Loki:

I finally realized…

…that I have something worth more than an immortal existence. More than the old memories. I can make new memories that I will carry on with me forever. I enjoy your smile and I enjoy smiling again with you. I would give up my life in an instant to grow old with you…I would give it all up.

[clears throat]

No one else has had such a privilege to be considered so… exalted in my eyes.

Do not get comfortable with it.

I have to…go… villainous things to do.

[Loki vanishes, leaving JARVIS and the voice recording he left Tony to find one day. Didn't have to be today, but some day. He'd come across it on his computer, tucked away between files.]

Loki:

Taken in by S.H.I.E.L.D.

Apparently they want to…test me. I assume they mean physically and mentally. They still deem me a great threat, which I am, but for Tony I shall not harm another Midgardian, unless prompted.

Regardless, I am being told to take some..written test or sorts. Unsure, sounds like mundane school work. No matter.

S.H.I.E.L.D. may do as it wishes, I just want to get home and make sure Tony hasn't drown in motor oil, again.

Tony's blog:

Loki…

Where did you pop off to this time? I really dislike sitting around waiting for you to come home like I'm some kind of lost soul without you.

…did you get caught again?

You're starting to make me wonder if you do that intentionally.

I'm just going to go get things done in my workshop until you decide to come home.

Loki:

Oh, you know me Tony. Just out and about, but your S.H.I.E.L.D. friends are so insistent. I didn't want to upset them so I went along for the ride.

Sadly they kept poking me with sharp objects and needles. Though I really do enjoy the "band-aids" with the brightly coloured ponies on them. I heard them talking about trying to see inside my brain and assumed they wanted to cut me open for some…beastly experiment so I ran home.

Tony, why are your friends so mean to me?

Tony:

They did what? They… They are so fucked when I drop by tomorrow.

And you. Why did you let them experiment on you? Why did you even let yourself get captured in the first place? You could have just teleported back here! What if they did cut you open? God! You went along with them just so you could get some fucking plasters with brightly-coloured ponies on them? Oh, for fuck's sake. I could get them for you by the dozen if you want me to. God. I am mad at you, Loki.

You should have known better than to go along with them! I'm disappointed in you, you really should have known better. I-

Argh. You know what? Forget it. Do what you want.

[Tony throws his hand up in frustration and goes off to the workshop.]

Loki:

[Loki can feel the hairs on the back of his neck prickle and he follows after Tony. His glare would have drilled holes in the back of Tony's head if he wasn't so kind.]

Do you honestly think I went there for, as you Midgardian's say "shits and giggles"? No. I went there for you.

[His tone was icy and calm. A dangerous combination as Loki followed behind Tony, quickly grabbing his arm with a vice grip.]

Do you honestly believe they are content with one of their top most wanted villains living, let alone sleeping, with one of their little Avengers? Obviously not. I went there for you as a peaceful extension, that I mean no harm to them or you or your planet. I let them do what they wanted so I could stay with you. Don't you understand?

I did this for you. And if you can't see that…then I am sorry I went at all and I am sorry I have upset you.

Tony:

[Tony threw his hands up in defeat from the way Loki spoke to him. He could never stay mad at Loki for long, not when he knew that the trickster was trying his best. Yet Tony still couldn't help but be a tad frustrated. He was constantly worried about Loki, he just wished he knew what Loki was up to all the time. How was he supposed to keep the god safe if Loki was always going to get himself into some sort of trouble?]

I don't care what they think of us, Loki. They don't understand you and me. If they ever wanted to get to you, they would have to go through "little" me first. You-

[He rubbed his own temple with his free arm.]

You don't have to do anything. You're always going to stay with me. No one can ever take that away from me.

I should be the one who's saying sorry. I didn't mean to flare up at you like that. …I was just worried, alright? I don't want to lose you.

Loki:

No. I am sorry, I should have not gone out without your permission. I should have informed you of where I was going. I am truly sorry. I am too use to just leaving when I feel like it.

[Loki lowers his head and rests his hands together. He was decked out in his Asgardian armor, but it was sort of a default setting for his clothing. His brows furrowed as he thought over what to say.]

I am sorry Tony. I..I mean it. Forgive me. You won't lose me. I promise.

Tony:

[Tony sighed and ran a hand through his hair. He shook his head and looked over to Loki, then he sighed again. He hated himself whenever he saw that expression on Loki's face. It was a terrible feeling.]

No, no, no. Why are you apologizing? Look, you don't have to tell me where ever you go. You have the freedom to do whatever you want, love. I just get overly worried when it comes to you. I'm not mad at you, don't be sorry.

[Tony moved over to Loki's side and pried his hands apart, taking one of them into his own. He squeezed it reassuringly, and smiled softly at Loki.]

Please turn that frown upside down?

Loki:

[Loki let a smile curl on his lips before he laughed. He smiled and looked at Tony with bright eyes.]

I do not understand your strange Midgardian sayings sometimes, but when you are the one saying them I find myself smiling.

[He leans in and kisses Tony on the lips then nuzzles in close.]

Your strange Midgardian colloquialisms are most endearing, might I add.

[Loki spun around and let go of Tony's hand to wander around his workshop.]

I do not understand the idea of "raining cats and dogs". That would be most painful and most horrendous for the animals.

Tony:

[Tony laughed along with Loki, thinking about how ironic it was for the God of Mischief to have such an angelic laughter. He grinned into the kiss when he found himself being given one. As Loki spoke of the methods human spoke and circled the workshop, Tony rolled his eyes and shook his head.]

It simply means that it's raining hea- urgh!

[He clutched to his arc reactor that had its lights flickering on and off as he blindly searched for something to hold on to. It sent items from his table clattering onto the ground. He was in agony as he slowly sank into his knees. His chest felt like it was on fire and there was a throbbing ache in his heart.]

Lo-Loki… I-

[He collapsed on the floor, with shuddering breaths and sweat drenching his shirt. He could feel his eyes trying to pop out of its sockets from the pain. JARVIS was sounding an alert (he installed such a function after the last time someone had extracted his arc reactor from himself just in case anything went wrong again) and one of his machines was already carrying over a replacement.]

H-h-help!

Loki:

[Loki turned at the first sound of something falling onto the tiled floor. He had no expression as he ran to Tony's side but didn't touch him. A flare of confusion but a calculating stare was all Tony say up at the God. Loki's hands flared green and he quickly whisked the spare arc reactor to his hand and sliced through Tony's shirt with acute precision. He looked at the blinking light and back at Tony's face. He was emotionless but inside something was…dying.

Loki mumbled to himself and his free hand drifted over Tony's chest to dull the pain as he removed the faulty arc reactor. A sudden look of panic was on his face.]

W-What do I do?

[He had only removed the arc reactor from the socket, but had not unplugged it as he looked down at Tony with a blank expression.]

Tony:

[Tony tried desperately to calm his breathing but it was difficult with the way he could practically feel the shrapnel in his chest making its way to his heart. He shivered as his eyes snapped shut at the pain. He could see the look of panic on Loki's face and his mind was screaming no, please, god, not like this. He hissed at the arc reactor was taken out of his chest and he tried with all his might to instruct Loki with a shaking finger that he had to put his hand into the electromagnet to unplug the arc reactor properly. Where he failed to speak, JARVIS was quick to intercept by giving quick instructions (also programmed) to Loki.]

Loki:

[Loki set the faulty reactor onto Tony's chest out of the way as he quickly slipped his hand into the socket. He could feel the ooze and discharge swimming around his hand. He let out a flare of magic and could see Tony's heart, see the shrapnel. He wasn't in the right mind to help with that and went back to the mission at hand, unplugged the socket, removed his hand and threw the faulty piece to the side. He took the end of the new reactor and slipped in his hand again.

With a click and a slight electrical jolt Tony was back in business. Loki removed his hand and just sat there. He started to shake and he swallowed. He still looked expressionless but his shaking said otherwise.]

Tony:

[He groaned as he came back to his full senses, feeling better immediately. Still, he had to slow his breathing and racing heart. He swore angrily at the faulty arc reactor and wondered what had went wrong with it. He mentally noted that he should be checking what was wrong with it after…]

Thanks, love. I- Loki? Why are you shaking like that?

[Tony grabbed Loki by the shoulders and pulled him in for a hug to try and calm the god down. He hugged Loki even tighter, trying to take away the shivering and whatever bad feelings that Loki might have been feeling.]

Loki. Loki, I'm fine. Stop shaking like that, you're scaring me.

Loki:

[Loki's breath was shallow as his head rested against Tony's shoulder.]

I…I thought you were going to die.

[There was a hitch in his voice. He felt frozen and scared.]

I…was scared…I was so scared….I…

[Suddenly Loki pulled back and his hands glowed green and he teleported the both of them to bedroom. Tony was shirtless with sweat pants on and under the covers while Loki was now practically hovering over him, hands glowing green and magically monitoring Tony's health. Loki sniffed back a tear. He knew Tony was well now but it scared him. He was scared to be alone without Tony. He looked down.]

Sleep, sleep well and may you have good dreams. I shall watch over you while you sleep, my darling…

[Loki placed a glowing hand to Tony's head before the other could protest properly and made the man fall asleep. Loki gave a sad smile and monitored the other, sitting cross legged in mid-air as archaic Nordic symbols appeared before the God of Mischief. He sat in the dark. Watching. Waiting. Analyzing. Even JARVIS brought up heart monitors and a full body scan for Loki to watch.

He never wanted this to happen again.]

Loki:

[Winter Freeze]

Loki sat, still cross legged in mid-air, next to the sleeping super hero. He was quietly watching over the archaic writing in front of him and JARVIS' heart and body scans for Tony. He inspected, examined and pondered about Tony's shrapnel.

Possible to remove but it might ultimately kill him. Very low odds of success. Loki searched for different options, possible things he could do but all ended in low odds, low success, death of patient. Removing foreign matter, that much shrapnel from Tony's body would possible kill him too. To keep his existence separate from Tony's own, while trying to navigate through his chest. What if he faltered and ruptured something? What if he got that last piece but slipped and at mid pull got it stuck somewhere else, possibly killing Tony? He'd have to get past the strange force of the reactor as well. Tony had his high points but Loki was still weary of Midgardian technology.

More time. He'll find a way, he always does. Loki let his head roll from shoulder to shoulder. He had JARVIS ignore any calls for Tony about the incident. On one occasion with a repeat call with Fury, Loki purposely zapped him through the phone in the good eye and hung up.

Star Tower was getting pelted by thick snow. Loki had JARVIS unfade a small section of the window so he could look outside without bother Tony. Whipping winds and blue tones littered with feather down like snow.

Another issue to deal with. Maybe later when Tony wakes up or maybe never. He does know but he does not know it all. The God of Mischief was conflicted on that matter.

Loki let a hand rest against the cool glass. Ten minutes later and the pads of his fingers were a blue tint. He frowned and turned back to Tony.

Sooner than later. Sooner I get it over with, sooner I can find out whether he wants a monster in his life.