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Chapter 22: I could have strangled him.
Today was going to be my official day pretending to date Georg. I was terrified because I didn't want Bill to be mad at me, I know it sounds weird. But I was absolutely pissed at him, so should it even matter? I knew Shilo chewed him out last night when she got home, he deserved it too. Either way I have to act right and play the part, if I played it good enough I would win Bill. Part of my thinks this is silly, but I get what Shilo is saying, he's too stubborn to admit he loves me. I even knew he did.
We had to be serious about this whole fake relationship thing, so we had to seal the deal with a kiss. I've never thought about kissing Georg before, it was definitely going to be awkward for me. But I would do anything for Bill. Even if it may be hurting him in the process, but I mean he brought it all on himself. If only he'd open up his eyes, he was a girl willing to go to the ends of the earth for him. Me. I didn't want to think about it, I didn't need to cry before school. People notice that crap.
I hopped out of the shower quickly, but not quick enough to misplace my step and crack my head on the wall. Not like I've ever done that before or anything. I didn't bother blow drying my hair either, I just didn't have it in me to be all prim and proper today. No makeup, hair is still wet, I threw on anything. I didn't give a shit today. I kind of felt broken and like my heart was in my throat, but that's besides the point. Actually it hit me hard.
I didn't feel like people this morning, don't even my 'boyfriends' company. I just tossed on my messenger bag and headed off to school. By the time I was halfway there I realized I forgot my white board. Oh well. I guess that meant I wasn't going to be communicating with anyone either, I had no problem with that. I felt like I was going to snap at someone. I felt on edge and just flat out confused. I hated feeling this. Loss. I could name off some things, but I'm sure you have the general idea.
Fucking Heather. I think I actually hated her for what she's doing to Bill. I really hope he didn't have any emotions for her, otherwise this could get ugly. And I don't mean Heather with no makeup ugly. What am I saying she's butt ugly no matter what. I wouldn't go as far to wish her dead, because that's horrible. But I was getting pretty damn close. I'd try to keep my temper down about her though, I don't want her to get the satisfaction of knowing I want Bill but he chose her instead. She'd rub it in my face so hard. I might have to punch a bitch.
My phone vibrating against my leg pulled me out of my nasty thoughts, I was actually glad. I didn't want to have a dark cloud of hate hanging over my hear the whole day. I rolled my eyes when I saw that it was Georg.
Georg: Why you no wait up?
Me: Didn't feel like it.
Georg: You're my girl, I have to walk you to school :/
Me: I'm just getting there, and I'm not really your girl :P
Georg: We have to at least pretend, so next time wait for me kay?
Me: Kk
Georg: Meet me in the school kay?
Me: Where?
Georg: By the brick pillar in the lobby
I didn't reply because I was really fed up with Georg for some reason, and my signal dropped down to a red bar. I dropped my bag next to my feet and leaned against the wall. God knows their slow walkers so I might as well get comfortable in the process. I tried taking deep breaths because I was going to need as much of my sanity as I could muster today. I was going to try to not let anything that I might see get to me too much. I knew it was a lost cause, but I needed to make sure.
I saw school bus after bus pull up and drive away, dropping off students. Heather walked gossiping with all her cheer buddies. She wore her hair up in a tight ponytail, honestly no one should wear one that high up on their head. What did Bill even see in her? Oh yeah, nothing. Her cheer uniform looked too small, and the skirt was ridiculous. I bet the only reason she got away with it because she was on the squad. Along with the other cheer clones.
I rolled my eyes as they all casually walked past me, getting dead quiet. As soon as they rounded the corner away from me they busted out in a fit of giggles. If I talked I would have yelled something back, no doubt there. When they walked by, I smelled so much perfume it was like a prostitute walked in. But it wasn't. What am I saying? Close enough. Dumb ass preppy cheerleaders that went to my school. They were all nice at my old school, so who knows?
I kept glancing down at my phone worriedly. I wanted to get this day on and over with. Georg needed to hurry up so we can hold hands and cuddle and all that cute relationship crap in front of Bill. I wanted to see his face when we kissed, I wanted him to be hurt. I wanted him to feel what he's caused me by dating that too much perfume wearing whore. Harsh? Yeah, I didn't thing so.
I felt two strong arms wrap around my waist from behind. It startled me a bit because I was still staring down the hall the hookers walked down. I put on a happy face and turned around in Georg's arms. I had to fake this, and make it good. "Hey Kitten." He said sweetly, giving me a shy peck on the cheek. Gauging my reaction, making sure I was okay with it. Well I wasn't, but I had to be.
I saw the fluff of Bill's hair behind Georg, I didn't get to see his reaction. He kind of stood there and pushed Georg out of the way so he could stand in front of me with his hands on his hips. "Have you seen Heather?" He asked me all innocent. You have to be kidding me?
I crossed my arms and gave him a cold stare. I was refusing to talk to him at the moment. He of all people should know. Georg stood there with a disbelieving look on his face towards Bill. Neither of us could believe he would so bluntly ask me about Heather, knowing how I felt about him. How could he?
"Ah, giving me the cold shoulder huh?" He said sadly. "About last night, I really am sorry lovely…" My eyes narrowed at the nickname that pissed me off more than ever. "Can you forgive me? I really don't want to lose my best friend over a girl. Please?" He pleaded.
Just fuck off. I stated. I had to get rid of him, I couldn't bear to look at him without my heart feeling like it was going to rip out.
He gave a sad sigh. "I'm sorry ok?"
No you're not.
"Oh you're right I'm not. That's why I'm standing here trying to apologize." He said exasperatedly.
"Oh Bill!" Heathers nasty nasally voice called from across the hallway. He even looked kind of frightened. But it didn't matter, because he had sealed his fate by asking her to prom and ignoring me.
Better go. Don't want your whore to get angry. I said, grabbing a hold of Georg's sweaty hand and marching off down the slightly dark corridor to our first period. I heard Bill's heavy sigh as we walked away. We headed off towards his locker.
"Don't let him get to you okay Kitten?" He said as soon as he had his combination in. Fail. His locker didn't open up.
I cant help it. He is just so… Well you know. Did you see him ask me about Heather? I could have strangled him. I really could have, I'm not trying to exaggerate things.
Georg gave a short laugh then turned to me. "Hurry here they come!" He whispered quickly to me. I glanced down the halls and sure enough he and Heather were holding hands, walking directly towards us. "We should kiss." He stated like a little kid about to be caught doing something.
I guess. I stated very sulkily. Georg moved in fast and didn't place a simple peck on my lips, he went in for a full out kiss. Our lips moved in sync, but it didn't feel right. It felt really gross, because I thought of Georg like a brother type or something. Someone messily crashing into the lockers next to us broke us apart. It was Bill. I narrowed my eyes at him.
"You and Georg seriously?" He accused. He sounded beyond pissed. Georg was going to talk but Bill cut him off. "I don't even want to hear it from you." He looked back to me.
I don't need permission from you on who I can date and who I cant. I crossed my arms around my chest. I wish he would just leave me alone. At least getting him jealous was starting to work.
"But Georg is one of my best friends, I would think you would date someone else. Hell you could have dated Jake for all I cared. But you picked Georg?" He was whispering so no one would overhear.
"Uhm, I'm going to drop my books off to leave you guys alone for a bit." Georg stated awkwardly. Bill just gave him a glare, and I just nodded.
I could say the same thing. You could have picked any damn girl in this damn school and you pick Heather. You know how much I don't like her.
He scoffed. "I don't even think it matters anymore." He stood there sulking for a moment. "I still want to be your friend Abby." He tried.
That's not going to cut it. Because everyone knows we like each other, you just cant realize it.
"I don't like you like that…" He trailed off awkwardly.
Of course you do. If you didn't like me then if wouldn't bother you that I'm dating Georg. Jealous much?
He was at a loss of words there, he hesitated and didn't know what to say. I stood there waiting patiently, waiting for him to confess some feelings he had towards me. Why. Wont. He. Fucking. Accept. It. Already? "I'm still taking her to prom."
You know what? I started off calm, because I was about to lose it. Don't even fucking talk to me anymore. You are a stubborn asshole and I hate you.
He sucked in a breath. "You don't mean that lovely." I saw tears in his eyes.
What did I tell you about calling me that? Not when I'm pissed at you. I wasn't too far behind, I felt tears well in my eyes too.
The warning bell sounded. "We should get to class, we might be late."
Go ahead. I'm not walking with you. I said grimly. And when he didn't walk off first, I decided to just push past him. Georg was still carrying my book bag so I didn't have it with me. But I could care less right now. I walked to my first period empty handed and received a glare from my music teacher. I shrugged it off.
Being mad at your best friend hurt.
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"Are you sure you aren't hungry?" Georg asked from our seat in the cafeteria. And I meant it, I was sitting in his lap and we only used one chair. We were sitting off to the side of the lunchroom, the more quieter part. It didn't stop the stares though. The whispers were pretty great this time around though.
I'm not hungry, but if you are go ahead. I don't mind waiting here. I said, snuggling into his chest when Bill threw an angry glare over at our table.
"I ate a huge breakfast, so I'm good." He sighed. "You're lucky I love you Kitten. I could ruin my and Bill's friendship over this."
You're the one who agreed to it remember? I tossed back at him.
He gave a laugh. "I know, and I think it'll pay off."
You think so?
"I know so. That boy is so pissed off at me it isn't funny. He refuses to talk to me in the halls, and he wont reply to my texts." He rolled his eyes. "He's bringing it on all himself though. I just wish he'd cut the crap and confess what he feels about you."
Can we not talk about this please? I literally think I may cry later, or soon actually. I was all of a sudden cold. Georg realized this and tried to offer me his jacket but I refused.
He sighed. "Play the part alright? Take my jacket. That's what people in relationships do ok?" I rolled my eyes and slipped it on. It wasn't too big on me, but it did the job, I wasn't as cold anymore, thank god. "Here, I'll even change the subject. What are your plans for tonight?"
I gave a heavy sigh and knocked my head on his chest. Dad is inviting Simone and the twins over tonight, its going to be so awkward. Shilo has to go take care of things with her mom, so her or Jake wont be there.
"That does sound pretty awkward. Want me to come too?" He asked sincerely. But I had to deny, because I didn't want my dad to know about everything that's going on. He could be a nosey fuck at times. "Does your dad like Simone?"
I gave a small smile. Honestly, I think they've been secretly dating. But don't quote me or anything on it. Aren't they the cutest together?
"Took the words right out of my mouth." He stated.
Things went smoothly throughout the day, and I'm glad. I didn't have anymore face to face conversations with Bill. And he didn't once try to talk to me again, and I was glad about that too. I was on edge the whole day and I felt like curling up in a ball somewhere and crying. But Georg wouldn't allow it. He kept comforting me and telling me I could let loose after school. I also didn't want Bill to know he was getting to me that bad.
Fifth period was intense. Shilo or Tom weren't there because they were off spending time together before she had to leave for the institution to talk to her mom. It was just me, Bill and Georg. And for once I did my work, quietly and diligently. It was the only distraction I had from the world around me at this point. I had to make it last because I was close to losing it.
Bill stormed out of last class of the day and Georg walked me home, hand in hand. Things were getting better, I haven't seen Heather and Bill kiss, which was good. And if I were him I'd be careful, she's smooched on the whole basketball and football team, who knows what diseases she might have. Is that bad of me to think that? Definitely not.
Georg walked me to my porch steps and gave me a small peck on the lips. A fuming Bill slammed the front door shut. I hope he doesn't kill you. I giggled.
He rolled his eyes. "Yeah I hope he don't either. Good luck tonight alright?" He said sweetly. And I felt guilty for bringing him into this whole mess. I nodded as he stalked off towards the twins house, where he was staying until his parents could find a decent house close enough for him to go to the school.
I was of course depressed as soon as I was alone. My dad was home and that didn't really help, I had to put on a smile so he wouldn't ask any unnecessary questions. "Someone looks a little down." Damn. He always saw through me. I just shrugged. "Simone said you and Bill are in a little argument, that true?" I nodded. "Want to talk about it?" I shook my head. Definitely not. "Well go get changed, I want you to help me cook dinner at my restaurant tonight."
What do you mean? I asked. I was really confused. Weren't we supposed to eat in or something?
He chuckled and clapped a hand on my back. "I just thought it'd be sweet if me and you cooked for the Kaulitz family tonight. What do you say?" Like he even cares, I'd do it because it makes him happy. I nodded. "Go wash up and wear something white ok?" White was the official chef color. Whatever.
I sighed and shut my door and locked it. I had a huge migraine coming along. I busied myself with my hair, because I knew I was going to have to tie it up anyways. I put it in a low burn and went to work on my makeup, I had to cover my scar even more. I hated the fact people could see it with my hair out of my face. I just didn't really care at the moment. To prove my point I wiped all my makeup off except for the eye makeup. The scar shone in the bathroom light. Very noticeable. I sighed. I didn't care.
One step forward…
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