Oh, oh! You didn't think it was going to be that easy for our favorite couple to get back together, did you? ;)

I've been at school all day so all I can offer you right now is one chapter. Hopefully I can make it up to you tomorrow…

CHAPTER 15

I'm burned out and wasted

I'm tired of pacing

I'm busy erasing voices of the dead

Everything changes

And everyone's faceless

I wanna replace this darkness in my head

In a strange strange place, I'm lying on the edge of a star

In these violent days, I only wanna be where you are

Even fools they say you can find a way out of the dark

Help me out of the dark…

My dearest Calliope,

Today is not a good day. I started to think about my brother. I don't think I've been telling you about him. At least not in a proper way.

Danny Robbins. My big brother. Who, beside from my father, also was one of my heroes when I grew up. He did practically everything for me. He protected me from evil things in life. He was only two years older than me and when we grew up to be teenagers he even let me in with him and his friends. I wondered about that but I do think that he knew that I didn't show any special interest in his male friends before I even knew it myself.

Anyway, Danny was in fact the first person I told about me being a lesbian. I was so scared of his reaction but you know what he did? He just hugged me and didn't say a word. We talked about it a few years later when I asked him about it but then he just laughed at me and said: "I love you little sis, nothing can ever change that." It seemed so simple to him. Every thing in Danny's life seemed so simple. When Danny was happy he was happy, when he was sad he was sad and when he loved, he loved. Oh, I wish you could've met him Calliope. I know for a fact that he'd been as crazy about you as I am.

The day Danny let me know he was going to join the army in the Middle East I've just found out that I'd got the PED's surgery chief residency at Hopkins. I was so happy that day…till Danny called and gave me the news about him leaving for Iraq. He assured me I didn't have to worry and that he would come back in one piece. He promised! Well, it's safe to say that he broke that promise. Right after we got to know that he was dead I was so mad at him. He hadn't kept his promise to me so I was completely furious with him. I didn't cry for days at first. Not even at the funeral. But then, there was a day when I got home for a visit at my parents and my mom told me to go through some old boxes with stuffs that belonged to both Danny and me and I found my old diary. I'd been going on, page after page about how awesome my big brother was. I recognized the date immediately. It was from that day I've told him about me a lesbian. Then hit me with full force. My brother was dead. He was gone. There was no Danny anymore. So I cried. I think I've cried for hours in the garage at my mom and dad's before my dad came out and found me. I stopped crying after a while and said to my dad that I missed Danny but he still couldn't talk about it. So there you have it, my dad and I, have never been able to talk about my brother since he passed away.

Although I love my parents very much and they love me to and I do believe that we have a very nice relationship to each other, we don't talk about Danny. Never. And that's just the way it is. But I need to talk about him it's just that I've never found anyone worthy enough to hear about him…

All my Love,

A

With every letter from Arizona Callie read she was becoming surer than ever of how little they actually knew each other. It was scary though. It made her think about how people so easily could share the most intimate thing in life like sex, without caring at all to really get to know someone. Although they had managed to get things out in the open last night Callie couldn't ignore the fact that she was still frustrated, angry, hurt, confused, irritated, annoyed and sad. Seeing, talking or being with Arizona really made her feel like a stranger to herself. She had tried to figure it out and had come to two conclusions. The first issue was Mark Sloan. She couldn't decide whether it was that she was feeling guilty about sleeping with him or to the fact that even though Arizona had mentioned it the other night it didn't seemed to bother the blonde as much as Callie thought it would've done. She had her suspicions about that Arizona was trying hard not to show her true feelings regarding Mark though. The way she knew Arizona she would've presumed that Mark Sloan should fear for his life whenever he was near the blonde. But it hurt her a little that Arizona wasn't as affected by her sleeping with Mark as she wanted the blonde to be. She must admit that a jealous Arizona Robbins was better then her not showing any emotions at all. Sure, the blonde had screamed a little but it was mostly about other things than Mark Sloan.

The other thing that was bothering Callie was that Arizona had indicated that she had been acted selfish since Arizona had came back. But she wasn't selfish, was she? She had twisted and turned in bed all night wandering what the blonde had meant exactly when she had blurted that out in the beginning of their fight/talk last night.

It got to a point when Callie was starting to regret that she had asked Arizona out on a date this upcoming evening. She wasn't sure if it was such a good idea after all. It had just broken her heart completely when Arizona had begun to cry. She could stand it when the blonde cried. She had the day off so she tried to focus on getting things in place at her apartment but by lunchtime she couldn't take it any longer and decided to go by the hospital and see if Mark was available for lunch.

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Arizona had been paged for a consult to Seattle Grace Mercy West and even though it was her day off she had called and let them know she was on her way. She couldn't seem to relax at all and she was more bothered by the fact that she couldn't seem to figure out what made her so edgy. Shouldn't she be feeling better after the fight/talk she and Callie have had last night? She wanted it so badly to feel better. But it didn't. First of all she was still feeling really hurt by the fact that Callie and been sleeping with Mark. If Alex Karev had been feel awkward around her after it's been revealed that he and Callie had slept together a few years back it couldn't compare to the fear Mark Sloan should be experiencing whenever she was near him. One tease or joke from him would make her go crazy. She knew it. But then again, she was also forced to remember that he had comforted her outside his apartment that first night when she'd just come back. Still, she couldn't let go of the green eyed monster that showed up in her head every time she thought of Mark.

Second of all she was feeling some sort of anger towards Callie who not at all seemed to be having regret about sleeping with Mark. Arizona had mixed emotions about this one because deep down she knew Callie was right when she'd said that she had all rights in the world to be sleeping with whoever she wanted during the time they had been apart but it was Mark for God's sake. Arizona had thought about the fact that if it had been anyone else but Mark Sloan, she might have felt differently about Callie been having sex with someone else. But no. It wasn't just someone else. It was Mark. Mark Sloan.

The last thing that really had grew in her since last night was that Callie had been accusing her of being selfish. She wasn't selfish, was she? Arizona hadn't been sleeping well at all cause her thoughts had been haunting her all night and now when the morning had arrived she suddenly started to have regrets about accepting the date with Callie later. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea after all? But it had felt so right being held by the brunette after her breakdown. So familiar and safe. And that must have meant something. Right?

The thoughts was starting to tire her out so when her pager had started to make noise right after breakfast she had almost welcomed the idea of going by the hospital on her day off with open arms. She knew she had to focus on something else for a few hours, otherwise she would go slightly mad.

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Arizona was feeling better. It had been Alex Karev who had paged her because he had been slightly unsure of how to continue a treatment of a newborn that had been born the same morning and had showed immediate signs of asthma. The consult had been taking her mind of everything she didn't want to think about at the moment. Instead she let herself think about how much she loved being back at Seattle Grace Mercy West. She was the HEAD of PED's and she loved every minute of it. She was someone people could count on. And she was good at her job.

"Well, it looks like someone had a good night! And maybe a good morning to?"

Arizona felt herself stiffened up to Mark Sloan's voice. She reminded herself to stay calm and did a quick count to ten in a try to cool off.

"Isn't this your day off?" he asked cheerfully.

"Did he have to sound so annoying?" she thought to herself.

"Yes, it is", Arizona said with a strained voice.

He eyed her with a confused look. Something was definitely bothering the petite little blonde today.

"Did you fall out of bed or something? Did you and Torres go rough at each other last night? I saw that you were…visiting her." he smirked.

"Please, please, just shut UP Mark", she snapped. "Can you just mind your own business for once? I'm NOT in the mood to hear about your sex fantasies today."

"Hey", he said trying to sound offended. "What is your problem?"

"You", Arizona said wryly. "You are my problem."

And suddenly Mark seemed to catch up.

"Aaah, I see", he said. "You and Callie have…ehm…talked about that?"

She glared hostilely directly at him and he actually felt himself sink towards the ground slightly.

"You know, if looks could kill someone, it had been a pretty good chance I wouldn't be alive right now", he pointed out carefully.

"I wouldn't mind. Not all in fact."

"Look, Robbins, I'm sorry. It was stupid. But it wasn't something I had planned. It just happened. She was sad and I was…well, I was just horny but that's not the point, in fact…"

"You know what? the blonde blurted cutting him off. "I don't care. In fact, I don't care at all. All I know is that I can't speak to you right now. I can't even look at you right now. And you know what else? I'm not sure if I ever want to again either!"

Mark was beginning to feel very uncomfortable and looked around to see if someone was paying attention to them since Arizona Robbins voice had increased in sound rapidly.

"Look", he said soothingly.

"Don't Mark!

She was on the verge of screaming now.

"I've tried to like you. Like really tried! And for a second I actually thought that I could come to NOT like you a little less but you know what? Right now, just being this near to you just make me wanna throw up! So just back off and leave me the hell alone!"

And with those words Arizona Robbins stormed off leaving Mark Sloan speechless. Suddenly he saw Callie standing not to far from them and he saw that Arizona also had seen the brunette and he then noticed that Callie probably had been there long enough to hear parts of their 'conversation'.

"And you!" the blonde exclaimed and pointed her finger at Callie. "I can't stand to look at you either right now! "

Before Callie got to open her mouth to say something Arizona stormed off and left. Mark blinked a couple of times in confusion and tried to not look as shocked as he actually was to the blonde's outbreak.

"Oh man", he said and laughed nervously. "She was NOT in a good mood. I've never had thought that she could be so…intimidating."

When he didn't get an answer from Callie he turned his head to her and frowned when he saw that Callie wore a slight smile on her lips.

"What the hell are you smiling about? Didn't you just see or hear what happened here? She was angry. No, she was mad! Mad, Callie. Hey! Are you even listening to me?"

Callie eventually turned to Mark.

"Don't you get it? She DOES care! I didn't think she cared. But she does. She is jealous and angry and that means she cares."

The brunette couldn't help but smile even more widely to Mark's obvious confusion. Although it was more evident than ever that she and Arizona apparently had some more fighting to do she couldn't help but feeling relieved that Arizona was hurt by the fact that she had been sleeping with Mark. Cause that only meant that the blonde cared.