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I think I'll be nice get another chapter up before the end of the weekend because I missed a week…sorry I change POV a couple of times :L

Chapter 10

John stood there, looking into my eyes, waiting for my reply. John loves me, Seth loves me. But who do I really love? I had no answer for John's question and he noticed my hesitation, so immediately dismissed the subject. We were interrupted by a ringing noise coming from my phone. I pulled away from John and fished in my back pocket for my smart-phone. 'Incoming call from Seth' it said on the screen. Great, just what I need. I looked up to John, his expression falling slightly.

"I… eh, better pack up," he told me quietly and walked into a room to our left. I quickly made my way to the stage door and found myself in the ally at the back of the bar. I took a deep unnecessary breath and answered my phone.

"Hey," I said cheerily, I was obviously put on but hopefully Seth wouldn't catch on to that.

"Hey Lisa, are you at home? Because I'm finished patrol and I was going to come over," he told me happily but there was a hint of nervousness in his voice, he obviously caught onto my fake tone. I checked the time it was only ten o'clock. Seth could always wait an hour.

"Em, well if you come over in like an hour I'll be at home," I suggested, I needed to talk to John, badly.

"Sure, that sounds cool," he seemed satisfied with that arrangement, "where are you though?" he asked casually. Should I really tell him?

"Just out with some friends," it was the truth, just not all of it. "I better go so I'll see you in later then," I told Seth. I could hear him sigh over the phone.

"Yeah, ok. See you later then. Love you," he mumbled over the line.

"Love you too," I said quietly and hung up. I leaned against the wall of the ally and sighed loudly in frustration. I looked up the towering walls and saw what appeared to be a million stars. They were breath-taking. The sky here is so clear that every star sparkles in its own dazzling light.

"You know, after my mom died, my dad brought me outside and told me to look into the stars," I heard a voice say behind me, it was John. He came up beside me and looked up at the stars with me. "He told me that when someone dies, they turn into a star and look over you in the night. Even during the day, when you can't see them, they can see you." He continued. "I guess it gave me closure, she died in a car accident when I was seven,"

"I never knew my dad, my real one I mean. I'm sorry," I told him sincerely. He only shrugged in response. "What's your dad like?" I asked him casually, he seemed to stiffen at the topic.

"I guess, he's just my dad," he told me, obviously not wanting to give away any more information; I decided not to push him for more.

I lay on the couch with a pillow in my face, I heard Alice come in and sit down where my legs were once she lifted them up.

"Penny for your thoughts?" she asked lightly, while flicking through the channels on the television.

"I hate my life," I grumbled in a frustrated tone. I heard Alice giggle at my tone.

"You know it's just you and me here, the others are out hunting. So if you want to talk about it," she trailed off. Should I really talk about it?

"What happens when Edward hears your thoughts?" I asked flatly.

"Sweetie, we've all had to put up with him and his mind-reading business for so long, we all know how to keep our thoughts separate from what we're actually thinking," she told me and I could almost hear the smirk on her face. So I sat up and ran through the nights events with John. For a girl who loves to talk, she really is a great listener. She didn't once question my actions or make judgements, she simply nodded and took into account that John made the first move, I just let him.

"So, what do I do?" I asked defeated. Her eyes were darting back and forth, and she was starting to get nervous. "Did you see something about me?" I questioned her. She looked as if she was going to wet herself in worry, but we all know that that can't actually happen. "Alice!" I exclaimed.

"Okay, okay, yeah I did early on this evening, while you were out," she whispered. She looked really nervous.

"What did you see?" I asked, starting to worry about where this was leading. Again she hesitated. "Alice!" I demanded.

"I saw you kissing a guy, a guy who isn't Seth. I then saw Seth…" she yelled the first part in frustration, then trail of for the last part. What happens to Seth?

"You saw Seth what?" I demanded.

"Killing himself," she whispered. My world suddenly fell from around me, would what I have done really hurt Seth so much that'd he's want to end his own life? I felt like killing myself now for what I have done. "I told Carlisle about my vision and he has a theory for your actions to John. He said that maybe because of your disturbed early childhood, the way you grew up with little love in your life. This could affect the imprint, maybe the imprint is dimmed because you're a vampire. That you don't share the same kind of love that Seth has for you. For him, without you he is nothing. He can't live without you Lisa. Now be honest, could you live without him?" Alice chocked out the last question. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Is me being a vampire affecting the imprint? Does that bother me?

Alice left me in silence for a couple of minutes. "Want to go hunting?" she offered, I really needed to go. I nodded without saying anything and followed her out the house and into the forest to think about how much of an asshole I am.

Third person POV

Seth ran to the Cullen's house in his wolf form. Lisa had been distant from him since they all came back from Volterra and he really needed to see her. Before the house came into view he quickly shifted into his human form and pulled his shorts up. As the house came into view he started to smell five vampire scents in the house, but none were Lisa. He hesitated at the edge of the forest. Since Lisa wasn't home, being at the house was pointless. He sighed and turned around to go back to La Push. He was stopped by the sound of a voice calling out from the house.

"Seth!" called out Carlisle. Seth had never really had a conversation with him before. Carlisle was walking out of the house towards him. Seth knew he was no threat to him but you can't blame a wolf for being cautious.

"Sorry, Car-I mean Dr Cullen I came over to see Lisa, but she isn't here so I'll just go," he muttered and began to turn around.

"Has it ever happened before?" Carlisle asked warily. Seth immediately knew he meant had a wolf ever imprinted on a vampire before.

"No," he muttered, remembering all the old Quileute tribe legends, and how none ever mentioned a wolf imprinting on a vampire, or even befriending a vampire. All except the legend about the treaty, but you couldn't really call it befriending the vampires.

"I have a theory about your relationship with Lisa," Carlisle explained.

Seth stood still and nodded at Carlisle, indicating him to go on. "Well as a result of the lack of any type of love in Lisa's childhood, we believe it could have affected her ability to love at all. Never mind loving as a vampire. It is possible that if Lisa was human, that it'd be easier for her to learn, as such, to love. Imprinting on you has really hit her hard in the face, she has so many thoughts and feeling running through her mind she can hardly tell left from right. Edward is relieved that he can't hear her thoughts.

I suppose what I'm trying to explain to you is that, sometimes if a human is turned into a vampire not only does the human inside them die, occasionally their emotions die too. We think that maybe Lisa is incapable of finding 'true love' since she is immortal. The love she has for you isn't even one tenth of how you feel about her. For her to gain the kind of love you have for her would take a lifetime, she has to be able to master the art of immortality herself before sharing it with someone.

Since we now know that there is possibly a cure for vampirism, if Lisa is one day human again only then will she be absolutely fully in love with you. But until that day, my family and I would ask if you could possibly give Lisa a bit of time to learn, to grow. She's only fourteen Seth, she is one of the most mature fourteen year olds I have ever met, but also one of the most troubled. She has little control over feelings she has as most just come as impulse, a natural reaction so to speak.

You must know that she does care for you greatly, she just doesn't know yet." Seth stood in shock at Carlisle's theory on Lisa and his relationship. Seth knew Lisa loves him, but does that mean he's not the only one she loves? After mulling over his options, Seth nodded.

"I completely understand, good timing too my mom's going to Arizona for a week, to visit friends. I guess I'll just go with her," Seth thought aloud, looking up and seeing the sympathetic smile from Carlisle.

Seth thanked the vampire and turned to leave, he took off running before shifting into his wolf form, he didn't care about his shorts. He was so angry, angry about his relationship with Lisa, angry that this had happened to her, angry that he couldn't be with her.

Lisa's POV

After returning home from hunting with Alice it was almost time to leave for school. I can't believe it's only Tuesday… I made my way and put on my usual ironic t-shirt on top of a blue sleeved top, with my black skinnies and my vans. I grabbed my school bag. I was getting good at doing my homework, and ran down the stairs. Edward had left to go and pick up his 'Lady-Friend' so I had to ride with Rosalie, which to be honest, kinda sucked.

When we got to school Rosalie parked in a space next to Edwards Volvo. Edward and Bella were standing beside the car, talking before they had to go to class. I got out of Rosalie's car, slammed the door and glared at Edward.

"Here we go again," I heard him mutter to Bella, he then turned to face me properly.

"Thanks for the ride," I said sarcastically to him, he knew how much I hated going to school with Rosalie. I hated all the attention her car gets.

"Well next time you can walk," Rosalie muttered and walked into the building with Emmet.

"Gladly," I grumbled once she was out of hearing-range. Both Edward and Bella smiled at each other as if they had some sort of inside joke. I stared at them in total disbelief. "Seriously?" I asked.

"Sorry, tomorrow you can come with me," Edward declared seriously.

"Yeah," I stated and walked into the building. I opened my locker and fished in it for the books I needed for my classes.

"Hey," I heard a familiar voice say from behind me. I turned around and smiled at John, to see him smiling at me also.

"Hey stranger," I greeted him, and began to walk with him to History. "How are you after last night?" I asked him casually.

"Well there was this one moment, with an amazing girl backstage. I think she called herself my 'groupie'?" he smirked as I nudged him playfully in the ribs. I nudged him as light as I believe possible, but he didn't even budge so I'm guessing it was light enough.

We walked into the classroom and sat down in our usual seats, only this time Mickey sat in front of me, Toby sat my left and John was where he always was on my right. Both Mickey and Toby turned in their seats and gave us questioning looks.

"Say Toby, where do you think John was last night after himself and Lisa went backstage together?" asked Mickey in a mocking tone. Oh great

"Now I don't know, Mickey. But a certain stage manager told me how he stumbled upon a couple making out in one of the far wings," Toby went on formally. Mickey gasped in fake shock.

"What! Scandalous, don't you think John? Lisa, what do you think of the topic?" asked Mickey innocently.

"I think you both better shut it, unless you want John here to blow up," I told them flatly, indicating to John who was the deepest shade of red I had ever seen. I know that if I was human, I would look the same. We were saved by the teacher coming into the classroom and the rest of the class was a blur.

Eventually lunch came. I walked into the cafeteria with John. I saw Edward sitting with Bella and some other people in their year. What's the harm of sitting with John? When John had got his lunch, I just said that I wasn't hungry. We sat down at a table with Toby and Mickey, then were soon joined by others in our year.

The break from class was just as it always is, boring. That was until a familiar scent washed over me. It was Seth. Why was Seth here? I turned in my chair and met the Cullen's cautious gazes. I saw Edward nod at Emmet who nodded to Jasper who indicated with a slight movement of his head to go out and see my boyfriend.

"I'll be right back, okay?" I told John. He had his mouth full of food so just nodded, but I could feel his eyes following me out of the cafeteria. I opened the door and my eyes found Seth, leaning against a tree that was planted between the side-walk and the parking lot, at the other end of the campus. I made my way over to him at a fast human speed. He had his usual denim short on, and as per usual, no shirt. His tanned skin seemed to glisten in limited light. He had his hands in his pockets and his head was bowed down.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I exclaimed, pulling him into a hug even though I knew John, Toby and Mickey were probably watching as there was a clear view from where I was standing with Seth from the cafeteria. But I didn't care about the series of questions I was going to receive when I got back to the table. Seth returned my hug longingly, refusing to let go until he was satisfied, as if he was going to let go of something of great importance to him.

"Where were you last night?" he asked lowly, through gritted teeth after pulling back from our hug.

"I was hunting with Alice…and you were coming over weren't you," I trailed off. How the hell did I forget that Seth was coming over? He still hadn't looked me in the eye.

"I was talking with Carlisle," he told me lightly, as if it was unimportant.

"Carlisle Cullen? Why?" I asked confused. Why would Seth want to talk to Carlisle?

"He has a theory about the imprint, he told me that you don't feel the same way about me as I you. Saying that the imprint from your side isn't as strong because of the 'lack of love' in your childhood," Seth told me with a sigh. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I knew about Carlisle's theory but not the weak imprint bit!

"He said that?" I chocked out. Seth nodded only now meeting my desperate gaze. When my eyes met his, I saw how much pain he was in. It hurt me seeing him like that. I leaned closer to him and cupped his face in my hands.

"Seth, you are the most important thing to me in the world. Without you I wouldn't have lasted this long," I told him sincerely, looking at him directly in the eyes. I reached up and gave him a small, but sweet and loving kiss. I then hugged him for all it's worth and he hugged me back. I pulled back and held him at arm's length.

"I love you Seth Clearwater, don't you ever forget that," I told him in a firm and loving tone, putting extra emphasis on the word 'ever'. He caressed my check and sighed with content.

"I love you Lisa Bennet, always remember that I will be here for you, that you'll never be alone," he told me in a familiar tone to my own. It really was true. I was in love with Seth Clearwater and nothing in the world will ever change that.

Ugh I know cheesy chapter ending but anyways, R&R

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