Okay, so I couldn't help my self. I really should be sleeping right now. And packing. And put some music in my iPod for my flight. But what did I do instead?

Bad, bad me.

CHAPTER 18

I don't wanna hurt you

I don't wanna make you sway

Like I know I've done before

I will not do it anymore

I've always been a dreamer

I've had my head among the clouds

Now that I'm coming down

Won't you be my solid ground?

I look at you and see a friend

I hope that's what you wanna be

Are we back now where it all began?

Have you finally forgiven me?

My Dearest Calliope,

Have you ever looked at a picture of yourself and noticed that there are strangers in the background? Doesn't it I make you wonder how many strangers that have pictures with you in it? How many moments in other people's lives have you been participating of without even know it? You could be a part of someone else's life when their highest wishes or dreams in life come true. Or when that same wish or dream dies. It is like we're destined to be there in those moments. Or is it an accident? But either way, we could be a big part of someone's life without even knowing about it…

I decided to make it short today. I'm thinking you must get tired of reading about my weird thoughts. But it seems like my mind is working over time since I got here.

All my Love,

A

Arizona pondered over if she was going to in to Joe's to meet Teddy or if she just should call her and telling her to meet her outside. It had been almost three hours since she had said goodbye to Callie in the hospitals lobby and it was getting late. But as on queue her cell vibrated in her pocket and she saw Teddy's name showing at the display and an incoming text that was telling her that the cardio surgeon was waiting outside the hospital. Arizona couldn't help but feeling a little relived. She really didn't want to walk in on her friends and colleagues at Joe's tonight. They were probably going to start with their teasing comments regarding her and Callie and she didn't want that right now. And then there was Mark. She had thought about him a lot the last three hours since Callie and she had talked. It wasn't that easy to just let it go. She wished it were though. But right now all she wanted was to have a nice walk home with her best friend and then crawling in to bed and get a good night's sleep. She wanted it to be tomorrow morning as fast as possible so that she could see Callie again. For the first time in many weeks she could think of the brunette again with some sort of faith and at the same time with belief in the future. It was nice.

She quickly changed out of her scrubs and in to her own private clothes and hurried out to meet up with Teddy.

"Hi! , the blonde said and smiled when she saw the cardio surgeon come in to her vision. "Boy was I glad that you texted me and that you was ready to head home. I'm totally beat. It has been a long day."

"Yeah, I wasn't quite in the mode to get drunk tonight", Teddy explained.

Arizona frowned.

"Did the other drink much?"

Teddy could see where the blonde was coming at and she smiled slightly at Arizona's concerned expression.

"Callie only stayed for an hour or so. If that's what you were wondering. She said something about being tired and that she had to get up early."

Arizona exhaled.

"Sorry", she said sheepishly. "I didn't mean to sound so obvious about that."

Teddy laughed out.

"You are very bad at hiding your feelings about Callie."

The two friends walked the streets of Seattle side by side in a comfortable silence. It was a nice evening. The sky seemed to be all clear and the air was fresh. Arizona turned her head and gave Teddy a small smile of appreciation.

"This is nice", Arizona said softly. "I'm so glad to have you Teddy. I know I've been saying that a lot lately but I really need you to know it."

Teddy put her arm around the blonde's shoulders and gave Arizona a quick hug.

"I'm just glad that you are back. I've missed you. And honestly, I hope it works out for you and your lovely girlfriend."

"Thank you. It means much coming from you."

Back at Teddy's place they headed straight to bed and Arizona was asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow. That night she slept better that she had been doing in days.

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"Good morning you", Callie said softly and gave Arizona a smile that hit the blonde with goose bumps all over.

"Good morning to you to. I've missed you."

It was a simple and very true statement coming from Arizona and Callie melted inside. She couldn't actually believe that they had come so far with every thing that had happened. They had just met right outside of Starbuck's and already both of them shared the same thoughts. And the thoughts involved kissing and what kissing often lead to.

"I've missed you too."

"Is it bad if I told you that I could kill for a kiss from you right now?" the blonde said and wiggled her eyebrows in a playful wink. "Because you know what happens when someone tells you to NOT think of an elephant."

Callie laughed.

"Oh, so that's the reason I'm thinking about kissing you like ALL the time right now?"

Arizona nodded trying to look very wise.

"I think it's for the best if we just go inside and order something sweet to eat so this little breakfast-date not ends up in the nearest hotel room."

They went inside and ordered vanilla latte's and bagels.

"So, have you slept well?" Arizona asked when they were seated at a table in the corner of the coffee shop. "Because I myself have slept really well. In fact I don't think I've been sleeping this good in weeks."

"Me too", Callie admitted. "Yesterday was just…awesome."

Arizona giggled and smiled warmly at the brunette.

"Who could know that seeing a therapist could work magic on your sleep?"

"If I had known that I would've seen one weeks ago."

Arizona felt herself stiffen a bit to the brunette's words. She knew that Callie had meant it as a joke but she also knew that there was some kind of truth behind them as well.

"I'm guessing that now is a good time for ME to say I'm sorry", the blonde said and sighed.

Callie looked cautiously at Arizona and waited for her to continue.

"I mean, I haven't said that yet. So, I'm so sorry that I left you."

The brunette saw the sincerity in Arizona Robbins face as she spoke. The blonde's baby blue eyes revealed all her feelings in that moment. Shame, fear and anxiety.

"Can you tell me what you feel when I say that I'm really, really, REALLY sorry about how things turned out at the airport that night and every thing that went wrong back then?" the blonde half whispered and half said out loud. "Cause I'm thinking we have to talk about that and how we want to label ourselves right now. I mean, what are we? Are we a couple again or are we just friends? Or are we dating? If we're not 'allowed' to be physical with each other I'm thinking friendship but if we were just friends I'm also thinking that I should not be thinking about you in the way I do at this moment and I don't think…"

"Arizona", Callie said mildly and out her hand on the blonde's arm. "You're rambling."

"Oh, sorry. I didn't mean to. I'll be quiet now and let you answer."

Arizona looked carefully at Callie and couldn't help but feeling nervous about the brunette's reply to this.

"First of all, I have come to a conclusion and listen to this because I think this is a quite mature thing to say", Callie said and winked. "My take on this whole mess about who was leaving who, not just at the airport, is that we both screwed up. We left each other mentally days before that day in the airport. I can't lie though, the things you said that night really hurt me. Not just because it was in the middle of an airport but also because the things you said were true. But being left in an airport is not my dream come true. That much I can tell you. That night my whole world was crashing around me. I've never felt so alone in my entire life…"

"I'm sorry", Arizona said with sadness in her voice and looked down in the table.

Hearing Callie describe her feelings about it made Arizona feel that what she'd done to the brunette that night was the worst thing in the world someone could do to a person they claimed to love.

"Hey", Callie said softly. "Look at me."

Arizona lifted her head and hesitated for a second before she met Callie's gaze. And yet again she was dazed by the love she saw in the brunette's eyes.

"We both made mistakes", Callie stated. "We're both to blame."

Arizona bit on her lip and nodded to show she agreed.

"Please don't do that", Callie pleaded.

Arizona looked confused.

"Do what?"

"Chew on your lip like that because I can't think of anything else but kissing you if you don't stop."

Arizona giggled and twinkled at Callie.

"Sorry…"

"Back to business" Callie said firmly. "And about what we are or not are. Do you want me to decide or do you want to tell me how you're feeling about it?"

Arizona reflected on that for a few seconds.

"You decide."

"Okay", the brunette said. "I think that we are not just friends and if someone's asking me I would really like to say that you are my girlfriend. Who I'm not allowed to be kissing anytime soon if our therapist can have something to say about it. But that's not the point. The point is that I want us to be friends to. Best friends. But you are also my girlfriend and right now I would really like my girlfriend to be my best friend as well."

Arizona was stunned. Literally. She was tingling inside out and she didn't even notice that her eyes had tears in them. But they were happy tears. Cause Arizona Robbins couldn't seem to remember when she had been this happy in her whole life before. It was in this moment Arizona Robbins life got purpose again and suddenly the world seemed such a perfect place to live in again.

"I love you. I love you so much."

"I love you to."

They sat there for several minutes just looking in each other's eyes and enjoying the moment of complete honesty and love. Soon the blonde couldn't help herself so she leaned over the table and squeezed Callie's hand.

"I'm deciding that physical actions like these are allowed", she grinned.

Callie smiled widely and squeezed Arizona's hand back in response.

"You know, we have to have ground rules about this no kissing- and no sex thing", Arizona whispered. "I know we have to get to work now but how about we talk about that as soon as we're free? I'm thinking dinner at a fancy restaurant with great food and some red wine."

"Oh you do, do you?" Callie whispered back. "And when might that be?"

"Soon", the blonde stated. "Really soon."