Chapter 10.

I never would have imagined that I would have to be near any of the backstabbing assholes for the remainder of my existence. Edward was the only person that I thought would have my back and know what kind of person I was but I guess I didn't mean that much to him seeing as how he stuck with his whore of a girlfriend. I figured the best way to get over them and not see them is change my life.

Two weeks later I was finally getting the casts off and decided that after school was done I would get new clothes, Edward and the fuck heads tried to talk to me but I blew them off; after school I headed down to the mall and walked into 'Hot Topic', I walked around and saw these nice outfits. When I left the store I had spent over nine hundred dollars; I bought shorts, skirts, corsets, pants, tanks, tub-tops, shoes, and accessories to go along with it. When I got home I took my old clothes out of the closet and put them in trash bags; I hung my new clothes up and decided that I was going to wait for the perfect time to bring the new me out in display.

The next day when I arrived at school; I noticed people were staring at me but I couldn't give a shit what they thought of me anymore, by the time lunch rolled around I couldn't wait for this day to be over with, I sat down at a lunch table leaning back not caring that have no food in front of me or not. I turned my iPod on and put my headphones on blasting 'A bullet for my Valentine- Four words', when I felt someone sit down next to me, I looked to see who it was that graced me with their presence.
"Hey Angela" I said
"Hey Bella, are you going to the party next month?" she asked
"I don't know" I told her
"Please come" she said
"Fine, where is it?" I asked
"The Cullen's house" she told me
I couldn't help but grit my teeth in anger; we always set up party together but no matter I guess that is where I get to reveal the new me, lunch was done and I headed to my biology class and sat down staring at the board when I felt someone sit down next to me, I didn't bother to turn my head knowing that it was 'Fuckward' trying to talk to me again.

A month later fuckward and the others were still attempting to talk to me; I couldn't wait to unveil my new look. No-one would know what him them. I headed to Port Angeles to get my hair highlighted with red and blue streaks throughout my hair. I headed home and saw that my dad was home; I didn't have to worry about him getting upset with what I am about to start wearing, seeing as how he came upon my new attitude and clothes one day but he did tell me to be careful, so here I am wearing a Black/Pink Halter Cami Top and a Plaid Paradox Mini Skirt with four in a half inch heels. I'm not clumsy at all; for that I am thankful to the dance lessons that I took as a kid.

I grabbed my long coat and headed to my car; I drove all the way to the Cullen's house, when I got there I noticed a lot of people from school is there I can't wait to reveal the new me. I got out of the car and headed up the steps walking in the house I noticed everyone stopped what they were doing looking at me trying to figure out what I was doing here.
"Let's party" I said taking my coat off and tossed it on a chair that's next to the front door
I walked in the living room and noticed the ex friends and saw they were jaw slacked; I walked around the room to get something to drink and noticed lustful stares from a lot of boys, I chuckled to myself and turned around to come face to face with a tall buff and tan guy.
"Hello Jake" I purred
"Hey, how are you doing?" he asked looking me up and down
"I'm good. You?" I asked him
"I'm great, much better since you arrived" he said putting his hands on my hips and winking.
"Dance with me" he said pulling me in the middle of the room.

I turned around where my back is to his torso feeling him wrap his arm around my waist pulling me towards his body and we started dancing with the beat; I could feel eyes on me but I didn't care. I felt him turn me around and wrap his hand in my hair slamming his lips onto mine and licked my bottom lip; we battled for dominance we pulled away after a few minutes trying to catch our breath. I told him I will be right back that I was going to the restroom; when I got out of the restroom I saw the backstabbing assholes in front of me.
"Bella what are you doing?" Alice screeched
"Oh, what Alice? You upset that you didn't get to dress me? Or is it because I am getting along fine without you punk ass bitches?" I sneered and watch her flinch
"Bella, you know it's not like that" Edward said
"Really? Then how is it? You know what I don't give a shit; if you don't mind I got me a guy that I need to get back to" I growled bumping all of them in the shoulder walking past.

When I got back to Jake I noticed that he was standing next to the wall where I left him at; I walked over to him and ran my hands along his torso up to his neck and looked at him noticing that he was staring up at me with lust in his eyes. He pulled me where I was flush with his body and starts rocking our hips together; I looked up and saw a glare on Tanya's face and flipped her off. It was around ten thirty when I left the party; Jake was following behind me to make sure I got home safely, once I was inside I went upstairs and got my night clothes on.

For the next few weeks Jake and I hung out at his place; I have started drinking liquor and smoking weed when I was over at his house more and more every day, Jake took me to a tattoo parlour and got me a tattoo on lower back/arm/shoulder blade. I hid it from my dad; he didn't like Jake but knew that I did and kept quiet about his feelings towards him. I wasn't the only one that had changed though; Jake began hitting me the day that I got the tattoo. He'd grab me by my face and squeeze. Hate would fill his eyes as he repeated the same words, drilling them into my head.

"You're a filthy whore. Pathetic, worthless." Pretty much the same things I thought to myself. Even though he was physically abusive to me, I couldn't help but think he loved me, like I loved him. He'd always take care not to hit me anywhere Charlie or anyone else would see.

Soon Jake got tired of doing his own housework and practically made me move in with him. This sparked many an argument with Charlie. He was less than impressed with my decision but all I had to do was remind him that I was 18 and more than capable of leading my own life. I saw him less and less in the weeks following my 'official moving in day' Jake preferred it when he didn't have to be so careful with me. He was getting more and more violent with every unit of alcohol that entered his body. One night in particular was the worst. He wanted our relationship to progress to the next level.

"Please Jake, I love you, I really do. I'm just not ready for that yet. Please understand." I begged him.

"Oh you love me do you? Then prove it. You dress like a fucking slut you could at least act like one!" he roared. I knew he didn't mean it. He couldn't. His alcohol induced rage scared me. I may look tough on the outside, but inside I was terrified. He grabbed my arm so hard I knew it would leave bruises. He forced me to my knees and kept me there with one hand pulling my hair down as the other unzipped his jeans.

"Suck it bitch. And make it good" he growled.

I slowly raised my hands to grasp him. I may still be a virgin but I had done this before enough times to know how to get him off. I pumped my hand up and down, harder, faster… but… nothing happened. Jake growled in frustration.

"Your doing it wrong you silly cow! You must me!" he screamed at me dragging me up by my hair.

"Jake. Stop. It's probably because you've drunk too much alcohol and smoked too much weed." I felt a sharp sting across my cheek as he slapped me.

"Don't you fucking blame me for this!" he shouted. I whimpered slightly and he slapped me again before throwing me to the floor and storming out. I shakily stood up and collapsed on the couch falling into a restless sleep.

I got up early in the morning and got dressed; I headed to school when I got there I stopped the car and looked in the mirror seeing a busted lip and a black eye. I got out of the car and walked into the school not noticing the gasps or the shocked looks on everyone's faces. I kept my head down in class using my hair as a shield so the teachers didn't notice anything. Lunch finally rolled around and I sat down putting my ear buds in my ears turning my music on loud, I felt someone sit next to me and them putting their hands on my face, I looked and saw that it was Rosalie I just glared at her causing her to flinch away from me. I got up and walked out of the lunchroom heading to the classroom and sat down; the rest of the day went as expected, people whispering behind my back, stares coming from every directions and my ex friends trying to talk to me until I stormed off. Another day in paradise.

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