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Alien
Chapter 21: I'll do it (:
I tried to wrap my brain around that statement, how could I have been so stupid to think Bill would want to take me? Heather? Really! This is the girl Tom has had really bad history with. I wondered if Tom even knew about this decision? He probably didn't even care because he had Shilo, which was a good thing. But Heather? Seriously! I was fuming, but I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to push myself farther away from Bill, but that might have to be the only option right now.
"I told you, you wouldn't like what I had to say…" He trailed off, miserable looking. Why should he of all people be looking down? Ass.
Heather! I exclaimed, waving my hands crazily. Kaulitz I should smack you in your face right now. Out of all the girls you could have picked to go with you choose Heather? I mean really?
"Lovely calm down…" I cut him off.
Don't fucking call me lovely. And I am calm. I was seething, barely breathing even. I was beyond pissed off, how could I even expect to be calm?
"You aren't calm. Look, please don't be mad. I just really want to give Heather a chance, she's practically all over me."
I rolled my eyes. I'm not mad ok? I'm fucking furious. I actually thought you would take me to prom. It slipped out before I could catch it. But I mean it's the truth!
His face fell and he blushed. "I don't like you like that…" It was a failed attempt, I knew he was lying because of that tone of his voice. He did like me. Why in the hell does he want to date Heather for? To piss me off? Make me jealous? Well it was fucking working.
I tried though, I couldn't lose him. I know you like me Bill… I tried, but I don't think I was going to be winning this fight anytime soon. I wasn't even in denial with my thoughts towards Bill. You need to get your head out of your ass, and get out of denial!
He was gaping at me. "I'm not in denial ok? I just like Heather more that I could ever like you!" He screamed in my face.
It was like getting hit with a block of cement, I felt tears prickle in my eyes. It really hurt to be talked to like that, from your best friend nonetheless. If that's how you really feel. I stated emotionlessly. Get out of my house. I walked towards the door and opened it.
He stood frozen at his spot on the carpeted floor. He looked heartbroken and like if he could he'd take everything back he just said to me. We were both caught up in the fight. "But Abby let me…"
I cut him off, I don't think I've ever been this mad before at a friend. "Get out!" I yelled, not caring that he gave me a look of shock and hurt. My throat hurt from not talking in so damn long. But my patience was wearing thin, and he was pissing me off.
He scurried past me, not looking back as he made his way across to his house. That broke me down, the way he didn't look back once. Didn't he realize he just hurt me? I think this is the worst pain I have ever felt in a long time. I wasn't numb anymore, I was feeling sadness. Anger. Pain. I was so frustrated at myself, I mean wasn't I good enough for Bill? I slammed the door as loud as I could, rattling the front window in the process. I slid down to the carpet, bringing my knees up to my chest.
I sat like that for a very long time, not thinking, just trying to steady my breathing. If I thought about all this crap, then I would have a panic attack do doubt. I needed someone to ask for advice. I needed my Shilo. She may not be the one to go to for these things, because she could get a bit violent. But I loved her, and I trusted her in this situation to help me do what's right.
I shakily pulled out my cell phone, I could barely see the screen because my eyes were so blurry. It took me a while to compose a text, and even longer to find Shilo's name on my contact list. It hurt scrolling past Bill's name for some reason. Any reminder of him hurt me right now.
Me: I need you…
It sounded cliché or whatever, that's just all I could say right now, I did need her. I needed a friend. It took her a while to text back, so in the meantime I decided to get up and splash some cold water on my face and clear up my eye redness. This couldn't be happening to me. I couldn't lose another person in my life, it just cant happen. I had to face the facts, it was happening and being friends with someone like Bill was too good to be true. Why should he want me anyhow? I'm just a nobody with a broken past.
My phone vibrating in my hand broke me out of my reverie. I glanced down at it and if I wasn't in such pain I might have laughed at what Shilo texted me.
Shilo: What the fuck did he do? Do I need to smash his non existent balls for you?
I sniffled, she knew me too well sometimes. I was thankful for that. It just means that I didn't have to keep explaining myself, something I absolutely hated doing. But you guys already knew that.
Me: Can you come over? I really need someone right now…
Shilo: I'll be over quick. (:
Me: :']
I took the opportunity to check myself in the mirror, and it really was a lost cause. My hair was a mess and my eyes looked devoid of any emotion whatsoever, still gleaming with tears. They were puffy and red, but it could have been worse. I slid my phone in my back pocket and paced in my bathroom for Shilo to arrive. I was nervous, I hope she wouldn't get mad at me for dragging her out to my house at this hour. It was almost 1am. And I know I'd hate it if someone made me.
I was almost on the verge of tearing my hair out with all this anxiety. I felt like my body was being torn apart and my heart was gone. Was it normal for me to be feeling like this over a boy? I corrected myself. It was perfectly normal, because I know that 'this boy' was my true love. I was never more sure than that. We were meant to be and he was too stubborn and dumb to actually admit it. And I resented him for that.
A knocking on my front door jogged me back to the present. Thank god Shilo was here! I guess I'd better get ready to shed more tears. I slowly and calmly made my way to the door and pulled it open a bit hard because it was stuck. Probably from when I slammed it with all my might earlier. When her eyes rested on mine they held so much love and concern. She shrugged out of one of Tom's jackets and walked past me. Tossing it on the couch.
She pulled my in a gigantic hug and I let the tears come. I sobbed hard and all she could do was shush me and pat me on the back making sure I was going to be ok. I backed away from her and wiped my eyes on the inside of my shirt collar. I didn't have tissues so that was going to have to do for the moment. She waited calmly for my to finally calm down enough to try and tell her what happened, thank god she decided to talk first, because I don't know what I would have wrote first.
She handed me a notepad she brought with her, so I could write down my responses. "What in the hell happened? You are scaring the shit out of me!"
I shook the jitters out of my hand so my writing would be somewhat readable. Bill came over to talk to me about PROM!
Shilo put her hair behind her ears, she looked confused. "I don't understand honey, shouldn't you be happy? Instead of being emotionally wreaked?" She paused then added. "No offense."
He told me he's taking HEATHER not me… :'/
"Heather? As in Horny Heather? The slut that Tom used to date?" Her voice was laced in venom. I gave a curt nod and looked down to the carpet. "That little fucker!" She exclaimed, she sounded so pissed off, so I just let her rant her heart out. And the sad part is that I agreed to everything she said. "What a deluded fucking asshole! Why the fuck would he take that good for nothing hooker? I swear to god I'm going to rearrange his pretty little face!" She was really serious. "I have to help you win him back. The stubborn asshole."
I sighed deeply before writing. It's a lost cause, he don't like me. I'm going to have to get over it…
She frowned. "Abby!" She exclaimed. "You guys are always all over each other, have you seen the way he looks at you? He loves you."
I blushed. It sure don't feel like it. If he loves me so damn much then why is he taking Heather to prom?
"I think he's in denial. He's scared to hurt you. And then there's the big tour coming up, he may not want to get serious and then have to leave you on the drop of a hat." She said sadly. She was making some sense. She kept going over with me, how he's too scared to ruin what we might possibly have. "We have to do something ok? He loves you, but he's being a dickhead about it."
What are we going to do? I finally wrote down, after thinking over it thoroughly, it did seem like the only option I had. I just didn't know how I was going to win him. I had to make him realize I love him and vise versa.
"You have to tell him you love him." Shilo stated blankly. I shook my head, I couldn't do that yet, I mean what if he flat out ignores me? I couldn't take the humiliation. She gave a deep sigh. "Seems like you both are pretty stubborn, I mean at least you admit it to yourself."
Any other ideas.
She smiled evilly. "I have a few tricks up my sleeve. We go to plan two. Make that fucker jealous."
But why would he be jealous of me? He don't like me remember?
She gave a sad sigh. "Just work with me here okay? He loves you, and there is no denying it. We just got to get him jealous first. Make him want you. Well you understand right?" She tried and I just nodded. "Ok, we need to find you someone to date!"
I blushed. I doubt anyone would have the patience to be with me.
Another sigh. "Just think of the bright side of things for once alright? Plus I know the perfect person you could fake date."
I quirked an eyebrow at her. And who might that be?
She laughed, scaring me a bit. I had no clue who she could possibly be talking about, unless… "Georg." She stated, gauging my reaction.
I sat there for a bit, I mean it did sound good to me, and he had said he'd do anything for me. But the thing was, he really liked me and I didn't want to hurt him. I really don't know Shilo. Georg really likes me, and I don't want to use him and hurt him. It isn't right at all.
"Do you want Bill or not?" I could tell she was losing her patience with me, but still.
I do but, I don't think I can do this to Georg. I really couldn't.
She stood with her hands on her hips and flipped out her phone from her back pocket. "I'm calling him to see if he'd come over for a little while." I sighed giving up, I knew it wasn't going to be any use. I situated myself into the couch and got more comfortable, it was going to be a long night and no sleeping was going to happen anytime soon. I was exhausted.
She tapped her foot wildly when he didn't pick up on the 3rd time she tried to call him, I mean I don't blame him. Lucky Bastard is probably asleep. "Georg?" She asked. He must have picked up the phone. My stomach dropped as I listened to Shilo's side of the conversation. "I don't give a fuck what time it is." Silence. "Ok I'm sorry for cussing at you." Silence and a sigh. "I need you to get over here." Silence. "What do you mean where? You retard I'm at Abby's you know that!" Silence. "Fine, I'm sorry for calling you a retard. Now are you coming or not?"
I was freaking out, I didn't want to ask Georg, Shilo had to. All her idea. No matter how genius it sounded. "Yes you can get dressed first." Silence. "I don't care if you have to go to the bathroom first, just hurry up alright?" Silence. "Ok bye."
What'd he say? I wrote, ready for her to read when she turned around.
"Georg basically said he had to get ready before he came over. And I hope his lazy ass don't go back to sleep, because he is very known for that." She laughed, which got me to laugh too. "See? All we have to do is lighten the mood a bit. Feeling any better?"
I shrugged. I suppose, knowing there is a chance for me and Bill. I don't know what I'm going to do if I lose him. I really do love him with everything I have.
She smiled sadly and scooped me into a warm embrace. "Don't worry Abbs, I guarantee you that you will not lose Bill. He just needs a lot to sort out, he's such a little bitch." She sighed. I laughed. "Can I ask you something personal?" I carefully gazed up into her eyes and shrugged. I was a bit on edge. "Have you and Bill you know don't it?"
I blushed and looked away. I shook my head though. We almost have, but we always stopped. I wrote down.
She gave a sad nod. "I just hope this plan works. I hate to see you both so hurt and confused." I nodded and she glanced down at her phone. "Hello?" She answered. "Ok, we'll be waiting with the door open." She closed her phone and opened the front door and made sure everything was unlocked. "Georg is walking now, he should be here any second."
"Boo!" He exclaimed fron the side of the door, making Shilo drop her phone and shriek. Georg was in giggles, but now I wasn't in the mood for laughing, I needed to be all around serious.
"Georg you jerk." She huffed. "If we didn't need something from you I'd cuss you out."
"I know." He gave a small smirk. "Anyways what do you…" He trailed off taking in my shrunken appearance. "What's going on? You aren't pregnant are you? Oh god." He started freaking out, making crazy hand gestures.
"Dude calm down she didn't get knocked up." Shilo tried to calm him down.
"But it does have something to do with Bill doesn't it?" He questioned, looking down at me. He plopped heavily down next to me, making my body jump a bit from the force.
I nodded sadly. He came over to talk to me about prom…
He cut me off before I could finish mouthing the words to him. "Shouldn't you be happy then?" I harshly gave his arm a good smack. "Sorry I'll shut up, jeez."
He's taking HEATHER! I exclaimed, with my hands flying everywhere.
His face held genuine shock. "You mean hooker Heather? Heather the whore? Horny Heather?"
The one and only. My eyes were filling with tears again, it was like re opening a wound that was sewn shut for years. Even though it's only been a couple of hours since my and Bill's huge fight.
"Oh Kitten." He said sadly, slinging both his arms around me, comforting me. I couldn't let the tears fall though, it felt nearly impossible. "I'm here for you. What did you guys need?"
Shilo's idea. I stated.
His head popped up to Shilo then. "Oh god, I don't like the idea of this."
She smirked. "Since Bill the asshole is dating Heather I want you and Abby to pretend to date to get Bill jealous."
"I don't know what to feel about that, because Bill is one of my closest friends and I don't want to hurt him." He said sadly back. He felt torn between me and Bill.
She sighed. "Please Georg? Bill is totally blind, we all know he loves Abby, but he's too stubborn to realize it. If you date Abby, then maybe he'll get jealous and finally realize it. Please?" She tried, her voice sounding tired.
"What do you say about it Kitten?" He said down to me, pulling me closer to comfort me.
I gave a silent sigh. I really don't want to use you Georg. I don't want to hurt you.
He pushed his hair out of his eyes. "I'll do it." He smirked at my shocked expression. "Anything to help my two friends in need." He grabbed both my hands in his. "Abby? Will you be my pretend girlfriend?"
I did something I knew I would regret later.
I nodded…
The tears spilled over.
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- Back in the days when we were young, When everything was like a loaded gun, Ready to go off at any minute, And you know we're gonna win again. Maybe I'm the one, maybe I'm the one, Who is the schizophrenic psycho, yeah! Maybe I'm the one, maybe I'm the one. Who is the paranoid psycho!