-Bryan will remain dead. Sorry you guys who wanted him to come back, most of you preferred him dead. But if it makes you feel better, remember there will be a sequel! :D And I'm taking ideas for it, if I love your idea enough I WILL put it in a chapter. Don't hate me D': I'm just doing what I think is best.

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Alien

Chapter 31: Do what now?

The bright light pierced my eyes and I almost didn't want to wake up. I felt so amazing and warm underneath my covers. I felt safe sleeping in my own room for once. Nothing was ever going to make me live in fear like that ever again. I'm glad I came to terms with my past because now I know I have friends and family who always loved me in the first place. Why didn't I see that in the first place? I was clearly blinded by fear. You may call me silly or dumb for being scared, but you'll never know until your in my position. It's not fucking dumb.

I was going on my first official date with Bill as a couple, even though its only going to be a group date. We haven't came out to the reporters that we're dating, because Bill thinks they'll give me a hard time. I honestly prefer them to keep thinking I'm a mute, because they annoy the hell out of me. Actually being with Bill, not friends with benefits, but actually being his girlfriend made me so much happier in life. I'm so in love with that boy, and I cant wait to spend the rest of my life with him. Did I mention he makes me happy?

I reluctantly threw off my covers, the only thing making me get up is that I'm hanging out with my friends today. I took a quick shower and blow dried my hair, I didn't feel the need to do anything to it today, there was rain in the forecast. I even skipped out on my makeup, I was feeling that happy today. I bundled up though, not wanting to get sick. I put on a long sleeved purple thermal shirt and some black skinny jeans. I put one of Bill's jackets on over my clothes, and I instantly felt right.

When I look in the mirror I can tell my eyes don't look dull anymore, there is actually some spark of life in them. Granted in a couple of months would be the anniversary that all that crap happened to me, and yes it'll be rough. But I have Bill for that, and I know he'll comfort me. He's good at stuff like that.

Food sounded really good right now. I unlocked my phone and checked the time, I cant believe it was this early. And I got up without much of a struggle too, I must be excited to get this new day going. I put the kettle on the burner and got the powdered chocolate out because hot chocolate sounded really good with this weather. I could watch the sun rise this morning, something I rarely got to see. I cracked some eggs into a bowl and got to work on breakfast. Eggs, hash browns and a piece of toast would suffice. I didn't want to spoil my appetite for the rest of the day.

Munching silently, I didn't want to wake up my dad. He took the whole week off, and I took the whole week off of school. Letting the whole 'Why the fuck was the art teacher replacement found dead in the art supply room?' calm down. Gossip travels fast in a small school. Teachers are the worst of the gossipers though. And I wasn't feeling up to hearing about that all day anyways.

Grabbing my finally made hot chocolate I sprinkled a good amount of pure cane sugar in it, it was my favorite. I had to be sure I was awake for the rest of the day. Apparently it's going to be one of the best days in my life. Considering the day me and Bill made love for the first time and we confessed our love to each other will always be number one.

The wind was really chilly, and I'm glad I chose a lot of clothes. I sat on my front porch admiring the start of the new day. The chocolate tasted amazing running down my tongue, I could drink this on any cold day forever. I wanted to sit alone and enjoy the safe quiet, but that didn't really turn out the way I wanted it to. Georg bounded out of the front door of the Kaulitz house and started walking towards me. Aren't I the lucky one? He pulled his jacket tighter around himself and picked up his step, giving me a tiny look before sitting down next to me.

We sat there in comfortable silence, I waited for him to say something first, because I honestly didn't know what to say. Him or Shilo wasn't there yesterday, I'm surprised if either of them know I talk. Word travels fast so I don't doubt it. And in an instant Georg pulled me in for a hug. I was shocked at first but didn't resist, I missed him. He had been gone for a while, working things out with his mom, and Shilo was off doing the same thing.

"What was that for?" I asked lightly, sitting my warm drink off to the side of the porch.

He couldn't hide his gasp as he put his hair behind his ear and looked at me. "I thought Tom was just messing around, you really do talk now?" I nodded. "Good. You know, your voice suits you Kitten. It's quite gorgeous."

I rolled my eyes. "You are so corny. By the time its all over with you're going to hate me."

"Why's that?" He asked with a hidden smile. What was up with all these people loving the sound of my voice? It really wasn't that great.

"Well first off I'm super sarcastic." I snorted.

He laughed his throaty laugh, clapping his hands together. "Don't worry kitten, I grew up with Bill and Tom, you think I cant take sarcasm?"

"You have a good point there."

We sat without talking, just watching the beautiful colors explode over the sky, I could get used to this. I was waiting for him to ask me about everything that happened, I didn't really have to wait that long. That boy is nosey. "So what exactly happened? No one will tell me what's going on, all they said that you're talking." His expression was sad from being kept out of the circle. "Something had to have happened for you to talk right?"

I gave him a weary nod. "My past caught up with me." I said simply, I think I could talk about it now. I just didn't want to press it. But of course Georg was having none of that, so I may just tell him.

"Care to elaborate?" Why did everyone see me so damn interesting? He sighed. "Sorry, I don't want to sound so pushy, but I consider you one of my closest friends, I would really like to know why you never talked."

I did understand, and I didn't think he was being rude. He was simply being Georg. I rolled my eyes and decided to tell him. I gave him the short version of it because it was a long story and I didn't want Bryan to be on my mind anymore. "I had an art teacher who tortured me. He killed my mom and twin. Threatened me, so I chose not to talk, so I wouldn't be tempted for help because I knew he'd hurt anyone else that I loved. He recently came back, so I finally decided to talk after years of not talking." I sighed.

His eyebrows rose in alarm. "Is that where the scar on your stomach came from?" He asked slowly, testing the waters. I mean he deserved some answers, all my friends did. And for once in my life I trusted that my secrets were safe with them, friends didn't judge each other.

I nodded. "The bastard held me to a Kiln." He snickered at my usage of the cussword. "Well he killed his self recently, so I don't have to worry about him anymore. It's a long, long story Georg."

"It's ok Kitten, I'm just glad you're alright. And I love to hear your voice, it sweet like sugar." He pulled me close giving me a protective brotherly hug. He sighed. "You don't still hate me for 'cheating' on you with Heather do you?"

I rolled my eyes. "Of course not. You were drunk, so it's fine. Besides the fact me and Bill are dating now."

His face fell. Poor guy, I knew he still liked me. But despite the circumstances his face lit up, he was genuinely happy for me. "About time! You guys are so perfect for each other!" My face blushed a deep crimson. "Have you guys fucked yet?" He said randomly, he was just joking, but my hesitation proved it all. He gave a very surprised gasp. "You all didn't? Or did you?" He was oddly excited.

I quickly smacked him on the shoulder. "Listing you are a pervert!" I exclaimed.

He chuckled. "I was only joking around, but thanks for concluding that for me I guess." He was embarrassing me. The front door of the Kaulitz home banged open and out sprung Shilo, she practically ran towards me. She was going to freeze to death! She wore no shoes, and was only was only wearing a tank top and pants. Her loss.

"Oh Abby!" She exclaimed, pulling me away from Georg into a giant hug. "I missed you so much, and I'm so sorry. I heard about everything…"

Georg cut her off in mid sentence. "How did you get to know before me?" He said sadly with some attitude.

She disregarded him and kept talking to me. Looks like she was trying to start off on a good day, avoiding fights with Georg. "Are you really talking?" She asked me in wonder. I nodded. She held me at arms length and gave me an incredulous look. "Well? Say something!"

"What do you want me to say?" I asked shyly back.

She actually squealed. "You are so adorable!" She hopped up and down and threw her arms around me again. She was having a total teenybopper moment.

"What kind of crack are you on?" I jokingly asked.

She happily rolled her eyes. "Oh and I heard you and Bill are together?" I gave a nod. "Congratulations." She smiled big at me.

I rolled my eyes. "You should go get a jacket on or something, it's too cold to be walking around like that, you'll catch a cold." I said sympathetically.

"I just came out here to see you, since I missed you so much. We're going to have so much fun with the guys today trust me. Well I think I'll be going. I'll even take Georg away from you, he must be annoying." She yanked him up by his wrist and he looked pissed off at her for ruining our talking time.

I sighed. "Georg isn't annoying, he's really good company if you ask me."

"Awh Kitten you're so sweet." He cooed, ruffling my hair. I humpfed and crossed my arms around my chest. "I really should be going, we have to get ready for tomorrow and everything that's going on." Shilo elbowed him hard in the side and he yelped.

Okay, something was wrong here. "What are you guys not telling me?" I asked, confused.

"What are you talking about?" Georg played dumb.

"You know you're a bad liar." I told him and he just shrugged.

"Don't worry about it." Shilo said happily, pulling him away back to their house.

All I could do was worry.

XxX

Eventually I did put the worry behind me, because Bill would tell me what's going on right? He had to. There was a knock on my door in the afternoon around 12, I was greeted with a mischievous looking Tom. I rolled my eyes and let the rest of the guys in. Bill's eyes lit up as he almost tackled me with a giant bone crunching hug.

"Did you miss me or something?" I asked, barely able to breath. But I didn't mind because I loved being as close to him as possible.

"Well of course I missed you silly." He pulled me in for a kiss, and we were definitely not shy in front of our friends. I leaned into the kiss deepening it, our tongues danced with each other, there was the occasional sound of his tongue ring hitting my teeth, but besides that they let us enjoy our moment. We pulled away giving each other a loving gaze.

Shilo broke up the quiet. "Can we please get this day started?" She sang happily. And then we did.

Bill took me to a very beautiful park, and I would have never known it was here if it wasn't for him. It was huge, and nothing but green grass and beautiful trees and flowers surrounding the perimeter. It if wasn't so freaking cold it would have been absolutely perfect. But I wasn't complaining, anyplace I spent with Bill was classified as perfect. There was a giant fountain in the center of the park, gushing out water from its statue of a woman and her kids. It had to be a memorial of some sort.

The playground was off to the side surrounded in those rubber woodchips, so the kids can actually run around without getting a splinter. I bet they burned though when the sun hit them directly, maybe they hurt worse than the blacktop. Who knows. I glanced around at the other happy people with their children, dogs, family or loved ones. This was such a happy and peaceful place. I'm glad I finally found out about it, I can see myself coming here every other day, just relaxing. Without having to be in fear.

I huddled closer to Bill, we were just laughing and talking about the most random things in the world. And I preferred it that way. Bill had a ton of body heat despite his tiny figure, I'm glad he kept pulling me closer into his side. "Why is it so cold out here?" I complained for the billionth time.

"Maybe because its almost Christmas and well it's usually cold around then, I think they call it winter?" He said in a playful tone.

"Smartass." I said back laughing. "You never cease to put a smile on my face Billa. That's why I love you." I pulled him down for a kiss.

"And I love you too lovely." He said, brushing my winded hair out of my numb face. "I hope you don't catch a cold because of me, I'd feel so bad."

I laughed. "As long as you got sick too, then I wouldn't be mad at you." He rolled his eyes. Then a movement caught my eyes from behind his tall self. I busted out in hysterics. "Look at Gustav!" I pointed behind him.

Bill shook his head. "They are idiots. When they get the flu there going to wonder why." He said in an ashamed tone. Gustav, Tom and Georg were all pushing each other around the giant fountain. What kind of game is that? Whoever gets hyperthermia first wins? Wins what exactly death? I wanted to laugh at my own inside ramblings but I didn't want to come off as super crazy. Plus it hurt to talk to much because of the cold.

"What are they doing exactly?" Did I even want to know? I don't really think so.

Bill laughed. "They are being complete idiots. Do you see Shilo just standing there with her camera? Our friends aren't right in the head."

We stood from afar just watching the hilarious sight. I guess they were seeing who would fall in the water first. Which is retarded because I kid you not it wont be raining anytime soon, if anything it would be snow. What weatherman tells us rain? They should start looking for a new job. I rolled my eyes as I figured out what Shilo was about to do.

"Do you see her?" Bill exclaimed.

"Oh I see her all right." I said back. She was sneaking up on them from behind, she was going to try to just push them all in to shut them up. The people around up sure didn't look like they liked the noise all of them were making. Hell they were even giving me sort of a headache. I averted my attention back to them as I heard her girly scream amongst the rest of their screams. Tom's hands were around her waist as all four of them tumbled down into the fountain water. They all broke the surface around the same time. Looking a bit pale, then out of nowhere they busted out laughing.

I rolled my eyes.

"Want to go get some ice cream?" Bill asked sweetly.

I declined. "I cant eat ice cream in this weather, it's too cold. I'd rather prefer something hot to eat or drink."

He raised his brows. "But you cant eat yourself, that's my job."

I stopped and looked up at him. He did not just say what I think he did. I laughed. "You are something else." I said looking into his chocolate brown coal lined eyes. They mesmerized me. And I didn't mind wanting to wake up every morning to him glued to my side, because have you seen that boy sleep? I sure have. It isn't pretty!

"You wouldn't have it any other way." He stated. "What else do you want to do then lovely? I'm really sorry for bringing you out in the weather I know how much you hate the cold."

I shrugged. "I honestly don't mind as long as you're here with me, you keep me warm enough."

"No I don't, look at you face, it looks like it's about to fall off."

"Uhm thanks?" I said. I knew it wasn't a compliment but I just wasn't in the mood to put up a fight. I hated weather like this.

We ended up going to an inside Flea Market. Only because Georg wanted to show Gustav the new wrestling arena they had just installed a couple of weeks ago. Tom and Shilo broke off into separate directions that we went. They wanted to look at food, since they weren't thinking about eating before leaving into the harsh cold of Germany.

Bill led me around to all the little tables and booths set up, but I'm just glad they had heat. They had some really weird things here, an Indian shop with cheap trinkets and over expensive prices. I loved looking at the earrings even though my ears weren't pierced, they were just so pretty. They had some necklaces and bracelets too, all in a variety of colors. They had everything to a mini grocery store to animals. They were selling off cows and horses, that were too old to do anything else in their lives.

"Turn around and close your eyes." Bill said to me.

"Uhm why?" I asked with a curious tint to my voice, that was highly odd of him to ask me to do something like that. But I complied. I'd do anything for that boy.

I felt him press something onto the back of my neck after pulling up my hair. "Okay done." I turned around and he was smiling a great big smile. I looked down to see what he did and there was half of a silver heart hanging from my neck. I quirked my eyebrow at him. He held out the other half in front of me. "This is my half, and that's your half. It symbolizes that we're never fully complete unless were together." He put the two pieces together before fastening it around his neck. "I love you." He said sweetly, kissing me on the tip of my still frozen nose.

"I love you too."

XxX

We were sitting in my room at the end of the day with a cup of hot chocolate in each of our hands. "We have to talk." Bill said grimly and he immediately had my attention.

"What is it?" Was something wrong? I was alarmed.

He gave a faint smile. "It's nothing too bad…" He trialed off and I waited patiently on him so carry on. He sighed. "I feel bad enough having to tell you…"

"Just tell me already." I said sadly.

"As you know I'm in Tokio Hotel…"

I cut him off. "Please just skip to it, I don't need to hear the pre 'soften her up for the worst' speech." I said, carefully sitting my mug off to the side on my nightstand.

"I'm going on tour." He said, barely audible.

I gasped. "I suppose I knew it was coming all along huh?" I repressed the urge to cry like a baby. Because all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry. I didn't want him to leave me, I wanted him to stay right here next to me. "How long?" I asked.

"The tour will be for a year, then we break for a couple of months and so on." I had a feeling the tour was going to be a lot longer, he was just making me feel better by giving me a smaller number. Which I was grateful for.

"When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow night." He said sadly.

I ran my fingers nervously through my hair. "Take me with you?" I tried.

He smiled, taking my fidgety hands in his. "I've talked to your dad about it and he don't want you missing anymore school, he wants you to get a good education. And for that matter so do I. I don't want to be the reason you never go to college and so on."

I sighed. "Please? I don't want to be without you. Ever since I've been here you have been the one to get me though everything I don't know what I'm going to do without you, for a year! Do you know how long a year is?" I wiped away the tears that fell with my over reactance. Was I?

"We can talk everyday on the phone, I can text you, email you, Video chat you. In a sense I can still see you everyday that I'm not busy." He tried to cheer me up. I knew this was his job, being an international rockstar. I knew t was coming, but why did I feel so unprepared? Its like I was letting go of him sooner than I thought. "And no matter what happens, no matter how far I travel, I want to stay as your boyfriend." That peaked my interest.

"Of course." I said a little happier. I mean it was going to happen one way or another, I might as well let him go without sounding like a needy girlfriend. I didn't want to be clingy. "I guess it wont be too bad, I'll still have Shilo."

He looked sad. "Actually you wont."

"Why the hell wont I?" I didn't mean to snap, but I was sort of a wreck right now.

"She's moving away to her aunts house." He said with sympathy for me having to be alone.

"Where does her aunt live?" I said, fearing the answer.

"California…"

I sighed. "I'm going to miss you every second of the day."

"And I'll miss you too."

And then we kissed.

:3

-I hope you guys liked it!

The sequel will be up soon, so I hope you guys look for it and read it! Anyways, like I said, you guys can start inboxing me ideas if you all want? I shall try to do my best to fit it in my story. And no not everything will be happy in the sequel, there will be a ton of sad Abby, and there is so much in store. Far from happy :D

-No lyrics because no one really even guesses xD

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