We all know what furious fighting leads to…don't we? ;)

CHAPTER 16

Just don't give up

I'm working it out

Please don't give in

I won't let you down

It messed me up

Need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around…

My dearest Calliope,

Did you ever have a dream that seemed so real that when you finally woke up you didn't know what to believe?

It seems like it from time to time develops moments in our life when we find ourselves standing at a crossroad. The choices we make in this moments can shape the rest of our lives. As usual when it comes to face the unknown there are so many of us that just prefer to turn around, go back and instead take the path they already know. But what people seem to forget is that if they just had the courage to choose something new they might have a chance to come across something better. Something that could ease the pain of being alone or something that could help them find the strength to let another human being take a huge part in you life. It's like giving a person a second chance and just let the anger go. Cause you just want to make a dream come true.

Recently I've learned that it's only when life pushes you real hard that you can discover who you really are. It's also in that moment you discover who you can be or who you should be. Cause the person you want to be do actually exist behind a lot of hard work, a strong belief, our hearts sorrows and that fear of what life really has to offer you.

Just my thoughts for the day.

All my Love,

A

Arizona Robbins was shaking with fury. Her breathing was sharp and her heart pounded violently in her chest. The look in her otherwise so sparkling baby blue eyes was harsh and empty and her temper only seemed to increase with every step she took. After she had stormed off, away from Mark and Callie and out of the hospital, she hadn't even noticed which street direction she had choose. Arizona just knew she had to get away from both of them as soon as possible and it hadn't at all been an option to stay and talk with Callie in that moment. It wasn't often she used to get this angry, God forbid, but the few times it happened she knew that talking with the object of her current state wasn't the best of ideas. So instead, she just kept on walking down the streets, trying to cool off. Her boiling anger subsided a little bit and she slowed her a walking down for a second and eventually the anger switched and turned in to frustration.

"Okay Arizona", she told her self. "Breathe. Just breathe."

She knew that pacing around in the city during lunchtime with a bunch of people who rushed around wasn't the best way to deal with this. She let out a sigh and started to walk back to Teddy's apartment. Boy, was she glad that Teddy had started working a 34-hour shift early this morning. She really needed to be alone right now.

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Callie had changed her mind about lunch with Mark after the incident with him and Arizona and was now seated in her sofa carefully folding away another letter from Arizona. She had to admit to herself that she was slightly confused at the moment because she didn't know what to do next. This morning she had been unsure of Arizona again…but after seeing the blonde's obvious hatred against Mark she knew, that despite her own frustration, Arizona was actually seeing red just to be near Mark. It was kind of screwed but she liked it just as much as it irritated her. She still didn't think it was something that Arizona had the right to be angry with but in some strange way she liked the fact that the blonde was letting it get to her. A jealous Arizona was an Arizona that still cared about her. Deep down Callie wasn't particularly proud of herself about running straight in to Mark's arm after Arizona had left. She knew it had been a weak moment of need and when she thought about it more closely she wasn't feeling that good about it either. But she knew that Arizona and her had been coming to far to quit since the blonde's return and therefore it was inevitable for the two of them to talk (or scream) about this as soon as possible. Avoiding this wasn't the way to deal with it.

Callie got in the action right away and got her things together and headed out. Fifteen minutes later she knocked at Teddy Altman's apartment door. On her way over she had called the hospital just to make sure that Teddy was at work. She really not needed an audience for the show she suspected was going to be featured when Arizona opened the door. If she opened.

She didn't have to chance to become nervous because a second later the door opened and she stood eye to eye with Arizona Robbins. Who didn't seem to have got the incident at the hospital out of her mind…yet. That was obvious to Callie as she took a few seconds to observe the blonde.

"What do you want?" Arizona gritted. "I wasn't joking before in case you wondered. I can't look at you right now, less talking to you. Can't you just leave me alone?"

"No", Callie stated firmly. "I can't. Even if it means that we are going to have another fight. Can I come in?"

Arizona shrugged.

"Do what you want", she muttered and backed inside and turned her back to Callie.

Callie stepped inside shutting the door behind her.

"Care to tell me what it is that bothers you?" She knew that it was a quite challenging thing to say but she had to push a button that actually got Arizona to talk.

The blonde stared back at her in disbelief.

"You're kidding, right?"

Then she started to pace around and Callie could've sworn she saw smoke coming out of Arizona's eyes.

"You really, really want to fight with me", the blonde declared. "And if you don't know what angers me I think you're stupid!"

Callie frowned.

"Then I guess I am stupid because I don't see why you think you have the right to be angry on something I did after YOU broke up with me! If you helped me understand that I wouldn't have to be so stupid."

"Mark!" Arizona exclaimed. "Off all people you just had to screw Mark! I've been trying to put my own feeling's aside and focus on why I decided to come back but now I can't take it anymore!"

"Do you think you would've liked it better if I just picked up some random person up from the street to have sex with?" Callie shot back sarcastically.

"Yes! Yes, I would've!"

Callie looked doubtfully at the blonde who she saw was becoming angrier by the minute now.

"There are about six billion other people in the world you could've choose to cheat on me with and…"

"Cheat?" Callie exploded. "That is funny cause last time I checked cheating is what a person is doing if they're in a relationship and then sleeps with someone else!"

Arizona knew that she had stepped over the limit by saying that but she didn't care.

"Well, I'm curious. How long did it take you from the airport and home to Mark's bed?" she challenged. "Twenty minutes? With rush hours in traffic maybe thirty minutes?"

Callie was furious now and took a few steps and leaned in close to Arizona and locked eyes with the blonde before she spoke again. It was not a loving gaze.

"You're way out of line here!"

"I don't care! In fact, do you know what I thought about? You said that you thought that I replaced you with a bunch of million dollars and a move to Africa. Well, I sure as hell also was quite replaceable. It was like, out with Arizona and in with Mark!"

They stood dangerously closed to each other at the moment. To close actually because Callie could almost feel Arizona's breath. If she just moved a little bit closer…

And before they both knew what hit them they were kissing. They claimed each others lips like their lives depended on it. Arizona's hands held on to Callie for dear life and Callie's hands had come up to cup Arizona's face. Tongues were fighting for dominance and suddenly Arizona's back was pressed in to the wall behind them. She moaned out loudly when Callie started to kiss her way down her jaw to her neck and then started to suck furiously, like she was about to mark the blonde, telling her that she was taken and not for anyone else to have.

"Oooh!" Arizona whimpered. "Don't stop…that feels so good!"

Callie stopped, but just for a second, to look deep in to the baby blue eyes who had an expression of angry passion in them.

"I want you." Callie stated.

Arizona squirmed, aching to feel Callie hands on her. But Callie stilled her movements.

"Calliope…please, just…oh God…I want you to!"

"No", Callie mumbled and kept the blonde in place by holding her firmly. "I want YOU."

Arizona opened her eyes at the brunette's comment.

"Please, just kiss me", she whispered. "Take me. Do what ever you want with me. I can't take it any…more."

And before she had got the last word out Callie's lips kissed her hungrily and although the blonde knew somewhere in the back of her head that this might not be the best way to cover their fighting she really didn't care about that now. Cause being in Callie's arm was making sense. Right here and right now everything made sense. Arizona just wanted to forget everything else but being this close to Callie again. It had been so long since the last time and she felt herself melt in to the brunette's touch.

"Do you know what you do to me?" Callie breathed against the Arizona's mouth. "I can't think or hardly even breathe when I'm with you. My fingers are longing to touch you whenever you're near. You make me ache with want."

Arizona's body were tingling all over at the words Callie delivered. She felt her legs abandoning her and if Callie hadn't been holding her up she was sure she'd be falling.

Instead of answer verbally she took both of Callie's hands down to the hem of her t-shirt and helped the brunette to take it off her.

Callie sighed out when the blonde's creamy white skin came in her vision and without further notice Arizona yet again clasped Callie's hands quickly guiding her to her breasts. They both let out a moan of relief when Callie's hands came in contact with the soft mounds and she touched them like they were made of glass. Arizona threw her head back against the wall and was whimpering out small cries of pleasure as Callie kept on caressing her chest.

"Kiss me", the blonde demanded.

So they kissed. And kissed. Arizona started to move them towards the couch and gave Callie a slight push so the brunette would sit down. Arizona quickly straddled her and continued to kiss Callie making sure of that the brunette was feeling every thing she felt herself in that moment. Clothes was removed in a rapid pace and they were both eager to feel the release they both had longed after.

Arizona grounded her hips against Callie's waist in an attempt to ease the want. But it didn't help. Callie looked up at the blonde above her and with no further notice she started to stroke Arizona intimately. The blonde was wetter than ever and couldn't control herself any longer and cried out, almost throwing herself in to Callie's hand. She settled in Callie's lap when the brunette let her fingers slip easily inside of her. Arizona's response came quickly and before the brunette knew it Arizona's hand and fingers had found its place between Callie's legs as well. Callie's head was spinning as Arizona kept on teasing her wet sex.

"Oh God, oh God!", the blonde breathed. "I'm going to explode!"

At the same time they quickened their pace and a few seconds later they released, moving fast against each other's hands. The touches were rough and slightly brutal but since it had been so long since they'd had sex they had no interest in the tender and extended version of lovemaking at this point.

Afterwards it took several minutes before their breathing calmed down and for their hearts to stop pounding. An awkward silence engulfed them and when they finally looked in to each other's eyes they both blushed slightly. Then Arizona leaned in closely again and hugged the brunette tightly.

"Can I suggest something?" Callie asked softly and stroked the blonde's back in comfort.

Callie could feel Arizona nodding in response against her shoulder.

"I-I think it'd be a good idea if we booked an appointment and talked with Dr Wyatt."

Arizona flinched surprisingly and met Callie's gaze.

"Let me explain,", Callie continued quickly. "I want to talk with you. I mean really talk with you. Not that we're not doing it. Talk, I mean. But I want to learn and talk better with you. Like for real. Your letters makes me want to do that. In the beginning I was so sure of that they would fix it all for us. But they haven't taken away…everything….I mean, I'm not sure how to explain this. Listen…"

"Okay." the blonde said.

"O-O-kay?"

"Yes Calliope", Arizona said simply. "We'll do that. If you think that it would help you…help US to communicate properly without screaming and fighting all the time then that's what we'll do."

Callie gave Arizona a small smile in return.

"Thank you."

"You don't need to thank me. I do know that we have a long way to go and I also know that there are some things we might need help with to get out in the open so I think it's a good idea."

Callie exhaled in relief.

"Again. Thank you."

A peaceful silence settled around them.

"You're still mad at me aren't you?" the blonde suddenly said.

Callie sighed.

"I can't help it", she mumbled.

The silence took place again.

"You're still mad at me to, right?"

Arizona gazed at the brunette.

"Yes", she admitted. "The thing that's been bothering me is that the anger just have seemed to grow every day and I've been trying like a maniac to figure out why. And today I just couldn't take it anymore."

"Can we just NOT talk about the things that makes us angry with each other now then?" Callie pleaded. "I don't want to fight anymore today. I can just go home and we both can concentrate on that fact that we both want to try and make this right? And tomorrow we can fight. AGAIN. If we want. Deal?"

Arizona giggled softly and eased herself off from Callie.

"Deal."