with it or any other fan fics!

Sorry the updates have been so slow. I'm doing this and my Survivor fic (R&R both please! ^^) at the same time. Note to self: Never do two stories at the same time ever again, unless one of them is a one shot.

The next day was a Saturday so we didn't have any school. I figured this would be as good a day as any to try to talk to Jade. I waited for everyone in the Shapiro family to wake up so that there wouldn't be any worry when I left. I let Robbie's parents know where I was headed (I had to be responsible because I didn't want to risk getting kicked out by another family) I left the house and headed for Jade's house. I had walked her home before but she never let me inside. Not once; not even when we were friends. Wait...were friends? We're still friends! At least that's how I view her; I just hope it's mutual. All I need is some forgiveness so I can get it back together.

Eventually I reached the door. I hesitated for a while, mainly because I didn't know how Jade was going to react when she saw me. Sure, we still saw each other around but it's been so awkward since my slip-up. But I didn't want it to be awkward between us for the rest of our lives. I'd never forgive myself. So I raised my hand and pressed my finger on the doorbell. I didn't hear anything. I pressed it again. Was the bell broken? I waited for a few seconds and listened to determine if anyone was coming but I couldn't hear any footsteps. I cautiously knocked on the door a few times and waited again.

"I'm coming! I'm coming! Don't get your tights in a bunch!" shouted Jade.

I chuckled because I knew most people would say 'Don't get your panties in a bunch' but not Jade because she hated the word 'panties', eve when she was talking amongst other girls. I'm not sure where tights came from but I chuckled nervously anyway. Man, I missed her...

Jade finally opened the door and stared at me in surprise. She had no idea I was coming over since I hadn't called or anything. For maybe thirty seconds, we just stood there looking at each other, taking each other in to make sure we weren't seeing things. Finally I spoke.

"Hey Jade..." I opened.

"What do you want?" she asked, shaking her surprise off her face and becoming dark and serious.

"I just want to talk to you. We can't go on like this forever."

"Seems like that's what you wanted. You made it clear you don't care."

"Jade, you know deep down that I never meant that nor would I ever mean that. You're one of my best friends."

"But how can I trust you after everything that's been going down lately?"

"Jade, you know me. I've always been honest with you. I don't want our friendship to end like this! Please!"

I actually fell on my knees and cried and begged...In hindsight, it wasn't the proudest moment of my life but compared to the other stuff I did in the past few months, it wasn't that bad. Jade actually started to laugh.

"OK! OK! I get it! You're sorry! I forgive you! You can stop crying!"

Jade pulled me up into a hug as I tried to wipe my tears.

"Really?"

"Yeah. To be honest, I've missed you too."

"I'm just so glad you're willing to put this all behind us."

"Yeah...but now that we've both had some time to think...what did you really mean when you said that you regretted me if it wasn't our friendship?"

I was stunned by this. Again, this was my opportunity to tell Jade the truth. I knew full well that the last time I faced this exact scenario, I chose to remain quiet and that went very very badly. But at the same time, I still didn't have it in me to tell her the truth right now. We had just reconciled and telling her that I was in love with her would definitely cross a line. Besides, she was still dating Andre. I didn't want to hurt either of them. So I lied.

"I was just really hung over that day, and there was a ton going on that kept me from thinking straight, what with the Tori incident and the drinking and your pregnancy..."

"Oh yeah...that...look Beck. I finally got a working test and just got the results a few nights ago."

Oh crap. I should have seen this coming. I took a deep breath and waited for the answer.

"I'm not pregnant. It was a false alarm."

Whew. What a relief. I let this sink in for a bit before continuing.

"Wow...how do you feel?"

"I don't know. On one hand, I'm really relieved because I'm not ready to be a mother. No way. But you know, you still can't help but feel a little disappointed."

"Did Andre ever find out?"

"No, I never told him."

"Well, I'm really sorry I wasn't more supportive."

"Don't be. It's not your fault. Anyway, it doesn't matter now."

We stood for a while, just smiling at each other. It felt good to have this comfortable feeling back.

"So...you wanna grab a bite to eat?" I asked.

"Oh...uh..I have some chores to do around the house. And then I'm meeting Andre later so..."

"Oh, OK. Why don't I help you get those chores done?"

"No!"

Jade snapped very quickly as if she were afraid and really defensive.

"Is everything all right?"

"Of course! Everything's just great with me not having to worry about motherhood and we can be friends again. I'm feeling really good."

"OK...I'll see you at school on Monday then?"

"Yeah, sounds great. See you then."

Jade waved goodbye to me, smiled and shut the door. That was weird. Jade had never let any of us into her house. Come to think of it, I don't even know if she ever let Andre in the house. But she had been so quick to keep me out. Was it personal? Had I done something else wrong? Or was there a general reason that applied to everyone? I had no idea. As I walked away from Jade's house though, I decided that there was no point fretting about it. Jade and I made peace and that was all that mattered. I was so happy that she was willing to forgive me and I danced my way back to the Shapiro house.

chocolatecheesecake23164: He's really trying to get it back together and that was a pretty good start.

GemmaLeigh: Bless him indeed.

Just Say'n: He went on the offense and scored. Point for Beck.

666LuvJayC: So far, so good.

ScissorLuvCallie: Well he hasn't screwed up again so far. Keep the hope alive, Beck!

Jeremy Shane: Thank you, come again. =)

SQTGirl: The history teacher happened to drive by and recognized the body. Anyway, we'll be hearing Jade's POV soon enough. As soon as I can figure out how to work it out. It would be easier if I didn't say this was Beck's story.